The Edge of Never (29 page)

“Fine!” he says and then I hear the room door open and then shut behind him.

When I’m done in the bathroom, I gather up all of my dirty laundry and stuff it into my sling bag and I slip on my flip-flops.

23

WE DO LAUNDRY FIRST and while we’re there I
do
fold everything after I take it out of the dryer, rather than shoving it all back into the bags. He tries to protest, but I get my way this time. Afterwards, we hit the town and he takes me everywhere, even to the St. Louis cemetery where the tombs are above ground and I’ve never seen anything like that before. We walk together all the way down Canal Street toward the World Trade Center New Orleans and the ocean where we find a much-needed Starbucks. We talk forever over coffee and I tell him that I got a call from Natalie last night. And we go on and on about her and Damon, who Andrew has grown quickly to detest.

Later we pass up a steak house which Andrew tries to get me to stop with him at by throwing that deal I made with him back on the bus in my face. But I’m not the slightest bit hungry and try to explain to a whimpering steak-deprived Andrew that I have to be ready for a big meal if he wants me to enjoy a steak.

And we find a mall: The Shops at Canal Place, where I am actually excited to go after being stuck wearing the same boring clothes for the past week.

“But we just did laundry,” Andrew protests as we head inside. “What do you need new clothes for?”

I hoist my purse strap on the opposite shoulder and grab him by the elbow.

“If we’re going out tonight,” I say, dragging him along, “then I want to find something cute that looks halfway decent.”

“But what you’re wearing now is cute as hell,” he argues.

“I just want a new pair of jeans and a top,” I say then stop and look at him. “You can help me pick it out.”

That got his attention.

“Alright,” he says, smiling.

I pull him along again. “But don’t get your hopes up,” I say, jerking his arm in emphasis, “I said you can
help
, not
choose
.”

“You sure are getting your way a lot today,” he says. “You should know, babe, I’ll only let you get away with so much before I start playing my cards.”

“What cards do you think you have to play exactly?” I question with confidence because I think he’s bluffing.

He purses his lips when I glance over and my confidence is starting to drain.

“If you recall,” he says all sophisticatedly, “you’re still on whatever-I-say duty.”

Confidence lost.

He grins and jerks my arm towards him this time.

“And since you already let me go down on you once,” he adds and my eyes widen, “I think I could tell you to lie back and spread your legs and you’d have to listen, right?”

I can barely move my eyes around to see if anyone walking by had heard him. Andrew didn’t exactly say that in a whisper, but I wouldn’t expect as much.

Then he slows our pace and leans in toward my ear and says quietly, “If you don’t let me have my way with something simpler soon, I might have to torture you again with my tongue between your legs.” His breath on my ear, combined with his wetness-inducing words, sends shivers up the side of my neck. “Ball’s in your court, babe.”

He pulls away and I want to slap that grin off his face, but he’d probably like it.

