Surrendering (25 page)

“You’re such a jackass, Finn Black. But seriously, do you think dad saw it?”

“Yep, and I have a feeling they are discussing it at length- among other things.”

“How embarrassing. He’s probably going to go running now. Between your little meeting last week and now dad, he’s going to realize I’m not worth the trouble.”

Finn’s laughter dies and he looks at me with concern. “Baby Girl, you are SO worth the trouble. Never let anyone tell you differently.”

I go over to hug him. “Thanks, Finn. I love you.”

“You too.”

When Declan comes back in, he’s carrying two large envelopes. He hands one to each of us.

“Your dad forgot to bring these in, but said you may want them. He didn’t tell me what they were, but said I should probably get out of earshot.”

I feel familiar edges through the thick envelope and I know what these are. I rip through the envelope and six lanyards fall out.

Abbi walks into the kitchen. She just got home from school and looks exhausted. I remember I need to talk to her about last night with Jimi.

“What’s that?”

I look at the tickets through the plastic protector and scream, “HOLY SHIT, HOLY SHIT, HOLY SHIT!!!!!!” I start jumping up and down. They’re looking at me like I’m crazy, but I don’t care. “Finn, open yours!”

Declan reaches for one of the pouches, but I won’t let go of them. “Raven, what the hell?”

I’m still screaming. “My dad got us backstage passes to see The Wilde Ones in concert at the Ryman! The Wilde Ones and THE RIVER WILDE!!!”

Abbi starts jumping up and down and shouting with me. Everyone knows how hot River Wilde is and this is a special appearance. We’ll be so close; we might even get to talk to him. I’m out of breath and panting heavily by the time I calm down. Finn is amused, but Declan looks like he’s about to explode. He obviously is not a huge fan of River Wilde.

“You don’t look happy; don’t you like The Wilde Ones?”

“Yeah, I like them. River Wilde has some wicked talent and the group is what most musicians aspire to be. It’s cool he’ll be there, but I’m not excited about you going backstage with a bunch of famous rockers, especially now.”

I know what he’s referring to and he’s pretty sexy when he’s jealous. “Dec, it’s not a me; it’s a we. My dad gave me six passes. Most likely he’s providing the security and that’s how he got special passes. This is a charity show. Finn, how many did you get?”

“I got six too, but one has a note on it that says it’s for Robbie.”

“Okay, so I have enough for Abbi and Ella to invite a date.” Abbi’s nodding enthusiastically.

“Babe, when is the show?”

“Two weeks, on Thursday night.” I see his face fall. Crap! He plays on Thursday nights. He’s not going to be able to go. “Honey, it’s okay. Finn and Robbie will be there so we’ll be fine. We can meet afterwards.”

He shakes his head and looks over me to Finn. “Can you spare one of your tickets for one of my band?”

“No problem.”

“Here’s what we’ll do. Collectively, we have enough tickets for all of us and Nate, Blake, and Coop. I’ll call them and we’ll rearrange our schedule and play another night. It shouldn’t be a problem, but I need to go make some calls.” He leans down and kisses my forehead before disappearing into the kitchen.

I look at the two of them and shrug. Finn is smiling and Abbi doesn’t seem to care she won’t be bringing a date.

Chapter 26

Live in a Bubble

The rest of the day wasn’t very busy and we decided to take the night off and hang-in. When Ella got home, she was just as excited about The Wilde Ones tickets as Abbi and me. We all decided that we need to go shopping tomorrow. Declan talked to the guys and the management at The Steamroom. He was able to switch their performance to Wednesday night. The guys were equally excited. The only person who didn’t share the sentiment was Declan. He had been unusually quiet and I was dying to know what was wrong.

I’m snuggled up on Declan’s chest watching some sports show on his TV in his bedroom. I take the remote from him and mute the TV, then roll on top of him and straddle his legs. After my shower, I threw on one of his shirts and nothing else. In this position, I can feel him harden under me and I rub against his shorts.

“Thanks for rearranging your show for the concert.” I nuzzle in his neck.

“I told you, babe, I’ll do anything for you.”

“Will you tell me what my dad said to you?”

“Nothing unusual, the regular stuff you say to a boyfriend.”

“I thought you never had the ‘boyfriend’ speech before.”

