The Dead & Dying: A Zombie Novel (13 page)

But I had to keep looking. If I didn't at least try, I knew I'd be signing that little boy's death warrant. So even after the full moon had risen well within the sky and tinted the woods in a bluish light, I kept searching. Kept calling his name and dealing with corpses as they staggered through the trees.

The sun rose, the birds chirped their little Good Morning songs, and by then the soles of my feet stung with burst blisters. I'd walked through the woods the whole night through, stopping for a spell only when I couldn't force myself to take another step. I might've nodded off here and there, but if I did it weren't nothing more than a cat nap and offered no real rest. At least not the kind my body demanded.

The morning sun, however, has an effect on someone whose been up the better part of the night. It's almost like the golden light filtering down through the trees and leaves gives a boost of energy. A body feels more hopeful and the cobwebs start to clear from the head a bit. And, of course, the thoughts in that head turn to breakfast.

My stomach rumbled like an angry bear and I realized that it'd been close to fourteen hours or so since I'd eaten anything. I also realized that I couldn't keep going on an empty stomach. That if I had any hope of finding Jason, I had to get some food energy in that tired 'ole body of mine. I knew I had a bunch of Spam in the backpack, maybe some crackers, a mess of Slim Jims, and one or two cans of....

And then it hit me. The backpack. It'd had all my food in it. The little first aid kit I'd lifted from a wrecked car on the interstate. The rest of my ammo. And, in my hurry to chase after the boy, I'd left it back there in the house. In the room with his dead mother where it wouldn't be doing anybody any good.

I had this feeling like my stomach had just turned itself inside out and all the bile had spilled over my innards. I wanted to throw up, to bang my head against the nearest tree as I screamed out my frustration. How could I have been so damn stupid? My life depended on the contents of that bag and I'd just waltzed away, never giving it a second thought until I'd gone so far that I'd never manage to find my way back to where I'd left it. On top of that, I'd killed an innocent girl, let a little boy's mother get bitten by one of those fuckers, and then lost him in the process... some fucking hero I was turning out to be.

About half an hour later, I came across a little patch of blackberries and attacked them like they were manna from heaven. I shoveled handfuls in my mouth, ignoring the prick of the thorns as they drew beads of blood from my fingers, and probably ate more than a few of the little grub worms you sometimes find inching their way along the berries. It wasn't much of a breakfast, but to me the tart sweetness of the juice that stained my lips and fingers was like a full course meal with all the trimmings.

After eating, I kept walking until the sun was well over halfway across the sky. About fifteen minutes earlier, I'd spotted something in the distance: something white, something that occasionally flashed with brilliance from its hiding place behind the trees. I was pretty sure that it was a house or building of some sort and that the flashes were the reflection of the sun on glass windows. Maybe I would be able to find something substantial to eat there or even a weapon that had more than just three rounds left.

My instincts wanted to run full out toward that little glimpse of civilization, but I had to force myself to walk the way my Grandpa showed me when he taught me to hunt. Each foot carefully placed in front of the other, mindful of twigs that could snap and give away my position; in a way I was stalking this building, creeping forward at a pace that would have done a turtle proud. What normally would've taken me a few minutes to cover ended up taking nearly half an hour.

But eventually I was at the edge of the woods and I hunkered down within the trees as I scoped out that lay of the land. What I'd seen had been a house after all. But that house was just one part of a small town, much like the ones I'd grown up in. A single road, most likely called Main Street, cut through the center and I could see the marquee of a theater called The Roxie that looked as if it dated back to the fifties. Accountants, lawyers, real estate agents, a hardware store: all the earmarks of Americana were laid out on either side of that empty road.

I watched for movement, for anything that would betray the presence of rotters. But there was only the shadow of clouds easing across the street and buildings. Only the rustle of leaves on the little trees bordering the sidewalk as a slight breeze rattled litter through a town that seemed frozen in time.

