The Man Who Cancelled Himself (10 page)

“Have you had one stolen before?”

“No, never,” she replied, peering out at me from behind a pair of thick glasses. “I keep them locked up tight.”

“I thought Lyle didn’t believe in locks.”

“Lyle doesn’t, but I do. The wardrobe room is
locked.
Has to be. Otherwise it would be like leaving a small fortune lying around.”

“Who has keys?”

“To what, dear?” Gwen fumed impatiently.

“The wardrobe room.”

“Stephen, my assistant,” she replied. “Lyle, of course. And Katrina and Leo. But people are always in and out when we’re in there working. Common pilfering happens all the time. A real pain, but there’s no way to avoid it.”

Annabelle introduced me to six or eight others as well. Too many to remember. All of them hoping that someone, anyone, knew how to turn down the air-conditioning. Leo did, but her departure, I’m sorry to say, freed up Chad Roe. The actor nailed me at the coffee pot.

“Hoagy, nice to see you again, man,” he said warmly and earnestly.

“I don’t believe we’ve met.”

“I did
Streetcar
with Merilee at the Long Wharf,” he reminded me, moving in for the kill. “But, hey, I guess that was years ago, huh? How’s your novel coming?”

Possibly I’m not being fair to Chad Roe. He really wasn’t a terrible guy. He was sincere, decent, politically and environmentally correct, solid, nice. It’s just that he was, well, too much of all of those things. A big oaf. A clod. Early in his career, he had been dubbed the next Redford. Never happened. He didn’t have the talent, just the looks. Still had them. Even at forty-whatever he remained maddeningly perfect looking—big and strapping and boyish in his blue chambray work shirt, faded jeans, and running shoes. The posture was perfect, the tummy flat, the hair still blond. Possibly it was thinning a bit at the temples and crown, but that may just have been my imagination. Or wishful thinking. The camera always liked Chad a lot. He had a jaw you could chop wood with and one of those automatic matinee-idol smiles that was all sparkling white teeth—sixty of them at least—and sincere blue eyes. And then there was his dimple. It was in his right cheek, and it showed whenever he smiled just so. Which he did with calculated regularity.
Working the dimp
was what Merilee had called it. It was a habit with him. So was clinging. He always stood just a little bit too close when he was talking to you, forcing you to back away from him. No use—he’d just keep coming. He was always anxious to talk. He was always needy. He was, let us not forget, an actor.

“Hoagy, I want you to know, straight out, that it’s not me,” he informed me solemnly.

I started backing away. He stayed chest to chest with me. “What’s not you, Chad?”

“I’m not the father. Merilee and I were,
are,
friends. But that’s all we are. Were. I mean, we’ve never—”

“I see.” Chad was married to an actress himself. Brenda something. They had twins. “I appreciate hearing that from you, Chad. Means a lot.”

“Sure, man. Sure.” He moved in closer.

I moved back, until something ugly happened—I hit wall. I was trapped now. Doomed.

Chad worked the dimp. “It changed everything for me when I heard you were joining the show. Lyle kept telling me about all of the serious things he wanted to do this season, but I have to admit I was skeptical—until I heard about you. I was genuinely surprised.”

“As I was.”

“Pleasantly, I mean.”

“As I wasn’t.”

“I mean, you’re … how else can I put this—you’re a
guy.”

“Seem to be, so far.”

“You’re somebody I can
talk
to about Rob. Have lunch with, go to Mets games with—”

“I’m more of a Yankee fan, actually.”

“I have so many ideas for him.” Chad plowed on, undeterred. Nothing could stop this man, short of a sharp blow to the skull from a ball peen hammer. “He needs humanizing. He needs to be, I don’t know, more of a …”

“A guy?” I suggested.

“Exactly. What do you think about rock climbing?”

“I suppose it’s fine for some people. Me, I’ve always preferred the relative safety of the lobby of the Algonquin and a nice glass of—”

A huge cheer interrupted me. The King had arrived, masked and gloved, along with his beloved queen, Katrina, who was decked out in a sleeveless leopard-skin leotard, hot pink tights, and gold-colored spiked heels. Her hair was done up in a rather severe bun and she wore a pair of heavy black-framed glasses. All of which made her look a little like Mamie Van Doren showing up for her first day of law school.