“I haven’t, but I have two sisters so I’ve been on the giving end.”

I rub myself against his growing erection and continue to kiss his neck. “Then why are you so grumpy?”

He rubs his hands up and down my sides under the shirt. I arch trying to get him to massage my nipples, but he doesn’t. He inches his face closer to mine. “I’m not exactly grumpy. I’m just not sure what to do with the jealousy I have over you. I didn’t know how to react today when you found out about River Wilde. Even though Sayge isn’t a nationwide phenomenon, we still have a pretty good local following. The thought of you backstage without me makes me upset.”

“You do realize I’ve been going backstage since I was twelve years old. Not only am I able to watch out for myself, I always have Finn and Robbie.”

“That’s the thing; now you have me. Finn, Robbie, hell, any of them are great, but now your mine. I’m the one who should be making sure nobody touches you. Please, just meet me halfway here. I’m working on this newfound emotion I never thought I would have.”

“Okay, honey, no more talk about how awesome R-”

I’m suddenly on my back and he’s straddling me. I see the tip of his erection through his shorts. I lick my lips thinking about the barbell. He rips his shirt off me and lowers himself over my breasts. I feel his hot breath and I arch up, trying to push into his mouth. He ignores me and continues to blow on my nipples which are hard and aching.

“Sparkle, I think it’s a bad idea for you to talk about other lead singers in my bed- or ever.”

He finally takes a nipple in his mouth and moves his hand down to my aching core. I feel the evidence of my arousal on my thighs. It’s almost embarrassing until I see the hunger in Declan’s eyes. He slowly puts two fingers inside me. I run my fingers through his hair while I try to concentrate on all the sensations my body is feeling. I don’t want him to stop, but I want him in me.

“Baby, please, I want you now.” I try to pull him up, but he only lifts his head.

“Shit, I didn’t stop at the store. We can’t.”

“I’m on the pill.” I blurt out. I’m desperate to have him again.

He stops what he’s doing and adjusts so he’s leaning on his forearms on each side of my head. His tattooed arms are so close, I can lick them. I move slightly to the right so I can kiss the tribal design. He takes this as an invitation to lick down my exposed neck.

“Sparkle, look at me.” I turn and stare into his captivating eyes. “I’ve never had sex without a condom in my life. I’m clean; I had a physical last summer and I met you shortly after. Are you sure you’re okay with this?”

He knew my sexual history so no questions about me. I knew I was ready, but he wanted to make sure. “Yes, Dec, I want you. I don’t want anything between us; I want to feel you.”

That was all I had to say. He starts to kiss me hard while one hand moves back between my legs. He pushes off his shorts and positioned over me. I feel every inch of him as he glides in all the way. I hiss at first due to the soreness from last night. He stops moving, but I shake my head letting him know I’m fine. He stays still way too long so I start to circle my hips.

He groans, “You have to stop.”

“Why?”

“Because I don’t want this to be over.”

I start to think I’ve done something wrong. The piercing is rubbing against me in a delicious way and he doesn’t seem to like it. “Sorry.” I mumble.

He senses my unease. “Babe, you have nothing to be sorry for. Over the last two days, you have given me two of the best presents ever. First you, now this. I’m not sure how long I can hold out. You have no idea how fanfuckingtastic this feels. I’ve never been skin to skin, even after I got my apa. You’re so tight and slick my dick is pulsing. Just give me a minute.”

So this is a good thing. Without thinking, I lift up to meet his lips and shift under him. That’s all it takes before he’s moving in and out with controlled movements. He’s kissing me with the same pace he’s pushing with. Each time he thrusts into me I swear the ring hits my g-spot.

“Declan, I’m gonna…”

“Let go, baby. I’m right here with you.” He grips my hips and runs his finger to my clit. I feel the slow burn and the spark as I cry out his name. I throw my head into his neck and bite down, trying to control my cries. I barely hear him call my name a few seconds later. He has me so tight, I can hardly breathe.

After a few minutes, we both catch our breath and he loosens his hold. When he withdraws from my body, I shiver. He goes to the bathroom and comes out with a warm washcloth. Once he’s cleaned us both, I scoot into his arms and settle on his chest.

“I hope your dad doesn’t show up tomorrow. If he sees this bite, I might not be able to talk him out of the ass kicking he wanted today.”

