The Best American Mystery Stories 2012 (35 page)

She turned and took heavy steps across the room and stood over Dan. He pushed himself away from the wall, trying to turn, thinking she would untie the ropes on his wrists. He could do the ones on his ankles on his own.

He felt her touch, but instead of loosening the ropes, her arms slid around him and then his feet were off the ground and their eyes were level. Dan was bigger than Bruce, but she held him with ease. Her brown eyes gleamed from the tears that filtered through her mascara and ran in dark trails down her cheeks.

“I ain't no cow. And Brucie wasn't no dog,” she said, her breath soft with spearmint gum. “He was just a sad and angry little man. He used to be good to me, but lately he forgot how to do it. I kept thinking he would remember those good days when he wasn't so mean, but some things you can't change.”

She squeezed him harder. “You got that straight? The next time you go talking about dogs and cows there won't be no mention of me or Brucie.”

The incredible pain in his ribs made him suck at his lips, suck for air like it was in the spit and drool, and then he felt like he was swallowing his tongue, he was so desperate for breath. He nodded his head feebly to show that he understood. Then she carried him over beside the bed.

“I want you to tell me that number. I didn't mind that you lied to Brucie, but don't try it with me.” She sniffed and blinked at the tears in her mascara-laden lashes as she spoke.

Dan nodded his head again to show that he would do that very thing and anything else she wanted if she would only give him some room for a breath. She stared at him grimly, her puffy face only inches from his, finally putting him down on the bed beside Brucie. When he got some fraction of his breath back, he told her the number, repeated it three times to make sure.

She stooped over Brucie and got the credit card and cash he'd stolen from Dan out of Brucie's shirt pocket. Then she touched her fingers to her lips and touched Brucie's cheek. “He weren't a dog,” she said softly, “and I ain't a cow.” Then she put the cards and cash into her little purse and went to the door. She paused to pull a small handkerchief from her purse and dab her eyes. “Tell the police what you want, but I expect I'm pretty easy to forget. I'll leave your car someplace further down the road.” And then she slid out the door.

Dan lay for a long time on the bed, snatching teeth-gritting breaths, more afraid of the woman now than he had been of Brucie. He waited until the pain had subsided, until daylight shone through the window, and then he called 911. The local sheriff's deputies were skeptical about his story and questioned him for hours about Brucie's body. In the end, they let Dan go after confirming his identity, assuring him that they would be talking with him again. Dan refused to go to a hospital, which didn't seem to bother the deputies.

He found a rental car in the nearby town and drove the 200 miles to his home in Fort Collins. His wife nursed his wounds and taped his chest when he again refused to go to a doctor. He gave vague answers to her questions about what had happened, but she didn't press him. He would tell her all about it later, when he found the words. Or when the words found him.

FROM
San Diego Noir

 

“Y
OU KNOW HOW
these things get started, Robbie. You see her for the first time. Your heart skips and your fingers buzz. Can't take your eyes off her. And when you look at her she knows. No way to hide it. So you don't look. Use all your strength to not look. But she still knows. And anybody else around does, too.”

“I've had that feeling, Vic,” I said.

We walked down the Embarcadero where the cruise ships come and go. It was what passes for winter here in San Diego, cool and crisp, and there was a hard clarity to the sunlight. Once a week I met Vic at Higher Grounds coffee and we'd get expensive drinks and walk around the city. He was a huge guy, a former professional wrestler. Vic Primeval was his show name until they took his WWF license away for getting too physical in his matches. He hurt some people. I spend a few minutes a week with Vic because he thinks he owes me his life. And because he's alone in the world and possibly insane.

“Anyway,” said Vic, “her name is Farrel White and I want you to meet her.”

“Why?”

“Because I'm proud to have you as a friend. You're pretty much all I got in that department.”

“Are you showing us off, Vic? Our freak-show past?”

He blushed. “No. But you do make me look good.”

Vic was bouncing at Skin, an exotic dance club—strippers, weak drinks, no cover with military ID. “I don't love that place,” I said.

