The Faculty Club: A Novel (6 page)

She trailed off, shrugged.

"But . . ."

"My dad worked it out with the school. They wrote it off as a research semester on my transcript. I slept late, worked out, did some easy lab work a couple of hours a day. I took the tests again and got straight A's. They backdated the grades. My F's just kind of . . . disappeared." She looked right at me. "I'm sure there's some nice new building on campus with our name on it."

I let it all sink in.

"You asked him to do this?" My question came out more judgmental than I meant it to.

She shook her head. "No. But I went with it. I didn't say no." She sighed. "So you see, you
feel
like a mistake. But I know I am."

We walked toward her apartment without talking. It was well past midnight, and even in this academic hamlet, it wasn't safe for women to walk alone along the river at night.

I thought about her story. I guess I knew things like that happened, but to
hear
it for sure . . . it's the kind of stuff that makes
schools like this an impossible dream for people like me. And yet I couldn't shake the feeling I got from her. Her eyes were kind and playful at the same time; they looked right at you, as if you were the most important person in the world. I couldn't think of anyone I'd rather have leaning over my hospital bed, telling me everything was going to be all right. Or was I just going easy on her because she was pretty?

Finally, I said, "I think you're too hard on yourself. In the end, you took those tests. You made those A's."

"My transcript is a lie."

"I'm not denying that. And I'm not saying it's right. I'm just saying you can't torture yourself like this. It's not good for you. It won't help your patients."

She smiled, but she didn't look convinced.

"Do you have any hobbies?" I asked.

"What?"

She looked at me like I was crazy.

"Hobbies," I repeated. "Things you do for fun. When you're not beating yourself up."

She thought about it for a second.

"I like opera."

"Really? I've never even heard an opera."

"Well, I haven't been in years, since I stopped letting my dad pay for things. Now it's too expensive. But I have my CDs."

She smiled genuinely for the first time that night, then she caught herself.

"So," she said, stopping and looking right at me. "What should I do?"

"I really don't know."

"I could use some friendly advice."

"What would happen if you came clean?"

"They'd fire me. I'd never get another job in medicine."

"And if you didn't? Like I said, you made those A's in the end. Can you make peace with yourself?"

"I don't know. Could you?"

"The truth is, it would be pretty easy for me to tell you to do the right thing. It's not my career. It's not my dream at stake. I don't know what I'd really do if I were you."

We reached her stoop.

"This is it," she said.

We were standing below a brownstone with a short staircase up to her door.

"Are you going to be okay?"

"Yeah. It felt good just to say it out loud. That's a start, right? I just need some sleep. A shower, go for a run maybe."

I looked at her pretty face, her warm smile. I didn't like what she had done (or had let happen), but she was so kind, so gentle. I wanted her to stop hurting all the same.

"Some first date," she said.

I hesitated, then took a shot.

"Can I see you again?"

She studied my face. For a second, I thought she was going to say yes.

"What would we do?" she asked, smiling. "See a movie? Grab some pizza? I think tonight kind of exists in its own universe. Total strangers. Moonlight confessions. Isn't that what you said?"

"I guess so."

"We have a secret," she said, holding out her hand.

"We do," I said.

She squeezed my hand, and I felt it through my entire body.

Friday the seventeenth. I couldn't stop shaking. My tie was crooked. My jacket looked worn. I cursed my pants, my shoes. It was all wrong, bush league, low-class. Nothing I could do about it now. I wished I'd had the courage to ask Nigel to come with me. I knew he would be there, but just as certainly, I knew that I couldn't say anything to him, that I was supposed to arrive alone.

2312 Morland Street. I didn't even know what that was. Was it the secret clubhouse? Even Miles, my source of all things creepy and Ivy League, didn't know where the physical heart of the V&D was located. There was no famous landmark, no cryptic house for tourists to photograph. At least, not as far as he knew. And Miles ate this stuff up with the delight of a stamp collector. If he didn't know, who else could I ask?

Yesterday, I told Miles about the invitation. I couldn't stand it anymore. I had to tell
someone
. He was a huge help. He stroked his wild beard, patted me on the shoulder, and said: "My advice? If they ask you to have sex with a goat, that's where you draw the line."

