Seeking Safety (19 page)

I am shivering with anticipation, "Oh Barry,
I don't know how to love you."

Barry smiles gently and says, "I'll show
you." Rising from the swing, he takes my hand, pulls me up behind
him, and leads me into the house and up the stairs to the master
suite. He closes and locks the door behind us, then pulls me back
into his arms and kisses me deeply.

My heart is pounding furiously and my head is
spinning so fast I think I may faint from the feelings. Then
reality slowly seeps into my consciousness. Oh God, what am I
doing? I don't know how to please this man! He has made love to
movie stars and I don't even know where to begin. I begin shaking
with fear.

He brushes the hair back from my face and
smiles tenderly, then says, "Please Melanie, don't be afraid of me,
I would never hurt you. I only want to love you and give you
pleasure."

"I ... I'm not afraid of you Barry. I am a
...afraid I won't be able to please you. It scares me to death to
think you might not like making love with me."

Barry whispers, "Don't you know that just
your being here with me pleases me. Just relax and leave everything
else up to me. Let the feelings happen."

He smiles and slowly removes my clothes
kissing each area of my body as he uncovers it. This is a totally
new experience for me. Darren always demanded I be naked and ready
for him when he got to the cabin. He rarely was gentle. Oh, the
feelings he is creating in me ... my whole body is quivering with
.... I'm not sure what but I like the feeling.

Then he gently lowers me to the bed. He
quickly removes his own clothes before lying down beside me.

"You are beautiful, Melanie, so beautiful you
take my breath away," and he lowers his mouth to mine drinking
deeply of my sweetness as he tenderly strokes my body.

"Touch me Melanie, don't be afraid to touch
me," he whispers.

I hesitantly place my hands on his muscular
chest carefully watching his deep blue eyes. He smiles, "Yes,
that's it. I love it when you touch me." I slowly run my fingers
over his muscular chest tracing every rib, every muscle. I love the
feel of his rock hard muscles and baby soft skin beneath my
fingers. I am amazed at the look of pleasure on his face. It is
very empowering. When I accidentally brush my fingernails across
his nipples, he inhales sharply. My eyes widen in fear and I jerk
my hands away.

"No! Melanie, don't stop. I like what you
were doing. It feels wonderful. Don't be afraid," he pleads.
Reaching down he unfastens the front closure of my bra freeing my
luscious breasts. Gently, he brushes his palm across my nipple and
I gasp. "See, it feels good to me too," he says.

Gazing at my rosy nipples, he can't resist
the temptation of their sweetness. He slowly lowers his head to my
breast gently suckling the puckered nipple on first one breast,
then the other.

I am drowning in sensations I have never felt
before. I love touching Barry. His skin is so soft. I stroke his
chest tracing every rib then I dig my fingernails into the taunt
muscles of his buttocks and rake them gently across the bulging
muscles of his back.

He is touching me in ways I never dreamed of
and I have the warmest sensation spreading between my legs. My skin
tingles everywhere he touches. When he suckles my breast, I feels
streak of electrical energy shooting through my body coiling like a
spring in my abdomen. I clasp his head tightly to my breast and
moan in pleasure.

When his hand gently caresses my stomach and
then lower I gasp again. Parting the curls at the apex of my
thighs, he slides his fingers into the folds of my sex gently
parting them. I adjust my legs to give him better access. He is
still suckling my breasts and when he touches one certain spot
between my legs, I jerk uncontrollably.

"Easy Sweetheart, that's it, just relax and
let the feelings happen." He gently massages that spot while he
suckles my breasts. I am moving restlessly beneath his hand. I
don't know what's happening. I have never felt like this
before.

He can feel her nearing her peak so he rises
up on one elbow gazing tenderly into her eyes and whispers,
"Melanie, I want to watch as you come for me."

I am bewildered by what he is saying to me
and I look at him questioningly. My heart is pounding and my breath
is coming in short shallow gasps. He brushes his lips against mine,
smiles down at me, "Just relax and let the feelings happen." His
fingers move down deeper into my folds. He finds her wet and ready
for him and he gently pushes two fingers inside her.

