Authors: Jo Walton
“No, tonight I'd rather look at Botticelli,” I said. “Do you want to come with me?”
“I'd rather look at Botticelli too,” he admitted. “But there's Klymene.”
“Have you really never spoken to her since the day of the hunt?”
“Never. She doesn't speak to me, and I can't start it.” He hesitated. “I suppose I could apologize, but it seems a little late.”
“She's braver than anyone now,” I said. “She has spent the last couple of years facing up to everything, going out of her way to find ways to train in courage. She's braver now than somebody born brave.”
“Good. But⦔ he looked uncomfortable.
“Oh, come and look at the Botticellis and we won't sit with Klymene,” I said. “I think it'll be pasta with goat cheese and mushrooms tonight.”
At midwinter the Year Six began, and with it the ceremonies of Janus, the open door that swings both ways, to past and future. I always found it an unsettling festival, the hinge of the year. That year for the first time we were given wine, well mixed with water. I did not think it had affected my reactions, but when we went out to the fire at midnight I found that the lights of the sconces and the fire were brighter than they usually were, and the faces of my companions more beautiful. There was to be a dance around the fire, and Laodike and Klymene had been chosen to be part of it. I wished them good fortune and stepped back alone to join the spectators.
Sokrates was among them, talking with Kebes and Ikaros of Ferrara. Almost as many people had crushes on Ikaros as on Pytheasâhe was young, for a master, and very good-looking, with a shock of chestnut hair and a smile that lit up his whole face. He had never taken any notice of me, except once when he commended my sketch of Pytheas. They seemed deep in debate, and I did not want to interrupt. I looked around for Pytheas, and found him on the other side of the fire and surrounded. One especially beautiful girl was at his sideâthe blond girl who had been chained next to me long ago in the slave market. Her name was Euridike, and she belonged to Plataea. Pytheas was attending to whatever she was saying, but when he saw me his eyes softened and he began to make his way towards me through the crowd.
At that moment Sokrates too noticed me and greeted me. “Do you know Simmea?” he asked Ikaros. “She has a very sharp mind and she thinks things through.”
I glowed with his praise and was speechless.
Ikaros nodded to me. “She has a good eye for design too. Did you know we chose your cloak pins? With the bees?”
“Chose them to be the real design?” I asked, thrilled. Ikaros nodded. Then Pytheas came up behind me and put his hand on my shoulder, and Sokrates began to introduce him.
“I may not always have this, but I have this now,” I thought. “I am perfectly happy in this moment and I know it.” It wasn't the wine, though the wine might have helped me recognize it.
Then the dance began, very beautiful and precise, which it had to be with with lifted torches and flowing draperies.
The next morning there was a great assembly in the Agora, in the exact center of the city. The city was laid out in a grid, with two diagonal streets crossing it. Whenever one street met another there was a little plaza, and often a temple or other building that was open to the whole city, and it was in those plazas that artworks usually stood. The Agora was the plaza in the centre of the city, where two straight roads and both diagonal roads all crossed. The Chamber was there, where the council met, and the big library and the temples of Apollo and Athene, and the civic offices where records were kept. It was the only space in the city big enough for all ten thousand of us to gather, and it had been designed for the purpose, being shaped as an auditorium with a rostrum at the end where speakers could be heard.
Today Krito and Tullius were at the rostrum. The other masters stood with their halls. The few who were not assigned to any one city, and Sokrates, stood behind the rostrum. Sokrates was clearly scanning the children as we stood gathered in halls and tribes, looking at all of us. It was a chilly morning and we were all in our cloaks. Our breath steamed as we stood there. I wondered if there would be snowâthere had been snow in the winter of the Year Two, all melted away by mid-morning, and I had never seen it since. I thought of Botticelli's painting, which was my only real conception of winter somewhere colder than Greece.
