The Lost Girls (14 page)

Below us, a sea of bodies gyrated to music pumped out of Escalade-sized speakers. High above, a DJ commanded the entire room, an evangelist spinning hard house tracks. Mylar strips in saturated shades hung from the pipes, swaying and shimmering in the updraft created by so much heat and movement.

Everybody in the club was getting tipsy—and no one more rapidly than Carlos and Daniel. Between dances with us they retreated to the bar to refill their drinks. In their absence, the girls and I discovered that this VIP area was stocked liberally with men—mostly sweaty, frantic, unattached men. We tried to deflect their attention, dancing with one another in a tightly locked ring, the signature formation of women at nightclubs the world over, but our dodge, draft, and rescue maneuvers didn't work nearly as well in Peru as they had at home. Despite our best efforts, we were soon surrounded.

“¡Que jodienda! ¡Estoy sudando como un puerco!
It's hot in here, no?” Carlos returned and broke up the mob. The men scattered a few feet, biding their time until he turned his back again.

Carlos danced with all three of us for a few minutes before he turned his attention solely on me, grabbing my hand and pulling me into the crowd as some technopop version of “Hips Don't Lie” filled the air. For some reason, we couldn't seem to escape Shakira. We'd heard this song playing in every Internet café, Laundromat, hostel, bar, and nightclub from Lima to Lake Titicaca and back again.

As we danced, Carlos moved in closer, insistently pressing
my body against his. His shirt was soaked through with sweat, and the heavy scent of whiskey clouded around him. When his hands wandered lower, I backed up. He allowed that, then tugged me in again, locking his arms around my body so that it was impossible for me to get away.

Looking up at his face, I could see that he was smiling, but his eyes seemed dull and obscured. I felt as if I were dancing with an entirely different person from the one I'd come with. With no preamble, Carlos leaned in to press his lips against mine, his tongue aggressively darting in and swirling around my mouth. I reeled back forcefully, separating myself completely from his grasp.

“Hey, where did Daniel go?” I asked, searching for something to say as I resisted the temptation to dry my face with the back of my hand.

“I am not sure,” he said, eyes narrowing. “You wanted him maybe to dance with you?”

“No, it's just that I, well…maybe we should go somewhere else.”

He shrugged and took a step toward me, wrapping himself around my body once again. I definitely didn't like where things were headed but wasn't sure how to get out of the situation. I knew without looking at my watch that we'd reached the witching hour, that tricky time of night where blood alcohol levels spike and personalities unravel. Few good things could result from sticking around. Just as I was contemplating my options, Carlos's hand slid under the back of my shirt and he leaned in, tongue first this time, to go for another kiss.

“Hey, Carlos…actually, I think maybe…maybe we should just go home.”

A slow, sly smile tugged across his features. He put his arm around me again, a firm hand on my back drawing me in toward his open mouth.

I jerked away. “That's not what I mean, Carlos.”

“What?” he asked, his brows furrowed. “What is wrong?”

“Nothing. Don't worry about it. I think I'm just going to grab the girls and head out. It was great meeting you. But it's time for us to go home. Alone.”

“No…you're wanting to leave?” He shook his head and stared down at me, glassy-eyed. “Please do not go. I have been enjoying you so much. Want to know you even more. My parents, they are not home this weekend—we have the whole place, just for us.”

“Wait…you still live with your parents?” I couldn't believe it. He had to be rounding thirty at this point.

He looked at me, his sweaty forehead furrowed, clearly baffled. “Yes, of course. The men, they all live with the parents until they get married. Come, I promise…no one is home.
Estamos solo
. We are alone.”

I had no intention of going anywhere with Carlos. As I turned on one heel and stalked off to find the girls, he trailed after me, baffled by my behavior. Did I not have a good time? Why wouldn't I want to go home with him?

“But you're an
American
,” he sputtered, as if that should explain everything. “I thought you are, how do you say—touch-and-go?”

“What? What does that even mean?” I spun around.

“You know—you touch,” he said, making an explicitly sexual gesture with his hands. “And then you go. Right?”