"Oh! Barry ...." and I begin to move with the
rhythm of his fingers. What is he doing? I have never felt such
glorious feelings before. I feel this coiling sensation building
deep in my abdomen and all of a sudden I feels as if I explode with
the intensity of my release crying out in ecstasy. "Barry!"

I slowly float back to earth and see Barry
smiling tenderly down at me. "Oh, Barry, I've never before
experienced anything like that!" I am full of wonder.

He grins, "Oh my precious Melanie, that's
only the beginning." He lowers his head and kisses me deeply
beginning the process again. His heart is soaring with joy to know
that he is the first man to bring her to the peak of ecstasy.

He again gently strokes my body as he slowly
brings me back to the edge of ecstasy. He slides down my body first
suckling one breast and then the other. He then kisses my stomach,
dipping his tongue into my navel over and over causing shivers down
my spine. When he gently parts my thighs and kisses my curls I
tense. What is he doing? Oh my God, he's going to kiss me
there!

"Wait, stop, Barry!"

"Hush, I have to taste you. Relax and enjoy."
He moves between my legs and licks the sensitive flesh of my folds
dipping his tongue into my warm feminine juices and feasting on my
very essence.

"Oh my God! It ...it's wonderful! Oh...Oh...
Barry!" Then he inserts two fingers in my warmth as his mouth
suckles that sensitive spot again bringing me to another shattering
climax almost immediately.

He quickly moves back up my body, gently
rocking against me to prolong my pleasure. He is once again smiling
tenderly when I slowly float back to earth.

Bewildered, "Oh Barry, I never knew!" Tears
are streaming down my face. He moves to the side of the bed and
quickly sheathes himself. Then moving back between my legs, he
kisses away my tears then lowers his mouth to mine where I can
taste my own essence.

"I love you Melanie," He slowly pushes his
hot bulging shaft into my warmth.

I am amazed at the things Barry has shown me.
I have experienced things and felt sensations that I never even
knew existed. Now as he joins his body to mine, I want so much to
please him. I wrap my legs around his waist and pull him close like
Darren always wanted thinking it is his turn now.

Much to my surprise, Barry lowers his mouth
to mine and kisses me deeply again. Then he moves to my breasts
suckling one and then the other as he slowly moves in and out of my
body. I begin to feel the delicious tension building deep in my
abdomen again.

As I move in rhythm with him, he adjusts his
position just a fraction and I feel a new sharper sensation and the
tension builds stronger and stronger. As he speeds our rhythm, he
looks deeply, lovingly into my eyes. As he senses me nearing the
edge, he whispers, "Come with me Melanie, let's soar out into the
universe together," as we cross that peak into the world that only
lovers share.

I am drowning in sensation. I feel my body
getting ready to explode again in those delicious sensations I have
only felt with Barry. As Barry pushes into my body and then grinds
his hips against mine I cry out as my world explodes around me and
I feel as if I am flying out into the universe with Barry. He
smothers my cries of ecstasy with a deep kiss. As we slowly drift
back to earth, Barry moves to my side and pulls me close as we
drift into a deep sleep.

Barry rouses me several times during the
night showing me in more ways how much he cares for me. Just before
dawn as we are drifting down from another trip to the world lovers
share, I say, "I better go back to my room now. I don't want Eric
to worry if he wakes up and I'm not in bed with him."

Grumbling Barry says, "I think it's time for
Eric to have his own room. I'll let him pick it out today and he
can decorate it however he wants."

I smile at him, "Don't be a grouch. He's just
a little boy. Besides, I'm not sure I am ready for my parents to
know we're sleeping together. I'll see you in a little while." I
brush my lips against his and slip out of bed donning my clothes
and return to the room I am sharing with Eric.

******

After Melanie leaves the master suite, Barry
thinks back over the hours they just shared. Making love to Melanie
was even more explosive and fulfilling than he had anticipated. Now
that he has shared the most intimate of experiences with her, he
knows he has found his life mate. He just has to find a way to
convince her. During all of the long hours of the night she never
shared her innermost feelings with him and that has him worried. He
doesn't think she believes him when he tells her how beautiful she
is or that he loves her.

