Shielding Lily (12 page)

R
en only makes
it a few blocks from my house before he’s pulling over to the side of the road. I have my face cuddled in his neck, not wanting to look at him. I can feel the wetness on my cheeks and where I’ve soaked his shirt. I sniff when he starts to rub soothing circles on my back, trying to get me to calm down. He’s telling me everything is going to be okay and how much he loves me. He’s saying that no one will ever hurt me again.

I feel so embarrassed by what he saw. It’s a dark part of my life I’ve been trying to hide from him. I didn’t want him to see the dirt and sadness that coats me. His family is so perfect—everything I could ever dream of having.

When I finally get the courage to lean back, his eyes go straight to my cheek. He raises his hand and I flinch. Sadness shows on his face at my reaction. He doesn't stop, though, as he brings his hand to my injured cheek. He runs his thumb across it, and I watch as his jaw clenches. He tries to hide his anger, but it’s no use. I see it there.

“I’m sorry,” I tell him, feeling like such a jerk. I hate that I flinched, because I know he’d never do anything to hurt me. All he’s ever done is take care of me, make sure I’m safe.

“It’s okay. I get it. You’re scared, and years of living with someone like that can make you that way. Give it some time, and I promise you’ll never flinch again. No one who wants to keep breathing will give you a reason to.”

I lean into his touch, wanting more of it. I’ve been so starved of affection over the years, I want to soak up all the attention he gives me.

“I don’t want to go back there,” I finally say, the tears falling from my eyes. He leans in and kisses them away.

“You will never go back there.” Ren tells me fiercely. “You’re with me from now until forever.”

I cry harder at that, wishing it could be true. It sounds so wonderful, to spend the rest of my life like last night, wrapped up in him, feeling like nothing could ever hurt me because Ren wouldn't allow it to happen.

“But—” I say, but he cuts me off.

“You’re coming home with me. We’ll finish out the school year, then we’ll get a place near school. We’ll figure it all out.”

I drop my head a little, thinking about what he’s saying. I want to grab onto it so tightly, but I don’t want to push Ren into something he’s not ready for. I don’t want him to do this because he thinks it’s the right thing to do and that it’s the only way to protect me.

“You’re it for me, Lily,” he says, as if he can read my mind. “Even before I took you home today I didn’t want to do it. I had to fight myself to take you there. It’s going to be you and me forever. We’re just moving a little faster than some. But I don’t care. You and I are the same outcome either way—sharing ourselves with each other like last night and all the other shit that comes with that. It’s happening no matter how you spin it.”

“You really do love me, don’t you?” I look back up at him, wanting to see it in his eyes.

“More than anything in this fucking world. You’re all that matters.”

I love it, but it also scares me. My father loved my mom like that, too. It’s a fear of mine, and I voice it out loud. “My dad loved my mom more than anything in this whole world too, Ren.”

“No, babe. I’m not sure I believe that.”

“You saw him. He wasn’t always like that. He wasn’t the best dad, but he wasn’t like that before she died.”

“Lily, if you left this earth and left me behind, I’d be miserable. I probably wouldn't want to live. But you know what? If you left me with our baby girl, I’d spend my whole life raising her the best I could. Making sure I did right by her and by you. Making sure that everything I did would make you happy and proud of me. You’d leave this earth knowing that I would give our children everything. You would have no doubt about that. Not doing that, not taking care of the babies we made together, would mean that I didn’t love you, that you didn’t mean the world to me. Because if something means that much to you, then it means that much to me. If I were him, I’d grab hold of anything that reminded me of the woman I loved.”

That makes me cry even harder. Ren pulls me close, holding me while I sob into him, taking it all for me.

“You going to come home with me? Make it your home, too?” he finally asks into my hair.

“I am home,” I tell him. It’s the truth. Anywhere this man is, is my home.

He slowly moves me back over to my side of the car, pulling my seat belt over me, then wiping my face of any remaining tears. He gives me a soft kiss.

“You think your parents will be okay with this?” I ask, unsure how this will go down. I don’t want to upset them. Over the short time I’ve gotten to know them, they’ve come to mean a lot to me. They’ve done so much for me that I don’t want to overstep or intrude on their lives.

“Even if they weren't—which they will be—we’d get our own place. I’ve saved up a good amount of money working, but they will be okay with it. In fact, my mom will probably be overly happy about it,” he says with a smile.

That makes me smile. I love his mom.

“Only fight we might have is you sleeping in my room. Our room,” he corrects.

“Ren! I can’t sleep in your room.” I know they have a guest room. I just thought that’s where I’d be staying.

“See? The fight’s already started,” he says as he pulls the Jeep away from the curb. “Babe, you’ll be sleeping in my bed, and that's final.”

M
y dad
and I sit facing one another in the living room as we look over at Lily and my mom in the kitchen. Lily was quiet through our talk, and my mom said she wanted to make her some tea. She took Lily’s hand and led her in there, mostly to give my dad and me time to talk, I think.

“I’d like to ask Lily to report this, Ren. I know she may not agree, but I think it would be good to document this in case he tries to come back around.”

I nod, thinking that me kicking the shit out of her dad probably wasn’t the brightest idea, but I’d go back and do it all over again. That fucker deserved it. But I want Lily to be safe, and I know he’s right. Having this reported to the police would be better than pushing it under the rug and having her dad come back with something later. I nod in agreement.

