THE PHANTOM COACH: Collected Ghost Stories (20 page)

‘
Beata Madre!
not I.’

‘Will you marry me, if I stay?’

She laughed aloud—such a merry, mocking, musical laugh, like a chime of silver bells!

‘You ask too much,’ she said.

‘Only what you have led me to hope these five or six months past.’

‘That is just what Matteo says. How tiresome you both are!’

‘Oh, Gianetta,’ I said, passionately, ‘be serious for one moment! I am a rough fellow, it is true—not half good enough or clever enough for you; but I love you with my whole heart, and an emperor could do no more.’

‘I am glad of it,’ she replied; ‘I do not want you to love me less.’

‘Than you cannot wish to make me wretched! Will you promise me?’

‘I promise nothing,’ said she, with another burst of laughter; ‘except that I will not marry Matteo!’

Except that she would not marry Matteo! Only that. Not a word of hope for myself. Nothing but my friend’s condemnation. I might get comfort, and selfish triumph, and some sort of base assurance out of that, if I could. And so, to my shame, I did. I grasped at the vain encouragement, and, fool that I was! let her put me off again unanswered. From that day I gave up all effort at self-control, and let myself drift blindly on—to destruction.

At length things became so bad between Mat and myself that it seemed as if an open rupture must be at hand. We avoided each other, scarcely exchanged a dozen sentences in a day, and fell away from all our old familiar habits. At this time—I shudder to remember it!—there were moments when I felt that I hated him.

Thus, with the trouble deepening and widening between us day by day, another month or five weeks went by, and February came; and, with February, the carnival. They said in Genoa that it was a particularly dull carnival; and so it must have been, for, save a flag or two hung out in some of the principal streets, and a sort of
festa
look about the women, there were no special indications of the season. It was, I think, the second day of the carnival, when, having been on the line all the morning, I returned to Genoa at dusk, and to my surprise found Mat Price on the platform. He came up to me and laid his hand on my arm.

‘You are in late,’ he said. ‘I have been waiting for you three-quarters-of-an-hour. Shall we dine together today?’

Impulsive as I am, this evidence of returning good will at once called up my better feelings.

‘With all my heart, Mat,’ I replied; ‘shall we go to Gozzoli’s?’

‘No, no,’ he said, hurriedly. ‘Some quieter place—some place where we can talk. I have something to say to you.’

I noticed now that he looked pale and agitated, and an uneasy sense of apprehension stole upon me. We decided on The Pescatore, a little out-of-the-way
trattoria
, down near the Molo Vecchio. There, in a dingy salon frequented chiefly by seamen, and redolent of tobacco, we ordered our simple dinner. Mat scarcely swallowed a morsel, but, calling presently for a bottle of Sicilian wine, drank eagerly.

‘Well, Mat,’ I said, as the last dish was placed on the table, ‘what news have you?’

‘Bad.’

‘I guessed that from your face.’

‘Bad for you—bad for me. Gianetta——’

‘What of Gianetta?’

He passed his hand nervously across his lips.

‘Gianetta is false—worse than false,’ he said in a hoarse voice. ‘She values an honest man’s heart just as she values a flower for her hair—wears it for a day, then throws it aside for ever. She has cruelly wronged us both.’

‘In what way? Good heavens, speak out!’

‘In the worst way that a woman can wrong those who love her. She has sold herself to the Marchese Loredano.’

The blood rushed to my head and face in a burning torrent. I could scarcely see, and dared not trust myself to speak.

‘I saw her going towards the cathedral,’ he went on, hurriedly. ‘It was about three hours ago. I thought she might be going to confession, so I hung back and followed her at a distance. When she got inside, however, she went straight to the back of the pulpit, where this old man was waiting for her. You remember him—an old man who used to haunt the shop a month or two back. Well, seeing how deep in conversation they were, and how they stood close under the pulpit with their backs towards the church, I fell into a passion of anger and went straight up the aisle, intending to say or do something, I scarcely knew what; but, at all events, to draw her arm through mine, and take her home. When I came within a few feet, however, and found only a big pillar between myself and them, I paused. They could not see me, nor I them; but I could hear their voices distinctly, and—and I listened.’

‘Well, and you heard——’

‘The terms of a shameful bargain—beauty on the one side, gold on the other; so many thousand francs a year; a villa near Naples—pah! it makes me sick to repeat it.’

And with a shudder, he poured out another glass of wine and drank it at a draught.

‘After that,’ he said presently, ‘I made no effort to bring her away. The whole thing was so cold-blooded, so deliberate, so shameful, that I felt I had only to wipe her out of my memory, and leave her to her fate. I stole out of the cathedral, and walked about here by the sea for ever so long, trying to get my thoughts straight. Then I remembered you, Ben; and the recollection of how this wanton had come between us and broken up our lives drove me wild. So I went up to the station and waited for you. I felt you ought to know it all; and—and I thought, perhaps, that we might go back to England together.’

‘The Marchese Loredano!’

It was all that I could say; all that I could think. As Mat had just said of himself, I felt ‘like one stunned’.

‘There is one other thing I may as well tell you,’ he added, reluctantly, ‘if only to show you how false a woman can be. We—we were to have been married next month.’

‘
We?
Who? What do you mean?’

