Authors: Katherine Kurtz
Ninian and Llion withdrew to stand beside Kenneth. The boy glanced in their direction when the older pages had finished and withdrawn to sit on the fence again, and, at the older knight's signal, he kneed his pony into a gallop, sword extended. He took the first ring neatly, and then the second, pulling up then to turn and glance at Ninian, who nodded his approval.
“Again.”
Dutifully Alaric saluted with the sword again, then trotted over to where Airey and Paget were climbing down from the fence.
“Nice riding,” Airey said, as Alaric tipped the sword down to let the rings slide off.
“And a good eye,” Paget added.
“Thank you,” Alaric replied, then trotted back to the opposite end of the arena to wait while the two older boys reset the rings.
This time, when he rode at the rings, he only knocked the first one from its peg, but he continued on to snag the second. His brow was furrowed as he pulled up and turned, but he trotted obediently out to meet Ninian, who was striding toward him, and smiling slightly. Llion followed behind him with the two practice helmets and more wooden swords.
“You may have noticed that I had Paget substitute smaller rings on that run,” Ninian said. “But you didn't let it break your concentration. Get down now, and let's see how you perform on the ground.”
Alaric complied immediately, first handing his sword to Llion, then jumping down to put on the helmet that Llion offered, also pulling on a padded glove for his sword hand. The sword Llion handed him was similar to the one he had used to snare the rings, but with a light basket hilt to protect the hand. Turning, he saw that Ninian now was similarly helmeted and armed. As Llion led the pony back to where Kenneth was watching, Alaric wondered what Ninian had in mind.
“All right, this is to assess your level of training, not to get you hurt,” Ninian said, making a few practice swings to limber up. “I have twice the reach that you do, and I can hit much harder, but I want you to spar with me as if I were a pell that can move to block your blows. That means that I want you to land solid blows. And don't worry, you aren't going to hurt me.”
“Yes, sir,” Alaric said somewhat uncertainly.
As Ninian lifted his sword to the vertical and gave a nod, Alaric gave it a tentative whack, then another from the other side. But after the first few contacts, Ninian's sword started moving more activelyâin no way aggressive, but inviting the boy's attacks from a variety of directions.
Alaric responded with increasing confidence, and shifted several of his exchanges into more serious attacks. He never quite managed to land a blow on the knight, who countered most of his ripostes with ease, but he was left with the feeling that he had done far better than Ninian had expected.
“That's quite good,” Ninian finally said, backing off a few paces and giving casual salute with his sword, which Alaric returned. “I think we'll put you with the older pages for arms drill.” He tucked his sword under his arm and pulled off his helmet, then summoned Airey Redfearn with a raised arm.
“Mind you, you're good enough to spar with some of the squires,” he went on, “but they're mostly much taller than you are, so that would put you at a distinct disadvantage. In the real world, of course, you'll have to face whoever decides to lay into you, but training at this stage is not so much about winning or getting beaten; it's about learning, and hopefully not getting hurt too much in the process.”
As Airey Redfearn approached at the trot, Ninian handed him his sword and helmet, and Alaric also turned over his equipment.
“All right, you can go fetch your pony now, and put him away for the night,” Ninian said. “And I'll expect you in the classroom in the morning with the other boys.”
He nodded to Kenneth and Llion as the boy trotted toward them, then turned to go with Airey.
“My son, if thou wilt, thou shalt be taught: and if thou wilt apply thy mind, thou shalt be prudent.”
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the days that followed, while Kenneth conferred with the king and his crown council and caught up on developments in Meara, Llion kept close watch on the progress of his young charge. Alaric had accepted that he would be joining the pages' training at Rhemuth, and did his best to fit in, but it was difficult.
As Llion had warned him, he soon discovered that his knowledge and skills were well above those of most of the other boys near his age. Furthermore, because of his father's rank, and because he was already slated to enter page's service with Duke Jared right after Twelfth Night, he was not obliged to share accommodation in the dormitory rooms allocated for other pages. Clearly, some of the others resented that. But that alone was not what soon set him apart from them.
“No one likes me, Llion,” he muttered to his mentor after the first week, when he was getting ready for bed.
“Well, you
are
the new boy,” Llion said lightly, though he suspected he knew the true source of his charge's difficulties. “The others have been together for many months now, some of them for several years. And even though you're much younger than most of them, you did make a rather impressive showing at the king's birthday tourneyâand when Sir Ninian evaluated your training. There's bound to be some resentment.”
“I don't think it's that,” Alaric replied.
