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Authors: K.A. Merikan

Tags: #Romance, #love, #internet, #Gay, #ptsd, #doctor, #international, #abuse, #angst, #biker

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Luca opened one
eye and smiled, clumsily touching the tip of Ghost’s nose with his
index finger. “What time is it?”

“Nine already.”
Ghost tilted his head to give that finger a kiss. He needed to have
a look at where the pinky had been to make sure everything was
healing well.

Luca gasped and
leaned forward to press his lips to Ghost’s forehead. “What have
you planned for today?”

“I’m all yours.
I was thinking we should go shopping for whatever you need. I want
you to feel at home with me.” Ghost ran his fingers along Luca’s
arm, and it felt so right. Sure, giving a relationship with a guy a
try was a long shot, but it wasn’t just anyone, it was the person
Ghost had fallen in love with. If he didn’t at least try, he was
sure he’d regret it for the rest of his life. When Luca’s gaze
trailed over him, those dark eyes were so full of emotion that all
doubt about his commitment evaporated from Ghost’s head.

“I don’t have
any money,” whispered Luca.

“I have some
savings. Don’t worry about it.” Ghost forced himself to sit up. He
still couldn’t get over Frederico giving him back money because of
Luca’s missing finger. It was yet another insult to Luca, the
damaged goods. At least Ghost could use the fucking $1050.75 to buy
Luca the things he needed now that he was left with just the
clothes on his back. Ghost had never been a violent man, but the
rattling change in that envelope made him want to claw the
bastard’s eyes out. How could anyone be this cruel?

“I’ll find a
job,” muttered Luca and massaged his eyes, sitting up as well. His
hair was ruffled, and his face was now noticeably darker from a
day’s worth of stubble on his cheeks. Luca had a beautiful mouth:
soft and smooth, with the thick upper lip inviting Ghost for
another kiss.

“Of course you
will. You’re great with computers, so I’m sure something will
quickly turn up. I want you to relax and heal first. It’s the
beginning of your new life.” Ghost slowly slid off the bed. He
needed a shower after the night spent getting all hot and bothered
next to Luca.

“How quickly
did it heal?” Luca brushed his fingers over the back of Ghost’s
shoulder where the bullet had gone in so many months ago. The touch
was enough to make Ghost lose his breath.

“It took a few
weeks. But I could walk around and deal with stuff after a few
days. Nomad kept me company. My parents wanted me to come home as
fast as possible, but I couldn’t leave Nomad behind.” Ghost thought
back to the horror of bullets flying around him. With a sack over
his head all he could do was listen to their swishing in the air.
Guns had fired over and over as he cowered on the ground with his
hands tied behind his back.

Luca’s warm
body pressed against his back, steady hands sliding around him for
a hug. They were so dark when compared to Ghost’s own milky
complexion. “I was so worried about you.”

Ghost petted
Luca’s hands resting on his chest. As much as he wanted to focus on
the topic at hand, his body stilled when Luca’s crotch pressed
against his ass. He hadn’t even flirted with the idea of Luca
wanting to fuck
him
. What if he did? Ghost took a deep
breath. “I had a fever after the surgery, but thinking of you
helped me push through.”

Luca tightened
the hug and pressed his lips to Ghost’s arm. “You’re here. That’s
what counts.”

“I couldn’t
sleep last night, worried you wouldn’t be there when I woke
up.”

Luca moved
behind him and eventually threw his arm over Ghost’s shoulders.
“Why would I leave?”

“I don’t know.
It’s just been so long that actually having you here in person is a
bit unreal.” Ghost cleared his throat, already sensing arousal
climbing up his stomach from the closeness. “I gotta go shower or
we’ll lose this day.”

“Can I go in
with you?”

Ghost turned
around, unsure what to say. His heartbeat sped up. “Y-yeah… I
suppose. Saving water and all that.” He laughed nervously. Were
things moving too fast? He didn’t even know anymore.

Luca smiled at
him and slowly pulled up his shirt, revealing the patchwork of
bruises over his firm chest and tight stomach.

Ghost glanced
to the door to make sure it was locked. The last thing he needed
was Don bursting in here while they were having a shower together.
“You’re… very handsome,” he muttered.

Luca chuckled
and stepped closer. He brushed his fingers over the hem of Ghost’s
pajama pants in a move so lazy it felt like a caress.

“So are
you.”

