The Golem and the Jinni (70 page)

The man whispered something.

“Yes, it’s me,” the woman said, and her voice was choked with emotion, though her eyes were dry. “I’m here.” She touched his arm quickly, like a cook testing a pan for heat. Apparently finding him cool enough, she rested her hand on his shoulder. His eyes didn’t open, but one hand reached up to cover hers.

Sophia looked about the room and might have laughed at the tableau: the most prominent household in New York, reduced to gawking open-mouthed at a naked man on their dining room floor. The servants all hung back, some crossing themselves. Someone whispered to her father, “Sir, the police are in the hall.” The woman’s head came up at this, her look one of fierce protection.

“No,” Sophia said. She moved to stand in front of the three intruders. “Father, send the police away. They aren’t needed.”

“Sophia, go upstairs. We’ll speak later.”

“I told you, I know this man. I’ll vouch for him, and his friends.”

“Don’t be ridiculous. How could you possibly—”

“They’re my guests,” she said firmly. “Send the police away. And someone please fetch this man a blanket.” She turned away from them and bent over the familiar figure, who still had barely moved. The tall woman was watching her strangely, as though trying to see inside her. “You know him,” the woman said.

She nodded, took the man’s other hand in hers. “Ahmad?”

His eyes did not open, but his forehead creased in a frown. “Sophia?” he murmured; and she heard her father draw a shocked breath.

“Yes, it’s me,” she said, aware of the eyes on her, the too-accurate conclusions they were all drawing. Her cheeks would have burned were she warm enough. “You’re in my home. You’re safe here.” She cast a challenging glance at her father, but he only stood pale and stricken. “What happened to him?” she asked the woman.

“He tried to end his own life.”

“My God! But why?”

The woman looked like she would have said more but then glanced about the room, at the frightened and attentive faces. Sophia said, “Perhaps we should discuss this in private. We’ll take him to my bedroom. There should be a fire lit already.”

A maid entered with a heavy wool blanket; she handed it to Sophia and backed away, clearly terrified. Together the tall woman and the ragged man covered their half-conscious charge and lifted him to his feet, supporting him from either side. Sophia placed a protective hand on the woman’s arm, and together, under watchful eyes, the group walked from the dining room. “Father, I’ll speak with you soon,” she said as they left.

They bundled him into Sophia’s bed, and placed a copper foot-warmer under the covers. The ragged man—one Dr. Saleh, it seemed, who spoke only Arabic—set about strengthening the fire, and soon the room was warm enough even for Sophia’s comfort. Then Dr. Saleh and the woman, whose name was apparently Chava, talked quietly together for some minutes, with frequent glances at Sophia.

“I apologize for involving you in this,” the woman said to her at length, “but we had no choice, Ahmad’s life was at stake.” A pause. “I take it that you know what he is?”

“I think so,” Sophia said. “And you are the same?”

The woman glanced away, suddenly self-conscious. “No,” she said. “I’m . . . something else. A golem.”

Sophia had no idea what that meant but was unsure how to say this, so she merely nodded. “Please tell me what happened.”

And so the Golem related the story. Sophia had a feeling that a number of details were being omitted, but only listened as the Golem described finding the Jinni in Bethesda Fountain. “But that’s where I first met him,” Sophia said, confused. “And I still don’t understand—why would he do this?”

“You may stop talking about me as though I’m not here,” a voice muttered from the bed.

The Golem was first to his side—she moved so impossibly fast! “Hello, Ahmad,” she said quietly.

“Chava,” he said. “You shouldn’t have rescued me.”

“Don’t be foolish. Too much has been lost already.”

A harsh laugh. “You say more than you know.”

“Hush.” She took his hand and squeezed it, as though making certain he was truly there; and suddenly Sophia felt like an interloper in her own bedroom.

The Jinni noticed Dr. Saleh, and said something to him in Arabic, his tone affronted. The doctor responded in kind, gruff and sarcastic, then wiped a hand across his brow. He had, Sophia noticed, gone rather sickly-looking. The Golem asked a question, and he replied dismissively; but it was clear that the heat of the room disagreed with him.

