The Forsaken (26 page)

Y
ou don’t believe I love you?” Jason Colson said. “How about I climb to the top of the water tower and write it out in spray paint for all of Jericho to see?”

“How old are you?” Jean said.

“I can climb a tree better than a monkey.”

“And what if you break your neck, with all those people wandering the Square watching?” she said. “And then people will say, ‘There goes Jean Ann Beckett. She killed a man for love.’”

“I could climb that old water tower drunk and blind,” Jason said. “You know how I got my start doing stunts?”

“I do.”

“Well, it’s true,” Jason said. “Trimming trees. Taking on jobs that no one wanted to do. I never been afraid of heights, small spaces, or going faster than a speeding bullet. When I was a kid, my brother Jerry and me used to hop freight trains and ride ’em down to Meridian, find another, and ride it back. I liked to ride up on top of the cars. I liked the wind and bugs in my teeth.”

“If you’re trying to prove you love me, you haven’t succeeded,” Jean said.
“But if you’re trying to tell me to watch out, you’re crazy, then you’re doing just fine.”

“God damn,” Jason said. “Look at you.”

Jean had on ragged cutoff jeans and a bikini top made from a red bandanna. She’d worn a T-shirt on the ride and tall cowboy boots, to play it safe, Jason taking her to his secret side of Choctaw Lake, in a little place away from the boaters and fishermen. This was a private place he’d been coming since he was a boy, nice and cool, covered in trees. He’d spread out a blanket and they’d eaten some cold fried chicken, beans, and slaw he’d bought in town. Jean lay back, head in his lap, and he stroked his fingers on her belly and rib cage, little goose bumps raising on her pale, freckled skin.

“My brother said if you made any passes at me, to let him know.”

“Is that a charge in Jericho?”

“He’s a lot older,” Jean said. “He’s very old-fashioned.”

“Just a nice little picnic, darlin’,” Jason said. “Nothing wrong with that.”

Jason slid Jean’s head from his lap and lay by her side, leaning into her and kissing her hard on the mouth. He held the kiss a long time. There was a nice cool breeze coming off the lake. On the portable radio they brought, they could hear music coming over state lines. A little station in Alabama playing an old Bob Dylan song.

Jason leaned onto his elbow and smiled down at this redheaded woman who’d come into his life. He moved his hand down around her belly and tried to move it into her cutoffs, Jean catching his hand by his wrist and bringing it north. Jason smiled.

“If you married me, there wouldn’t be any sin.”

“You ready for all that?” Jean said. “Mr. Hollywood. Let’s not lie to each other. It’s the Fourth of July, maybe our last couple days together. This is just a summer fling. Don’t lie to either one of us.”

“God damn it,” Jason said. “I got a can of red spray paint. I will crawl up that old water tower and spell it out.”

“And my brother will arrest your drunk ass.”

Jason smiled, sliding his bare feet against Jean’s, toes touching, leaning in for another kiss, smelling the sweetness of her hair. He came back up for air and touched her belly. “You like this song?”

“Sure,” Jean said. “But Bob Dylan is no Elvis.”

“‘The Mighty Quinn,’” Jason said. “I heard he wrote this song on account of Anthony Quinn being such a badass. Always liked the way it sounded tough. A man of no fear.”

“And what are we doing tonight?”

“You want to ride out to the clubhouse with me?” Jason said. “We don’t have to stay or nothing.”

Jean looked at him with those green eyes, above that small freckled nose. He saw something there he didn’t like, something akin to fear, and that’s not the way he wanted these days to end.

“Just us,” she said. “That’s what you said.”

“Just a few beers,” Jason said. “OK?”

“No,” Jean said, reaching up and gripping the back of his neck, pulling him down close for another kiss. She smelled so sweet, her big chest pushing against his as they breathed together. “This is our private club. And tonight, you stay with me.”

“All night?” Jason said, grinning. Not many women could resist his smile.

“If that’s what it takes.”

A
nd how’d that go?” Quinn asked.

