Sock it to Me, Santa!

Title

Copyright

Dedication

Part One - The First Exchange

Part Two - The Second Exchange

Part Three - The Final Exchange

About the Author

Sock it to Me, Santa!

by
 

Madison Parker

Published by Madison Parker

http://madisonparklove.com

This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

Sock it to Me, Santa!

Copyright © 2012 by Madison Parker

All rights reserved.  No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system without the written permission of the author, except where permitted by law.

For Jasper, JoJo, & Claude:

May all your sock monkey dreams come true.

I don’t know what made me do it — what made me say
her
name. I guess I panicked. Mike didn’t usually bug me about girls, so it caught me off guard. When he asked me whose name I was hoping to get for the Secret Santa gift exchange, I looked around the room and weighed my options. Ben Olson caught my eye, but I didn’t dare say his name. Mike didn’t know I was into guys. No one did, and I planned to keep it that way until I left for college. But if I had to pick someone, I guess it would be Ben. Even though he was into sports, and I wasn’t. He was also into cheerleaders, and I definitely wasn’t.

“Well?” Mike said. “Who do you hope you get?”

I started to say, “No one,” but it came out in a stutter.
 

His smile was full of mischief. “I knew it. You
do
like someone. Finally. Who is it?”

I leaned in closer to him. “Shh! Would you keep it down?”
 

“Well, who is it?”

And that’s when I panicked and said
her
name: Amber Owens. She seemed all right, but I hoped Mike wouldn’t try and play matchmaker. The last thing I needed was some girl chasing me around again. At the beginning of the school year, I made the mistake of smiling at Didi Anderson, and she developed a crazy girl crush on me. It was a nightmare. She left love notes in my locker, telling me how cute I was. According to Didi and her misplaced affections, my eyes are like blueberry pop-tarts. Not blue like a sparkling sky or a shimmering ocean, but blue like pop-tarts. I’ve had blueberry pop-tarts. They’re not even blue. They’re filled with purple goop and covered with white frosting and rainbow sprinkles. I guess love makes you say funny things. I never got the chance to find out what foods the rest of my body parts reminded her of. When she finally worked up the nerve to ask
her friend
to ask
me
to ask
her
out, I politely said I wasn’t interested. The fan mail stopped abruptly.

I hoped nothing like that would happen with Amber.

I leaned in closer to Mike. “And I never said I
liked
her. Just, if I had to pick someone in this room—”

“Relax. You look like you’re about to pass out or something.”

I shook my head. “I’m fine. It’s just this whole Secret Santa thing. It’s stupid. I mean, we’re in high school, not fourth grade.”

“Yeah, but you know Mrs. Keats. She lives for this kind of shit.”

Homeroom sucked. My bad —
advisory
sucked. They changed the name last year to TAP: Teacher Advisory Period. But it sounds ridiculous to say I’m in TAP. Like I’m a dancer or something. So I just call it advisory. Whatever they call it, it sucked. What was the point? It wasn’t like we learned anything during those weekly twenty-five minute sessions. And Mrs. Keats, our advisor, was hell bent on making us all become friends. Her “getting-to-know-you” activities were the worst.
 

Last week she stood in front of our class and held out a roll of toilet paper. She made us each come up and tear off the amount we’d “normally use”. Like I’d want to share that information. I kinda have a thing about cleanliness. Let’s just say, I typically use
a lot
. After seeing how much toilet paper everyone else took, I’d say I use a shit ton. But I restrained myself, taking what seemed to be a socially acceptable amount. I didn’t want to draw unnecessary attention to my bathroom routine. It wasn’t until we’d all returned to our seats that Mrs. Keats told us for every square we’d taken, we had to tell the class one thing about ourselves. Lame. I should have known it was some kind of trick.
 

Sometimes I wish I had the nerve to be like Kevin Parker with his fuck-you attitude. After Mrs. Keats had explained what we had to do, he got up, blew his nose into his wad of toilet paper, and then dumped it in the recycle bin (right under the sign that listed tissue as non-recyclable). Kevin didn’t give a shit about anything. Teachers mostly let him be, as long as he wasn’t causing too much trouble. I guess it wasn’t worth the hassle to argue with him. They couldn’t really
make
him participate. If he wanted to flunk out, that was his business. Still, I wondered what he would’ve said if he had gone along with the toilet paper game. Or any of the other stupid things Mrs. Keats made us do.

Not only were her activities embarrassing, they were also ineffective. It was December, and the only person I really knew in my advisory was Mike. And that’s only because we both ran cross country. Unfortunately, I was also the only person Mike knew. That meant he always came and sat next to me in advisory. Every Friday morning I had to listen to him rant about his ex-girlfriend, Stacey. I can’t say I blame her for breaking up with him. He used to talk smack about her all the time when they were dating. It kinda got on my nerves, but whenever I’d say something about it, he’d tell me I’d understand one day, when I had a girlfriend of my own.

At times I was tempted to tell him that would never happen, that I wasn’t into girls like that. But Mike’s not the kind of guy I’d want to confide in. I don’t think it would go over well. Thankfully he didn’t give me a hard time about not having a girlfriend. Most people either didn’t notice or didn’t care. If someone asked, I’d say I couldn’t afford to date and that having a girlfriend would interfere with my gaming addiction. It seemed to work. Sure, I was called a fag or a loser from time to time, but that was just guy talk. I got called a faggot more times while playing video games online than I ever did in real life. When you’re a gamer, being heckled by your opponent goes with the territory. I wasn’t addicted to gaming like some people were. It was just something to do when I was bored, which was most of the time. And it was my one social outlet with other guys. I played up my love of gaming, though, to keep Mike and others off my back. When he started dating Stacey, he was almost never online anymore, so he couldn’t argue with my logic.