“I’m afraid Dr. Saleh has had a strenuous morning, and little to eat,” the Golem told her.

“Of course. I’ll take him downstairs, and make certain he’s seen to.”

A faraway look had come into the Golem’s eye. She said, “You might also assure everyone at the foot of the stairs that we’re not in fact murdering you, and there’s no need to break down the door.”

Sophia stared at her. “What, truly?”

“I’m afraid so.”

“In that case, I thank you for the warning,” she said and resolved to find out what a golem was as soon as possible.

She took Dr. Saleh down to the kitchen, and told the staff in no uncertain terms to feed him, and see to his needs. They stared at her as though she’d grown horns, but nodded and bobbed all the same. Whispers trailed her as she left.

Upstairs she was told that her parents were in the library, waiting to speak with her. She decided she would take this as an opportunity. The servants, she’d tell her parents, were bound to gossip, and her reputation would most certainly be damaged. Why not break the engagement now, before it could end in ignominy? And perhaps it would be best if she traveled for a while, while the rumors ran their course. India, South America, Asia. The warmer climates.

She tried to hide her smile as she opened the library door.

The morning service was already under way when Michael Levy reached his uncle’s old synagogue. He’d been wandering the Lower East Side, trying to comprehend the ruin of his life, when he’d realized where his path was taking him. He had no strength left to change his course. He could not stomach the thought of going home. But neither could he go back to the Sheltering House, for fear that she would still be there. He supposed he should be grateful that she’d managed to warn him, that he’d escaped with his life; but at the moment, gratitude lay far beyond his reach.

His uncle’s old synagogue had originally been a Methodist church. It was a blandly anonymous worship hall of rough-hewn gray stone, neither imposing nor welcoming, the sort of building that might change hands a dozen times with the neighbors none the wiser. Inside, twenty or so men gathered at the front of the wooden pews. Most were nearing his uncle’s age. Michael hesitated just outside the sanctuary, suddenly resistant. He dreaded being recognized by his uncle’s old cohorts. They would whisper praises to God on his behalf, claim him as proof that one always returns to faith in times of difficulty.

Well, would they be wrong? He had accepted as truth that his wife was a clay creature brought to life by—what? The will of God? Must he believe in God now, if he was to make sense of this? The thought made him feel petulant, as though he were a child again, being dragged to school against his will. But neither could he unlearn what he’d discovered.

The service began, the men’s voices surging and falling.
You have turned my lament into dancing, You loosened my sackcloth and girded me with joy
. They chanted the psalms and praises, and as always the rhythm fastened itself to his heartbeat. It seemed unfair that the prayers could affect him this way, against his will; that he could scoff at the sentiments, yet find himself mouthing along. He imagined himself at ninety, toothless and doddering, unable to remember anything except for the morning prayers. They were his deepest memories, his first music.

He didn’t know when, exactly, he’d stopped believing. It had not come on suddenly, nor had he argued himself into unbelief, no matter what his uncle had thought. No, he’d simply noticed one day that God had disappeared. Perhaps he’d never truly believed in the first place. Or else he’d simply swapped one belief for another, loving neither God nor atheism but ideology for its own sake—as he’d fallen in love not with a woman, but the image of one.

Chava Levy,
he thought,
you are a hard fact to live with.

All at once his throat filled with tears. Holding back a sob, he left his spot at the sanctuary door and returned to the street. He could no longer hear the chanting, but his mind took up the thread, leading him unwillingly through the rest of the service as he walked back to the Sheltering House. It was his only true home now, and he supposed if he had a religion, the House was its temple, dedicated not to gods or ideas but living, fallible men. If his wife was there, he would face her.

The House was just waking up when he arrived. The smell of coffee wafted down the hallway; he could hear the ancient pipes creaking in the walls. He braced himself, but his office was empty, the door ajar.

