Shorty Got My Head Gone (35 page)

"What? No Poppi,"

"Why the fuck you got him in my house then," He snapped.

I was taken aback; I don't know why he's so upset. "He's just my study partner, we was just doing homework that’s all,"

He walked off sitting down at the corner of his bed and looked at me "I don't want that nigga back in my house again, matter of fact you not allowed to have no niggas in my house." He flared his nostrils.

"That's bullshit Poppi," I walked up to him.

"This my house and my rules," he sneered

"Man fuck your rules for real," I snapped. "I don't have to stay here if you going to be acting this way. You tripping hard as fuck, all I did was have company over to study and you going to knock my company out without even knowing what's going on, just assuming shit. And so what if we were really fucking you is not my real brother and even though this is yo house you had no fucking right.”

"I'm not trying to be your brother," he got in my face close enough we could feel each other breath. We stared at each other for a second before he spoke "I love you like a little sister but I'm attracted to you too, I'm not trying to be your fucking brother."

I was taken aback. I really couldn't believe what I just heard. Did Poppi just tell me he's attracted to me. I was so confused and thought I was dreaming. I snapped back into reality when he backed up from me.

I had so many feelings that overwhelmed me at this moment, but more so I was pissed off for some reason. "No… No," I went to shaking my head "No it can't be. You got mad at me for kissing you, made me feel ashamed, you do this crazy shit and you got a fiancé. You so fucked up Poppi in so many ways," I ran over to him a punching him in the chest.

He harshly grabbed my wrist and pushed me against the way "Don't you think I know this shit, I know I'm fucked up"

I closed my eyes shaking my head "No, no"

"Yes. . . Yes, I'm fucked up. . . Yes, I been beating myself up because I couldn't stop thinking about you after that kiss, Yes I blamed you because yes I was ashamed of myself because I wanted you too, Yes I'm ashamed of myself because I look as you as a woman and you not even grown yet, Yes I'm ashamed for even feeling this way toward another female other than my fiancé. I hate the fact that I want you so bad and that I have feelings for you beyond a sister brother Relationship. Yes, I was mad because I thought you was fucking that nigga. Yes, I gotten jealous when I saw you kiss him too and No I don't know why you got me feeling this way I just know I want you,"

All this he was saying was clouding my thoughts. I never would've ever thought I would hear those words come out his mouth but always wanted to hear them. I had the biggest crush on Poppi from since I can remember. I used to be in love with this Man in all honesty, just never thought this day would come so I forgot about it and really did look at him as a brother. Overwhelmed tears started forming in my eyes.

He let go of my wrist, "Look if I done made you uncomfortable in any type of way, I'm sorry, if you want to go, move from here I'll understand and don't blame you, I just couldn't hold how I really feel about you, you got a piece of my heart that no one holds not even my soon to be wife. I love you Shorty and I have strong feelings for you, I can't keep lying to myself that I don't,"

I closed my lids as a tear fell from the corner of my eyes. With my eyes still closed, Poppi slightly brushes away the tear drop from my face then kissed me on my forehead. I gently caressed his cheek slowly looking up at him opening my eyes. Staring into each other's eyes we both couldn't fight the temptation the universe brought upon us, our lips crashed into each other as we kissed.

Poppi pulled back from the kiss shaking his head "I'm sorry Shorty, I know I can’t love you like this," he mumbled before walking away.

To Be Continued