Sarah's Secret (3 page)

Sarah mulled over the invitation as she walked to work, very much aware that if she went to the wedding she would be the only one of her group without a partner. Though even if they’d still been on that kind of footing Brian wouldn’t have served the purpose. Unless they’d undergone a sea change lately, her crowd were a flippant, wise-cracking bunch. Sober Brian, anything but, just wouldn’t have fitted in. But she had a new dress, she reminded herself. And the wedding was mid-week, so no problem with Davy. She was due some time off. All she needed were some shoes and a place to stay overnight. A wedding present was an essential expense whether she went or not. She decided to book a room right away at the hotel Nick had recommended. It could always be cancelled if she changed her mind.

After an even busier day than usual Sarah was glad to escape at last, and, hoisting her bulging briefcase, set off through the crowds thronging the pavements in the afternoon sunshine. Sarah rarely took the car into work in summer, relying on her walk to and from the town centre for her daily quota of exercise. She was hurrying for home, her thoughts on tea in the garden, when a car stopped a little way ahead and a familiar male figure leaned out, formal in a dark suit.

‘Hello, there. Can I give you a lift?’ Jake Hogan asked, smiling.

Oh, yes, please, thought Sarah, and returned the smile warmly as he reached over to open the passenger door for her. ‘How nice of you. Though I shouldn’t, really.’

‘You don’t accept lifts from strange men?’

‘Never!’ Her eyes danced. ‘Though I really meant that the walk is my daily gesture at keeping fit.’

He cast a comprehensive glance at her as they left the busiest part of town behind. ‘It won’t affect you much to skip it for once. You were hurrying,’ he added. ‘Do you need to get home urgently?’

‘Only for tea in the garden.’

‘Pleasant prospect,’ he sighed. ‘I’m on my way to a meeting.’

‘In this neighbourhood?’ she said, surprised.

‘No, not really.’ When he pulled up in Campden Road he switched off the ignition and turned to give her the smile she’d been thinking of rather a lot since the previous Saturday. ‘Actually, my meeting’s in town. But I spotted you hurrying down the street, so I did a quick U-turn to drive you home.’

Sarah felt a rush of secret pleasure. ‘I might not have been going home,’ she pointed out.

‘In which case I would have driven you wherever you wanted to go.’ His eyes crinkled. ‘Or you could have refused politely and waved me on before I got nicked for kerb-crawling.’

Sarah laughed. ‘I was very grateful for the ride. And now I’ll let you get to your meeting,’ she added, undoing the seatbelt.

‘Don’t go for a moment, Sarah,’ he said quickly, and fixed her with the familiar straight blue look. ‘I’m glad we met again, because this is the type of question I couldn’t ask over the phone. You’re not obliged to answer, of course, but there’s something I’d like to know.’

Sarah eyed him warily. ‘What is it?’

‘It’s personal,’ he warned.

‘Go on.’

‘Does your little girl’s father share your life?’

She shook her head. ‘No. He never has.’

His eyes lit with gratifying relief. ‘In that case, Sarah Tracy, will you have dinner with me?’

Oh, yes, please, she thought, for the second time in minutes, then gave him an equally straight look. ‘If you’ll answer a personal question yourself.’

‘As many as you like.’

‘Just one. Are you married?’

He shook his head, laughing. ‘No, Sarah, I’m not. So say yes.’

‘Yes, then,’ she said, and smiled. ‘When did you have in mind?’

‘Tonight?’

Sarah stared at him, surprised, and for a moment considered saying she had other plans, just to sound less eager. But only for a split second. ‘Yes. Tonight would be fine.’

‘Good. I’ll call for you at eight.’

Sarah waved as he drove off, then went indoors to find her grandmother coming downstairs, frowning.

‘I saw you getting out of a strange car, Sarah. Who brought you home?’

‘Jake Hogan.’ Sarah looked her grandmother in the eye. ‘He asked me out to dinner tonight.’

Margaret’s face hardened. ‘Are you going? You hardly know the man.’

‘I’m going out for a meal, Grandma, not a dirty weekend.’

‘Don’t be coarse!’ Margaret turned to go back upstairs, but Sarah called after her.

‘By the way, I had an invitation to Nick Morrell’s wedding this morning.’

‘Really? If it’s when I’m away in Italy I won’t be able to look after Davy for you,’ was the instant response.

