Authors: Mary Balogh
Too late she realized that she had spoken sharply and without any forethought and had been remarkably rude as a result. If one of her girls had done such a thing in her hearing, she would have taken the girl aside and lectured her for five minutes without stopping to draw breath.
Lady Hallmere's eyebrows arched upward.
The duke's right hand curled about the handle of his jeweled quizzing glass.
Lord Hallmere grinned.
The duchess laughed.
“You will offend me if you quiz Miss Martin on that score any further, Freyja,” she said. “She has left
Eleanor
in charge, and I am quite confident that my sister is very competent indeed. She is also delighted, I might add, Miss Martin, that you have shown such trust in her.”
And there spoke the genuine lady, Claudia thought ruefully, smoothing over a potentially awkward moment with charm and grace.
The Marquess of Attingsborough cupped Claudia's elbow again.
“Lauren and Kit and the Portfreys and Kilbournes will be keeping places at their table for us,” he said. “We must go and join them.”
“I do beg your pardonâyet again,” Claudia said as they made their way toward the door. “I teach my girls that courtesy must take precedence over almost any personal feeling at all times, yet I have just ignored my own teachings in rather spectacular fashion.”
“I believe,” he said, and she could see that he was actually amused, “Lady Hallmere intended her question as a mere polite conversational overture.”
“Oh, not
that
woman,” she said, forgetting her contrition. “Not Lady Freyja Bedwyn.”
“You knew her before her marriage?” he asked.
“
She
was the pupil I told you about,” she said.
“No!”
His hand closed more tightly about her elbow, drawing her to a halt beyond the ballroom doors but just outside the supper room. He was grinning openly now. “And Bewcastle was the one who so ruthlessly directed you to fend for yourself? You thumbed your nose at
Bewcastle
? And strode off down the driveway of
Lindsey Hall
?”
“It was not funny,” she said, frowning. “There was nothing remotely amusing about it.”
“And so,” he said, his eyes alight with merriment, “I took you from the frying pan into the fire when I led you straight from McLeith to the Bedwyns, did I not?”
She regarded him with a deepening frown.
“I believe, Miss Martin,” he said, “you must have led a very interesting life.”
Her spine stiffened and she pressed her lips tightly together before replying.
“I have notâ” she began.
And then saw the last ten minutes or so as they must have appeared through his eyes.
Her lips twitched.
“Well,” she conceded, “in a way I suppose I have.”
And for some inexplicable reason they both found her admission enormously tickling and dissolved into laughter.
“I do beg your pardon,” he said when he could.
“And I yours,” she replied.
“And to think,” he said, taking her elbow again and leading her into the supper room, “that I might have gone to Lady Fleming's soiree this evening instead of coming here.”
The Duchess of Portfrey was smiling and beckoning from one of the tables and the Earl of Kilbourne was standing to draw out a chair for Claudia.
It was unclear to Claudia if the marquess regretted the choice he had made. But she was very glad he had come. He had somehow restored her disordered spiritsâeven if he
had
been the unwitting cause of some of them. She could not remember when she had last laughed so hard.
She was in grave danger, she thought severely as she took her seat, of revising her opinion of him and actually
liking
him.
And here she was in the midst of a family group she ought to have left a few hours ago. And she had no one to blame for her renewed discomfort but herself. When had she
ever
before clung to a man for support and protection?
It was really quite lowering.
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Claudia fell asleepâadmittedly after a long spell of wakefulnessâthinking about the Marquess of Attingsborough and awoke thinking about Charlieâ
the Duke of McLeith.
Oh, yes, indeed, she had come honestly by her antipathy toward the aristocracy, particularly toward dukes. It had not started with the odious and arrogant Duke of Bewcastle. Another duke had destroyed her life well before she met him.
She had lived and breathed Charlie Gunning during her childhood and girlhood, or so it seemed in retrospect. They had been virtually inseparable from the moment he had arrived at her father's house, a bewildered and unhappy five-year-old orphan, until he had gone away to school at the age of twelve, and even after that they had spent every waking moment of his holidays together.