My mouth dropped open and I took a breath, ready to tell him off, when another hand grabbed my wrist. It was Jen's. “Hey, babe, let's just leave. C'mon.”

She pulled me in the direction of the stairs, and we descended with Carlos following in hot, if clumsy, pursuit. He caught up with us just outside the door and reached for my hand again.

“Please, can you take this?” Carlos slurred in a voice that
almost made me feel bad for him. “Just take this, and call me when you are here again in Lima.”

I turned around and looked down at the card in his hand. Jen flagged a taxi as Holly stood next to me.

“Amanda, I am sorry if I say or do the wrong thing,” he said. “I'm not meaning to upset you. I would like to see you again. I take you and your friends out when you return from the jungle. We go paragliding. Dinner. Anything. You will contact me?”

I didn't answer but let him press the card into my hand before I got into the cab.

Rolling down the window for air, I breathed out the compressed tension. What had just happened? I recapped the end of the night for Jen and Holly.

“I hate to chalk it up to this, but he was just being a guy,” said Jen, trying to make light of things. “No matter where in the world we go, they're always gonna try, right?”

Maybe. I watched as the lights of the city streaked outside the window, feeling exhausted and disappointed at how things had turned out. I'd really liked the prenightclub Carlos. Why did he have to go and get all aggressive on me?

As we walked inside the front door of our hostel, I let Carlos's business card flutter down toward the trash can. I had no plans to ever connect with him again.

So how was it then, exactly a week later, I found myself pretending not to watch Carlos as he pushed his chair back and starting maneuvering his way in our direction?

“Oh, no…I think he's coming over. What should I do?” I looked down, addressing my empanadas. “What do I say?”

“Just act natural, it's all good,” said Holly casually as she watched him below shaded lids. “He probably just saw us sitting here, and now he feels obligated to say something.”

As Carlos walked the last few steps toward our table, he
pushed a lock of dark hair behind his ear and tugged down his sleeves. He looked—nervous.

“Hello, ladies. You are back from the jungle, I see.” Carlos came around to my side of the table. “Nice crown,
reina
.”

I'd forgotten that I'd tossed on the sparkly plastic tiara and matching earrings. My hand reflexively reached up to tug them off, but I stopped short.

“Oh, what…this? It was a present from my friends. I mean, I wouldn't normally wear something like this to go out, it's just that…” I could hear myself rambling. “Actually, today's my birthday.”

“Yes, yes, I remember you saying about this last week. Happy birthday. Maybe you will go out to the clubs again tonight?” he asked.

“No. I'm pretty sure after last time, we're done with clubbing for a while.” I hadn't meant for it to sound harsh, but the comment dropped with a thud.

“Ah, I see. Of course.” Carlos swiftly shifted the subject and his attention to Jen and Holly. “So, tell me about your trip to the Amazon. Did you enjoy this part of the country?”

The girls politely chimed their agreement.

He returned his gaze to me. “And for you—what was your favorite part?”

My favorite part? I flashed through the video clips in my short-term memory, trying to pull up a single headlining event from our time in the Amazon. My mind drew a blank. All I could think of right now was Carlos's Jekyll-and-Hyde transformation at the nightclub and how I'd left him standing there on the curb.

Sensing that no response was forthcoming, Holly jumped in to save the floundering conversation, compensating with animated tales of shaky suspension bridges and killer tree frogs and rodents of unusual size. Jen helped pick up the slack, distracting
Carlos with pictures of the three of us feeding the monkeys and hanging off the back of motorcycles in Indiana. Pretty soon the three of them were laughing while I sat there, trying to reconcile the fact that this polite, sociable guy was the same one who'd offended my sensibilities so acutely the week before.

As Carlos grabbed the camera and scrolled through the images, I let my shoulders drop, just a little. All right, maybe he
had
just come over to be polite, to mitigate some of the weirdness from the other night—not, as I'd thought, to give me a hard time. Compared with uncomfortable reencounters I'd experienced in the past, things definitely could have been worse. Besides, any second now, he'd wrap things up, retreat back to his table, and then we'd…

“So, ladies,” he said, putting the camera down. “I have told my friends over there all about the traveling American girls, and now they are very curious about you. Would you like to come over and meet them?”