Tullius and Krito both made speeches welcoming us to adulthood. Then they called the name of each city, and each city advanced to the rostrum, where each child's name was called and the child given their pin. This took hoursâfrom just after breakfast until almost dinnertime. We cheered each name, but the cheers grew thinner as we grew colder and wearier. Florentia came about halfway through. I had known I would be given a gold pin since Sokrates had chosen me, but I still choked up as I was handed it. It was partly that it was my own design, and partly that it was gold, after all, the most precious metal. I was going to be a guardian of the city. I hardly heard how many people cheered for me. I tucked my scroll inside my kiton and fastened my cloak with the pin at once. I was very pleased, but I didn't feel the rush of joy I had felt at the fire.
Florentia filed back into our places and Delphi went up. “They should have done it in the halls at breakfast,” Damon grumbled behind me. “There's no need to keep all of us standing here in the cold.”
“What did you get?”
“Silver,” he said. “No surprise. There aren't any surprises. This wasn't worth making a fuss over. I think everyone knows where they belong.” He unrolled his scroll. “Weapon training. That'll be fun. Horse training. Great!”
“I'm hoping for training with weapons too,” I said. Then I cheered as Pytheas was announced. Gold, of course. The sun came out for a moment as he put up his hand for his pin and made it flash. I pulled out my scroll and read it. It said only that I was to study philosophy and keep up my work at music and gymnastics. Did that mean no more art, I wondered, or did that count as one of the parts of music?
I was about to ask Klymene if she knew when I realized she was weeping. I put my arm around her. “What's wrong? Did they make you iron after all?”
She opened her hands and showed me her pin. Gold. I hugged her. “You deserve it,” I said. “You really really do.”
She couldn't speak. Around us people were reading their scrolls. “It's so great that the masters get to pick things for us, things we're really good at and that suit us,” Laodike said, earnestly. “I'd hate to have to choose. And think how limited it is in other places, where people are mostly stuck doing what their parents did whether they want to or not.”
“We're lucky to be here,” I agreed.
Andromeda opened her own scroll. “Childcare training? But how? There aren't any children!”
“Yet,” Damon said. “There's a festival of Hera this summer. Maybe by next year there will be a whole crop of children for you to tend. Better learn fast!”
“You sound as if you're looking forward to it,” Andromeda said.
“Aren't you? Hey, Simmea, if there are a thousand silvers, and a festival three times a year, how long before I've had sex with all of them?”
“Three hundred and thirty-three years,” I said at once, then thought about it some more. “No, wait, it's more complicated than that. I'm not sure. It might never happen. But it wouldn't work that way. Some women will get pregnant each time and not be available next time. And how do you know there are a thousand silvers?”
“Just a guess,” he said. I wondered how many would be gold. Would it be three hundred years before my name was drawn with Pytheas?
Eventually the ceremony dragged to a close and we went back to the our halls. Kebes came up and hugged and congratulated Klymene, who was the only person I knew who hadn't gone into the ceremony feeling fairly sure where they belonged. Laodike was a trifle disappointed to be silverâshe had enjoyed astronomy so much, and hoped for gold.
“I'm lucky we met Sokrates that night,” Kebes said to me.
“We both are.”
“You'd have been gold anyway. I'd probably have been iron.” Since we met Sokrates, Kebes had really appeared to be trying to be excellent. I'd heard Ficino saying that there never had been such an improvement in a boy.
I saw Septima, from the library, talking to Ficino. “She'll be gold,” I said, confidently.
“Did they ever tell you they'd chosen your design?” Kebes asked.
“Master Ikaros told me last night. You were there.”
“I know, but did anyone officially tell you?”
I shook my head. “I expect they wanted it to be a surprise.”
“They should have announced it and given you the honor.”
“Oh, that doesn't matter. It's enough of an honor that I'm going to see everyone wearing them.” I stroked mine. “And that they thought it good enough.”
The next day we cut our hair and made our vows at the temple of Zeus and Hera, to serve and protect the city. From then on we were considered adults, though we kept on calling ourselves children, to distinguish us from the masters.