But then, when he was eighteen and she seventeen, he had gone away never to return. She had not seen him sinceâuntil last evening. She had not
heard
from him for almost seventeen years.
Yet last evening he had spoken to her as if there had been no abrupt and ruthless ending to their relationship. He had spoken as if there were nothing in the world for him to feel guilty about.
But what a delightful surprise!
But where are you living?
Where may I call on you?
Had he really believed he had the right to be
delighted
? And to
call
on her? How dared he! Seventeen years might be a long timeâalmost half her lifeâbut it was not
that
long. There was nothing wrong with her memory.
But she firmly cast aside memory as she dressed for breakfast and her visit to Mr. Hatchard's office later in the morning. She had decided to go alone, without Edna and Flora. Frances was coming to the house, and she and Susanna were going to take the girls shopping for new clothes and accessories.
And since Frances came in a carriage and bore the other three off in it not long after a prolonged breakfast, Claudia found herself riding to her appointment in Peter's town carriage. He had refused even to listen to her protests that she would enjoy the walk on such a sunny day.
“Susanna would never forgive me,” he had said with a twinkle in his eye. “And I would hate that. Have pity on me, Claudia.”
She was buoyed by high spirits as she rode through the streets of London, despite a niggling worry that the employment Mr. Hatchard had found for the two girls might not be suitable after all. Now that the time had come, she was fairly bubbling with excitement over the fact that she was about to put the final touch to her independence, to her success as a single woman.
There was no longer any need of assistance from the benefactor who had so generously supported the school almost from the start. She had a letter for him tucked into her reticuleâMr. Hatchard would deliver it for her. It was regrettable that she would never know who the man was, but she respected his desire for anonymity.
The school was flourishing. Within the last year she had been able to extend it into the house next door and add two more teachers to the staff. Even more gratifying, she was now able to increase the number of charity pupils she took in from twelve to fourteen. And the school was even turning a modest profit.
She was looking forward to the next hour or so, she thought as Peter's coachman handed her down from the carriage and she stepped inside Mr. Hatchard's office.
Less than an hour later Claudia hurried back outside onto the pavement. Viscount Whitleaf's coachman jumped down from the box and opened the carriage door for her. She drew breath to tell him that she would walk home. She was far too agitated to ride. But before she could speak, she heard her name being called.
The Marquess of Attingsborough was riding along the street with the Earl of Kilbourne and another gentleman. It was the marquess who had hailed her.
“Good morning, Miss Martin,” he said, riding closer. “And how are you this morning?”
“If I were any angrier, Lord Attingsborough,” she said, “the top might well blow off my head.”
He raised his eyebrows.
“I am going to walk home,” she told the coachman. “Thank you for waiting for me, but you may return without me.”
“You must permit me to escort you, ma'am,” the marquess said.
“I hardly need a chaperone,” she told him sharply. “And I would
not
be good company this morning.”
“Allow me to accompany you as a friend, then,” he said, and he swung down from his saddle and turned to the earl. “You will take my horse back to the stable, Nev?”
The earl smiled and doffed his hat to Claudia, and it was too late to say a firm no. Besides, it was something of a relief to see a familiar face. She had thought she would have to wait for Susanna to return from her shopping expedition before she would have anyone with whom to talk. She might well burst before then.
And so just a minute later they were walking along the pavement together, she and the Marquess of Attingsborough. He offered his arm, and she took it.
“I am
not
much given to distress,” she assured him, “despite last evening and now this morning. But this morning it is angerâ
fury
ârather than distress.”
“Someone upset you in there?” he asked, nodding toward the building from which she had just emerged.
“That is Mr. Hatchard's office,” she explained to him. “My man of business.”
“Ah,” he said. “The employment. It did not meet with your approval?”
“Edna and Flora will return to Bath with me tomorrow,” she said.
“That bad?” He patted her hand on his arm.
