She's Only Seventeen: A Novel of Sex, Drugs and Rock & Roll (6 page)

Later that night, all feeling comfortable around each other and happy with the success of the photo shoot, we decided to celebrate by going out to the club. I danced with Nick most of the night and Brian a few times. When Shane approached me outside, handing me a drink, I was more than willing to take it from him. He put his arm around me and led me to a secluded corner on the balcony. I felt Thomas’ eyes on me, almost like he was jealous. I honestly couldn’t have cared less.

He was bold, “What if I said I wanted to sleep with you, Kat?”

I giggled nervously, “I would probably let you,” I answered honestly with a seductive grin.

“Then why aren’t we?” he asked

I shrugged my shoulders as my finger twisted around one of my curls.

“Look, Kat. We could, you know, just have sex, nothing else. Just sex and leave it at that. But you have to promise me that it will just remain sex, no matter how much we do it or whatever. No feelings, no relationship and no strings.”

I stared at him intensely before answering, “’I could do that.”

“Good,” he said, leaning in to kiss me, “shall we seal that promise?”

His lips touched mine in a quick, hard motion which made my head flip back. I wrapped my arms around his neck as his lips met mine more and more passionate each time. Flames went through my body. I could honestly say, I was excited for tonight.

Thomas

November 1984

Well there she was, kissing Shane right there in front of me like some sort of animal. She didn’t even hold back. She just let him maul her and she enjoyed it.

I suppose it was my own fault. Shane had approached me earlier in the evening about Kat, basically asking if it was okay to have sex with her. I was stupid and told him I didn’t care. Now? I cared so much. I wanted to take it back. My eyes burned looking at them. I swallowed the last gulp I had in my glass and went inside. There were so many women to choose from but I’d have one tonight, maybe two if I could. I had to get my mind off of Kat.

Kat

November 1984

Shane brought me to his room that night where we quickly undressed and got into bed. His kisses make me weak and when he touched me,
oh!
I felt like a whole different person. He entered me hard but something made him stop. He looked down at me, looked my face up and down and couple of times, before kissing me and resuming moving inside of me. I had never felt more complete. I realized,
yes, this is just sex,
but honestly, it was some of the best I had ever had.

Drew

November 1984

Kat acted like I never existed. Honestly? It pissed me off. Why should she be able to waltz right in front of me and visibly make everyone aware of her intentions with Shane? Sure he was my best friend, but for him to take her like that? I watched Thomas in the corner with some woman, while the rest of
Neptune
was nowhere to be seen.

“Where did everyone go?”

I turned to see Brian next to me.

“I saw Shane a bit ago… and Kat… not sure where everyone else is.” As I responded, I saw Nick out of the corner of my eye at the bar. “There’s Nick,” I added, pointing his way.

“You saw Kat?” Brian said, clearly ignoring everything else I was saying.

“Yes, she left…. With Shane I believe.”

“Shane?! What the fuck does he want to do with her?” Brian shouted.

“I could think of a few things,” I quickly responded before walking away.

I wasn’t in the mood to be around anyone. Yeah, I had fucked up with Kat, but did Shane really have to rub it in my face?

“Fuck em both,”
I mumbled under my breath.

Shane

November 1984

“So how was it?” Thomas asked me, as casual as any morning conversation.

“What was what?”

His eyebrow cocked upwards, “You know, fucking Kat?”

I smiled at him, “Like you don’t know.”

“Actually I don’t,” he said.

I could tell he was lying; Kat had told me herself last night that she had been with Thomas once when they had lost their virginity together at fifteen.

“Right, well, it was…” I paused searching for the right word. “It was alright.”

“Alright?”

“Yeah, just alright.”

If only he really knew.

Being with Kat had almost been like an out of body experience like one I would have only once in my lifetime. It was like she knew me, knew exactly what I wanted and needed. Almost like, we had done this before. I wasn’t expecting that, no not at all.

When I saw Kat later that evening, I couldn’t help but put my arms around her. She turned around in surprise, surveying the room to see if anyone was around. She then let me kiss her. I didn’t even have to say anything to get her to come with me. Reaching my room, she and I were both aware of what was going on. I think she felt it to, she had to.

“Just sex,” I whispered to her, reassuring myself that I couldn’t be doing this.

She nodded in agreement as she pulled me down on top of her.

Thomas

November 1984

“Why do you just let them all look at you like fucking dogs?” I asked Kat.

“They look at me the way I want them to,” she answered

“You’re making yourself out like a whore.”

“Look, Tom, if you’re jealous…”

“I’m not.”

“Whatever, it’s not like you ever looked at me anyways that way.”

I gritted my teeth. Because I wasn’t a pig and wasn’t drooling all over her she thought I didn’t want her.

“You never even gave me a chance Kat.”

“No I didn’t.”

“Why?” I asked, crossing my arms.

She looked me up and down, “because I didn’t want commitment, and neither did you, ‘one time thing’ don’t you remember? So, that’s why I slept with James instead of you after Drew and Gary.”

“Wait, you slept with James?” I felt my heart drop.

“Yeah I had been before we left.”

“Kat…” I murmured.

“Is there a problem? It was just sex,” she had turned back to me rudely.

“No,” I said blinking childish tears away.

“You told me yourself it would just be that one time with us,” she repeated

“I know what I said, I was there.”

The air was heavy between us as we both didn’t make a sound.

Kat broke the silence sticking out her hand, “friends?”

I sighed and shook it, “friends” I repeated. She made a face, I laughed.