“Terrible,” Lillie said. “Just god-awful. Am I getting overtime for this shit?”

“What’d he say?”

“Before or after he threw up?”

“Does it matter?” Quinn said.

They’d met up at the Sonic around eleven, the Sonic already closed, Lillie crawling up into the cab of the Big Green Machine. Quinn had the motor going, blowing the heat on high, while they talked. The snow had slowed. Not a single car passed them on the road into town. Everything as quiet as Christmas.

“He said the lynching hadn’t been his idea,” Lillie said. “He said it had all been Chains LeDoux and some fella named Big Doug. You ever heard that name?”

Quinn shook his head. He reached down into the console between them and grabbed his Thermos. He poured some into his cup and offered it to Lillie.

“Hell, I want to go to bed,” she said. “Last thing I need is some caffeine, with this all pinging around in my head. Hank Stillwell may be the
saddest man I’ve ever witnessed. He said he’s felt bad the rest of his life for what they did to that poor fella. He admits to being with the gang when they went up into the hills and grabbed him. But when they decided on more than a beating, he took his motorcycle and drove off. He said he went down to Gulf Shores, Alabama, and stayed there for almost two years. Said he worked on fishing boats.”

“So who saw the lynching?”

“He named a lot of folks and I wrote them all down,” Lillie said. “But there was only one name that jumped out at me.”

“Yep.”

“Funny, how you can know a person.”

“Or not know a person,” Quinn said. “There’s a lot about my daddy I don’t know or care to know. I’m just surprised something like this happened in Tibbehah. I figured any bad shit would’ve happened on the West Coast. Why would he be so almighty stupid to fall in with some shitbirds like this? He’d already made a name for himself.”

Lillie and Quinn sat together in the truck, the scanner breaking up the silence with the voice of a new woman they had on nights. She was talking back and forth with Kenny, who was doing a wellness check on an old couple living in Dogtown.

“I’ve heard a lot of stories about Jason Colson,” Lillie said, “but not a single one about him being mean or having a temper.”

“I don’t think this was a usual situation,” Quinn said. “In times of stress, people come unglued. They don’t act themselves. This was right after a fourteen-year-old girl is murdered. Another is raped.”

“I asked why they targeted this man,” Lillie said. “I kept on wondering was it just because he was there? You know, the first black man they could find? But Stillwell said no. He said someone down in Sugar Ditch had named him. Said the son of a bitch was crazy as hell and had sold off the gold cross that had belonged to Lori. Stillwell said that over and over. ‘He had the cross.’”

“That’s pretty damning.”

“Turns out, this man had found her stuff, her purse, and some other personal items in the trash,” Lillie said. “Man was a drifter. He lived out of trash cans and dumpsters.”

Quinn drank some coffee, warming his hands on the cup. An 18-wheeler passed the Sonic, driving at a high rate of speed. If he hadn’t been busy, he might have chased the guy, told him this was a just a small town, but it was his town and did he mind taking it easy when he came to Jericho.

“So what was he doing at the Rebel?” Quinn asked. “With the stripper and Stagg?”

“I’m getting to that,” Lillie said. “Hold on.”

Quinn sipped on the black coffee, recalling a tin cup of instant being knocked out of his hand in a dry creek bed in the AFG. A sniper up in the rocky hills taking aim, thinking Quinn’s team was coming for him and the twenty insurgents hidden in a cave. No one knowing where to find the sonsabitches until they started shooting. The bullet had gone through the cup and off his breastplate. And then there had been a lot of smoke bombs, flash bangs, and nearly twenty-four hours of zigzagging up that craggy face until they got to the mouth of that cave and brought those boys out, one by one, each replacing the next, until there was nothing left but that cold wind.

“Johnny Stagg took his Road Runner,” Lillie said, “he didn’t just out-and-out steal it. But took the paper in exchange for a thousand dollars due in a month.”

“You got to hand it to Stagg,” Quinn said, “he is one prismatic son of a bitch.”

“Yes, sir.”

“And the stripper was an incentive?”