******

When I enter the room I share with Eric I
glance at the bed to make sure he is still asleep. Then I head for
the shower. Standing under the steaming spray of the shower I let
my mind drift back over the hours I shared with Barry. I am tired
from lack of sleep but I feel absolutely wonderful. I am so amazed
at the things he showed me, the sensations he created in my body. I
had no idea a woman could feel so wonderful being intimate with a
man. I realize those types of feelings could quickly become
addictive. My body is already clamoring for his touch, his
kiss.

******

Eric heard his Mom come into the bedroom. He
wonders where she has been all night. She looked happy when she
came in the room. Maybe she has been with Barry ... that would
really make him happy. He wants his Mom and Barry to get married
like Dani's parents so he will never have to leave the ranch. Maybe
they can even have a baby together. It would be neat to have a baby
brother or sister. Dani's Mom, Jana, is expecting twins any day
now.

******

When I finish my shower, I am relaxed and
happy. I am also hungry so I head to the kitchen to find some
breakfast. I am nibbling on a cinnamon roll and sipping a hot cup
of coffee headed back to my bedroom. As I pass the study I decide
to step inside and see if I can find those home school websites on
the internet that Barry was telling me about. As I sink down in the
desk chair a stack of thick books on the desk catches my eye and I
glance at the title, "Script for ..." That was as far as I got.
Script! I open the book and quickly realize it is a script for a
movie. A wave of dread slides through my body. I count the books
... six of them. Then glancing at the floor I see another one.

When I pick it up, I immediately see where
Barry has been making notes in the margins. Oh no! He lied to me!
He is already planning to make another movie and tears slowly slide
from my eyes as I begin to read.

This movie is a romantic comedy and the part
is perfect for Barry. He will be magnificent as the leading man. I
wonder who the female star will be. Oh God! I can't bear to think
of Barry kissing some other woman even if it is just for a movie.
My heart is shattering and tears silently slide down my face.

Whistling as he heads down the stairs after
his shower, Barry is happier than he ever remembers being. As he
passes the door to the study he glimpses someone at the desk from
the corner of his eye. He stops and peers inside seeing Melanie
sitting in the desk chair, her back to the door, reading. A slow
smile slides across his face. Heading inside he calls,
"Melanie?"

I jump startled when Barry calls my name. I
look up from the paper in my lap and don't even try to hide the
tears streaming down my face

Barry sees tears streaming down her face and
a wave of trepidation flows over him. "What's wrong Melanie?" His
heart is pounding with dread.

I point to the stack of scripts on the desk,
"What's all this Barry? I thought you weren't going to make another
movie?"

"I'm not, I ..."

"Don't lie to me, Barry! It's obvious you
were making notes on this one. When are you leaving for Mexico?" I
angrily brush the tears off my face. I slam the script down on the
desk top. My heart is pounding with betrayal. He lied to me!

Barry steps into the room and closes the
door. "Melanie, please listen to me. After you left the ranch and
went to Seattle with your parents I was so lonely, so sad, I was
considering taking a part in the movie in Mexico. That was before I
got the call from Scoot telling me you were in danger. I never even
thought about those scripts again. I had even forgotten they were
in here. Even if I had already been on location in Mexico, nothing
could have kept me from coming after you. Please believe me. I love
you Melanie."

I shake my head in disbelief, "I believe you
think you love me right now. I also believe that movies are in your
blood and it's only a matter of time until you go back to
Hollywood. I can't live like that Barry. I'm sorry."

I rise out of the chair and flee back to my
bedroom leaving Barry standing in front of the desk his world
crumbling around him. The pain slicing through Barry's body
literally knocks him to his knees. He slowly crawls to the desk
chair and climbs up into the seat, his heart shattering and tears
sliding down his face.

******

I walk into the bedroom and see Eric still
asleep on the bed so I go into the bathroom and close the door
where I let my tears fall. Oh God! Why did I let myself fall in
love with him? How am I ever going to recover? I've got to get out
of here! I've got to leave today!