Dilemma? Let him have his way with something simple, or keep getting my way and him ‘torture’ me later? Hmmm. I guess I’m more of a masochist than I thought.

~~~

The night falls and I’m ready for our night out. I’m wearing a new pair of tight jeans, a sexy black strapless top that hugs my waist and the cutest black heels I’ve ever found in any mall.

Andrew gawks at me in the doorway.

“I should play my card right now,” he says coming into the room.

I’ve braided my hair into two loose braids this time, one resting over each shoulder, stopping just above my breasts. And I always leave a few strands of blonde hair to fall freely about my face because I always thought it was cute on other girls, so why not me?

Andrew seems to like it. He reaches up and slides each one within his fingers.

I blush inwardly.

“Babe, no fucking joke, you are
smokin’
.”

“Thanks….”
Oh my God, did I just…
giggle
.

I look him up and down, too, and although he’s back to jeans and a simple t-shirt and his black Doc Martens, he’s the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen no matter
what
he’s wearing.

We head out and I turn a few old guy’s heads in the elevator and down the hall. Andrew is eating the hell out of that, I can tell. He’s beaming walking next to me and it just makes my face beet red.

We hang out at d.b.a first and watch a band play for about an hour. But when I get carded and it looks like I’m not going to get to drink here, Andrew takes me farther down the street to another bar.

“It’s a hit or miss,” he says as we approach the bar, hand in hand. “Most of them will card you, but every now and then you get lucky and they don’t bother if you look twenty-one enough.”

“Well, I’ll be twenty-one in five months,” I say, gripping his hand as we cross a busy intersection.

“I was worried you were seventeen when I met you on the bus.”

“
Seventeen
?!” I hope like hell I don’t actually look
that
young.

“Hey,” he says glancing over once, “I’ve seen
fifteen-year-olds
that look twenty—hard to tell anymore.”

“So you think I look seventeen?”

“No, you look about twenty,” he admits, “I’m just sayin’.”

That’s a relief.

This bar is slightly smaller than the last and the people in it are a mixture of fresh-out-of-college and early thirty-something’s. A few pool tables are set side by side near the back and the lighting is dim in the place, mostly localized over the pool tables and in the hallway to my right, leading into the restrooms. The cigarette smoke is thick unlike the last place where it was non-existent, but it doesn’t bother me much. I’m not fond of cigarettes, but there’s something natural about cigarette smoke in a bar. It would almost seem naked without it.

Some kind of familiar rock music is playing from the speakers in the ceiling. There’s a small stage to the left where bands usually play, but no one’s playing tonight. That doesn’t diminish the party-like mood in the atmosphere though, because I can barely hear Andrew talking to me over the music and the shouting voices all around me.

“Can you play pool?” he leans in, shouting near my ear.

I shout back, “I have a few times! But I suck at it!”

He tugs my hand and we walk toward the pool tables and the brighter light, pushing our way carefully through people standing around in just about every available walkable space.

“Sit here,” he says, able to lower his voice a little with the speakers in front of us. “This’ll be our table.”

I sit down at a small round table pressed against a wall where just over my head and to my left there is a staircase leading up to a second floor on the other side of me. I nudge the cigarette-laden ashtray across the table and away from me with the tip of my finger as a waitress walks up.

Andrew is talking to a guy a few feet away next to the pool tables, probably about joining a game.

“Sorry about that,” the waitress says, taking the ashtray and replacing it with a clean one, setting it upside-down upon the table. She washes the top of the table off afterwards with a wet rag, lifting the ashtray to get the spot under it.

I smile up at her. She’s a pretty black-haired girl, probably just turned twenty-one herself and she’s holding a serving tray on one hand.

“Can I get yah anything?”

I only have one chance to act like I’m asked that question a lot without being carded, so I say almost immediately, “I’ll have a Heineken.”

“Make that two,” Andrew says stepping back up with a pool stick in his hand.

The waitress does a double-take when she notices him, and like Andrew in the elevator with me, I’m eating the hell out of it. She nods and glances back down at me with that you-are-one-lucky-bitch look before walking away.

“That guy’s got one more game and then we’ve got the table,” he says, sitting down on the empty chair.

The waitress comes back with two Heineken’s and sets them in front of us.

“Just wave if yah need anything,” she says before leaving again.

“She didn’t card you,” he says, leaning across the table so no one will hear.