“Nope,” Lillie said. “She was just giving him a ride home.”

“God bless her.”

“But when I found Stillwell, mind you, he was crashed out on the rug in his living room,” Lillie said. “I had to put the toe of my boot up under his chin a few times before he came to. He was a mess. He looked up at me and acted like I had caught him doing something. And so what do you do? I acted like I sure had caught him. He got to his knees—that’s when he threw up the first time. Good Lord, if vomiting was an Olympic sport . . .”

“What’d he say?”

Another semi blew past the Sonic, not noticing the light bars on top of Quinn’s truck or any of the thirty-five-miles-an-hour signs posted. “Should we chase them down?” Lillie said. “Once you got kids, these fuckers really start to piss you off.”

“What’d he say?”

Lillie tilted her head, placed her hands on her thighs, and shook her head. “This wasn’t the first or only money he’d been taking from Stagg.”

Quinn waited. He reached for a dead cigar in his ashtray. Lillie reached out and touched his hands. “Wait until I leave,” she said, “OK?”

Quinn nodded.

“Stagg paid him two thousand dollars to talk to Diane Tull,” Lillie said. “Stagg told him to get her good and stoked and to go to the police about Lori. That piece of shit knew it wouldn’t take two steps before we’d get on to the lynching. That’s a man full of a lot of worry. He must have something real bad going with these Born Loser folks.”

“Did you ask Stillwell about it?”

“Yeah,” Lillie said. “And he was about to answer when his head dropped in the toilet. I had to drag him to the sofa, and even took off his boots. He could use a new pair of socks, every toe sticking out of a hole.”

•   •   •

Most mornings,
before driving back to the farm, Quinn would check up on the progress of his mother’s house in town. The contractor got paid by
the hour and, every time Quinn checked, the man was there right at 0600. He’d had a lot of work to do beyond just putting the roof back together. There was some bad structural damage to the brick walls, and a lot of plumbing, wiring, and flooring had to be restored. Today, the front door was unlocked and open, the contractor not there, as he’d finished two days before.

The house where Quinn had grown up was oddly empty and strange. They’d moved most of his mother’s furniture, appliances, and Elvis memorabilia into a storage unit. A good two-thirds of the house was pretty much the same, but the new section didn’t have the old blue carpet or the popcorn ceiling. The smell was different, of fresh-cut wood and glue, and the windows were different. Instead of the old wood frames, there was modern, energy-efficient vinyl.

Quinn missed the old windows. He was walking over to inspect the glass and casing when he saw a car pull into the drive. Jean Colson got out of the car, opened the hatch, and lifted out a box. Quinn met her in the driveway and helped her carry a few more boxes into the house.

“Looks like they haven’t finished the paint,” Quinn said, “just the primer.”

“I was coming to town anyway,” Jean said. “Figured I’d just bring back some pots, pans, and few cups and plates.”

“There’s no rush to leave the farm,” Quinn said. “That house is yours as much as mine. Hell, you grew up there.”

“I appreciate that,” Jean said. “But that old house hasn’t but one bathroom. I prefer having my own, thank you very much.”

Quinn shrugged as Jean walked through the rooms and stared up at the ceiling, the place where that ragged hole had been after the tornado and, for months after, a blue tarp. She walked back to her big empty bedroom and into the kitchen, where some new stainless steel appliances had been installed, the insurance paying out for all the storm damage.

“What do you think?” Quinn said.

“Looks good,” she said. “I still wouldn’t mind closing off that porch, maybe adding in screen.”

“There’s always time for additions,” Quinn said. “But you got a roof over your head, a new kitchen, and some new windows.”

“The windows don’t match.”

Quinn nodded and rubbed the back of his neck.

“Are you doing all right?” she asked.

“I’ve been on duty all night, Momma,” Quinn said. “I just came by to make sure things were locked up.”

“I got a key yesterday,” she said, eyeing him. “There’s not much to steal.”

“Boom and I can help you when you’re ready,” Quinn said, “but I kind of got used to your cooking.”