Llion sighed. Aside from the run-in with Bishop de Nore, the boy had been mostly sheltered until now, secure in the company and protection of loving parents and loyal retainers in the immediate household; Llion would certainly give his life for his charge, if required. But what young Alaric Morgan was beginning to experience went far beyond resentment of his titled privileges, his emerging skills in the field, even his physical attractivenessâand the boy
was
handsome, God knew, with his pale hair and eyes, his regular features, his mannerly demeanor. Young girls were already beginning to notice, and not a few not-so-young ones.
“Well, envy almost certainly is a factor,” Llion allowed. “And a bit of that is natural, though maturity hopefully teaches all of us to put aside petty jealousies. You also wear your own clothes instead of Haldane livery. That makes you stand out.”
“That isn't all that makes me stand out,” the boy muttered.
“No, it isn't,” Llion agreed.
“But, that isn't fair,” Alaric said after a beat. “You're talking about me being half-Deryni. I can't help that! And I don't
do
anything. I
can't
do anything yet.”
Llion quirked an eyebrow at him. “No?”
Alaric glanced at his feet. “Well, there's the Truth-Reading,” he admitted reluctantly. “And the pain blocking,” he added. “But that doesn't hurt anyone. Besides, no one but you knows I can even do that yet. Some of them just hate me; I can sense it. Especially Cornelius. He definitely hates me. And a lot of the others are afraid of me.”
“That
is
true.”
“Well, what do I
do
about it?” Tears were glittering in the boy's grey eyes as he looked up. “They don't even
know
me.”
“It's difficult, I know,” Llion said gently. “Unfortunately, there are some who will always dislike youâbecause of simple jealousy, in many cases, but also because they don't know you and they're afraid to know you, because of what you are. All the telling in the world won't change some people's minds.”
“That doesn't answer my question, Llion,” the boy murmured, knuckling away his tears. “What can I
do
?”
With a heavy sigh, Llion came to sit on the bed beside the boy, slipping a comforting arm around the rigid shoulders. “Well, one thing you
cannot
do is force the other boys to be friends with you.” He rolled his eyes in grudging amendment. “Actually, it's possible that you
could
force at least the outward semblance of friendship, once you've come into your powers. But if you were ever found out, that would only prove to those who hate your kind that Deryni are not to be trusted.”
“Then, what
can
I do?”
“Simply be the very best person you can be, as your dear mother would have wished. Say little and observe much. Be courteous and thoughtful, a man of honor. Try to be good-natured and helpful to the other boys, but never do less than your best, even if some are envious. It's something you must learn,” he added, at Alaric's dubious grimace, “because you're the one who must live with these ladsâand with the men they will become. When all of you are grown, they'll remember how you treated them now. It would be good if you could trust at least a few of them at your back. Do you understand?”
“I suppose so,” Alaric murmured, sighing. “But growing up is harder than I thought it would be.”
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the coming weeks, as they began counting down to the feasts of Christmas and Twelfth Night, Alaric thought about what Llion had told him. Though he tried hard to implement what Llion had suggested, he could see little real change, but at least he better understood what might be causing the other boys' antipathy, and consoled himself with the expectation that he would soon be returning to the relative safety of his Uncle Jared's household.
Thus fortified, he decided not to mention the conversation to his father, and indeed, would have found it difficult to do so, for Kenneth was much closeted with the king and the crown council, or out on the king's business, and often returned late to his bed, if at all. A visitation to Valoret with the king kept him from court for more than a week. Kenneth also made a quick visit to Morganhall to check on his sisters, with only Xander and a pair of armsmen to accompany him.
“I would take you and the boy, but I don't want to interrupt his training,” he told Llion, before setting out. “I know this is a difficult time for him, and I'd prefer to avoid the impression that he's getting any more special treatment than he already is.”
“Yes, my lord.”
But a week later, the afternoon following Kenneth's return, he asked Alaric to accompany him to the practice arena. To Alaric's surprise, Llion was already there, cinching up the saddle on a compact bay Llanneddi mare he had never seen before.
“I wanted your opinion on this mare,” his father said. “Llion pointed her out to me, when I got back from Morganhall. She's old enough to be sensible, but she still has many good years in her. What do you think?”
As his father came to hold the mare's head and stroke the velvety nose, offering her an apple, Alaric eyed the mare appraisingly, running a hand along the bright bay hindquarters and down one white-stockinged leg. Some of his earliest and happiest memories were of walking through horse fairs with his father and Llion and occasionally other knights of the household, watching and listening while his father haggled with horse dealers over the merits and faults of various steeds. Though Alaric was still learning the finer points of equine assessment, the mare looked like a good example of her breed: not perfect, by any means, and perhaps on the small side for a grown man, but then, Llanners ran small. This one was bigger than most.
“Whose horse would this be, Papa?” he asked, for he knew that it was important to match horse and rider.
Kenneth inclined his head. “Yours, perhaps?”
