Song of the Silk Road (18 page)
I set down the notebook and sighed. The information was so detailed and precise. Then I also wondered, was there any herb for my brain? Was there an herb that would help me to get out of this ordeal in one piece? And maybe even help me finish writing my novel later?
I was soon tired of reading Lop Nor’s detailed descriptions of treatments for obscure conditions I’d never heard of. So I picked up his diary—I’d been dreading to look at it, lest more tragedy would reveal itself.
Heart beating, I flipped through the inch-thick book where every page was filled with my friend’s large, chaotic Chinese writing. Finally I stopped at one page where the penmanship seemed particularly disordered.
Life on my own is very lonely and painful. But I have to go on with healing so my family, especially my grandfather, did not die in vain. I still remember the happy days when he took me to collect herbs on the mountains. He used a magnifying glass to look at the leaves, tasted them with the tip of his tongue, then told me their names and characteristics.
Alas, my poor little boy will never carry on the family’s healing tradition. I don’t know what I did in my past life to deserve such severe punishment in this life. That’s why I believe I must work even harder to heal others in the hope that I can neutralize my bad karma.
I closed the journal and let tears roll down my cheeks. I felt as if I was peering into Lop Nor’s soul. He was the only man with whom I felt so intimate, yet who had never touched my hand or tasted my lips, who had not even seen my bare shoulders, let alone my naked body.
My hand continued to flip through the journal until I spotted my name and began to read:
Recently a young Chinese woman visited me for herbs. Our friendship grew. I even took her to the mountain, to my secret place, and helped her find the herbs she needed. This is the first time I brought another person with me up the mountain. So I must be out of my mind. To leak all these secrets of herbs to a stranger—a woman!
She is beautiful and lively and we talked long hours. I’ve never talked so much to anyone, certainly not a woman, besides my wife before she passed away. . . .
I realized that he had written this when he still thought his wife was dead. I continued to read.
Every day I go to the door, hoping to see Lily. When I see it is a patient instead of her, my heart sinks. I must be really out of my mind that I’d rather see her than those who need my help. She comes often, so the villagers will gossip.
I can’t tell if she has any feelings for me. Her mind seems to be always occupied by something else. On the Mountains of Heaven, she overheard me singing “In the Distant Land” but showed no recognition of my feelings.
If I fall in love with another woman, am I betraying my dead wife? And what about my son, would he like this Chinese woman if he were still alive?
Alas! I know many herbs to cure heart disease, but not any to win a woman’s heart.
I closed the notebook and pressed it against my chest. An immense sadness rose inside me as I thought of Lop Nor’s difficult life, his wrinkled brown face and strong, rough hands. I regretted that I’d been so immersed in my thoughts of Alex that I had completely ignored his feelings for me. Yes, I liked him, too, very much, though not as much as I did Alex. How had I let my emotional life become so entangled? I’d never thought of making love to Lop Nor, but now this possibility was forever gone with the desert wind.
I picked up his necklace, kissed it, and put it around my neck.
“Lop Nor, I’ll always think of you,” I murmured to myself, to the pendant, and to my friend, wherever he was.
That night I had a dream. Lop Nor, his son, and I were a family. We lived near the cool Crescent Moon Lake and made our living by selling tourist souvenirs. One night when his son was asleep, we tiptoed outside our house and headed toward the shimmering lake, where we took off our clothes and plunged in. We frolicked, splashed water at each other, and laughed like children, then we made love. The moon and its silvery sprinkles were everywhere—the sky, the lake, our happy faces, our naked bodies.
When Lop Nor kissed me, he murmured, “My love, I’m kissing the moon.”
After passionate love, Lop Nor dived under the lake. I was waiting for him to call me to join him to make love again on the lake’s bottom. But alas, he never emerged. I screamed, but my voice was lost amidst the intense moonlight and the glittering stars. . . .
I awakened to the sound of my own scream. For long moments, the burning images of the dream lingered before finally fading. I was both sad and happy that it was but a dream. Sad that the sex was only imaginary and Lop Nor was no longer in this life, but happy that Alex was. And sad that on his last day in Urumqi, Alex and I had quarreled and that he’d left angry and hurt. Would we cross paths again on this Ten Thousand Miles of Red Dust? As lovers, or just as friends?