“He saw it?”

“Yeah, babe, he saw it. Apparently, you’re a screamer and a biter.”

“I didn’t know it was there either. Finn saw the bite mark and I was mortified.”

“Finn saw it? I guess I need to sleep with one-eye open. Your dad may have been easy to convince that nothing happened, but a guy like Finn knows what this means. You okay with that?”

“Not really. I didn’t want anyone to find out so soon, but I guess that’s not possible. I was hoping we could live in our own little bubble for at least the weekend.”

“Rave, you want a bubble? I’ll give it to you. Just say the word. We’ll go away for your Christmas break and I’ll make sure we have complete privacy. We don’t even have to leave our room.”

I snuggle closer to him and wrap around his body. He sounds unfazed, but I’m sure my dad shook him up a little.

“Declan, a bubble sounds nice. Maybe we should talk more when I’m not almost comatose.”

“Whatever you want, but I have to ask. What is your code?”
“1125.”

“Your birthday is in less than a month?”

“Yep”

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“It never came up. Honestly, it isn’t a big deal. For most of my life, I’ve been with family for Thanksgiving. I always know my friends are around so we don’t make a big deal about it.”

I’m so sleepy, but I hear him say quietly in my ear, “Not anymore, Sparkle, not anymore.”

*****

I dreamt of Declan all night long and I wake-up feeling extremely turned on. I feel his hard-on under my knee. I slowly extract myself from his arms and start kissing down his bare chest. When I get to the piercing, I run my tongue over it and tug at each side with my teeth. He stirs under me, but I keep going. I roll my mouth over him and take in his whole length, paying extra attention to the head. Now I know why he put himself through the torture of getting pierced and I’m glad he did. His hands run through my hair letting me know he’s awake. Even though I’m doing this for him, I’m just as turned-on. I continue sucking until I feel him tighten in my mouth. I reach out and caress his balls that are rock hard. He grabs my scalp, then thrusts his hips to push his entire length down my throat. I hum against his head and he screams out as he releases into my mouth. I lick and swallow every last drop and smile at myself. I just made this man scream. Before I can relish in my own victory, I’m thrown up against the headboard and he’s all over me.

“Declan, stop! I haven’t brushed my teeth.”

“Baby, the last thing I care about is your breath. I just came in your mouth and I need to taste you.” He kisses me slowly and softly. I let out a whimper. His hand begins to travel down me until he’s playing with my drenched center.

“You’re so slick and warm. Lay back and let me take care of you.”

Chapter 27

Rewarded

The next two weeks pass quickly. I’m in my bathroom getting dressed for
The Wilde Ones
concert with Abbi and Ella. We’re waiting on Declan to arrive so he can drive us. The tickets came with two parking passes and his car can hold the majority of us.

We’re getting ready ridiculously early because there’s an opening band and Declan wants to see them play. My outfit screams ‘
Rock and Roll’.
I dressed in black skinny jean capri’s with sparkles up the side and a tight fitted, purple t-shirt. I paired them with sparkly ankle-strap heels. I’ve done my eye make-up in a smoky style and layered my mouth with sparkly lip gloss. There’s sparkles everywhere; I event put on sparkly lotion. I want to stand out, but still blend into the
‘I’m not a slut crowd’.

There are voices in the living room and I know the crowd is here. Everyone decided to meet here to get their tickets and to carpool. Declan comes into my room and notices the disaster I’ve created from trying to get ready for a rock concert.

“Rave, did a tornado hit, or are you sifting for Goodwill?”

I walk out of the bathroom and glare at him. “No, we had to try on several outfits and I haven’t had time to clean.”

I look up in time to see his expression change from happy to shocked. “You can’t wear that!”

“What’s wrong with this?”

I guess he doesn’t realize his sisters are still in the bathroom because he yanks me to him and throws us both on the bed. He leans over me and I notice his eyes have darkened to a deep, rich shade of green. I lift up to lick his lip ring and he opens his mouth as an invitation for me. He suddenly withdraws and leans his forehead to mine.

“Sparkle, you can’t wear that because I don’t want to end up in jail. I don’t want every guy in the place sizing you up. I’m fucking hard just looking at you.”

“Declan, I’m not changing.”

“Yes you are.”

“No, I’m not.”

“There may be a solution to this dilemma.”