Surrendering (22 page)

My inhibitions flee as I move up and down him making sure to circle my tongue over his tip often. I take my time licking the length of him each time my mouth lowers and rises. I’ve always thought I would hate doing this but he has a distinct taste that I love. He grips a little tighter against my head, trying to pull me up. I resist and lower my whole mouth back over him. I love the sounds he’s making under me and he moves his hips to the rhythm I have created between us.

“GOD! Raven, you have to stop. I’m going to come.”

I bite down gently to let him know it’s okay. Once I have him completely in me again, I squeeze his balls and feel him thicken. He rocks against my mouth. Warm, salty liquid coats my throat and I swallow. I wait for him to finish. When his hands loosen, I slowly withdraw my mouth, but I stop once more at the barbell and tug. I see his dick jump again.

I crawl back up his body and he isn’t moving. His eyes are closed and his breathing is heavy. I kiss him to allow him to taste himself (Only fair right?). He kisses me back, but barely.

“I think I just died. How the hell did you do that?” He opens one eye to look at me. I see the color has changed to a deeper color of jade.

I grin. “Not sure. That was my first time. Did you like it?”

“Did I like it? Yeah, babe, I fucking liked it. How did you learn to do that?”

“Pleasure Parties.”

“Do I want to know?”

“At home parties given by trained specialists to sell sex toys and sexually pleasing items. They also have books written by experts to explain what pleasures men and women. I guess I paid special attention to that part.” I say it fast and cover my face to hide my embarrassment.

There’s humor in his voice when he asks, “You mean a book taught you how to give me head? Let me rephrase that, fucking incredible head?”

I don’t look at him, but just nod.

“Baby, come here. Don’t be embarrassed. You just showed me one more reason for not letting you go.”

I snuggle into his chest. He kisses my temple as I fall into a deep sleep.

*****

I hear hushed sounds and the light blue glow of the television seeping through my eye lids. I feel Declan’s arms around me and I open my eyes. “What time is it?”

“About 11:30. You passed out.”

“I’m sorry; I guess the whole weekend paired with two awesome orgasms wore me out.” I slide off him and head to the bathroom.

“What’re you doing?”

“Getting ready for bed; be right back.”

He throws me his t-shirt from earlier. “Will you wear this?” I grin and shut the door.

When I’m done, I get back into bed next to him. “Sweetheart, what side of the bed do you want me to sleep on?”

He just shrugs his shoulders, “Whichever you like; it doesn’t matter. I’ve never shared before so we can just work it out.”

“Wait, you’ve never shared a bed before?”

“Not unless you count you and my sisters when we were younger.”

I can’t stop my curiosity, “Um, what about girls before me?”

He rolls over taking me with him. I’m trapped under his hard body and I suddenly regret asking. “Baby, the girls before you never spent the night in my house, let alone my bed. You’re the first. I wasn’t a sleep-with-you kinda guy.”

The blush is creeping up my face and he knows what I’m thinking.

“I like sex- a lot, but my house is my sanctuary and I prefer to keep it separate. You see now how much I want to prove to you how much I care for you. You changed everything. You’re the first to see my house, the first to sleep in my bed, and the first to sleep on these sheets.”

My heart melts with love for him. Before I blurt it out, I lift my lips to his so he knows how much this means to me.

“So it’s only me?”

“
It’s only you.”
He says it with so much emphasis that I think he feels the same way about me.

I decide it’s time to move on from the depth of this conversation to a lighter subject. “I have a suggestion. Why don’t I sleep on the right side so you can curl around me and still face the TV?”

“That sounds good. And babe, you look like a beautiful vision from my dreams with my t-shirt on.”

He kisses me sweetly and we roll to watch the TV.

*****

When I wake the next morning, I’m lying flat out on top of Declan’s chest. I try to get up quietly, but he feels me move and pulls me back down.

“Good morning, sleepyhead. I was wondering if you were ever going to wake-up.”

“What time is it?”

“About nine.”

“How long have you been awake?”

“A while, I’ve been enjoying you.”

“What about me are you enjoying?”

“You wrapped around me. Your sweet breath against my chest and the way your eyes flutter when you’re dreaming.”