“Robbie, what don't you like about pretty women dancing almost naked?”

“The creeps who go there.”

“Maybe you'll get lucky. You're lucky with the ladies.”

“What do you know about my luck with ladies, Vic?”

“Come on, man. You've got luck. Whole world knows that.”

More luck than I deserve, but is it good or bad? For instance, seven years ago Vic threw me out the window of the sixth floor of a hotel he'd set on fire—the Las Palmas in downtown San Diego. I was trying to save some lives and Vic was distraught at having had his World Wrestling Federation license revoked. This incident could be reasonably called bad luck.

You might have seen the video of me falling to what should have been my death. But I crashed through an awning before I hit the sidewalk and it saved my life. This luck was clearly good. I became briefly semifamous—the Falling Detective. The incident scrambled my brains a little but actually helped my career with the San Diego Police Department. In the video I look almost graceful as I fall. The world needs heroes, even if it's only a guy who blacks out in what he thinks are the last few seconds of his life.

“Just meet her, Robbie. Tonight she goes onstage at eight, so she'll get there around seven-thirty. I start at eight, too. So we can wait for her out back, where the performers go in and out. You won't even have to set foot in the club. But if you want to, I can get you a friends-and-family discount. What else you got better to do?”

 

We stood in the rear employees-only lot in the winter dark. I watched the cars rushing down Highway 163. The music thumped away inside the club, and when someone came through the employee door the music got louder and I saw colored shapes hovering in the air about midway between the door and me.

I've been seeing these colored objects since Vic threw me to that sidewalk. They're geometric, of varying colors, between one and four inches in length, width, depth. They float and bob. I can move them with a finger. Or with a strong exhalation, like blowing out birthday cake candles. They often accompany music, but sometimes they appear when someone is talking to me. The strong­er the person's emotion, the larger and more vivid the objects are. They linger briefly, then vanish.

In the months after my fall I came to understand that these shapes derived not so much from the words spoken but from the emotion behind them. Each shape and color denotes a different emotion. To me, the shapes are visual reminders of the fact that people don't always mean what they say. My condition is called synesthesia, from the Greek, and loosely translated it means “mixing of the senses.” I belong to the San Diego Synesthesia Society and we meet once a month at the Seven Seas on Hotel Circle.

Farrel had a round, pretty face, dark eyes, and brown hair cut in bangs, and one dimple when she smiled. Her lips were small and red. Her handshake was soft. She was short even in high-heeled boots. She wore a long coat against the damp winter chill.

“Vic tells me you're a policeman. My daddy was a policeman. Center Springs, Arkansas. It's not on most maps.”

“How long have you been here in San Diego?” I asked.

“Almost a year. I was waitressing, but now I'm doing this. Better pay.”

“How old are you?”

“I'm twenty-four years old.” She had a way of holding your eyes with her own, a direct but uncritical stare. “Vic told me all about what happened. It's good that you've become a friend of his. We all of us need at least one good friend . . . Well, guys, I should be going. I'd ask you in and buy you a drink, but it's supposed to work the other way around.”

I glanced at Vic and saw the adoration in his eyes. It lit up his face, made it smarter and softer and better. Farrel smiled at him and put her hand on his sleeve.

“It's okay, Vic.”

“Just so good to see you, Farrel.”

“Vic walks me in and out, every night. And any other of the dancers who want him to. You're a cop, so you know there's always someone coming around places like this, making trouble for the girls. But not when Vic Primeval is in the barnyard.”

“I don't really like that name,” said Vic.

“I mean it in a good way.”

“It means primitive.”

“It's only a show name, Vic. Like, well, like for a dancer it would be Chastity or Desire.”

I watched the inner conflict ruffle Vic's expression. Then his mind made some kind of override and the light came back to his eyes. He smiled and peered down at the ground.

A hard look came over Farrel's face as a black BMW 750i bounced through the open exit gate and into the employees-only lot. It rolled to a stop beside us. The driver's window went down.