Finally, I stepped out of the safety of the forest and into the open. I gripped my pistol with both hands so tightly I could feel my pulse throbbing within my palms. Take a step. Stop. Listen. Scan the town for any signs of activity. Repeat.

The American flag outside the post office fluttered in the surreal silence and I forced myself to take long, slow breaths.

Take a step. Stop. Listen.

In my mind I had imagined that every city in the country would be in shambles: all shattered glass, burnt out buildings, the wreckage of civilization smoldering amid the ruins of a crumbled world. But this town was immaculate. As if all the residents had simply disappeared in the wink of an eye. As if the Rapture had come during the wee hours of the morning to whisk them away from the hell that was about to be unleashed upon the world.

Take a step.

Maybe I'd be able to find another first aid kit in of the cars parked alongside expired meters.

Stop.

Maybe the grocery up ahead would be filled with row after row of canned food, just waiting for me to come along to find it.

Listen.

Thoughts of food caused my stomach to growl and in the stillness it sounded like a rusty door swinging open.

Scan the town.

I would get what I could from this place, stock up, and then head back out into the woods. Resume the search for the boy. He couldn't have gotten far.

Repeat.

Nearing an intersection, I saw a green, rectangular sign which confirmed my earlier suspicion: the corner of Main and Elm. Before I could go back and check all these mom and pop shops for supplies, I needed to make sure that this place was a clear as it seemed.

I eased my way over to the sidewalk and pressed my back against the rough bricks of Brighton Hardware and Feed. Just a few feet from the intersection now... I stood and listened.

Nothing but the chirping of birds, the wind, and the breakneck rhythm of my own heart.

The pistol felt as heavy as a chunk of granite in my moist palms and I tried to ignore the little voice whispering in my head:

Only three bullets left....

As slowly as I could, I peeked around the corner of the building and what I saw caused my breath to catch in my throat.

Whereas Main Street could've been lifted from a Norman Rockwell painting, Elm was an entirely different story. Here was the destruction I had expected to see: shattered windows with curtains flapping through the empty sills, front doors flung wide open, cars crumpled around telephone poles, bloodstains like dark inkblots on the street and sidewalks. Four houses on Elm were nothing more than a huge pile of cinder and blackened stone and the wreckage seemed to radiate out from a central point as if there had been an explosion.

I saw bodies littered about the street, sprawled out with dark clouds of flies buzzing overhead and crows ripping long strands of flesh with bloody beaks. But none of these bodies seemed to be moving and I was pretty sure zombies didn't have the presence of mind to play possum in an attempt to lure fresh meat to them.

I rounded the corner and came to the first of the fallen. In life, he'd been a young man but now he was nothing more than a sun-bloated feast for the insects and scavengers. His eyes were long gone but there was something within the darkness of the sockets that gave the impression that things were moving around in there. A scuttling sound. Changes in light and shadow. Lumps that shifted position just beneath flesh the color of a paper grocery bag. For a second, I thought I caught a glimpse of something pink as it poked out through the bullet hole in the center of his head. But it was gone so quickly it may have been nothing more than a trick of my exhausted mind.

When I'd approached, the crows had taken flight and perched on a phone line overhead. They called out in their gravelly voices and somehow this sound I'd heard all my life now seemed threatening. As if they were warning me to step away from the food. Just step away and no one gets hurt....

The man's right arm was stretched out away from his body. As if, even in the throes of death, he had been trying to reach the overturned shoe box a few feet away. The contents of the box had spilled out across the street and I saw a few bottles of aspirin that had rolled a distance away, two tins of tuna, a pair of binoculars.

This is wrong.
I thought.
Zombies don't carry supplies....

Overhead, the crows called out again.

Let them have their feast; I would have my own. This man may have been killed when blood still flowed through his veins, but I couldn't let that get in the way of my own survival. The food and supplies, as meager as they were, was fair game and I'd be damned if I'd just leave it behind based on principle.