“Wow.”

“My thoughts exactly.”

I lift up and swing over the bed. I motion towards the bathroom and he lets me go.

In the bathroom, I rummage through my things and find a tie for my hair. I brush my teeth, use the bathroom, and wash my face. When I come out, the bed is empty. I find him in the kitchen making coffee.

“Dec, something occurred to me after our conversation last night. If I’m the only one to ever be here, how did Sami know where you live?”

“Great question, I certainly didn’t tell her. I don’t think Cooper would have told her so I can only guess she looked it up. I’m listed.”

Creepy! I don’t want to think about that so I change the subject quickly.

“I like your house. It’s nice for a bachelor pad.”

“Bachelor pad, huh?” He grins.

“Well, it seems a little big for just you. Have you always lived here by yourself?”

“Yeah and it is a little big for me, but my sisters used to stay here before they got their own place.”

“Did you decorate it yourself?”

“Mostly.”

“What do you mean?”

“All the living room furniture, the office, and the guestroom were me. The girls picked out my kitchen dishes and accessories. I only just re-did the bedroom due to recent influence.”

“What recent influence? I thought you said I was the only one who’s ever been in your bedroom.” I think I feel bile in my throat. Am I that gullible?

“You are the only one to sleep in my bed and spend time in my house. Abbi and Ella have been here and Abbi recently helped me pick out new bedding.”

He must see me relax because he teases me, “Were you jealous?”

I shrug and look around to avoid the question. “What was wrong with your old bedding?”

“Nothing, I wanted something new. My stuff was slightly mismatched and I wanted to have the best for you. So I got new sheets, new pillows and some sort of duvet. Abbi said you liked soft sheets. I picked the color because it reminded me of your eyes.”

“You did that for me?”

“Yep- though I personally think six pillows is a little extreme since I want you to sleep on my chest every night.”

“Then why?”

“I was told specifically that you don’t like to share your pillows.”

“YOU TALKED TO ROBBIE?” I shriek. Robbie’s one of the only people who knows how I am about pillows.

“Yeah, he and Finn helped me out a little bit.”

I reach over and pull him to me. I get as close as I can to his lips and whisper, “I can’t believe you talked to my brother and his best-friend about us. I also can’t believe they didn’t tell me. Did they help with all the surprises this weekend?”

“Yes and no. I thought up everything myself, but I needed help with the wooing part. I needed to get an invite for Friday night and I knew Finn would be there. I also needed to talk to them so I could prove how serious I am about you.”

“What did they say when you talked to them about me?”

He laughs out loud and throws his head back. “Babe, they told me I was pussy whipped and they’d kick my ass if I ever did anything stupid again. Basically, I now know that all those guys have a concealed license permit.”

I laugh along with him and throw my arms up. He looks back down at me and kisses me hard and deep. I melt into his touch and rub against his body.

“Sparkle, do you want to drink your coffee now, or can we go back to bed for awhile?”

“Bed.”

He picks me up and carries me back to his bedroom. We spend the whole day wrapped up in each other. Even though I mostly lay on top of him, I show him the merits of having an abundance of pillows on the bed. His new bedding is amazing.

This is possibly the best day of my life. I have a question I want to ask him that’s nagging at me. It’s none of my business, but I ask anyway.

“Can I ask you a personal question?”

“Baby, I had my tongue in you about an hour ago. I think we are beyond worrying about personal.”

“Well, this borderlines on rude. It’s really none of my business, but how do you afford all this when your band only plays a few nights a week?”

He shifts uncomfortably under me, but raises his fingers to stroke lightly through my hair. “I don’t have to worry about money, Raven. When my mom died, she left us each a small trust. It wasn’t much, but my dad invested it for us. We also got social security until we turned eighteen. My dad still worked and made a good living so we mostly invested that as well. I bought this place for close to nothing.”

“So you only play with Sayge for fun?”

“Yes and no. I love being in the band, but it also does pretty well. Since our fans are mostly college students, we try to keep the cover charge low, but profitable. For example, we have a deal with The Steamroom. When we play, we get eighty percent of the cover. It isn’t unusual for us to walk out with three to five hundred each.”

