The Mélendez Forgotten Marriage (3 page)

Her belly gave another little quiver as she thought about what Javier might have taught her in the last two years. Had he tutored her in the carnal delights he seemed to have enjoyed so freely?

His dark eyes began to glint as if he could read her mind. ‘We were good together, Emelia,' he said. ‘Very, very good.'

She swallowed tightly. ‘Um…I…it's…I don't think I'm ready to rush into…you know…picking up where we left off, so to speak.'

He elevated one of his dark brows. ‘No?'

Emelia pressed her trembling thighs together, the heat that had pooled between them both surprising and shocking her. ‘The doctor said not to rush things. He said I should take things very slowly.'

The little gleam in his eyes was still there as he held her gaze. ‘It would not do to go against doctor's orders, now, would it?'

She couldn't stop herself from looking at his mouth. The sensual curve of his lips made her heart start to race. How many times had that mouth sealed hers? Was he a hard kisser or soft? Fast and furious with passion or slow and bone-meltingly commanding? The base of her spine gave a shivery tremor, the sensation moving all the way up to nestle in the fine hairs on the back of her neck.

Her thoughts went racing off again.

Had he kissed her
there
? Had he stroked his long tanned fingers over the nape of her neck? Had he dipped his tongue into the shell of her ear?

Her heart rammed against her ribcage.

Had he gone lower to the secret heart of her? Had he explored her in intimate detail, making her flesh quiver and spasm in delight? What positions had they made love in? Which was their favourite? Had she taken him in her mouth; had she…? Oh, God,
had
she…?

She sneaked a quick glance at him, her face flaming when she encountered his unknowable eyes.

He lifted his hand and with a barely there touch tracked the tip of one of his fingers over the curve of her warm cheek. ‘You don't remember anything, do you,
querida
?' he asked in a husky tone.

Emelia pressed her lips together in an effort to stop them from prickling with sensation, with an aching burning need. ‘No…no… I'm sorry…'

He gave her a crooked smile that didn't quite make the full distance to his eyes. ‘It is no matter. We can take our time and do it all again, step by step. It will be like the first time again,
sí
?'

Emelia felt her heart start to flap as if it had suddenly grown wings. ‘I wasn't very experienced…I remember that. I'd only had one lover.'

‘You were a fast learner.' His eyes dipped to her mouth, lingering there for a moment before coming back to her eyes. ‘Very, very fast.'

She swallowed again to clear the tightness of her throat. ‘You must find this rather…unsettling to be married to someone who doesn't even remember how you kiss.'

His fingers went to her chin, propping her face up so she had to lock gazes with him. ‘You know, I could clear up that little mystery for you right here and now.'

She tried to pull back but he must have anticipated
it as his fingers subtly tightened. ‘I…I wasn't suggesting…' she began.

‘No, but I was.'

Emelia felt her skin pop up in goosebumps as he angled his head and slowly brought his mouth within touching distance of hers. She felt the warm breeze of his breath waft over her lips, a feather-light caress that made her mouth tingle with anticipation for more. She waited, her eyes half closed, her heart thudding in expectation as each second passed, throbbing with tension.

His fingers left her chin to splay across her cheeks, his thumbs moving back and forth in a mesmerising motion, his eyes heavy-lidded as they focused on her mouth. She sent her tongue out to moisten her lips, her heart giving another tripping beat as his mouth came just that little bit closer…

‘It might complicate things for you if I kiss you right now,' he said in a rumbling deep tone. ‘It wouldn't do to compromise your recovery, now would it,
cariño
?'

‘Um…I…I…It's probably not a good idea right now…'

He gave a low deep chuckle and released her, sitting back in his seat with indolent grace. ‘No,' he said. ‘I thought not. But it can wait. For a while.'

Emelia sat in silence, trying to imagine what it was like for him. Of course he would find this situation unbearably frustrating. He was a full-blooded healthy male in the prime of his life. And for the last two years he had been used to having her as his willing wife. Now she was like a stranger to him and him to her. Would her reticence propel him into another woman's arms? The thought was strangely disturbing. Why would the
thought of him seeking pleasure in another woman's arms make her feel so on edge and irritable? It wasn't as if she had any memory of their time together.