“Don’t be so grumpy,” she said in a mocking voice.

I couldn’t help it, she was drowning me.

Kat

Early December 1984

“Can we run it through one more time?” I asked Thomas yet again.

“Fucking, come on!” Thomas said, expressing his frustration once again at me.

It was our opening night of our tour with
Arctic Circle
in New York City, and I wanted to make sure everything was perfect.

“We’ve done it enough, Kat”, James said annoyed. He hadn’t been in the best mood since I had told him we couldn’t have sex anymore because I was sleeping with Shane.

“Okay, okay, fine… Jesus” I said

“Come on Kitty Kat, put on a fucking smile, you’re fine” James added

“I know I am,” I quipped back at him

I watched as Tom shot him a look of pure hate. He was still not over the fact that I had slept with him.

My late nights with Shane had distracted me so from practice, but I knew this by heart. I felt like Shane and I were in an unspoken relationship, similar to what Drew and I had before. I felt closer to him than anyone I had before, despite the fact, of course, that he and I had agreed to this being only sexually related.

Thomas

December 1984

We were about to go on stage for the opening night and Kat kept staring at me. Finally I turned to her, “What? What could possibly be wrong with you right now?”

She toyed with her fingers nervously.

I looked around, James and Ian were behind us and the stage crew was all around.

“Come on, Kat, this is not the time to get stage jitters,” I told her.

I watched as her glance went to Shane.

He met her eyes, walking over, “Ready?” he asked her.

Her face broke into a wide smile as she kissed his lips fully in front of us all.

Shane gave her a light tap on her bum as she giggled and turned back to me, all smiles now.

When we performed that night she was flawless.

Roy

That Same Night

“Everything went pretty smoothly, don’t you think, Shane?” I asked

Shane didn’t seem to hear me; his eyes were focused on Kat who was in the corner of the dressing room talking to James.

‘Shane?” I said again

“Oh, erm, yeah,” he responded

“Are you even listening to me?” I asked already knowing the answer

“Yeah… sorry… what?”

I repeated the question.

“Yeah,” Shane started, “It was good, real good. I’m glad we got them on board.”

I smiled to myself and looked over at Kat, myself. I wondered,
could I have her again?
It was too risky to try, but the reward would be delightful.

Kat

Later again that same night

Celebrating from our first night on tour, we got back to the hotel still hyped with energy. Brain suggested we play truth or dare in our tipsy and drunken states. I agreed with a smile and laugh at how childish these guys could be. Drew even decided to participate. He had been extremely quite since my arrival and had not participated in much of the group activities. Drew then looked right at me and said “truth or dare”.

I was shocked because he had not spoken to me the whole time I had been there and this was his first words after years? I laughed aloud and said dare, but Drew wasn’t laughing at all. He looked at me hard and said “I dare you to kiss me.”

I just stared at him and lifted my eyebrows.

“What?” He asked.

I saw he was totally serious; he really wanted me to kiss him in a room full of people.

“You’re… you’re serious”

He was indeed.

Everything was spinning fast around me when finally I regained my balance and got up to stand in front of Drew. Like a young girl giving a boy her first kiss on the school yard, I gave him a quick smack on the cheek and went to turn away.

He gave me a cocked smile which seemed to say “that’s it”? I smile at him as he moved closer to me, taking me by the waist and touching my lips with his in a silent apology for the last few years. He pulled me closer into a more passionate kiss which spread tingles throughout my body and deep into my core. I needed more of him, I couldn’t get enough. Suddenly in one smooth motion, he grabbed me by the waist and threw me over his shoulder. I didn’t say a word; I was too numb with desire and surprise. Drew carried me to his bedroom while I heard the protests of all the guys. We had ruined the game but started our own.

Once Drew closed the door, we both realized how much of a rush we were in to be intimate. We hadn’t had sex in years but I knew his body like my own and he mine. He was ready and so was I. I was excited to show Drew that I wasn’t the inexperienced girl he once knew; now I was a woman who had her share of sexual experiences and experiments. We didn’t even have time to take off our clothes; he just hiked up my skirt as he threw me onto the bed. He pulled off his pants as he tore off my thong. He had bent down to kiss me softly, and then spit into his hand to lube up his cock and thrusting inside of me. He froze as he gave me a winning smile. I edged him on by moving my hips upwards. Finally he bent down his head to kiss me slowly. He soon started moving in me slowly at first then his movements became more urgent with need. He became like a mad man as he grabbed my legs and threw them over his shoulders. And with that, we both had that sexual satisfaction and release which was so much needed.

Shane

December 1984

Early the next morning

I couldn’t believe what I had seen. Drew had taken her away right in front of me and she had let him! I felt like such an idiot that I had let myself be drawn to her. I mean, we were having sex, wasn’t there a fine line where she shouldn’t be going off with anyone else?

Just sex

That’s all it was, and that’s all I would pretend it would have ever been. I wouldn’t let anyone know that I was hurt, only I knew; that I was halfway I love with that girl.

Drew

December 1984

I couldn’t tell you what possessed me to do what I had done, but I had slept with Kat. She had gone from being a child to a woman who I found quite attractive. I had almost thought she would have rejected me when I had asked her to kiss me, but no, she not only let me kiss her, she let me fuck her. I was sure that Shane would be angry with me, but the next morning, he acted as if nothing had happened. We began traveling from city to city, and still Kat was by my side. The passion I felt for her had was unmatched. I could honestly admit that I had falling for her.