“I meant for Rob,” Chad said doggedly, barely noticing their entrance. “His hobby is rock climbing. It might give him that inner calm those guys have. Guys who stare death in the face. I once played a test pilot on
The Love Boat,
and he was like that.
Calm.
A climber’d have those strong hands, too. And wear the boots and stuff. What do you think, Hoagy?” He worked the dimp. “Want to talk about it over sushi today?”

“I’m afraid Hoagy can’t,” Lyle replied for me. He’d worked his way over to us, and was clearly peeved. “He’ll be in rewrites. Would you excuse us a moment, Chad?”

“Sure, sure,” said Chad pleasantly. “Say, Lyle, I still have some questions about my character.”

“Later,” Lyle blustered. “We’ll talk about it later.”

“But that’s what you said on
the
phone last—”

“We’ll talk about it later!” he roared.

“Okay, Lyle,” said Chad, backing off. “Later.” Mercifully, he moved away.

“You don’t wanna talk to that guy,” Lyle growled at me through his mask.

“Hey, tell me something I don’t already know.”

“I’m serious, pal,” he insisted. “I don’t want you talking to him. I want him speaking to me and me only. Got it?”

“No, I’m afraid not, Lyle. I speak to whomever I want to. Last I heard there was still a Constitution, and this was still American soil.”

“You’re not on American soil. You’re on
my
soil.”

“I may have to quote you on that one.”

“Help yourself,” he snapped.

“I generally do.” I couldn’t believe it—I was actually standing there fighting for my inalienable right to speak with Chad Roe.

Lyle’s chest rose and fell. “Look, I want you involved. I do. I just want your input filtered through me, that’s all. So he gets one clear signal.” Lyle glanced around at the others, then edged in closer to me. Everyone, it seemed, wanted to get close to me that morning. “What do you think about my sweater, huh?” he asked, his voice hushed.

“Gwen figures one of the crew took it. Big collector’s item.”

Lyle shook his huge, round head. “Don’t kid yourself, man. That was no robbery.”

“What was it then?”

“A warning,” he replied, with total certainty. “I’m right and this proves it.”

“Proves what, Lyle?”

“Somebody in this fucking room wants me off the air. And they aren’t giving up.” He stabbed himself in the chest with a fat, gloved thumb. “Well, neither am I, Hoagy. They
aren’t
gonna win. I won’t let ’em, ya hear me? I
won’t
give ’em the satisfaction. They’ll never, ever—”

“I need you, Lyle,” Leo broke in gruffly. “I have a problem—with Chad.”

Lyle rolled his eyes. “Now what?”

“It’s about the john in his dressing room,” she replied.

Lyle stared at her. “He hasn’t
got
a john in his dressing room.”

“Exactly,” she responded wearily. “He has to use the same men’s room out by the stairs that the crew uses. He says it’s filthy. Actually, the word he used was revolting. Plus all of the extras dress in there on tape day and he’s really uncomfortable about that, because he’ll be spending a lot of time in there.” She lowered her voice. “It seems the man has a … nervous colon.”

“Why is Chad Roe’s colon my problem?”

“He claims it’ll affect his performance,” she said. “He needs privacy to collect himself before he goes on. If he has to share a bathroom with everyone he won’t get it.”

Lyle ran a gloved hand through his red curls, exasperated. “I can’t do anything about that. No one has their own john.”

“Fiona has her own,” Leo pointed out.

“Fiona’s been here three seasons.”

“You have your own.”

“Well, I’m not installing one for him.”

“You installed one for Katrina.”

“Katrina’s different,” fumed Lyle. “She’s an executive.”

“Then how about sharing yours with him?” she asked.

“What?!”

“You won’t even see him,” she pressed. “He can use the outside door—it opens right out into the main office. He won’t have to go inside your dressing room at all.”

“It’s
my
john!” Lyle raged. “Mine! I don’t want
his
germs all over it. Why would I want that, huh?” He shuddered.
“No!
I forbid it!”

“Fine,” Leo said shortly. “I’ll tell him.”

“Wait,” he commanded, glancing at the breakfast buffet. “Who sent that fruit basket?”

“God did,” she replied.

“Get rid of it—microbe city.”

“Yes, Lyle.” She carried it off.

Lyle shook his head in disgust. “Totally unreal. Where does it stop, huh? What next?” He shot me a cold look. “Remember what I told you, Hoagy. Don’t talk to him.”

“What if we run into each other in the men’s room?”

He didn’t answer me. Annabelle was right—whatever Lyle didn’t want to hear he didn’t hear. He wandered off.