‘Actually it’s mid-week, when she’s in school,’ said Sarah, swallowing the angry retort she longed to make. ‘I must go. I’ve got homework to do before I’m free to enjoy myself,’ she added deliberately, and gained the hollow victory of knowing her arrow had found its target, by the look on Margaret Parker’s face.

But Sarah refused to let the incident affect her buoyant mood as she hurried off to deal with the contents of her briefcase. She could sit in the garden tomorrow. Tonight she was dining out with Jake Hogan.

Work done in record time, Sarah went off to shower in the small bathroom lined with Jake Hogan’s Pentiles. After a prolonged session with a hotbrush and all the cosmetic aids at her disposal, she dressed, and, as a gesture of conciliation, went up to her grandmother’s sitting room to say she was about to leave. ‘Will I do?’

Margaret eyed the linen trousers and amber sleeveless top with surprise. ‘You wear that to work.’

‘I’m keeping the new dress for Nick’s wedding.’

‘So you’re definitely going, then?’

‘Of course I am. You know I’m fond of Nick. I booked a room this morning. Anyway, I haven’t a clue where I’m being taken tonight so I thought this rig would do for most places.’ She looked her grandmother in the eye. ‘And in case you’re worried about the expanse of bare flesh I shall wear my jacket all evening even if I fry.’

Although Margaret Parker had been too offended by Sarah’s parting shot to wish her a good time, from the moment Sarah opened the door to Jake Hogan she knew the evening would be a success. His fawn linen jacket was creased just enough to look good, and his smile
filled her with an anticipation she had never felt before sharing a meal with Brian.

‘You look wonderful, Sarah,’ Jake informed her.

So did he, but she kept that to herself in case he took it as a come-on. ‘Thank you.’

‘In this heat I thought you might like a meal in a pub garden tonight,’ he said, handing her into his car. ‘But if not we could eat at that place near the Pump Rooms in town.’

‘I’ve been there just recently,’ she said quickly. For the farewell meal with Brian. ‘Eating al fresco sounds wonderful.’

And it was. Jake drove her deep into the Gloucestershire countryside to the Trout Inn, a pretty, unpretentious pub with a stream actually flowing through the garden.

‘This is so lovely,’ said Sarah, looking round her with pleasure as he led her to the table he’d reserved. ‘You knew how I’d choose, then.’

He gave her an outrageously smug smile. ‘I booked at the other restaurant, too. I’m a belt and braces kind of guy.’

She laughed. ‘What happens when you don’t turn up there?’

‘I told them to free the table if we hadn’t made it by eight-thirty.’ He shrugged. ‘They were happy. I’m a good customer.’

‘You dine there a lot?’ she asked, picturing a succession of glamorous companions.

‘Lunch mainly, with clients.’

Sarah sat back in her chair while Jake went off to get drinks, putting on mental brakes. She’d only just met the man. Who Jake Hogan entertained to lunch, dinner or breakfast—especially breakfast—was none of her busi
ness. Nevertheless, she liked the idea of business clients better than other women. She grinned at her own absurdity, the smile still in her eyes when Jake came back with drinks and a menu.

‘You look happy. I’m glad you like it here.’

‘It’s the kind of place Davy would love, too,’ she said, deliberately bringing her child into the conversation.

Jake gave her a questioning look over his glass of beer. ‘Did you have to pay someone to stay with her this evening?’

Well done, thought Sarah. Some men changed the subject the moment she mentioned Davy. ‘No. She’s a weekly boarder at Roedale.’

‘Your old school?’

She shook her head. ‘At her age I went to the school in the village where I was born. How about you?’

‘Liam and I are also products of state education.’ He smiled wryly. ‘But with differing results. Liam’s were uniformly spectacular, mine less so. I joined the family business straight after fairly respectable A-levels. But Liam can boast an Oxford degree, plus an MBA from that high-powered place in France.’

‘Impressive,’ said Sarah, not sure she liked the sound of Liam Hogan and his credentials.

‘Would you mind if I took my jacket off?’ Jake asked.

‘Not in the least. I’m too warm in mine, too,’ she said, ignoring her promise to Margaret.

Jake helped her out of her jacket, eyeing her bare brown shoulders with appreciation. ‘You’ve obviously been on holiday recently.’

She shook her head, smiling. ‘Part of it is natural skin tone, the rest fresh air. We’ve had a heatwave, and I finish work at three. A short session in the garden after work every day is a lot cheaper than a foreign holiday.’

‘You obviously never burn.’