“Do you have similar deals with the other bars you play at?”

“Not really. The other places aren’t as generous, but we still do okay.”

I start to giggle.

“What’s so funny?”

“Nothing really, I just realized my hot rocker boyfriend is also a little bit of a businessman.”

“Don’t tell anyone; it’ll ruin my reputation.” He shuts me up with a kiss.

Chapter 24

The Feeling is Mutual

Abbi and Ella agree to come with me to The Steamroom tonight. Since it’s Thursday, I don’t have class tomorrow. Declan has spent every night with me since Monday. He’s been texting me throughout the day and his last message said to plan on spending the night at his place tonight so I packed a bag. For his surprise, I threw in the nightie I wore to NNN last week. He seemed to like the outfit and I planned on teasing him with it.

We get to The Steamroom at the same time Finn, Jimi, and Gabe do. Abbi smiles and goes straight to Jimi. We all head backstage to hang out. The room is even more packed than normal. I see Declan talking to a man that I don’t know. Cooper is at his side agreeing to whatever they are saying. The man gives Declan a business card and shakes his hand before walking off. Declan sees me and heads straight over.

“Sparkle, you look beautiful. I’ve missed you.” He kisses me hard.

“Baby, you do realize I saw you this morning right?”

“Not really, I haven’t spoken or kissed you since you left for school. I can’t help it if I missed you.”

“Well, when you put it like that…”

“Did you pack a bag?”

“Yes, it’s in Ella’s car. Give me your keys and I’ll go put it in your truck.”

“Babe, I’ll get it and put it in my truck. You stay here.”

He pecks my lips and walks over to Ella to get her keys and disappears out a back door. Ella winks at me and I join her at the bar. When Declan returns, the whole band joins us.

“Hey, Dec, what’d you figure out with Jay?” Asks Nate.

“He’s staying for the show and he’ll call us next week. He was here last Saturday night too.”

“Well, I guess we should put it all out there tonight. Hope the crowd is full of energy. You should probably keep your good luck charm close.”

I know Nate is referring to me because he smiles in my direction. Nate was the one who helped Declan prepare for his song last week. He’s teased Declan mercifully every chance he’s gotten since.

“Nate, when you find your good luck charm, I hope she kicks your ass.” Declan jokes back.

Since I’m not sure what they are talking about, I break in. “Who’s Jay?”

“He’s a music scout among other things. He works with local and regional music festivals to book the entertainment. He’s been hanging around for awhile. He actually helped get us the gig here. He may have a few opportunities available for us.”

I wrap my arms around his neck. “That’s so exciting! Would you want to do that?”

“Yeah, I think I would. The rest of the band thinks it’s a good idea, but we’ll be selective if given the chance. I’m not sure our style and looks will fit in at every place and we don’t want to change it. We told Jay we’d work with him if he took that into consideration.”

I look back and all three of them are nodding in agreement.

“Babe, we need to get started soon; walk me to the stage?” He grabs my hand and I tell everyone I’ll see them soon.

When we get backstage, I see everything is set up, but there are still a few people running around. He takes me into the dark corner I’ve become familiar with.

“Seriously, Sparkle, I missed you. I’m not sure what you’ve done to me, but I can’t get you out of my mind.”

“The feeling is mutual.” I lean in and kiss him. I don’t stop until I hear someone clear their throat behind us.

Blake looks uncomfortable and I realize I have wrapped one leg around Declan’s hip. “Sorry man, but we need to get started.”

I try to step back, but his hands hold me tight so I can’t. “Kay, B, give me just another minute.”

Blake walks away and I see the other guys getting ready to go onstage. I wonder how long they’ve been there. Then I realize I don’t care. Declan hugs me tightly.

“You know I have a raging hard-on right now. The only thing I can think of is your mouth on me?”

“Sorry, but I can’t do anything about that right now. Maybe later?” I wink at him and pry out of his arms. “I’m going to go meet up with the others. You have a good show.” I kiss him quickly and walk away.

“I’ll get you back for this, tit for tat and all that shit.” He calls after me. I grin and find my way back to my friends.