the Lonesome Gods (1983) (15 page)

"Within a few weeks it is the place where Wolfskill, Workman, Rowland, Wilson, Stearns, and all that crowd come for news and to see each other. And she's busy, workin' around, but listening. I tell you, Hannes, withi
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the next three months that woman knows more about what's happenin' in California than anybody!

"Stearns isn't hurting for money, she's an attractive woman, so he doesn't dun her. When she's in business for about six months, she's been in Los Angeles about a year, you understand, then her ship comes in.

"I mean that ship comes back from China and she has sold those otter skins to the Chinese for ten times what she paid for them. She pays off Stearns and she's free an' clear with money to work with.

"So she stocks her bookstore, orders more books, papers, and such, and then goes up and down the coast, me helping, buying otter skins, cowhides, anything she can sell.

"She goes out to remote ranches which have a time gettin' hides down to the shore where they can be sold to the ships. She buys cheap.

"She lives like she always did, goes about her business with a friendly smile and a kind of wide-eyed innocence. She owns her bookstore building, she owns another building close by, she owns a small ranch, some horses and cattle, and she operates her bookstore like it was a bank. That woman's a caution!"

"I'm glad," I said. "I liked her."

"That's what brings me here," Jacob said. "She wants you to come to Los Angeles. She sent me to get you."

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Los Angeles? "I don't know. What of my grandfather?" Finney tugged at a boot, then stopped. "I asked her that, but she says he believes you're dead.

"He has a place in town, but he spends most of his time out on his hacienda. When he does come in, he rides in like a king, with six or eight vaqueros riding along." Jacob pulled off the boot and placed it on the floor. "She'd give it out that you were kinfolk from back East. She has dealings with shipowners, ship captains, and the like. She could say you'd just come around the Horn with one of them."

Suddenly I wanted very much to see her. She had been kind, and she had known my father, even if only for a short time. I knew he had respected her.

Also, she was a no-nonsense sort of woman. I remembered the Indian she had shot. Then, for the first time, I was admitting I was lonely.

"She's worried about your education. She says she promised your pa she'd look after you if anything happened to him."

"I like it here."

"You could always come back. Look here, Hannes, you ain't an Injun. This here is all right for now, but what will you do when you're a man? Your pa had education. He could go anywhere. He could have been anything. "You ain't an Injun, and no amount of livin' out here will make you one. You come along to Los Angeles an
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ave a talk with Miss Nesselrode. If you want to come back, nobody will stop you."

"I like this house, and some of the things belonged to my father."

"Leave 'em. I'll speak to the old gent down at the store, and you can tell your Injun friends."

"They do not come here. They are afraid."

"Afraid? Of what?"

"They say this is the house of Tahquitz. They think because I live here that I have a special power, that my medicine is very strong."

He knew nothing of the story of Tahquitz, so I told him the little I knew. He listened attentively, then said, "I ain't one to scoff at superstitions. To my thinkin' there's always some truth to the stories you hear." He pulled off the other boot. "Then this place will be safe. We'll just leave any truck you don't need."

Lying awake, listening to Jacob Finney snoring lightly in the other room, I wondered about Los Angeles. It had been long since I had visited a town, so long I scarcely remembered anything before Santa Fe except glimpses here and there, little things that clung to the memory. And Santa Fe was nearly four years ago.

When morning came, I would take a hundred dollars in gold and leave the rest hidden. I would have my own horse, my own pistol and rifle. When I wanted to return, I could saddle up and ride. Traveling in the wild country was an old story now.

Francisco appeared as I was putting the rifle in its scabbard. "You go?" he asked.

"To Los Angeles," I said, a little proudly.

"It is far," he said.

"Five days," I said, "perhaps six. I am not sure." "My papa was there. There are many big houses." "No doubt."

"You will not come back."

"My home is here, in this house. My father is buried here. I will come back."

"You will not come back." His face was solemn.

"You are my friend, Francisco. You will always be my friend. I shall come back to this house, and I leave my father's things here. I leave even the books."

"Ah, the books." He knew how I valued them. "Perhaps you will come back."

So we rode away when the sun was touching the peaks of Mount San Jacinto and Mount San Gorgonio, and the pass we followed led into the darkness that lay between them.

As we topped the first rise, I looked back at the scattered palms, the mesquite, and the few huts, even the flat roof of the store. My house was hidden among the dunes, and I wondered about my unknown visitor who borrowed books and left others. Well, he would be pleased, I thought, to find two new books on the shelf. I had found them among my father's things and I placed them in the place from which he had last borrowed a book.

Looking back, I could see the Leaning Rock at the mouth of Chino Canyon. Some named it the Calling Rock, and it is said that when one is away the Calling Rock calls you to return. It is also said that if you turn and see it as you leave, you will always come back. I looked long, for I wanted to come back. Francisco was there, and he was my friend.

Jacob spoke of Los Angeles. "Is it by the sea?" I asked, remembering my father had come to it on a ship.

"No, it is twenty miles from the sea. At least twenty miles."

"Will we see the sea?"

"There are low hills and mountains from which it can be seen. There are islands far out across the water. You will see them. It is said that long ago the Chumash Indians made plank boats and went to the islands. They painted them red. I do not know why."

"My father told me of them."

"It was a custom, I suppose. Remember, now! Tell no one you have come from the desert. Do not even speak of the desert. You have come by sea. newly arrived from th
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States. Before we arrive in town, you will change into your city clothes."