‘I keep under an umbrella and use sunscreen. After my day in the office I yearn for fresh air.’ She leaned back in her chair, relaxed. ‘Where do you get
your
tan? Golf?’

‘No, genetics. My mother’s Italian. We get
our
skin tone from her.’

‘Unusual with fair hair.’ And very, very appealing to Sarah.

Jake waved a menu at her. ‘What do you fancy? Obviously the trout’s good.’

‘I’ll pass on that,’ she said hastily. ‘My father used to fish for trout when I was young. With far too much success for my liking.’

He laughed. ‘Does he still do it?’

‘No.’ She hesitated. ‘Both my parents are dead.’

‘I’m sorry.’ Jake reached across to touch her hand fleetingly. ‘That must be doubly tough on you with a little girl to look after.’

Not a man to shirk sensitive issues, approved Sarah. ‘It was at first. Davy was so inconsolable I had to bottle up my own grief to try and help her through it. But don’t let’s talk of sad things,’ she said briskly. ‘I don’t want to spoil your evening.’

‘There’s no way you could do that,’ he assured her, and tapped the menu. ‘So what would you like to start?’

Sarah cast an eye down the list. ‘These all sound so tempting. I adore this kind of thing, but if I order one I never get through a main course.’

‘Then don’t have a main course. I vote we choose two or three starters each, then share the lot.’

‘Can we do that?’ she said, smiling in delight.

‘You can do anything you like,’ he assured her softly, with no smile at all.

P
REPARED
from the first to enjoy the evening, Sarah found her pleasure increased by the minute as they worked their way through baby asparagus wrapped in parma ham, crab cakes, a
millefeuille
of goat’s cheese with roasted red peppers, spicy chorizo sausage, fettucine with smoked salmon, and a platter of home-baked bread. And she was well aware that not all her enjoyment came from the food. The intimate process of dipping into each other’s plates was an ice-breaker which rapidly created a rapport between them new to Sarah since her student days.

‘Have some bread to fill up the corners,’ said Jake, buttering a slice for her.

‘This was a brilliant idea,’ she assured him indistinctly. ‘Are you sure you won’t have more corners to fill? This is a pretty light meal by average male standards.’

‘I object to the label of average male,’ he retorted, grinning. ‘Anyway, I ate a large lunch. How about you?’

‘I eat a sandwich at my desk every day.’ She shrugged. ‘As I said, I finish work at three, so I never take a lunch break.’

He frowned as he speared a slice of chorizo. ‘Don’t you get tired without a proper break?’

‘I’ve been doing it for years. I’m used to it.’

‘So, besides work, what else do you do?’

‘Cinema, theatre, and so on. Usually with women-
friends.’ She hesitated. ‘And until recently I went out with a man on a more or less regular basis.’

‘What happened?’

‘He jilted me last Tuesday.’

‘Good God, why?’ demanded Jake blankly.

Sarah’s eyes danced. ‘He found someone else. Besides, he felt he wasn’t cut out to be a stepfather.’

Jake eyed her searchingly. ‘Was there any likelihood of that?’

‘Not the remotest chance! It wasn’t that kind of relationship. Besides, Davy didn’t like him. Though my grandmother did.’

‘Is your grandmother’s approval vital to you?’

‘Fortunately, no, because it’s hard to come by where I’m concerned. Her soft spot is reserved for Davy.’

He pushed the asparagus towards her. ‘You have that; I’m not keen on it.’

‘Really? I love it. I’ll swap for the chorizo.’ Sarah eyed the plates with respect. ‘These are all very generous for starters.’ She looked up in sudden suspicion. ‘Wait a minute. Did you—?’

‘I told them to be generous,’ he said, unrepentant. ‘At lunch today I was given allegedly king prawns the size of my thumbnail for a first course, so it seemed best to be on the safe side tonight.’

Sarah shook her head, laughing, and applied herself with relish to the asparagus.

‘Do you see much of your grandmother?’

‘We live with her.’ Sarah explained the arrangement in Campden Road.

His lips twitched. ‘Did you tell her how we met?’

Sarah laughed. ‘I could hardly avoid it. She was there when I arrived looking like a drowned rat.’

His eyes locked on hers. ‘I’m sorry I knocked you
over. But on the plus side, if I hadn’t I wouldn’t have met you. And, as must be perfectly obvious to you, Sarah Tracy, I’m very glad I have.’

‘So am I.’