"Be serious. I have no idea what I'm doing."

"Jeremy, as a philosopher, I deal in ethics and reason. As a hobbyist, I dabble in mythology and campus lore. I can do both
from my couch, and I don't have to turn the TV off. As far as reality goes, you've taken this farther than I ever imagined. So, what I'm saying is, you're on your own."

He smiled and shrugged. I thanked him for the help and huffed toward the door.

"Jeremy?" he called after me.

"What?"

"I
can
tell you one thing."

"Okay," I said. I turned around, a little too eagerly.

"Don't forget to send the goat a thank-you note."

I grabbed the door to slam it behind me. Just before the thud, I heard him yell, "Rich people
love
thank-you notes."

The door closed to the sound of his booming laugh.

2312 Morland Street turned out to be a pale blue two-story Victorian house, with navy trim, octagonal bay windows, and pointy triangular turrets, nestled on a quiet street of similar houses. The lawn was small and well-kept.

As I walked up, I saw two young women lounging on the stoop. They were about my age, but they didn't look local; they were tan with long legs and teased-up hair that reminded me of bored summer girls from my childhood. One of the girls smiled at me as I walked up the steps. The other was inspecting her nails and didn't look up.

"I'm Jeremy," I said.

"O-
kay,
" said the one who smiled at me, in a perfectly adolescent
what's that got to do with me?
tone. She stared me down, and I blinked first.

"Am I in the right place?"

The other girl started laughing without looking up from her nails. It was a haughty, bubble-gum-smacking laugh. "Why are you asking
us
where
you're
supposed to be?"

It was a fair question. I felt my face flush. I mumbled
nevermind
and headed for the door. I heard them whispering behind me; one of them said, "I
know
!" and they both laughed.

I didn't see a doorbell, so I knocked and waited.

Finally, a man answered the door. He looked like a model out of the Brooks Brothers catalog; silver-haired, with a plaid shirt open at the collar and a perfectly tailored blazer. His handsome face was tan and lined.

"Jeremy, please come in. Right on time."

He patted me on the shoulder.

We walked through the foyer into a majestic living room. The house felt larger on the inside than it did on the outside. And the man moved gracefully through it. He was so comfortable in his own skin that I started to feel like an alien in mine. The room was filled with chairs and couches, some gathered around a grand piano. But all the seats were empty now, like a saloon in a frontier town after the mines had caved.

"I'd invite you to sit, but I'm afraid we don't have time," he said.

A woman came through a set of swinging doors and placed an arm around the man. She had a wobbly walk, and as she approached I could smell the cloud of alcohol mixing with her perfume. Her hair was blond with black roots, and it was coiled and springy from a bad perm. She wore a white tank top that exposed a generous stomach. She looked like one of the girls outside dipped in alcohol and baked in the sun for twenty years.

"Hey babe," she drawled to the man, with a Southern twang.

The man didn't flinch when she put her arm around him. What was someone like
her
doing with someone like
him
?

"This is Jeremy," the man said to her. Not a trace of awkwardness on his face. "Jeremy, this is my friend Candace. She just flew in this morning."

"Nice to meet you," I said, holding out my hand.

"Ooh, he's cute," she said to the man. She grinned at me. Her makeup was garish, but I could see how she had once been very pretty. "You should meet my daughters," she said. Then she mock-whispered, "The younger one's a
virgin
."

I coughed and choked at the same time.

"Candy, fix yourself a drink. I'm going to take Jeremy upstairs."

He put his arm around me, and we wound up a grand staircase to a landing on the second floor. I soaked in the beauty of the house. Every detail, every touch was perfect: marble archways with smooth-breasted angels leaning out. Antique clocks and lamps whose shapes echoed the bends and slants of the rooms around them. Like the man himself. That woman was the only outlier, like a toddler slapping her finger down on the perfect wrong note in the middle of a sonata. A sly, crazy thought popped into my head. Were they mocking me? Was she some sort of "white trash" parody, meant to remind me of my place? Or was I just totally paranoid and freaked out by the whole situation? Who knows, maybe she was exactly what this guy liked. After all, Bill Clinton was the most powerful man in the world, and you saw the gaggle of misfits he chased. There would always be senators caught with their pants down at highway rest stops, exploring various flavors of self-destruction. So, which was it: parody or lust? Either way it was funny. The only question was: was I laughing at them or were they laughing at me?