“Yo. Sweetie. I been looking for you.” He was thirty, maybe, and tricked out in style—sharp haircut, pricey-looking shirt and jacket. Slender face, a Jersey voice and delivery. He looked from Farrel to Vic, then at me. “What's your problem, fuckface?”

I swung open my jacket to give him a look at my .45.

He held up his hands like I should cuff him. “Christ. Farrel? You want I should run these meatballs off? They're nothing to do with me and you, baby.”

“I want them to run
you
off. I told you, Sal. There isn't a you and me. No more. It's over. I'm gone.”

“But you're not gone, baby. You're right here. So get in. Whatever you'll make in a month in there, I'll pay you that right out of my pocket. Right here and now.”

“Get off this property,” said Vic. “Or I'll drag you out of your cute little car and throw you over that fence.”

Vic glanced at me and winced right after he said this. When he gets mad at things, he throws them far. People, too.

Sal clucked his tongue like a hayseed, then smiled at Vic as if he were an amusing moron.

“No more us, Sal,” said Farrel. “We're over.”

“You still owe me eight thousand dollars, girl. Nothing's over till I get that back.”

I saw black rhombuses wobbling in the air between us. Black rhombuses mean anger.

“I'll pay you back as soon as I can. You think I'm dancing in a place like this just for the fun of it all?”

“Move out of here,” I said. “Do it now.”

“Or you'll arrest me.”

“Quickly. It'll cost you forty-eight long cheap hours or two expensive short ones. Your pick.”

“I want what's mine,” Sal said to Farrel. “I want what I paid for.”

“Them's two different things.”

“Maybe it is in that redneck slop hole you come from.”

The window went up and the car swung around and out of the lot, the big tires leaving a rubbery low-speed squeal on the asphalt.

“I'm coming in for a while,” I said.

I had a beer and watched Farrel and the other dancers do their shows. They were uninhibited and rhythmic, to say the least. Some were pretty and some were plain. Some acted flirtatious and others lustful and others aloof. Farrel seemed almost shy, and she never once looked at either me or Vic from what I could tell. She had a small attractive body. Vic stood in the back of the room, lost in the lush plum-colored curtains, his feet spread wide and arms crossed, stone still.

After an hour passed and Sal had not come back, I nodded a goodnight to Vic and went home.

 

Two days later Vic left a message for me and I met him outside the Convention Center. There was a reptile show in progress, and many of the people were entering and leaving the building with constrictors around their necks and leashed iguanas in their arms and stacks of clear plastic food containers filled with brightly colored juvenile snakes.

“Look at this thing,” he said. He reached into the pocket of his aloha shirt and pulled out a huge black scorpion. “They don't sting.”

Vic Malic had enormous hands, but that scorpion stretched from his thumb tip to the nail on his little finger. It looked like it could drill that stinger a half-inch into you anytime it wanted. In his other hand was a clear plastic bag filled with crickets. They were white with dust of some kind. They hopped around, as crickets do.

“Scorpion food?” I asked.

“Yeah. And they dust them with vitamins for thirty cents.”

He looked down at the creature, then slid it back into his shirt pocket. “That son of a bitch Sal is stalking Farrel. That was the third time I've seen him. He shows up everywhere she goes.”

“Tell her to come fill out a report. We can't do anything until she does that.”

“Doesn't trust cops.”

“She seemed proud of her dad.”

“I'm only telling you what she told me. Sal loaned her ten grand because she totaled her car with no insurance, and her baby had to have chemotherapy. Darling little baby. I saw it. Just darling but with cancer.”

“That is a shame.”

“Yeah, and he was all charm at first, Sal was. She kind of liked him. Started paying with favors, you know, but the way he had it figured was he'd get anything he wanted for two years and she'd still owe him half. Plus he likes it rough and he hit her. Then he said he's got friends. He can introduce her to them, you know—they'd really like her. He's a Jersey wise guy, all connected up. Says he is. You heard him. He said he wants what's his and what he paid for.”