“No, but that doesn’t mean I won’t eventually get carded—that happened once in a bar in Charlotte; Natalie and me were almost drunk by the time we were carded and sent packing.”

“Well, then just enjoy it while you can.” He smiles, bringing his beer to his lips and taking a quick drink.

I do the same.

I’m starting to wish I hadn’t brought my purse so I wouldn’t have to keep up with it, but when it’s our turn to play a game of pool, I set it on the floor under our table. We’re kind of off in a cubby-hole so I’m not too worried about it.

Andrew takes me over to the stick rack.

“What’s your pleasure?” he asks, waving his hands across the space in front of the rack. “You have to pick one that feels right.”

Oh, this is going to be fun; he actually thinks he’s teaching me something.

I play coy and clueless, scanning the pool sticks like one might books on a shelf and then take one down. I run my hands along the length of it and hold it out like I would to hit a ball, as if to get the feel of it. I know I look totally dumb-blonde right about now, but that’s exactly how I want to look.

“This one’s as good as any,” I say with a shrug.

Andrew racks the balls in the triangular rack, switching solid for stripe all around until he gets the sequence right and then slides them across the table and into position. Carefully, he removes the rack and shoves it in a slot underneath the table.

He nods. “Want to break em’?”

“Nah, you can.”

I just want to see him lookin’ all sexy, concentrating and leaning over the table.

“Alright,” he says and positions the cue ball. He spends a few seconds twisting the head of his stick into a square of chalk and then sets the chalk on the side of the table.

“If you’ve played before,” he says, moving back around in position with the cue ball, “then I’m sure you know the basics.” He points the end of the stick at the cue ball. “Obviously, you only hit the white ball.”

This is funny, but he’s got this one comin’.

I nod.

“If you’re stripes, the only balls you want to sink in any pockets are the striped balls—hit one of the solids and you’re only helping me beat you.”

“What about that black ball?” I point at the 8 ball near the center.

“If you sink that one before all of your stripes,” he says with a grim face, “you lose. And if you sink the white ball, you lose your turn.”

“Is that all?” I ask, twisting the head of my stick in a square of chalk now.

“For now, yeah,” he says; I guess he’s letting me slide about the few other basic rules.

Andrew takes a couple steps back and leans over the table, arching his fingers on the blue felt and resting the stick strategically within the curl of his index finger. He slides the stick back and forth a couple of times to steady his aim before pausing and then slamming the head of it into the cue ball, scattering the others all over the table.

Good break, baby,
I say to myself.

He sinks two—one stripe, one solid.

“What’ll it be?” he asks.

“What’ll
what
be?” I continue to play dumb.

“Solids or stripes? I’ll let you choose.”

“Oh,” I say as if I’m just getting it, “doesn’t matter; I’ll take the ones with stripes, I guess.”

We’re straying a little from the proper way to play 8 Ball, but I’m pretty sure he’s doing it for my benefit.

My turn comes and I walk around the table searching for that perfect shot. “Are we calling them, or what?”

Andrew looks at me curiously—maybe I should’ve said it more like: Do I hit any of my balls that I want? Surely, he’s not onto me already.

“Just pick any striped ball you think you can sink and go for it.”

OK, looks like I’m still hustling his clueless butt.

“Wait, aren’t we going to bet something?” I ask.

He looks surprised, but then surprise turns to devious.

“Sure, what do you want to bet?”

“My freedom back.”

Andrew frowns. But then his delicious lips turn upward again once he realizes that I apparently don’t know how to play pool.

“Well, I’m a little hurt you would want it back,” he says, switching the stick back and forth between his hands with one end of it standing against the floor, “but sure, I’ll take that bet.”

Just when I think the agreement has been made he adds, putting up one finger: “However, if
I
win, I get to take that do-whatever-I-say to a whole new level.”

It’s my turn to raise a brow.

“A whole new level how?” I ask in a leery, sidelong glance.

Andrew rests his stick against the table and props his hands on the edge, leaning into view of the light. His deep-set grin, just the shear intent behind it, sends a shiver up my back.

“Is it a bet, or not?” he asks.

I’m pretty sure I can beat him, but now he kind of has me scared shitless. What if he’s better than me and I lose this bet and end up eating those bugs or hanging my bare ass out of the moving car? Those were the types of things I wanted to keep him from eventually trying to force me to do—I never did forget that he said:
we’ll get to that
. Sure, I could refuse anything he told me; he assured me of that before we left Wyoming, but not having to go through all that in the first place is all I wanted.

Or…wait…what if it’s sexual in nature?

Oh, it’s on now…I almost hope that he
does
win.

“It’s a deal.”