I lifted Lop Nor’s pendant from my neck and pressed my burning lips to its cold surface. I realized that since I had no intention of being an herbalist, the best I could do with the precious herbs I’d been bequeathed was to pass them on to someone who could make use of them.
However, as much as I would never forget Lop Nor, I needed to move on with my own life. Thus decided, I felt a huge stone lifted from my chest.
17
Turpan Museum
T
he next day I awoke before dawn, swallowed a bun, and downed the leftover tea. Then I put the scroll and the Buddha into my backpack and set out. Though I wanted to make one last trip to the Black Dragon Pond to pay my final respects to Lop Nor, I decided I could not take the risk. It was all too possible that Floating Cloud and Pure Wisdom would soon discover my theft and come after me. Lop Nor was already dead, and nothing I could do would bring him back to life. Sad to say, since the dead cannot move on the earth, the living must move on. I was nervous carrying the two treasures: The sooner they were back safe in the museum, the better.
he next day I awoke before dawn, swallowed a bun, and downed the leftover tea. Then I put the scroll and the Buddha into my backpack and set out. Though I wanted to make one last trip to the Black Dragon Pond to pay my final respects to Lop Nor, I decided I could not take the risk. It was all too possible that Floating Cloud and Pure Wisdom would soon discover my theft and come after me. Lop Nor was already dead, and nothing I could do would bring him back to life. Sad to say, since the dead cannot move on the earth, the living must move on. I was nervous carrying the two treasures: The sooner they were back safe in the museum, the better.
I went to Urumqi first, and from there took a tedious bus ride on the new highway to the city of Turpan, once an important oasis city during the Silk Road days. At the dusty bus stop, there were no taxis, but a broken-down car slowed in front of me and I struck a bargain with the driver to take me to the Turpan Guest House for a few
yuan
. I checked into the dingy room, took a quick shower in the hotel’s communal bathroom, then went to sit on the sagging bed where I spread out all my papers, books, and maps to plan.
yuan
. I checked into the dingy room, took a quick shower in the hotel’s communal bathroom, then went to sit on the sagging bed where I spread out all my papers, books, and maps to plan.
The next move would not be easy. I needed to wait patiently for the right moment to exchange the reproductions in the Turpan Museum with the two pieces I had taken from Floating Cloud’s temple. I scribbled down all possible options, deleting the most impractical, leaving:
1.
Bribe the museum director.
Bribe the museum director.
2.
Seduce him.
Seduce him.
3.
Buy him a big dinner, get him drunk, then take his key.
Buy him a big dinner, get him drunk, then take his key.
I quickly crossed out the second one. After Floating Cloud, I had no appetite for sex with another man, monk or not. I didn’t like the fact that the thought had even entered my mind in the first place. Uninhibited in love though I might be, I was not an all-accommodating split-slit slut!
Given the expectation that the drunken dinner might create, this left only the first option. But—what if the director refused a bribe and instead reported me to the police? Other questions leaped into my mind like monkeys cavorting on shaky branches: How could I get rid of the guards and visitors so I could do my job? How would I steal the keys from the guard, or the museum director, or whomever, to open the display window? And how would I know which key was the right one? If I failed to get the key, could I break open the vitrines without setting off the alarm?
After these agonizing ponderings, it occurred to me that museum security was probably not very tight in such a remote place as Turpan. From the Silk Road books I’d read, the Chinese are quite casual about their own treasures—unless someone else wants them. After all, explorers like Aurel Stein and Paul Pelliot walked away with thousands of manuscripts and art from Dunhuang with nary a peep from the Chinese. Only when these works became famous in Europe did the Chinese raise an outcry and condemn the explorers as bandits. Now anyone caught trafficking in such objects was quickly shot. So my only hope was that the Turpan Museum was still as relaxed about art treasures as in Stein and Pelliot’s time.
After more racking and tweaking of my mind, I still couldn’t think of a good plan, let alone a perfect one. So I decided to take a look at the museum first. If security was lax, I’d sneak in, find a way to open the display window, and exchange the objects. Worst case, I’d befriend the curator, or, as the last resort, seduce him.
Then I sighed, thinking of my young lover.
Alex, sorry that we fought on our last day together. I hope you understand that my calling in life is different from yours. You want a family, and all I want is freedom, including the freedom to love. I don’t want to be like my mother, imprisoned by one man, one love, one life.
