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We talk about many things, the three of us, but never about that last day at the lake. It is as if we are afraid that if we start talking, we might never be able to stop.

I am alone in the house when I find the basketball hoop removed from its place over the door and the Nerf ball left sitting on the living room sofa, the foam ball pecked as if by birds. Just before I find the ball, I had planned to go out to the lake for the first time since the
day we watched her float out there, down and away from us. At times I wonder whether we will find her one day, spread out on the lake water with her skin throwing blue shadows over the sun. If she does surface, will we leave her there or try to fish her out? I don't know the answers, but I do miss the smell of the moon pies from time to time, the baking and feeding, the feeling of cleanliness in my hand the day she lapped at the bits of marshmallow and chocolate I had made for her.

I find the note folded on the front seat of the car. I unfold it slowly and hold my breath, thinking of what I might say to the children when they come home, when they ask about their father, who stopped playing his games and left behind the television he feared would explode.

I stand there with the note pressed to my chest. I don't call the police or the hospital, or drive out to the lake, not yet. I go back inside the house and pick up the Nerf ball he left behind on the couch. When I lift it, I see a glint of silver stuffed into the space between the seat and the back of the couch. I reach in with my hand to dig it out and find a stale moon pie, one I must have made long ago, wrapped in foil, waiting to be eaten.

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

No book is written in a vacuum, and I offer my gratitude to the following people and places for time, encouragement, and solace:

to the various editors, anthologies, and magazines for space and attention to various portions of this novel;

to the Virginia Center for the Creative Arts for gloriously uninterrupted time;

to all of the folks at Coffee House Press, especially to Chris Fischbach, Caroline Casey, Amelia Foster, and Molly Fuller, who have helped shepherd this novel through to the end;

to the “Lesley Posse” current students and alum, and to the Lesley faculty who heard early versions of this novel and offered such generous cheering on when I needed it most;

to all of my Goddard people;

to the literary folk I'm lucky to call such fine friends: Alison McGhee, Judith Dupré, Rachel Kadish, Erin Belieu, Tony Eprile, and Chris Lynch, and of course to Cate Marvin;

to Michael, and to our children, Ella and Zachariah, who did not exist at the time of this novel's conception, hard as that seems now to imagine;

to all of the parents and all of the children with special needs who walk this path we walk;

to my father, who gave me gifts too many to enumerate, and whose strength and courage sustain me still;

to my beautiful mother, who was with me for most of the writing of this book, who watched my kids since they were babies so that I could write. There will never be enough words to say how much I thank you, love you, miss you;

to Allan Kornblum for the phone call in 1993 that changed everything, and for the vision and dedication that challenged and bettered all of the novels I had the privilege to work on with him. You are missed, friend.

FUNDER ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

Coffee House Press is an independent, nonprofit literary publisher. All of our books, including the one in your hands, are made possible through the generous support of grants and donations from corporate giving programs, state and federal support, family foundations, and the many individuals that believe in the transformational power of literature. We receive major operating support from Amazon, the Bush Foundation, the McKnight Foundation, and Target. This activity is made possible by the voters of Minnesota through a Minnesota State Arts Board Operating Support grant, thanks to a legislative appropriation from the arts and cultural heritage fund. Our publishing program is also supported in part by the Jerome Foundation and an award from the National Endowment for the Arts. To find out more about how
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Coffee House Press receives additional support from many anonymous donors; the Alexander Family Fund; the Archer Bondarenko Munificence Fund; the Elmer L. & Eleanor J. Andersen Foundation; the David & Mary Anderson Family Foundation; the E. Thomas Binger & Rebecca Rand Fund of the Minneapolis Foundation; the Patrick & Aimee Butler Family Foundation; the Buuck Family Foundation; the Carolyn Foundation; the Dorsey & Whitney Foundation; Fredrikson & Byron,
P.A
.; the Lenfestey Family Foundation; the Mead Witter
Foundation; the Schwab Charitable Fund; Schwegman, Lundberg & Woessner,
P.A
.; Penguin Group; the Private Client Reserve of
US
Bank;
VSA
Minnesota for the Metropolitan Regional Arts Council; the Archie D. & Bertha H. Walker Foundation; the Wells Fargo Foundation of Minnesota; and the Woessner Freeman Family Foundation.

THE PUBLISHER
'
S CIRCLE OF COFFEE HOUSE PRESS

Publisher's Circle members make significant contributions to Coffee House Press's annual giving campaign. Understanding that a strong financial base is necessary for the press to meet the challenges and opportunities that arise each year, this group plays a crucial part in the success of our mission.

“Coffee House Press believes that American literature should be as diverse as America itself. Known for consistently championing authors whose work challenges cultural and aesthetic norms, we believe their books deserve space in the marketplace of ideas. Publishing literature has never been an easy business, and publishing literature that truly takes risks is a cause we believe is worthy of significant support. We ask you to join us today in helping to ensure the future of Coffee House Press.”

—THE PUBLISHER'S CIRCLE MEMBERS OF COFFEE HOUSE PRESS

Publisher's Circle Members include: many anonymous donors, Mr. & Mrs. Rand L. Alexander, Suzanne Allen, Patricia Beithon, Bill Berkson & Connie Lewallen, Robert & Gail Buuck, Claire Casey, Louise Copeland, Jane Dalrymple-Hollo, Mary Ebert & Paul Stembler, Chris Fischbach & Katie Dublinski, Katharine Freeman, Sally French, Jocelyn Hale & Glenn Miller, Jeffrey
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ALLAN KORNBLUM
, 1949–2014

Vision is about looking at the world and seeing not what it is, but what it could be. Allan Kornblum's vision and leadership created Coffee House Press. To celebrate his legacy, every book we publish in 2015 will be in his memory.

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