Emelia looked down at the rings on her finger. It was strange but the weight of them was not as unfamiliar as the man who had placed them there. She turned them around; they were loose on her but she had lost even more weight from being in hospital. She hadn't noticed it earlier but she had a slight tan mark where the rings had been, which put to rest any lingering doubts about the veracity of their marriage. She glanced at him and found him watching her with a brooding set to his features. ‘Is everything all right?' she asked.

‘Of course,' he said. ‘I just hope the flight will not be too tiring for you.'

He leaned forward to say something to the driver. Emelia felt the brush of his thigh against hers and her heart stopped and started at the thought of how many times those long strong legs had been entwined with hers in passion. He had held off from kissing her but how long before he decided to resume their physical relationship in full? She squeezed her thighs together again, wondering if she could feel where he had been; might it have been only just over a week ago?

They boarded the private jet after going through customs. She couldn't remember flying on a private Gulfstream jet before. She couldn't recall even seeing one other than in a magazine. Even her father, as wealthy as he was, always used a commercial plane, albeit business or first class. Had travelling in such opulent luxury and wearing diamonds that were priceless become commonplace to her in the last two years?

Even though Emelia could see her married name on
her passport, it still seemed as if someone had stolen her identity. The stamps on her passport made no sense to her. She had been to Paris, Rome, Prague, Monte Carlo and Zurich and London numerous times yet she remembered nothing of those trips.

The jet was luxuriously appointed, showcasing the wealth Javier had alluded to earlier. He was clearly a man who had made his way in the world in a big way. The staff members were all very respectful and, unlike some of the wealthy men Emelia had met amongst her father's set, Javier treated them with equal respect. He addressed each of them by name and asked after their partners and family as if they were as important to him as his own.

‘Would you like today's papers?' one of the flight attendants asked once they were settled in their seats.

‘Not today, thank you, Anya,' Javier said with a ghost of a rueful smile.

Emelia suppressed a little frown of annoyance. She would have liked to have read up on the news. After all, it was a different world she lived in now. She had two years' worth of news and gossip to catch up on. And then another thought came to her. Maybe there was something about the accident in the papers, some clue as to what had caused it. Peter, as the manager of a trendy hotel, well frequented by the jet-setting crowd of London, had been a popular public figure. Surely she had a right to know what had led up to the tragic accident that had taken her friend from her.

‘Don't pout,
querida
,' Javier said when he caught the tail end of her look. ‘I am trying to protect you.'

Emelia frowned at him. ‘From what?' she asked.

He gave her one of his unreadable looks. ‘I think you
should know there has been some speculation about your accident,' he said.

Her frown deepened. ‘What sort of speculation?'

‘The usual gossip and innuendo the press like to stir up from time to time,' he said. ‘You are the wife of a high profile businessman, Emelia. You might not remember it, but you were regularly hounded by the press for any hint of a scandal. It's what sells papers and magazines, even if the stuff they print isn't always true.'

Emelia chewed on the end of one of her neatly manicured nails.
She
was the focus of the press? How could that be possible? She lived a fairly boring life, or at least she thought she had until after she had woken up from her coma. She had long ago given up her dreams of being a concert pianist and was now concentrating on a career in teaching. But the sort of fame or infamy Javier was talking about had definitely not been a part of her plan.

She dropped her finger from her mouth. ‘What are the papers saying about the accident?' she asked.

His dark eyes hardened as they held hers. ‘They are saying you were running away with Peter Marshall.'

Emelia opened her eyes wide. ‘Running away? As in…as in leaving you?'

‘It is just gossip, Emelia,' he said. ‘Such things have been said before and no doubt they will be said again. I have to defend myself against similar claims all the time.'

She pressed her lips together. ‘I might not be able to remember the last two years of my life but I can assure you I'm not the sort of person to run away with another man whilst married to another,' she said. ‘Surely you don't believe any of that stuff?'