Jean smiled. “You don’t need me,” she said. “You got Ophelia to do all that.”

“You ever eaten her food?”

“Bad?” Jean said.

“Yes, ma’am,” Quinn said. “I wouldn’t advise it.”

Jean felt along the walls where the Sheetrock had been taped and mudded. Her heels clacked loudly in the open living room as she glanced around at all the space she’d have to fill again. She’d never mentioned it, but Quinn knew she was proud of the home for holding together during the storm. She and his father had bought the one-level ranch in 1982 and it was pretty much all he remembered. From time to time, Jason would still find some of Quinn’s buried G.I. Joes in the backyard, his and Caddy’s old play fort still up in some pine trees in the backyard.

“I might move to town,” Quinn said, “let Caddy and Jason have the farm until they get situated. She talked about using that old trailer at The River. But I don’t want Jason out there. She’ll get settled, but I don’t want her to rush.”

“Where will you go?”

“I had an invite to move in with Ophelia,” Quinn said.

Jean smiled. “I wondered how long that would take.”

“No lectures on me living in sin?”

“Not from me,” Jean said. “Sin can sometimes be fun. But some people may not approve. Just don’t make a quick decision, with that election coming up.”

Quinn laughed and shook his head. “Hell, that doesn’t matter,” he said. “That thing’s lost. People around here think Lillie and I are guilty of murder. The DA in Oxford won’t dismiss charges or take things to the grand jury. They’re gonna hold things long enough to make sure my name means nothing.”

“Lots of folks believe in you,” Jean said. “Do you know how many people stop me on the street to thank me for all you’ve done? Or at church? Or the Rexall?”

“How many folks are going to walk up to my momma and tell her the worst?”

“Think about Ophelia,” she said. “That’s a nice thing for Caddy. But once I’ve moved out, she and Jason can take the whole upstairs till they get settled.”

Quinn nodded. He put his arm around his mother, light creeping into the front windows and across the new floors. He patted her back and she let out a long breath, smiling and settling into the thought of coming back home after nearly a near.

“Caddy told me you’re getting a lot of pressure to solve what happened to Diane Tull,” Jean said. “And that mess that came after.”

“Yep.”

“That’s why you wanted to know about your father and that gang.”

“I shouldn’t have asked,” Quinn said. “I know how hard it was to raise me and Caddy. You tried your best to keep him out of our lives and do the best you could for us. To bring him up was wrong.”

“No it wasn’t.”

“He’s a dishonorable man,” Quinn said. “Let’s not talk about him again.”

Jean stared up at Quinn. “If you could talk to him, what would you ask?”

“Just one thing,” Quinn said. “What did he see the night that man was lynched?”

“It won’t bother you to see him, not knowing why he left us?” Jean said. “I’m worried about you more than him if y’all came face-to-face.”

“Shit,” Quinn said, “I don’t give a damn. Lots of men leave their families. I was lucky to have you and Uncle Hamp. Y’all raised me. He doesn’t mean a thing to me.”

“But it could help you,” Jean said, “with the DA’s office and the mess they got you in. If he’d tell you the truth.”

Quinn didn’t say anything. The morning light had crept over the floor and was moving up the walls. Jean stepped away from Quinn for a moment and walked the new hardwood. She put her arms around her waist and stared down as she paced. “I never wanted you to speak to him,” Jean said, “but I guess that’s my own selfishness.”

“What does it matter?” Quinn said. “He could be dead, for all we know.”

This time, Jean was silent. She met her son’s eye and tilted her head. “He’s not dead,” she said. “Not yet.”

Quinn nodded. “How do you know?”

“Because your Uncle Van goes to see him a few times a year,” Jean said. “He comes back and runs his mouth to me as if I give a shit.”

“Van lied to me, then.”

“He’s just protectin’ you.”

Quinn nodded, not buying it. “How’s Van afford to get out west?”

“Your father hasn’t been out west for almost ten years,” she said. “He’s been working at some horse farm in Hinds County, getting himself clean. Some little town called Pocahontas.”