He sat down at his desk and, despite everything, was contemplating starting the ordinary business of the day when he realized that Joseph Schall’s sheaf of burnt papers was missing. In his alcoholic fog of the night before, he’d forgotten all about it—had, in fact, forgotten about Joseph.

Frantically he searched his desk. His uncle’s notes were still inside the drawer where Michael had shoved them, but Joseph’s burned pages were nowhere to be seen. Had Joseph returned from wherever he’d disappeared to and found them in his office? Or had his wife taken them? If he could just locate them and return them to their spot under Joseph’s cot, and keep him none the wiser. . . .

A shadow fell across his open door.

“It’s strange,” Joseph said mildly. “I was just looking for something myself. I think we might have a thief among us.” He regarded Michael. “Or perhaps you already knew that.”

An icy sweat broke out on Michael’s brow. He stood there trapped, painfully aware of his visible guilt and terror.

“I see,” Joseph said. He closed the door behind him with a quiet click. His face, Michael saw, was bruised and cut, and his clothing glinted with what looked like tiny pieces of glass. “So. How shall we proceed, you and I?”

“I don’t have your papers,” Michael said. “They’re gone. They disappeared.”

Joseph raised an eyebrow. “And did you read them, before they disappeared?”

“Yes.”

“Ah, but did you understand?”

“Enough.”

Joseph nodded. “Don’t think too harshly of your wife,” he said. “She was only following her nature, as best she could. A golem is lost without a master.”

“I wanted to be her husband, not her master.”

“How enlightened of you,” Joseph said. His voice had turned flat, its usual drollness gone. “Now. Where is my property?”

“I don’t know.”

“Hazard a guess.”

Michael said nothing.

Joseph sighed. “Perhaps you don’t understand after all. I was being kind. I have no need to ask.”

An absurd laugh bubbled up in Michael’s throat.

Joseph, annoyed, said, “Is something amusing you?”

“I was just realizing that this is who you’ve been, all this time.”

“And what of it?”

“Oh, nothing. Only you really did help them, you know.”

“Who?”

“All the men who’ve come through this House. You helped them find their cots, and gave them good advice, and cleaned up after them. You were a friendly face in a strange city. It must have been torture for you.”

“You have no idea.”

Michael smiled. “Good. I’m glad it hurt. Though I pity you, I really do. All that power doesn’t seem to have gotten you very far.”

Joseph’s eyes had turned to slits. Michael swallowed and said, “In fact, if you think about it, all those men, the ones you hated helping—they’ve all moved on from here, to bigger and better things. You’re the one who’s been left behind.”

“Spare me your pity,” Joseph said—and then lunged forward and grabbed Michael by the head.

Michael never lost consciousness as his memories were torn apart. His assailant proceeded in haphazard fashion, grabbing fistfuls of moments in his rage, so that as he died, Michael was bombarded with recollections. He was playing stickball in the street with his friends; he was fleeing down a hallway, running for his life. His aunt cried while he tore up a letter, unread, from his father. A nurse at Swinburne pressed a cool hand to his forehead. He’d skipped school, and now his uncle was bending him over his knee, the half-hesitant slaps betraying discomfort at the task. He was standing in a parlor, watching a tall woman descend a staircase, his heart a joyous, painful weight.

At last, Joseph let go, and Michael collapsed unseeing to the floor.

Schaalman stood a moment, considering what he’d gleaned. Then he stepped to the desk and opened a drawer. There, stuffed in at the top, were Rabbi Meyer’s notes on the Golem, right where Michael had left them.

Schaalman leafed through the notes with growing excitement, following the Rabbi’s painstaking progress, his discoveries and setbacks. At last he understood why Meyer had stolen those precious volumes from his own colleagues. He’d thought the man to be his nemesis, when in truth Meyer had been building a precious gift for him to find. He had to acknowledge its subtle artistry, so much calmer and more practicable than his own frenzied divinations. The formula’s requirement that it be used only with the Golem’s permission, for example—that was something he never could have constructed. Though in truth, he would never have thought to try.