"But they are small for me now," I protested.

"No matter. We will get others in Los Angeles. You have been months at sea. You would naturally have grown. You must be careful! There is always talk, and even the genies de razon have large ears. If it is discovered you are from the desert, if they know you are your father's son, you will be in danger."

"I will remember." After a few steps by the horses I said, "I have no friends in Los Angeles. To whom could I speak?"

"You will make friends. Also, there is Miss Nesselrode, and I, too, am your friend. Most people talk too much, anyway."

We rode on, and my thoughts returned to words my father had spoken, for I was much with him, and being silent, I heard a great many things which I wondered about later. There was much I did not understand and much I came to understand as I grew older. But there was much to think about when I was alone, and often I lay awake wondering about things that were said. There was a time when a man spoke very impatiently to my father. He had seen a copy of the Iliad lying on the table. "You are reading this?" he asked.

"I have read it many times. Now I read it to my son." "But he is too young!" The man protested, almost angry. "Is he? Who is to say? How young is too young to begin to discover the power and the beauty of words? Perhaps he will not understand, but there is a clash of shields and a call of trumpets in those lines. One cannot begin too young nor linger too long with learning.

"Who knows how much he will remember? Who knows how deep the intellect? In some year yet unborn he may hear those words again, or read them, and find in them something hauntingly familiar, as of something long ago heard and only half-remembered.

"Yet perhaps it is only that I like to hear those rolling cadences. People, I think, read too much to themselves;
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hey should read aloud from time to time to hear the language, to feel the sounds.

"Homer told his stories accompanied by the lyre, and it was the best way, I think, to tell such stories. Men needed stories to lead them to create, to build, to conquer, even to survive, and without them the human race would have vanished long ago. Men strive for peace, but it is their enemies that give them strength, and I think if man no longer had enemies, he would have to invent them, for his strength only grows from struggle." My father had waved his hand about at the stark Arizona mountains and the desert where the wagon rested. "Homer sang of his 'wine-dark seas,' but we, I think, will sing of these. You will find that our Homers will sing of the plains, the deserts, and the mountains. Our Trojans may appear in feathered war bonnets, but none the less noble for them. Our Achilles may be Jim Bowie or some other like him, our Ajax might be Davy Crockett or Daniel Boone."

My father was a tall man, and now he stood up. "My friend," he said, "I do not know what else I shall leave my son, but if I have left him a love of language, of literature, a taste for Homer, for the poets, the people who have told our story--and by 'our' I mean the story of mankind--then he will have legacy enough."

Was this, then, this ride to Los Angeles, was this like a voyage among the Greek islands? Was this to be part of an epic? If so, it was a dusty one! And I was wishing Jacob would decide to rest the horses, because I was tired. Yet, looking over my left shoulder and turning a little, I could see a fine sweep of mountains, and the pines that grew there.

Again I remembered those long plains over which we had passed, the great tower and broken battlements of El Morro, the magnificent vistas of plain, mountain, and forest. Whatever else my father had given me, he had given me a chance to see these, to know them, to live with them.

I thought of Francisco. Who had been his Homer? What stories had he heard beside the campfire when the winte
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inds chilled the flesh? For it was in the winter the Indians told their stories.

Over the fire that night, Jacob warned me, "Don't you be expectin' too much. It will remind you some'at of Santa Fe, but Miss Nesselrode, she says we shouldn't be fooled by it. She says Los Angeles will be a great city, an' the best thing ever happened to it was when those beaver pelts fell in price. She told me one time, she said, 'Mr. Finney, it will be silk hats that build Los Angeles, because when over in Europe they stopped wearing beaver hats and switched to silk, it started all of those very wise, very bold mountain men looking for new ways to get rich.' "

He added sticks to the fire. "Now, don't you be judgin' all Californios by your grandpa. By an' large, there aren't any finer folks livin'. Generous to a fault, give you the shirt off their backs, and do it graciously and with an air. "There's another thing. They're proud of bein' Californios. They don't consider themselves Spanish, nor do they think of themselves as Mexicans, although there's plenty of those, too. They call themselves Californios, and although Los Angeles ain't much, right now it is the biggest town in California, and you'll see why they lov
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"But she's rough! I mean, almighty rough! There's good folks aplenty, but there's some of the meanest people unhung. Kill you soon as look at you.

"Pistol or knife, but mostly it's knives in Sonora Town. Back to the east, when a man wants to do you harm, he takes up a shootin' iron of some kind, but out here it can be a shootin' iron or it can be a knife or anything handy. You got to remember that folks were killin' each other with rocks and clubs for a million years before anybody invented a pistol. So be careful. Learn to handle yourself and to handle weapons, but mostly you just learn to guard your tongue. A man out here who speaks careless of others will soon only have a marker in the graveyard." We had been lying in our blankets, and the last coals were smoldering when suddenly Jacob raised up on his elbow, knowing I was awake.

"You listen to Miss Nesselrode, boy. She ain't no mountain man, but she's one of those who will make the wheels turn. I seen that right off.

"You just set back an' watch that woman operate. Ever' time she flutters her lashes or turns her parasol, she's figured out some new way to make a dollar!"

But I was not thinking of Miss Nesselrode, nor of my father; I was just thinking of how wonderful it was to be riding west into a new land, and to be sleeping under the stars.

My last thought was not of that warm and sunny place called Los Angeles, it was of my grandfather, the one who had my father killed and who created the fear with which I lived.