Our days were different after that. For one thing the houses were restructured, so that everyone in a house was of the same metal. Klymene and I remained in Hyssop with five other girls, two from Delphi, Makalla and Peisis, one from Ferrara, Iphis, and one from Naxos, Auge. Andromeda and the others moved out to be with their own kind. It felt strange, but I was glad not to be the one who was moving. Maia said we could choose who would be the new watcher. At my suggestion, we chose Klymene.
The seven of us were all in the tribe of Apolloânobody had changed tribes in the reorganization. They also continued to belong to their original cities. But they slept in Hyssop. This would have been more awkward except for the rule that we could now eat anywhere we were invited. It meant that they could eat in their old halls with their old friends when they wanted to, or eat in Florentia with us in the mornings when time was short. It was goodâbut it changed everything. It meant that we didn't necessarily all see every other Florentine every day, and there were often different people in the hall, especially at dinner. Florentia was a popular dining hall, partly because of our food but mostly because it was so very beautiful. Eating where we were invited made us all mingle and know each other better. Before summer came I had eaten at least once in each hall. Venice had a wonderful
Apollo and Juno
by Veronese, Cortona had Signorelli's
The Court of Pan
, and in Athens, where Septima took me one day with Pytheas, was a breathtaking statue of Lemnian Athena. Hardest to get into was Olympia, but eventually I met Aristomache with Sokrates and she invited me for dinner. Thus I got to see Phidias's astonishing Nike, which if I were forced to choose is probably my favourite statue.
The other different thing was our schedules. Before this, almost all of Florentia did the same things at the same time every day, with a few exceptions like astronomy and the sessions with Sokrates. Now we were all doing different things. Some of us still had every moment scheduled. Others, and especially we golds, had a reasonable amount of flexibility as to how we spent our time. For music I did mathematics and read in the library. I had very little supervision in reading. Masters might suggest books to me, and occasionally a request for a book was denied. Otherwise I was free to read what I wanted toâwhich was mostly philosophy and logic. I still did mathematics with Axiothea, which was always fun. Art was something for my free time, which I experienced now for the first time. I could go to the studio and work on my paintings and designs whenever I wasn't expected anywhere else, and I often did.
I continued to spend hours in the palaestraâbut I decided which hours they would be. The way Maia explained this to me was that we were to pursue excellence as seemed best to us, now that we knew what it was and that we wanted it. Children need guidance; adults can learn to guide themselves. Most of all I pursued excellence by debating with Sokrates. Kebes and I took to following him around in the mornings, when he talked with anyone he ran into.
Soon, well before the summer, I perceived a problem. Before the new year, anyone whom Sokrates befriended was clearly destined to become a gold, and we all were duly awarded gold pins. After that, Sokrates continued to befriend people, but now their status was fixed. Only golds were supposed to study philosophy and rhetoric. But the masters couldn't very well stop Sokrates from going up to people and asking them about their work. They couldn't stop him from inviting whomever he chose to come back to Thessaly for conversation. Sokrates was famous. All of the masters revered him practically by definitionâthey were here specifically because they revered Sokrates, after all. They didn't want to stop him behaving the way he had always behaved. They had loved to read in the
Apology
about how he was a gadfly sent by the gods to Athens. Now he was their gadfly, and they weren't as happy about that. He was upsetting their neat system, and he knew it. He would laugh about it.
“How can they know who is the best?” he asked in one of our debates. The four of us were alone in the garden of Thessaly, eating delicious fried zucchini flowers stuffed with cheese that Kebes had brought from the Florentine kitchens.
“They observe us,” I said. “They see who is best fitted for each task. My friend Andromeda is motherly and loving, and she was assigned to learn childcare. I am interested in debate, and I am assigned to learn rhetoric with you.”
“Good. But how about Patroklus of Mycenae, who only became interested in debate the day before yesterday? He has been assigned to learn how to care for goats and sheep. Now he wants to debate.”
“That doesn't mean it's what he's best suited for,” I said. “He might be best suited as a shepherd.”
“Does everyone have one thing for which they are best suited?” Kebes asked. “You're good at design, as well as debate.”