Their eyes held for a couple of heartbeats, then Jake said abruptly, ‘How about some pudding? They do a great one here with pecans and honey ice-cream. But you must eat a whole one yourself, or you don’t get coffee.’

‘I don’t want coffee, but I will eat the pudding,’ she assured him, because ordering it and waiting for it, and eating it, meant more time spent alone with Jake Hogan in the pretty garden which was empty now, as the evening grew cool. And she had other plans for coffee.

‘We could go inside if you’re cold,’ he offered, as their plates were cleared away.

‘I’d much rather stay here.’

‘Good. So would I.’ He gave the order for their puddings, then moved his chair closer. ‘Sarah, maybe it’s too soon to ask this, but when you know me better—as I fully intend you shall—you’ll find I tend to go straight for what I want.’

Sarah raised an eyebrow. ‘That sounds ominous.’

He smiled, his teeth showing white in the dusk. ‘Not really. I just want to repeat this kind of evening as soon as possible. Are you by any miracle free this Saturday?’

She shook her head regretfully. ‘I’m afraid not.’

Jake leaned closer, his eyes probing. ‘You mean you really are tied up, or am I rushing things, taking too much for granted?’

‘No,’ she said candidly. ‘You’re not. But this is where problems always arise with my social life. I’m never free at weekends because of Davy.’

‘Where was she last Saturday?’

‘Enjoying her very first sleepover with a school-friend.’

Jake eyed her thoughtfully. ‘But if you live with your grandmother wouldn’t she look after Davy for one night?’

‘I never leave Davy on the only two nights she spends at home.’ Sarah touched her hand to his to emphasise her regret. ‘Otherwise, Jake, I’d be only too happy.’

His hand captured hers and held it. ‘That’s some comfort. But I’m disappointed. Now I shan’t know what to do with myself on Saturday.’

‘What do you normally do?’ she asked, looking at their clasped hands.

‘Like you, I also had someone in my life until recently.’

‘Just the one?’

‘Absolutely. Though there were others in the past before her.’ He gave her one of his straight blue looks. ‘But just for the record, Sarah, I’m strictly a one woman at a time type.’

She returned the look steadily. ‘So what happened with your lady?’

‘Like your friend, she preferred someone else—ah, here comes pudding.’ Jake released her hand without hurry, but remained close as they ate, chuckling at Sarah’s unashamed sounds of appreciation.

‘That was wonderful,’ she sighed, scraping up the last smear of sauce. ‘All of it. In fact I enjoyed this meal more than any I’ve had in the most expensive hotel in town.’

And not just because of the food.

‘So have I.’ He leaned closer. ‘Did the idiot who jilted you take you to the Chesterton a lot, then?’

‘No,’ she said, and gave him a demure little smile. ‘Brian liked the one near the Pump Rooms.’

‘Ah! So that’s why you turned it down tonight.’

‘Partly. Though when you mentioned eating in a garden it was no contest.’

At last, with a reluctance Sarah shared, Jake got up. ‘It’s getting cool. Would you like to go inside?’

‘Not really. It looks very hot and crowded in there.’ She turned to look up at him as he helped her on with her jacket. ‘Would you like some coffee at my place instead?’

His smile was answer enough. ‘Just give me a minute to settle the bill.’

Sarah’s mind worked at top speed while she chatted on the short journey home with Jake. The leap of heat in his eyes at her suggestion warned her to make it clear, without offending him, that coffee meant just coffee. It was not a habit of hers to invite anyone back to share it. Sarah had always met Brian in town, and rarely asked him back to Campden Road to avoid encounters with the all too obviously approving Margaret. Oliver Bryce, the man she’d known before that, had always been in a hurry to get home to the babysitter after their evenings out, so the coffee situation had never arisen with him, either. Not counting visits from college friends, Jake Hogan, if he only knew it, was being granted a rare privilege.

When they arrived Sarah led the way to the sitting room, for the first time that evening ill at ease. ‘Do sit down. I shan’t be long—’

‘Sarah, don’t bother with coffee.’ Jake caught her by the hand, his eyes very serious. ‘Which doesn’t mean I’m about to leap on you. I meant I’d sooner have a glass of water.’

She flushed, feeling ridiculous. ‘Right. Water it is.’

When she got back with it Jake turned away from the photograph, looked at her closely for a moment, then turned back to study Davy again. ‘Exactly the same tortoiseshell eyes and shiny brown hair. Something in the expression, too. The resemblance is remarkable,’ he added.