“Okay, good. I’ll call the police chief and have him come by the house so Lily can make a statement tonight. Bill is a good friend, so I’m sure he’ll check on things and make sure she’s okay.” He puts his elbows on his knees and gives me a thoughtful look. “You know, your mother and I are so proud of you, Ren.”

His words take me aback. When we came home and sat down to explain to them what happened, they were both quiet. They shared a silent look before my mom took Lily from the room, but I thought it was so my dad could have a talk with me. One where I’d end up in trouble. I know I’m eighteen and I’ve got enough money to get us a place, but I didn’t want my dad to be disappointed in me. I didn’t want to have to leave my parents’ house under a cloud.

“It took a lot of courage to stand up to him and to get her out of that situation. We’re happy that this is a safe place for her to stay, and she’s welcome as long as she wants. I know you both are serious about each other. I can see it because your mother and I were the same exact way.”

I nod, knowing it’s true. They’ve always been over-the-top in love and were never very good about being discreet with it.

“I want to ask something of you, man to man.”

“Okay,” I say.

“While she stays here, I’d like for her to stay in the guest room.” I start to protest, but he holds his hands up to continue. “You’ve got less than three months left before you graduate and you’re out from under our roof. I ask that you respect us and our home for that short time until you both go to college.”

“Dad. We’re both eighteen. I can get my own place.”

“I know, Ren. And you know that would break your mother’s heart. It’s your last few months before you leave this home forever. Save your money and stay here. Think about Lily and what she’s going through. This is a big change for her, and we want her to feel safe here. I think giving her her own space and respecting a little of her privacy will go a long way to smooth things over. I’m not forcing you, son. I’m asking you as a man to give her this time.”

I think about Lily and her situation, and I know my dad is right. She’s been through so much, and I don’t want to compound that with pressure about being in my bed. Even if it’s not about sex, she might not be ready for so much so fast. I don’t want to push her, and I want to make sure she’s happy here.

“Yes, sir. I can do that,” I say. It won't be easy knowing she’s so close, but I’ll do this for her. “Thank you for letting her stay here.”

“Ren, we’ve grown to love Lily, too. And knowing she was in danger there this whole time makes me sick. I’m just glad she’s here and we can all look out for her.”

We both look over at my mom, who’s stroking Lily’s hair affectionately and giving her a plate of food. She leans down and kisses the top of her head, and I see Lily’s eyes close. My mom wraps her arms around her, and it warms my heart to know that she’s surrounded by love. My Lily deserves all of it.

I
t’s
pitch black as I tiptoe down the hall to Ren’s room. I silently turn the knob and open the door, closing and locking it behind me.

When I creep over to the bed, I see he’s sleeping. He looks so peaceful.

I pull back the covers and slip under them, pressing my body to his. His big body rolls over to me, wrapping around me as he hums in his sleep. I have to bite my lip to keep from laughing because it’s so adorable. I lean forward, placing a kiss on his chest, and he stirs.

“Lily?” he asks, his voice a little hoarse. “I thought I was dreaming.”

“I couldn’t sleep,” I whisper, burrowing into him more.

“Aww, babe, I missed you, too. But I was trying to give you some space.”

“I don’t want space between us,” I respond, kissing his chest again.

I feel his erection against my belly, and it throbs with each touch of my lips. The heat between my legs flares, and I want him. No, I
need
him. It was a rough day, and all I’ve done is lie in bed and replay it over and over. I want to make the memories go away, and I know Ren will do that for me. He’ll make me forget all the bad and feel only the good.

“I need you,” I whisper.

He rolls me over and slowly climbs on top. I’m wearing a nightgown, and he pushes it up, revealing my cotton panties. He reaches between us and shoves down the waistband of his sleep shorts and pulls out his cock. I move my panties over to the side and he thrusts his thick cock into me in one fluid motion. My wetness helps him glide in all the way, and he holds himself there, moaning in my ear.

“Fuck, Lily. You’re so warm and soft. So tight,” he breathes heavily in my ear.

We’re still dressed as he starts to thrust in and out of my channel, making my ache for him grow. There’s no better feeling that being full of him, of his love.

“I love you so much, babe. You’re going to be mine forever—my wife, the mother of my babies. All of it.”

I close my eyes, clinging to him. His words are exactly what I want. “I love you too, Ren,” I say, kissing his shoulder.

My climax rises as he moves down and sucks my nipple. I have to stop myself from crying out as I cum hard and fast around him. I clamp down on his cock, his girth stretching me so tight, and waves of pleasure wash over my body. His hot cum fills me up, and I pulse around him, even more turned on by his release.

We kiss softly as we come down and try to catch our breath.

“I want to stay in here tonight,” I say, rubbing my nose against his.

“Then this is where you’ll be,” he answers softly, rolling us over without pulling out of me.

I lie on his chest and close my eyes, sleep taking me fast. Now that I’m with him and I know I’m safe, the worries of the day have melted away.

He takes me twice in the morning before I sneak out of his room and back into mine. I don’t want to be disrespectful of Ren’s parents and their generosity, so hopefully if we can be discreet, we can have the best of both worlds. Because now that I’ve had him, I don’t think I can go a single night without being in his arms.