“Worse,” she assured him. “
Far
worse.”
“Am I permitted to know what happened?” he asked.
“The Bedwyns,” she said, sawing at the air with her free hand as they crossed a street, avoiding a pile of fresh manure. “
That
is what happened. The
Bedwyns
! They will be the death of me yet. I swear they will.”
“I do hope not,” he said.
“Flora was to be employed by Lady Aidan Bedwyn,” Claudia said, “and Edna by none other than
the Marchioness of Hallmere
!”
“Ah,” he said.
“It is
insufferable,
” she told him. “I do not know how that woman has the nerve.”
“Perhaps,” he suggested, “she remembers you as a superior teacher who will not compromise her principles and high standards even for money or position.”
Claudia snorted.
“And perhaps,” he said, “she has grown up.”
“Women like her,” Claudia said, “do not grow up. They just grow nastier.”
Which was ridiculous and unfair, of course. But her antipathy toward the former Lady Freyja Bedwyn ran so deep that she was incapable of being reasonable where the woman was concerned.
“You have an objection to Lady Aidan Bedwyn too?” he asked, touching the brim of his hat to a couple of ladies who were walking in the opposite direction.
“She married a Bedwyn,” Claudia said.
“She has always struck me as being particularly amiable,” he said. “Her father was apparently a Welsh coal miner before making his fortune. She has a reputation for helping people less fortunate than herself. Two of her three children are adopted. Is it for them she needs a governess?”
“For the girl,” Claudia said, “and eventually for her younger daughter.”
“And so you are to return to Bath with Miss Bains and Miss Wood,” he said. “Are they to be given any choice in the matter?”
“I would not send them into servitude to be miserable,” she said.
“Perhaps,” he suggested, “they might not see it that way, Miss Martin. Perhaps they would be excited at the prospect of being governesses in the houses of such distinguished families.”
A young child with a harried-looking nurse in hot pursuit was bowling his hoop along the pavement. The marquess drew Claudia to one side until they were all past.
“Little whippersnapper,” he commented. “I would wager he promised most faithfully that he would carry the thing except when he was in the park with plenty of open space.”
Claudia drew a slow breath.
“Are you suggesting, Lord Attingsborough,” she said, “that I reacted overhastily and unreasonably at Mr. Hatchard's office?”
“Not at all,” he said. “Your anger is admirable as is your determination to burden yourself with the girls again by taking them back to Bath rather than placing them in employment that might bring them unhappiness.”
She sighed.
“You are quite right,” she said. “I
did
react too hastily.”
He grinned at her.
“Did you give Hatchard a definite no?” he asked.
“Oh, I did,” she said, “but he insisted that he would do nothing until tomorrow. He wants the girls to attend interviews with their prospective employers.”
“Ah,” he said.
“I suppose,” she said, “I ought to give them the choice, ought I not?”
“If you trust their judgment,” he said.
She sighed again. “It is one thing we are at pains to teach,” she said. “Good judgment, reason, thinking for oneself, making one's own decisions based upon sense as well as inclination. That is more than one thing. We try to teach our girls to be informed, thinking adultsâespecially the charity girls who will not simply marry as soon as they are out of the schoolroom and allow their husbands to do all the thinking for them for the rest of their lives.”
“That is not a very rosy picture of marriage,” he said.
“But a very accurate one,” she retorted.
They were walking beneath an avenue of trees that lined the pavement. Briefly Claudia raised her face to the branches and leaves overhead and to the blue sky and sunshine above.
“I will warn them,” she said. “I will explain that the Bedwyns, led by the Duke of Bewcastle, are a family that has enjoyed wealth and privilege for generations, that they are arrogant and contemptuous of all who are below them on the social scaleâand that includes almost every other mortal in existence. I shall explain that Lady Hallmere is the worst of the lot. I shall advise them not even to attend an interview but to pack their bags and return to Bath with me. And then I shall allow them to decide for themselves what they wish to do.”