‘I mean that we were to have been married—Gianetta and I.’

A sudden storm of rage, of scorn, of incredulity swept over me at this, and seemed to carry my senses away.

‘
You!
’ I cried. ‘Gianetta marry
you!
I don’t believe it.’

‘I wish I had not believed it,’ he replied, looking up as if puzzled by my vehemence. ‘But she promised me; and I thought when she promised it she meant it.’

‘She told me weeks ago that she would never be your wife!’

His colour rose; his brow darkened; but when his answer came, it was as calm as the last.

‘Indeed,’ he said. ‘Then it is only one baseness more. She told me that she had refused you; and that was why we kept our engagement secret.’

‘Tell the truth, Mat Price,’ I said, well-nigh beside myself with suspicion. ‘Confess that every word of this is false! Confess that Gianetta will not listen to you, and that you are afraid I may succeed where you have failed. As perhaps I shall—as perhaps I shall, after all!’

‘Are you mad?’ he exclaimed. ‘What do you mean?’

‘That I believe it’s just a trick to get me away to England—that I don’t credit a syllable of your story. You’re a liar, and I hate you!’

He rose, and laying one hand on the back of his chair, looked me sternly in the face.

‘If you were not Benjamin Hardy,’ he said, deliberately, ‘I would thrash you within an inch of your life.’

The words had no sooner passed his lips than I sprang at him. I have never been able distinctly to remember what followed. A curse—a blow—a struggle—a moment of blind fury—a cry—a confusion of tongues—a circle of strange faces. Then I see Mat lying back in the arms of a bystander; myself trembling and bewildered—the knife dropping from my grasp; blood upon the floor; blood upon my hands; blood upon his shirt. And then I hear those dreadful words:

‘Oh, Ben, you have murdered me!’

He did not die—at least, not there and then. He was carried to the nearest hospital, and lay for some weeks between life and death. His case, they said, was difficult and dangerous. The knife had gone in just below the collarbone, and pierced down into the lungs.

He was not allowed to speak or turn—scarcely to breathe with freedom. He might not even lift his head to drink. I sat by him day and night all through that sorrowful time. I gave up my situation on the railway; I quitted my lodging in the Vicolo Balba; I tried to forget that such a woman as Gianetta Coneglia had ever drawn breath.

I lived only for Mat; and he tried to live, more I believe for my sake than his own. Thus, in the bitter silent hours of pain and penitence, when no hand but mine approached his lips or smoothed his pillow, the old friendship came back with even more than its old trust and faithfulness. He forgave me fully and freely; and I would thankfully have given my life for him.

At length there came one bright spring morning, when, dismissed as convalescent, he tottered out through the hospital gates, leaning on my arm and feeble as an infant. He was not cured; neither, as I then learned to my horror and anguish, was it possible that he ever could be cured.

He might, with care, live for some years; but the lungs were injured beyond hope of remedy, and a strong or healthy man he could never be again. These, spoken aside to me, were the parting words of the chief physician, who advised me to take him further south without delay.

I took him to a little coast-town called Rocca, some thirty miles beyond Genoa—a sheltered lonely place along the Riviera, where the sea was even bluer than the sky, and the cliffs were green with strange tropical plants, cacti, and aloes, and Egyptian palms.

Here we lodged in the house of a small tradesman; and Mat, to use his own words, ‘set to work at getting well in good earnest’. But, alas! it was a work which no earnestness could forward. Day after day he went down to the beach, and sat for hours drinking the sea-air and watching the sails that came and went in the offing. By-and-by he could go no further than the garden of the house in which we lived.

A little later, and he spent his days on a couch beside the open window, waiting patiently for the end. Ay, for the end! It had come to that. He was fading fast—waning with the waning summer, and conscious that the reaper was at hand. His whole aim now was to soften the agony of my remorse and prepare me for what must shortly come.

‘I would not live longer if I could,’ he said, lying on his couch one summer evening and looking up to the stars. ‘If I had my choice at this moment, I would ask to go. I should like Gianetta to know that I forgave her.’

‘She shall know it,’ I said, trembling suddenly from head to foot.

He pressed my hand.

‘And you’ll write to father?’

‘I will.’

I had drawn a little back, that he might not see the tears raining down my cheeks; but he raised himself on his elbow, and looked round.

‘Don’t fret, Ben,’ he whispered; laid his head back wearily upon the pillow—and so died.

And this was the end of it. This was the end of all that made life life to me. I buried him there, in hearing of the wash of a strange sea on a strange shore. I stayed by the grave till the priest and the bystanders were gone. I saw the earth filled in to the last sod, and the gravedigger stamp it down with his feet.

Then, and not till then, I felt that I had lost him for ever—the friend I had loved, and hated, and slain. Then, and not till then, I knew that all rest, and joy, and hope were over for me. From that moment my heart hardened within me, and my life was filled with loathing. Day and night, land and sea, labour and rest, food and sleep, were alike hateful to me.

It was the curse of Cain, and that my brother had pardoned me made it lie none the lighter. Peace on earth was for me no more, and goodwill towards men was dead in my heart forever. Remorse softens some natures; but it poisoned mine. I hated all mankind, but above all mankind I hated the woman who had come between us two, and ruined both our lives.