Alex, sorry that we fought on our last day together. I hope you understand that my calling in life is different from yours. You want a family, and all I want is freedom, including the freedom to love. I don’t want to be like my mother, imprisoned by one man, one love, one life.
The next day, under the scorching sun, I climbed into a taxi that looked almost as old as the city itself and asked the driver for the Turpan Museum. It seemed a good sign that he had to ask directions from another driver—most likely the museum was not as careful as those that attracted crowds in the major cities. As we drove through the desert, I watched the endless stretch of blue sky, brown sand, and yellow cliffs. I lifted my camera to capture the intricate formations sculpted over the millennia by the invisible hands of wind and rain. As I snapped away, I felt a tinge of regret at not having the leisure to explore this peculiar land.
So when the young driver looked at me in the rearview mirror and asked, “Where you from?” I shrugged to discourage the unwanted conversation.
The museum was even smaller than I’d expected. It looked more like a private house with a few rooms of personal items accumulated over a few years. At the Metropolitan in New York, the entire collection would barely fill the smallest room. I walked to the reception desk where a sloppily uniformed and plain-looking middle-aged woman was gulping ravenously from a plastic bowl.
I cleared my throat. “Good morning. How much for one ticket?”
Cheeks bulging as she chewed, she answered without looking up. “Five.”
I handed over a five
renminbi
.
renminbi
.
Again, she didn’t bother to look up at me as she handed me the ticket, her other hand tightly clutching her bowl of roast lamb over rice like a child her favorite toy.
“Thank you.”
“Don’t take pictures or touch anything.” She gave me an annoyed look, her voice harsh and raspy.
After that, she went back to devoting all her energy to devouring her food. Her cheeks continued to masticate, her chopsticks tapping hard on the inside of her bowl with merciless determination. The food was steaming and she wanted to give it her total attention before it got cold. I appreciated her engagement with her food, while being extremely grateful for her carelessness. Both the food and her appetite for it started my saliva flooding my mouth; I swallowed it in one big gulp.
Once inside the dingy museum, I wandered around the different rooms and was surprised—and not so surprised—that there was only one guard, skinny and nervous looking. Instead of watching me, he paced around mumbling to himself.
It didn’t take long before I spotted the glass cabinet with the Gold Buddha. Even though I was not an art historian, I could tell Floating Cloud’s was
the
masterpiece—the gold shone with a mysterious luster from age, and the Buddha’s face was alive with deep compassion and wisdom. I strained my eyes to read the small description next to the statue inside the cabinet:
the
masterpiece—the gold shone with a mysterious luster from age, and the Buddha’s face was alive with deep compassion and wisdom. I strained my eyes to read the small description next to the statue inside the cabinet:
BUDDHA IN GOLD
Made in the Tang dynasty (ninth century). This statue is pure gold with a halo, bead necklace, and lotus flower seat. Buddha’s face is serene, with eyes half closed in meditation and legs crossed in the full lotus position.
Then I noticed a small keyhole at the lower right-hand corner of the glass case. After looking around to make sure that no one was in the room, I took out my Swiss Army knife and used the screwdriver to see if the lock would budge. But no luck. Then I noticed, to my delight, that next to the Gold Buddha was the Diamond Sutra. Resting on a red, wooden stand, the rolled-up sutra was only opened to the first two pages.
The description next to it read:
DIAMOND SUTRA
Though written in Chinese, the text is one of the most important sacred works of the Buddhist religion originally founded in India. By the time this sutra was made, woodblock printing had been practiced in the Far East for more than a century.
This scroll was copied by the high monk Xian De from the eleventh-century Song Dynasty. Xian used his own blood and spent a year in total isolation to complete writing the sutra. Imbued with the high monk’s blood, intense faith, and spirituality, this masterpiece was believed to possess magical power to bless and protect.
I wondered if the museum people knew that both the Gold Buddha and the Diamond Sutra now on display were but reproductions, albeit very skillful ones.
I took another look at the sutra. Whose blood was on this fake one? A cow, a stray dog, a pig—a fat one for its abundant supply of blood?
I looked carefully around the display case and found that the statue and the manuscript were actually placed inside the same case. This meant I only had to break open one case to get both objects.
One stone for two birds.
