The Palace (60 page)

Text of a letter to Francesco Ragoczy in Venezia from Olivia in Roma:

 

To Sanct' Germain in Venezia, Olivia of the Eternal City sends loving
greetings of the same sort.

So Demetrice is going to leave you after all? You may not believe this, but
for your sake I am truly sorry. It is unfortunate that she had to make the
change before she was prepared. If there had been more time, undoubtedly she
would not feel as she does. She is an intelligent and sensitive woman, you tell
me, and in time the wounds will heal and she will not be distressed by what you
are and what she has become.

Yet I know this is painful to you. For so long you have wanted someone who
knows you for what you are, understands it and loves you for it. I'm not sure
such a woman exists, but if she does, if she ever does, I hope with all my heart
that you will find her and love her until the end of time.

From what you have told me about the other, Estasia, it may be just as well
that she burned. If she had made the change when she died, she would have been
the sort of vampire who gives our kind the hideous reputation we have gained. We
are like elephants, my dearest friend. Most elephants live happily with people,
enjoying them, and help them. But it is not by these that elephants are known,
but for the rare one that turns rogue, that rampages through towns, killing all
in its path. One with the hunger of Estasia would have been a rogue among us.
Because of her death, we are all spared danger and pain.

Another one of the cardinals has died and of course the blame is laid at
Alessandro's door. Why he should bother to poison a feeble old man of eighty-six
I can't imagine. But the Borgias have a certain reputation and it haunts them as
surely as ours haunts us.

When you leave Venezia, come to Roma for a time. I have missed you and with
all this fear of poisons and plots, my life is severely circumscribed for the
time being. Perhaps we might go to one of the old villas at Ostia, or visit
Sicilia. I have a small boat of my own, with provisions for carrying earth, so
you need not fear to be sick.

I thank you for the painting. As you know, Semele is one of my favorite
allegories, though after all this time I am flattered you remember. I will do as
you request and not hang the painting where it can be seen. But how can anyone
have believed that something that beautiful was evil? Never mind. Even if you
could explain, I would never understand.

You must excuse me. A very beautiful young man has just arrived and I am most
interested in learning more of him. I will write again later, perhaps. Oh, Sanct'
Germain, I wish that you will find what your soul is seeking. And if my love
will help or lend you courage, you know that you have it, as you always have.

Olivia

 

In Roma, on the Feast of the Blessed Virgin, a horridly hot August 15, 1498