Ghost leaned in
to steal a kiss off Luca’s lips. He knew by now that being around
that sensuous mouth and not being able to taste it would have been
pure torment. As confusing as it was, giving in to the attraction
and riding the electric charge between their bodies made Ghost
freer than he ever was. It was like a drive down an empty road. He
didn’t know what was ahead, but he still wanted to rush on until he
reached the secret goal.

“I think it’s
my turn,” said Luca, gently wrinkling his nose as he pushed his
bottoms to the floor, uncovering tan legs and the parts Ghost was
most worried about. Luca was completely shaved in the groin area,
so nothing remained hidden from Ghost’s gaze. The cockhead was
covered by the smooth sleeve of foreskin and reached slightly below
the dusky sac.

Ghost tried not
to stare, but curiosity won over. Just seeing Luca naked like that
was making him confusingly aroused. “Guess you’ve seen mine many
times.” He tried to diffuse the tension with a joke, but it seemed
to only bring more sexual tension into the room. All those times
when they’d had sex online, Luca would watch Ghost jerk off, likely
doing the same. It was so fucking hot. Ghost pushed down his pants,
truly undressing in front of Luca for the first time.

Luca’s chest
rose and fell, but his lips crooked into a smile. “Yeah, but it’s
different seeing it in the flesh.”

“If I spend any
more time staring at your dick, you’re gonna see it
very
alive.” Ghost stroked Luca’s hair and made his way to the bathroom.
He hadn’t been in a sexual situation with anyone for over two
years. Knowing that Zara might be a mirage that he’d never even
meet, he had tried dating, but his heart wasn’t in it. His
girlfriends couldn’t compare to her, even if they were there for
him to touch and kiss.

The shower was
big enough for them both, but he had no idea what Luca’s intentions
were. Did he want to actually
do something
now? Would Ghost
be okay with it when it happened? He had no idea.

“You like it?”
asked Luca, and his low voice slid over Ghost’s nape in a teasing
manner.

“It’s…
interesting. I haven’t touched that many uncut dicks.” Ghost
swallowed and stepped into the shower stall. He needed the water to
be cold if this were to end with them just looking at one another.
No amount of medical training and practice could have prepared him
for this.

“I’ve only seen
cut dicks in porn, so I’m kinda curious how they feel,” muttered
Luca, closing the sliding door behind him. In the warm, cramped
space, his presence was tactile behind Ghost.

Ghost turned
around so fast it was almost a pirouette. “What’s your favorite
kind of porn?” He turned on the water, spraying them with ice cold
drops.

Luca gasped and
pressed his back against the tiles. He held up his bandaged hand
and laughed. Droplets of water cascaded down his chest, turning his
small nipples into hard pebbles. “I don’t have one. Just... you
know, I watch pretty regular stuff. I like ones that have a lot of
touching and kissing, I guess.” He chewed on his lip, watching
Ghost from across the stall. “You?”

The water was
slowly heating up, which was a relief. Ghost exhaled. “This might
sound weird, but I don’t watch much porn. I like to just fantasize.
Mostly about you.” He hid his face in his hands. This was
embarrassing.

“That is so
cute.” Luca chuckled and reached across the stall to touch Ghost’s
arm, splashing water all over.

“I knew you’d
laugh.” Ghost shook his head but smiled back. The water sliding
down Luca’s body reminded Ghost of the way he wanted to touch that
tan flesh, run his fingertips down the taut stomach. “I just can’t
watch two strangers slamming into each other. Doesn’t do much for
me. I think I mostly watch masturbation scenes. They seem more…
sincere?” He wasn’t sure if that made any sense.

Luca cocked his
head with a toothy smile. “Oh, my God, that’s so weird. Why haven’t
I heard about that before?”

Ghost gently
pushed his shoulder where Luca wasn’t bruised. “About what?
‘Masturbation’? You know, it’s this new concept of touching
yourself
. I know, it’s a bit out there.” He couldn’t help a
smirk.

“Are girl solos
actually a thing?” Luca gathered some water with his hand and
brushed it all over his face.

Just watching
him had Ghost’s blood pumping faster and filling his dick. “Of
course they are. I’m not obsessed or anything, but I like watching
it.”

Luca chewed on
his lip, looking down at the wet base of the stall. “When you were
fantasizing about me... what did you think of?” he asked,
eventually looking up. He was slightly flushed, and the way his
cock was slowly filling was unmissable.