‘Would you like to take off your jacket?’ she asked, to attract his attention away from Davina.

Jake put his glass on the table near the lilies he’d sent her, and removed his jacket, his eyes teasing as he grinned at Sarah. ‘Relax,’ he ordered. ‘I never ravish a lady on a first date, I swear.’

Sarah laughed awkwardly, feeling her colour rise. ‘I’m glad to hear it. Won’t you sit down?’

‘Yes,’ he said promptly. ‘If you will, too.’ He took her hand and drew her down beside him on her sofa. ‘Now, tell me why you’re on edge, Sarah. Bad experiences in this situation before?’

‘No, not at all.’ She braced herself. ‘I’ve never asked anyone back here before.’

He gave her an incredulous look. ‘Never? How long have you lived here?’

‘Nearly four years.’

‘Is this because your grandmother shares the house?’

‘Not really. She converted the house into separate flats for the express purpose of privacy for both of us.’

Jake took her hand. ‘I’m hoping against hope I know the answer, Sarah, but why me?’

Sarah shrugged. ‘I was enjoying the evening, and it’s not very late, so it just seemed the natural thing to do.’

His grasp tightened. ‘Actually, you pre-empted me. I was just about to suggest coffee at my place. Would you have come?’

She smiled a little. ‘You didn’t ask so we’ll never know.’

‘I’ll ask next time,’ he warned.

‘Is there going to be a next time?’

‘Damn right there is,’ he said, and kissed her. Then stared in astonishment as she immediately scrambled out of reach, her face flaming at the blank surprise on his face as he promptly removed himself to the other end of the sofa.

‘I meant what I said,’ Jake assured her. ‘No ravishing on the first date, Sarah. Just a kiss, I swear.’ He drew in a deep, unsteady breath. ‘Though from my point of view it was a rash move to share our meal in that particular way.’

Afraid to trust her voice for a moment, Sarah raised a questioning eyebrow, and Jake smiled wryly.

‘I meant, Miss Tracy, that for me the entire meal was a subtle form of foreplay. Couldn’t you tell?’

‘No. I thought we were just getting on well together.’ She hesitated. ‘So if you had asked me back to your place, and I’d agreed, you would have taken it for granted I was saying yes to a whole lot more than coffee?’

‘No, Sarah, absolutely not.’ Jake stood up, holding out a hand to help her to her feet. ‘Like you, I simply wanted to prolong our time together.’

She looked up into his eyes. And believed him.

‘So when can I see you again?’ he went on, as though the awkward little incident had never happened. ‘You said Saturday’s out, but how about Sunday evening?’

Sarah felt an overwhelming rush of relief. She had been so sure Jake would give up on her after her embarrassing little rejection. She couldn’t tell him that if she’d followed her instincts she would have let him kiss
her as much as he wanted. Because with him she wanted it too. But that way danger lay. As she knew better than most, instincts had to be reined in, not followed blindly. Yet even on such short acquaintance she was sure that Jake would never force her to anything. And she wanted to see him again. She always felt a bit down after taking Davy back to school. Time spent with Jake Hogan would be the perfect antidote to her usual Sunday evening blues.

‘Yes. I’d like that,’ she said at last.

‘That took a long time,’ he said dryly. ‘What shall we do?’

She smiled at him. ‘If it’s fine I’d like a drive to somewhere pleasant with a view, then a long, leisurely walk.’

‘That’s a first,’ said Jake, laughing. ‘No lady in my past ever asked to go hiking before.’

‘No hiking—just a Sunday evening stroll, please!’

‘Whatever you want. What time do you get back from Davy’s school?’

‘About six.’

‘I’ll be here soon after, then.’ He looked down at her for a moment, then bent and kissed her forehead. ‘Goodnight, Sarah Tracy.’

‘Goodnight, Jake Hogan.’ She stepped back, her eyes suddenly serious. ‘Thank you for this evening. I enjoyed it very much.’

‘So did I.’ Jake followed her to the front door. ‘Next time you can introduce me to your grandmother,’ he said with a grin, and crossed the pavement to his car.

Sarah watched him get in, raised her hand in response to his wave as he drove off, then went back in the house and closed the door, her eyes wistful. The man was a charmer. Unlike comfortable, friendly Oliver, or staid, unimpassioned Brian, it would be all too easy to fall in love with Jake Hogan.