Three pairs of eyes stared at me, and I fumbled for a nice way to decline.

“Oh, well, that's really nice, but we wouldn't want to interrupt your dinner…”

“No, no, we've already finished.”

What could I say? “Okay…sure.”

Abandoning our mostly empty plates, we followed Carlos. The chatter among his friends, a lively-looking crew of artists and designer types, slowly trickled off. They shifted in their chairs, and I was relieved to see that Daniel was not among the bunch.

“Ah, it is the Americans,” announced a guy wearing a jacket that looked as if it were made of tapestry material. “You better watch out for that guy. He's trouble.”

“Oh, we've already discovered that,” I said, glancing over at Carlos.

“Hello, I am Anabella,” said a dark-eyed brunette with retro Brooke Shields eyebrows. “It is so nice to meet you.”

Holly extended her hand, but the girl ignored it, kissing both of her cheeks instead.

The process repeated itself around the table, embraces and kisses subbing for handshakes as we were introduced to the entire group.

“Come, you will sit next to me,” said Anabella, pulling Holly away. “I need to hear
everything
about New York. I will be visiting in the fall.”

Within minutes, both of my friends were absorbed into conversations—Holly with Anabella and Jen with a shaggy-haired guy sporting thick black hipster glasses—and Carlos and I found ourselves standing awkwardly at one end of the table, not quite facing each other.

“So you had a good time in Peru? I hope it won't be the last time you visit.”

“Oh, no, it won't be. I'll definitely be coming back at some point.” I avoided his eyes, watching as a waiter whisked the plates off the table, skillfully balancing the heavy load as he returned to the kitchen.

“When do you leave?”

“Tomorrow. We're heading to Rio next, then traveling through Brazil for a couple weeks.”

“Good, good. Brazil is very nice. Just be careful if you go out in Rio. Those Brazilian boys, you know, they're even more persistent than the Peruvians.”

I finally cracked a smile. “Really? That's hard to imagine.”

We stood staring at the group for a minute before Carlos spoke again.

“Amanda,” he started, turning slightly in my direction. “I don't mean to bring up a bad subject. But I know I upset you the other night and…I feel terrible about this. We had a good
time at Café del Mar, no? But after we got to the club…I don't know what happened.”

“Yeah, I'm not sure what happened, either,” I responded, crossing my arms over my chest. “One minute, we were dancing and the next, we were…and then you tried to…well, it doesn't matter.”

“No, it does matter. Tell me.”

“I mean, we'd just met, like four hours earlier, and already you were pressuring me to go home with you. I mean, do you really believe what you said about American women? Being touch-and-go, I mean? Because I hope you know, we're not all like that.” Of course, if he did, I couldn't entirely blame him. Several British and Aussie backpackers had confirmed that American women have developed a real
Girls Gone Wild
reputation overseas.

“No, no, Amanda…of course not. I should not have said that,” he said, now facing me directly. “I wanted all week to call you, to say something, to apologize, but I did not know how to reach you. And now you are right here. This is kind of crazy, no?”

I shook my head. “Yeah, it's pretty crazy all right.”

“Do you think maybe we were meant to see each other again?”

I thought about that but didn't answer. We spoke for several more minutes, untangling any remaining knots of weirdness between us. By the time he and his friends had paid their bill and were ready to take off, I actually found myself a little sorry to see him go.

“I'm really glad that we bumped into each other,
reina
,” he said, giving me a light hug.

“You know, Carlos—I am too.”

The girls and I said our good-byes to Carlos and his friends as they left the restaurant, then returned to our own table to rehash the events of the previous hour.

“So what were you guys
talking
about over there?” Holly pounced.

“You two looked like you were getting pretty cozy,” Jen joked. “Maybe you're the touch-and-go type after all?”