“Hey, if I get Amber, I’ll trade with you, okay?” Mike said. “I don’t really care who I get as long as it’s not Jamie.” He shuddered.

We both glanced over at Jamie Peterson. He was sitting in a huddle with two girls, flipping through a magazine. Jamie was always hanging with girls. I doubt he had any guy friends. If there was such a thing as cooties, Jamie had them. And they were highly contagious. Any guy seen talking to Jamie — or standing too close, for that matter — might as well kiss his social life goodbye.
 

I’d been lurking around the Internet long enough to know Jamie was what they called an “emo twink.” He didn’t dye his hair black or have his face pierced, but otherwise he fit the stereotype. He wore eyeliner sometimes and painted his nails. His tight clothing hugged his small, skinny frame, and he loaded up on so many accessories, some days he actually jingled when he walked.

“I’m not buying a Christmas present for a fag,” Mike said.

I inwardly cringed at his remark, but let it pass. “You mean make.”

“What?”
 

“You have to
make
the presents,” I said. “One a week for the next three weeks. Weren’t you listening? We’re not supposed to spend more than $10 on supplies.”

“Whatever,” Mike said, waving his hand. “I’ll
make
a trip to the grocery store and buy some candy or something.”
 

“And you’re not supposed to call it a
Christmas
present. It’s a ‘winter gift of cheer,’” I said with an over-exaggerated smile. We both laughed.

Mrs. Keats walked around the room with her “holiday jar” filled with slips of paper. Mike reached in and pulled out a name, then waited for me to do the same.
 

“I got Louis,” he said. “Who’d you get?”

I tried to remain expressionless as I stared at the name on my slip of paper: Jamie Peterson.

I stuffed the paper in my front pocket. “It’s a secret.”
 

“Come on, who is it? Is it me?”

“Fuck off. I’m not telling.”

“If it’s me, I want Halo 4 for Xbox.”

I laughed at him. “Idiot.”

“Homo.”

“I’d rather be a homo than an idiot.”

“Fuck that. I’d rather be an idiot than a homo.”

Jamie Peterson glanced over at us, and I watched his lips draw into a tight frown. Shit. He probably thought we were talking about him. Of all the names I could’ve drawn for the gift exchange, why did it have to be his?

* * * * *

I struggled to come up with a gift idea for Jamie. I eventually gave in and asked my mom for help. She managed our local craft store and ran weekly workshops there. If anyone could help, she could.

“What’s he like?” she asked.

I shrugged. I didn’t know. I wished I’d paid closer attention last week during that toilet paper game. I could’ve gained some insight into his interests. I remembered Jamie saying something about the knitting club, but Mike started snickering and making fun of him, so I didn’t catch the rest of what Jamie said. Knitting club? Even I had to admit, that was pretty gay.

“Well, tell me
something
, Ryan. I’m working with a blank slate here. What’s the first word that comes to mind when you think of him?”

“Soft.” It was out of my mouth before I could reign the thought back in, and I felt the heat of embarrassment creep up my neck.

She cocked her head and gave me a puzzled look. “Soft?”

“I didn’t mean soft.” I bet Jamie did feel soft, though. His long, coffee colored hair looked like silk. I bet it felt like silk, too. “I meant soft-spoken.”

“So he’s shy?”

“I don’t think he’s shy. I think he just keeps to himself because people pick on him a lot.”

“What?” She stopped chopping vegetables and walked over to sit next to me at the kitchen table, a look of concern on her face. “Why do people pick on him?”

I rubbed my forehead, searching for the right words. “He’s…”

“He’s what?”

“He’s…in the knitting club.”

She bit her lip, trying to hide her amusement. “So, he’s in the knitting club and he’s soft.”

“Soft-spoken.” I was never going to live that down.

“Hmm. Sounds like a clever way to meet girls.”

“I don’t think he’s interested in meeting girls.”

“I see.” Her expression had morphed from one of concern to one of pity. “And this is why kids pick on him?”

“Yeah.”

“I hope you don’t take part in anything like that.”

“No, of course not.”

“Because I know I raised you better than that.”

“I know, Mom. I wouldn’t do that. I hate bullies.”

“Good.” She reached out and placed a hand on my shoulder. “There’s nothing wrong with being gay.”

It wasn’t a question, but it felt like one. “I know,” I said quickly.

She removed her hand, but held my gaze.

Did she suspect I was gay? We’d never talked about it before, and I wasn’t ready to lay that on her now. She had enough to deal with, raising me and my little sister now that we’d lost my dad. Dakota was only five. How the heck would I explain it to her?

“Maybe you should talk to Jamie,” Mom said. “Get some ideas for your gift exchange.”

“That would be social suicide.”

She gave me a stern look.

“Mom, he
knits
.”

She laughed. “I happen to love knitting. It’s very relaxing. So, he’s a boy. What is it about knitting that requires two X chromosomes?”

“I don’t know. It’s just the way it is.”

“Maybe the way it is isn’t the way it ought to be.”

“Okay, fine. He knits. BFD.”

“Watch your language,” she said. “Dakota’s in the other room.”

“Sorry.”

She smiled. “If you ever want to try it, I’d be happy to teach you.”

“No, thanks.”

“It has nothing to do with gender. A monkey could learn to do it.” Her eyes lit up. “And speaking of monkeys, I’m hosting a workshop Wednesday evening at the store. We’re making sock monkeys. Why don’t you join us? You can make one for Jamie.”

I shook my head in protest. “No way. I’m not making a stuffed animal. Mom, he’s a
boy
.”