* * *

We passed through a small door into a study. There was an oak desk in the center of the room and bookshelves on all sides. But instead of books, the shelves were lined with relics from all over the world: African masks, Indian idols, Native American totems, and a hundred other artifacts I couldn't place.

On the wall was a giant map, the kind that showed the whole world spread out into two smashed ellipses, side by side. There were hundreds of small pins stuck into it, marking different cities.

"Have you been to all these places?"

"I have." His blue eyes gleamed. "Over many years, obviously."

I inspected a small, tattered map framed on the wall.

"One of the original maps from the search for Bimini.
That
set me back a bit," he added, chuckling.

He gave me space and let me stroll around the shelves.

"What's this?" I asked, looking at a small bottle. It reminded me of a beaker from high school chemistry, down to the stopper in the top. It contained a yellow liquid.

"Ah." He crossed over and held it up. "Aqua regia. King's water. It's a mixture of hydrochloric and nitric acids. Famous for its ability to dissolve gold."

He took a pen from his desk and jotted something down. He tore the page off and handed it to me.

Au
+
3 NO
₃
^-
+
6 H
⁺
-
Au
³⁺
+
3 NO
₂
+
3 H
₂
O

Au
³⁺
+
4 Cl
^-
-
AuCl
₄
^-

I nodded, as if this meant anything at all to me.

"Are you a chemist?" I asked.

He laughed. "You sound surprised."

"No, I just . . . I guess I thought you were a lawyer . . ."

He didn't say anything.

I stumbled on. "Because of your connection to . . ."

He watched me curiously. I had to stop
talking
.

He finally spoke, breaking the tension.

"Chemistry is a hobby of mine. But I didn't mix this myself. This bottle, like all the objects in this room, has historical significance."

He lifted the bottle off the shelf and held it up to the lamp. It sparkled through the light.

"This was recovered from the Nazis. All the failures of the human mind, the Nazis. The lust for power, the desire to be led. Delusions of superhumanity, put toward the lowest acts of bestial murder. Tell me, Jeremy, have you ever seen a Nobel Prize?"

"No, sir."

"They're quite beautiful." With his right index finger, he traced a circle the size of his palm. "Two hundred grams of 23-carat gold. The front features an engraving of Alfred Nobel and the dates of his birth and death in roman numerals."

He took the scrap of paper from my hand and wrote on it:

NAT--MDCCCXXXIII

OB--MDCCCXCVI

"The back displays the prizewinner's name, above a picture representing their field of endeavor. The medals are handed out each year in Sweden by His Majesty the King."

His eyes drifted off, as if he were picturing a king clasping his shoulder and pressing the medal down into his palm.

"Do you know what the poet Yeats said when he accepted his medal?"

"No," I answered, for the fiftieth time that night.

"He saw his engraving: a young man listening to a beautiful woman stroking a lyre. And he said, 'I was good-looking once like that young man, but my unpractised verse was full of infirmity, my Muse old as it were; and now I am old and rheumatic, and nothing to look at, but my Muse is young.'

"Now," he smiled, "to answer your question. In 1940, the Nazis invaded Denmark. Until that point, the Institute for Theoretical Physics had been a haven for German scientists fleeing the Nazis, including the Nobel Prize winners James Franck and Max von Laue. Suddenly, they had just hours to hide their medals before the Nazis stormed the institute. They had to hide the gold, or the Nazis would use it to fund their horrors. But where to hide it? The Hungarian chemist de Hevesy suggested burying the medals, but Neils Bohr argued that the Nazis would just dig them up. Then de Hevesy came up with a brilliant idea: he would quickly mix together some aqua regia. He dissolved the medals into a beaker--this beaker, actually--and placed it on his shelf among hundreds of identical beakers.