I gathered the supplies from the street and began stuffing them into my pockets, noticing that fortune had decided to smile upon me. There was also a little Bic lighter and an unopened pack of smokes that had been blocked from view by the overturned box.

After everything was neatly tucked away, I raised the binoculars to my eyes and began sweeping across the landscape. Maybe I could find something else in all of this carnage and destruction, anything that would help me live for another day.

And then I saw them. The undead. They were clustered around the base of a church, hammering and scratching at the walls, hurling themselves against the door, scrambling over one another in their zeal to gain entrance. There must've been fifty, hell maybe seventy-five, of those filthy bastards attacking this little white building with its bell tower and stained glass windows too high off the ground for them to reach.

So that's why I hadn't come across any of the former residents of this town. Something else had caught their interest before I arrived. Something living. Something trapped.

For a while I was like one of those people who see a horrible accident on the freeway but can't tear their eyes away from it. I watched as their fingernails raked ragged scratches in the paint. I watched while they pounded their fists against the wood and leaped at the windows as if they could sprout wings and crash through them.

Finally I snapped out of it with the realization that sooner or later one of them would see me. And that single corpse would set off a chain reaction. Once it began staggering toward me, the others would follow.

Time to leave.

I tried not to think of whoever it was holed up within that church. Tried not to think of the fear they must be feeling as their former friends and neighbors eagerly tried to break into their stronghold. The boy...
he
was my responsibility. I had to return to the search, had to find him. Besides, with only three bullets left there wasn't anything I could do to help the people inside the church. I would get myself killed trying to save them which meant, in turn, that Jason would die to. If he was even still alive.

I lowered the binoculars and slid their strap around my neck as I scooped the shoe box of food into my arms. I had to get while the gettin' was good as Chris Bryson used to say.

I had just stood when I heard it: a voice, small and muffled from this distance, screaming for help. A voice filled with terror. A familiar voice.

A child's voice.

I flipped the binoculars to my eyes again. The zombies, which had been pretty damn persistent before, were now like a pack of starving dogs that had cornered a rabbit in the brambles. They writhed and scrambled, clawed, and I swear I even saw one biting at the walls of the church as if she could chew her way through.

“Leave me alone!”

That voice....

I saw books begin to rain down upon the horde, black covers and pages fluttering as they fell and bounced ineffectually off the heads of the attackers. As if God were dropping Bibles into the crowd in the hopes of casting out the demons that possessed them.

The sides of the church and bell tower blurred as I swept the binoculars upward. No, not God... just a small, frightened boy with tears streaming down his grimy face. A boy I instantly recognized.

Jason.

I lowered the binoculars again, realizing now that I had no choice. Somehow, I would have to make it through that sea of rotting flesh. With only three bullets I'd have to gain entrance to the church, grab Jason, and then fight my way back out again.

And it would have to be soon. The last time I'd spied on the zombies, I'd noticed that the wooden door of the church was beginning to show signs of cracks. It was splintering and before long would be smashed into a jagged hole. And once they had that hole, the rest of the door would quickly fall. So if I wanted to save this boy, I needed to think of something. And fast.

“Go away!”

I had no way of knowing at the time, however, that this little town would be forever burned into my memory. That it would haunt my nightmares and constantly gnaw at the back of my mind like a rotter that preferred thoughts to flesh. For this little town would become the scene of my greatest failure... and I would never be able to forgive myself for the events that played out there.

CHAPTER TWENTY: JOSIE

I was so close to the rotter that, from a distance, it probably looked as if we were about to kiss. Its face loomed in front of me, filling my field of vision. The skin was dark and seemed pulled taught against the skull, almost as if it were paper mache that had been stained ebony. Clumps of hair were scattered across the otherwise bald scalp and the neck looked so long and thin that, for a brief second, it reminded me of the little bobble heads people used to place on the dashboards of their cars.