Katrina was busy playing hostess. Each and every person got a hug, a kiss; and a squeaky “We’re gonna have
so
much fun!” Randy, the art director, also got a paper napkin with a drawing on it. “My ideas for the set of Rob’s apartment,” she informed him. “Just in case we ever build one.” She left him staring at it in wide-eyed horror.

When she got over to the writers she steered around Tommy, who was busy curling his lip at her. Not a major fan. Bobby, on the other hand, was a goner. He gaped at Katrina Tingle like a lovestruck fourteen-year-old. She dragged him to his feet and hugged him and squeaked, “God, you’re so cute!” All he could do was give her a feeble grin. And blush.

“Ba-boom, ba-boom, ba-boom,” Tommy muttered as she went ootsie-fooing off, hooters heaving. Then he turned to Bobby and said, “That a yardstick in your pocket, Bobster, or are you just glad to see me?”

Bobby dove back into his script, blinking furiously.

Katrina carefully sidestepped Leo Crimp, refusing to so much as make eye contact with her former boss. When she got to me she lit up and cried, “It’s Hoagy!”

Hugging her was somewhat like running smack into a pair of leopard-skin water balloons. I practically bounced off the woman.

“Lyle is so glad you’re here,” she whispered. “He’s incredibly nervous about this episode. It’s
so
personal.” She deposited a wet kiss on my neck. “And I’m glad you’re here, too.”

There was another big cheer when The Munchkins, Casey and Caitlin, arrived with Amber. They were an impossibly cute little pair of moppets with soft blond hair, tiny noses, and huge brown eyes. Casey was six, his sister five. Both reacted with pure delight at the sight of Lulu. She let out a low moan when she spotted them scampering her way, and skittered under the table. They went under there with her, tugging at her ears and making a big fuss, all of which she suffered in stoic silence. Amber, a taut, toothy Park Avenue blonde in her early forties, came over, too. Amber wore her hair back in a ponytail and no makeup or nail polish. Her face and hands were weathered by the outdoors, nearly leathery. But it was good leather, the kind that ages well. And there were strong bones underneath. She was dressed in jodhpurs and gleaming black riding boots and a white silk blouse buttoned at the throat. I wasn’t sure if she was affecting the severe Claremont Riding Academy look or the severe Erich von Stroheim look. I do know she carried herself with great authority and confidence, and wore no monocle. And I felt quite certain she owned a Range Rover.

“You used to play squash at the Racquet Club with Niles,” she informed me, gripping my hand. Hers was firm and a helluva lot drier than Bobby’s. “Niles Walloon. I was married to him. I’m not anymore.”

“That makes us even,” I said. “I’m not a member of the Racquet Club anymore.” Largely because of dullards just like Niles Walloon, a stiff-necked commodities trader, very old money. Everyone called him Walloon the buffoon.

“Do you belong anywhere now?” she asked, faintly condescendingly.

“I try not to.”

Amber nodded her approval. “Tony, my new husband, isn’t a club sort of person at all. He sculpts. Couldn’t care less about the social world.” She glanced down at her kids, who were still playing with Lulu. “I’ve never been lucky enough to work with Merilee, but I admire her work enormously.”

“Are you working on anything now?” I asked.

She flared her nostrils at me slightly. “No, I’m afraid a lot of the money for good, innovative theater has dried up recently.”

“I understand you’d like to direct TV.”

“If I could get the opportunity. The sitcom form is so full of potential, such a marvelous, marvelous platform. My kids love it here. They have a wonderful time.” She gazed around at the staff with an air of fond, patrician benevolence, the same kind of look she might get while observing a busload of welfare kids on their first trip to a petting zoo. “These are not very mature people. I sometimes think Casey and Caitlin are the two oldest people here. But they absolutely adore Lyle.”

“And you?”

She raised an eyebrow at me. “I think Lyle Hudnut is a genius. Don’t you?”

I left that one alone. When I hear the word genius I tend to think of Edison, Picasso, Gershwin, me. Not Lyle Hudnut.

My silence made Amber uncomfortable. She poured herself coffee. “Don’t believe what you hear about me. I’m completely over Lyle. Unlike someone else around this place.”

“Meaning who?”

She let that one slide on by. “I was at sea after Niles and I split up. Lyle was, for a time, a life preserver. But I’ve taken control of my own life now. I have Tony. I have the kids. I have
me.”
She forced a smile. “Everything is fine now.”

“I see.” People who keep trying to convince you that everything is fine are trying even harder to convince themselves. And failing. “That must be nice,” I added.