“You know. All
the stuff you told me about. I imagined having you under me, having
your pussy gripping my dick.” He stopped breathing, his eyes fixed
on Luca’s face. “Jeez, this is so weird. I better shut up.” His
imaginary Zara was getting him just as excited as the real,
tangible Luca in front of him. It was too confusing to blend them
into one yet. “Turn around, I’ll wash your hair.”

Luca blinked,
standing still for such a long time that Ghost was almost sure he’d
decline. But he eventually turned around, and Ghost got to see the
sensuous curve of his ass.

Ghost swallowed
and squirted some shampoo into Luca’s hair. “Keep the bandage dry.
We need to get you something better. I only have this minty 2in1,
but with your hair so long and pretty, you’ll probably want better
stuff.”

“It smells nice
though,” whispered Luca, hugging the wall, with his shoulders
slightly hunched.

A nasty bruise
caught Ghost’s attention, and he pressed on it gently, just to make
sure he hadn’t missed anything yesterday. “Does this hurt?”

Luca glanced at
him over his shoulder, blinking. “Yes. Why?”

“How much? I’ll
push again, okay?”

Luca got to his
toes as soon as Ghost pressed his fingers against the dark purple
bruise. “A bit,” he uttered, hiding his face behind his arm. His
movement made Ghost’s gaze stray and follow the sinful curve of
Luca’s spine, all the way to his smooth buttocks, which were
awfully close to Ghost’s hips right now.

“That’s fine
then.” Ghost exhaled and got back to washing Luca’s hair, which
soon became slippery with the white foam. He’d never been fixated
on anal sex, but just looking at Luca’s ass made him think about
it. Would it be something Luca expected to happen soon? It was what
gay men did in bed. That and oral sex. Ghost’s cock was fully erect
already, and it seemed that each trickle of shampoo down that dusky
skin made it throb harder.

“May I turn
around?” asked Luca, raising one foot and rubbing it against
Ghost’s calf. Those legs were so nicely toned and long.

“Sure.” There
was no point pretending Ghost didn’t have a hard-on.

“Sorry, I
prefer to see people when I’m alone with them.”

Ghost smiled
and got the showerhead to rinse Luca’s hair. Luca closed his eyes
with a soft sigh. “Do you plan to wash more of me, or is the hair
enough?” he whispered.

“I could, if
you want me to.” Ghost ran his fingers through his hair and let his
hands wander down Luca’s neck.

Luca drew in a
sharp breath, opening his lips gently as he watched Ghost through
the clear droplets streaming down his face, falling off the long
eyelashes, and trickling much, much lower.

“I trust you,”
declared Luca, his firm chest pushing at Ghost’s hands.

Ghost kissed
Luca’s lips, and he was close enough for his cockhead to press on
Luca’s hip.

Luca stirred
against him, sucking out warm air from Ghost’s lungs like he needed
it to survive. He moved against Ghost’s hands but never closed his
eyes, almost obsessively watching his face. Ghost licked Luca’s
tempting upper lip and slid his hand to his own painfully stiff
dick. He hoped it wouldn’t freak out Luca, but it wasn’t like he’d
never seen it before.

“What do you
actually like? You know, as
Luca
, not Zara.”

Luca bit his
lip and slid his good hand down his chest. “Nothing freaky, I
guess. You know, the usual stuff,” he muttered, with a dark flush
coloring his face.

“Will you show
me how you like it?” Ghost stepped back and leaned against the wall
to see all of him. Really
see
him for real, not as Zara, but
the hot guy with a tight athletic body, pretty long hair, and a
dark, uncut penis.

Luca’s teeth
pulled on his fat upper lip, and he nodded, slowly moving his open
hand up and down his neck. “I kinda got into this one thing because
of you,” he uttered, sliding his fingers lower until they reached
one of his nipples. “When we were fucking online, you were talking
a lot about my nipples, and so I started playing with them as I
jerked off. I’m so sensitive there.”

Ghost sucked in
his lips, and began pumping his cock as he watched Luca. From his
pretty eyes to his dark nipples, all the way to the cockhead
peeking out of the foreskin. Here Ghost was, facing what he’d been
fighting all his life. An alternative version of himself that could
be with a man, just like the other version could be with a
girl.

Luca tugged on
his nipple one more time before sensuously gliding his one good
hand down the taut muscles on his stomach. He grasped his cock in
one smooth move and pulled the foreskin down the head with a low
gasp. His eyes were exploring Ghost as well, mouth slightly open,
chest rising and falling with deep gasps. He was hotter than any of
Ghost’s ex-girlfriends, hands down.

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