Alaric felt an anxious flutter in the pit of his stomach, for he could not suppress the sudden image of the doomed grey mare at Nyford, blood blossoming against her satiny coat as she sank into death, but he ducked his head and made himself put it from mind, concentrating instead on his inspection of the animal. At least this animal was bay, not grey.
“Well, she looks a little narrow through the withers, but at least for me, that might be an asset while I'm still growing.” He swallowed and managed a brittle smile as he glanced up. “My legs still remember those big-barreled livery horses from the summer. Good chest, though,” he went on more confidently, “and good legs.”
“Let's put you up on her and see how she goes,” Kenneth said, giving the mare's bridle to Llion and moving to the animal's side. “Here, I'll give you a leg up.”
Smiling tentatively, Alaric moved to the animal's near side and allowed his sire to boost him into the saddle. Across the arena, he was aware of several of the older pages and younger squires taking places on the fence rail, but he tried to put them from mind as he gathered the mare's reins and moved out.
For the next little while he put the mare through her paces. He was heartened to find that his hours in the saddle going to and from Culdi and Morganhall and Coroth had left him confident and easily capable of handling the larger animal. The mare was responsive and even-tempered, her gaits far smoother than the livery mounts' that had served them on their peregrinations. Alaric could picture himself riding her for some years. But he also knew there would be a price to pay.
“Well, what do you think?” his father asked, as the boy brought the mare to a halt beside the fence where his father sat with Llion. “Shall I tell Master OisÃn we'll keep her?”
Alaric glanced across the arena, where he could see the horse dealer likewise sitting on the fence with Paget Sullivan, Airey Redfearn, and several of the younger squires, including Prince Nigel, obviously watching them. Unfortunately, Cornelius Seaton was also among their number.
“I like her very well, Papa,” he said quietly, with a covert glance at Llion. “But I . . . don't think it would be a good idea if I had such a fine horse just now, while I'm at Rhemuth.”
“Oh? And may I ask why not?”
Alaric ducked his head, reluctant to mention his reasons, but aware that his father probably should be apprised of themâand perhaps even knew already, anyway.
“Well, some of the other boys already don't like me very much,” he said hesitantly. “Llion says some of it may be because they're envious. None of the other pages at court have such fine horses.”
“Son, you are a future duke,” his father said patiently. “You are heir to a great fortune and a noble name, and there will always be those who will resent you for it.”
“That'sâprobably part of it, sir,” Alaric almost whispered, blinking hard to keep back tears.
Kenneth nodded slowly, casting a sidelong glance at Llion. “I see. And the other part of it would be that some of them don't like you because you're very accomplished and very clever, and because you are your mother's son as well as mine.”
Alaric glanced up quickly, shocked.
Kenneth sighed and shook his head. “I'm very sorry, son,” he said quietly. “I knew this time would come, though I had hoped it would be later. But don't you ever let them see you cry!” he said fiercely, though his voice did not rise.
“He's bearing up well, sir,” Llion assured him. “He'll be all right.”
“He'll be better than all right,” Kenneth said under his breath. “He'll be superb! And he deserves a superb horse.”
“Yes, sir, he does,” Llion agreed. “But perhaps not just now. He'll only be at court for a few months. Perhaps best if we wait.”
Considering, Kenneth shifted his gaze from Llion to Alaric and back. “Aye, that's probably true. Very well. Llion, you also deserve a superb mount, so the mare is officially yours for now, if anyone asks. And once you and Alaric move up to Culdi to train with Jared, he can have access to it, with no one the wiser here at court. You
are
his riding master, after all. And meanwhile, I'll have Master OisÃn on the lookout for another horse for you.”
Llion allowed himself a pleased grin, and Alaric, too, found himself greatly cheered.
“That is uncommonly generous, my lord,” Llion said. “Thank you.”
“It isn't generous; it's expedient,” Kenneth replied. “I've been remiss in not finding you a suitable mount of your ownâwhich I did promise, when you first entered my service.”
“I am content, my lord,” Llion objected. “You have been most generous.”
“Nay, 'tis only your due,” Kenneth said. “Old Cockleburr has been retired for several years now, and you're still soldiering on with borrowed horses. Besides, it reflects badly on
me
, if my son's knight is not well mounted.” He jutted his chin in Llion's direction. “Give the mare a try, so that our deception will hold, and I'll go and speak with Master OisÃn.”
“Very good, my lord,” Llion agreed. “Lad, you'd best get down now, so I can put this lady through her paces.”
Alaric was grinning as he complied, and held on to the stirrup for Llion as the young knight swung up. As Llion settled into the saddle and then moved out, Kenneth watched him for a few minutes, nodding approval as Llion eased the mare into a canter. Then, with a nod and a smile at his son, he headed off across the arena toward Master OisÃn.