One arrow for two eagles.
This time I laughed out loud, but then instantly killed my laughter. There was nothing to be happy about, not until I had exchanged the two objects and disappeared from the museum.
I suddenly noticed two men in their sixties milling around the room, talking to each other in heated whispers. When did they come in? Why hadn’t I noticed? I must have been so immersed in my thoughts that I became inattentive. I bit my lip; I could not let this happen again.
The two men, both wearing white shirts and gray suits, looked like they were scholars or archaeologists. Judging from their intense expressions and animated discussions, they must be arguing about the objects on display. Not wanting to arouse their attention, I lowered my head and hurried outside the room. At the entrance, the same receptionist was now cracking watermelon seed between her teeth and reading a newspaper. She did not bother to look up at me.
A good sign.
After I left the museum, as I was wondering what to do next, I spotted a small eatery across the street. I headed straight there, sat down, and ordered peanuts, buns, dumplings, and tea, which I couldn’t possibly finish but just so that I could stay longer. While eating, I studied the museum but didn’t see anyone going in or anything unusual. A few hours later, when I was sipping my tea and picking at my leftover food, the two “scholars” came out, followed by the receptionist and the guard.
I had come up with a plan and would be back tomorrow.
The next day, I put on a T-shirt, blue jeans, and a thin jacket, then pulled my long hair up into a chignon and wore a baseball hat, trying to look as unremarkable as possible. This time I arrived about an hour before closing time. Today more people, about eight or ten, milled around, watched by the same male guard as yesterday. I walked around looking for places to hide while consciously staying outside the guard’s vision. About fifteen minutes before closing time, I sneaked inside the storage room and hid myself inside a closet. The room was a mess with piled-up boxes everywhere, so I didn’t think anyone would find me.
Half an hour later, once all was quiet, I cautiously opened the closet door. But then, just as I was stretching my stiffened arms and legs, I heard footsteps in the distance. Instantly I moved back inside the closet, closed the door, and pressed my ear on the door to listen. A man and a woman had come into the storage room, talking and giggling. Who were they and what were they doing in the museum after closing time? My heartbeat accelerated as the noise came closer so that they seemed to be right outside my hiding place.
A man’s voice said, “See? This is the best place. I guarantee no one will find us.”
Then the woman’s harsh voice floated in the air. “You’re bad, so bad.”
It was the receptionist! What the hell was she doing here?
The man teased. “You’re bad, too, following me like a puppy.”
Both laughed nervously, then mumbled something I couldn’t hear.
Soon I could hear clothes dropping on the floor, followed by groaning and moaning.
The man declared in a heated whisper. “Oh, heavens, how come you have such huge, soft fucking breasts like pillows!”
This was followed by the woman’s laughter and her sky-rocket-shooting scream. “Harder, please, harder! Oh, yes! Don’t you dare stop, or I will tear off your turtle head!”
The receptionist looked so prim and sloppy. Who would’ve imagined she could fuck with such abandon?
Listening to this couple’s coupling, I thought of my lovemaking with Alex and felt an unspeakable sadness. What was he doing now? Was he thinking of me?
Then the moaning and groaning stopped, followed by the man’s urgent voice. “Quick, let’s get out of here before any mishaps. I don’t want to lose my easy job just watching a few assholes pace around!”
Then the receptionist’s, “What time is it? Damn, I have to go home to cook for my husband and son!” followed by the sounds of pulling on clothes, then footsteps hurrying away.
The guard, the bored receptionist—a married woman with husband and child—a rendezvous in the museum’s filthy storage room. I couldn’t believe it.
I waited fifteen minutes, making sure no sounds came from anywhere in the museum before I sneaked out of the closet and headed straight to the exhibition room.
I again inserted my Swiss Army knife’s screwdriver into the keyhole. This time I twisted it with more force, but the lock refused to budge. Frustrated, I thought of breaking the glass but soon dismissed the idea as stupid. Then I put on my gloves and used my whole force to turn the knife. Bit by bit the lock yielded, painfully, like a pretend virgin.
Quickly I took out both the fake Gold Buddha and the Diamond Sutra and put them inside my backpack, then, with utmost care and respect, replaced them with the two authentic ones. After that, I closed the case, muttered a short prayer to the authentic Enlightened One now sitting in his rightful place, then left the room.
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