He gave her a slight movement of his lips, not exactly a smile, more of a grimace of resignation. ‘It is the life we live,
querida
. All high profile people and celebrities are exposed to it. It's the tall poppy syndrome. I did warn you when we met how it would be. I have had to live with it for many years—lies, conjecture, gossip, innuendo. It is the price one pays for being successful.'

Emelia gnawed on her fingernail again as the jet took off from the runway. She didn't like the thought of people deliberately besmirching her name and reputation. She wasn't a cheater. She believed in absolute faithfulness. She had seen first-hand the damage wrought when a partner strayed, as her father had played around on each of his wives, causing so much hurt and distress and the betrayal of trust.

‘Do not trouble yourself about it for now,' Javier said into the silence. ‘I wouldn't have mentioned the press except they might be waiting for us when we arrive in Spain. I have made arrangements with my security team to provide a decoy but, just in case, do not respond to any of the press's questions, even if they are blatantly untrue or deliberately provocative. Do you understand?'

Emelia felt another frown tug at her brow. ‘If they are as intrusive and persistent as you say, I can't evade the press for ever, though, can I?' she asked.

His eyes were determined as they tethered hers. ‘For the time being, Emelia, you will do as I say. I am your husband. Please try to remember that, if nothing else.'

Emelia felt a tiny worm of anger spiral its way up her spine. She squared her shoulders, sending him a defiant glare. ‘I don't know what you expected in a wife when you married me, but I am not a doormat and I don't intend to be one, with or without the possession of my memory.'

A muscle clenched like a fist in his jaw, and his eyes became so dark she couldn't make out where his pupils began and ended. ‘Do not pick fights you have no hope of winning, Emelia,' he said in a clipped tone. ‘You are vulnerable and weak from your injury. I don't want you to be put under any more pressure than is necessary. I am merely following the doctor's orders. It would help if you would do so too.'

She folded her arms tightly beneath her breasts. ‘Do not speak to me as if I am a child. I know I am a little lost at present, but it doesn't mean I've completely lost my mind or my will.'

Something about his expression told Emelia he was fighting down his temper with an effort. His mouth was flat and white-tipped and his hands resting on his thighs were digging into the fabric of his trousers until his knuckles became white through his tan.

It seemed a decade until he spoke.

‘I am sorry,
cariño
,' he said in a low, deep tone. ‘Forgive me. I am forgetting what an ordeal you have been through. This is not the time to be arguing like an old married couple.'

Emelia shifted her lips from side to side for a moment, finally blowing out her cheeks on a sigh. ‘I'm sorry too,' she said. ‘I guess I'm just not myself right now.'

‘No,' he said with an attempt at a smile. ‘You are certainly not.'

She closed her eyes and, even though she had intended to feign sleep, in the end she must have dozed off as when she opened her eyes Javier was bringing his airbed seat upright and suggested she do the same, offering her his assistance as she did so.

Within a short time they were ushered through customs and into a waiting vehicle with luckily no sign of the press Javier had warned her about.

The Spanish driver exchanged a few words with Javier which Emelia listened to with a little jolt of surprise. She could speak and understand Spanish? She hadn't spoken it before coming to London. Had she learned in the last couple of years? Why, if she could remember his language, could she not remember the man who had taught it to her? She listened to the brief exchange and, for some reason she couldn't quite explain, she didn't let on that she understood what was being said.

‘Ella se acuerda algo?'
the driver asked.
Does she remember anything?

‘No, ninguno,'
Javier responded heavily. Not a thing.

During the drive to the villa Emelia looked out at the passing scenery, hoping for a trigger for her memory, but it was like looking at a place for the first time. She felt Javier's gaze resting on her from time to time, as if he too was hoping for a breakthrough. The pressure to remember was all the more burdensome with the undercurrent of tension she could feel running beneath the surface of their tentative relationship. She kept reassuring herself it was as the doctors had said: that Javier would find it difficult to accept she couldn't remember him, but somehow she felt there was more to it than that. Even the driver's occasional glances at her made her feel as if she were under a microscope. Was it always going to be like this? How would she bear it?