The Pursuit of Pearls (29 page)

“I thought it very poor,” said Goebbels.

“It won Best Picture, didn't it?”

A snort. “Perhaps in one sense that film is what Britain does best. An extended wallow in a rose-tinted version of her past. We in Germany prefer to focus on our future. But then—”

He broke off midsentence, and Clara became aware of an intense, hostile glare. She looked round to see Magda Goebbels approaching, causing her husband to move swiftly in the opposite direction, like one in a pair of repelling magnets. Magda was dressed in high-necked, monkish black and wore the tragic expression of one invited to her own funeral.

“Don't let me interrupt. I can see you and my husband were deep in conversation,” she snapped.

“Not really. We were discussing films.”

“That's what he always calls it. Discussing films. You take me for a fool, Fräulein Vine. Especially considering the way you're sporting his brooch.”

Clara cursed herself for choosing Goebbels's swastika. She had thought of it as a useful accessory, part of her disguise. Instead, it had parachuted her into unforeseen difficulties.

“I have one exactly like it,” Magda continued. “But then, so do half the women in Berlin. He has his jeweler make them. Some men—Goering, for example—take a real interest in jewelry, but my husband lacks that imagination. Joseph orders precisely the same trinket every time. Usually when he wants to reward an actress for ‘discussing films.' ”

What misfortune to encounter a paranoid Magda Goebbels on a night like this. Clara was just summoning conciliatory words when the minister's wife lifted a glass from a passing tray and shrugged. “Don't bother to deny it. I don't care anyway. I just want this evening to be over. Let's hope the Führer's tired.”

“Why's that?”

“Because when he's not he watches two films, back to back. I've been here so many times, and it's always the same routine. Cartoon first, then a newsreel, then the movie. Or two. Then he stays up talking until four in the morning, and it's always the same subjects. Vegetarianism, Wagner, history, dogs. I'm praying it's not a two-movie evening.”

Clara glimpsed her escape in the adjacent room, where a vast marble table was piled with diverse objects, like a grand church jumble sale.

“Are those the Führer's birthday gifts?”

“Haven't you seen them yet? You should. You wouldn't believe some of the junk the poor man has been given. In my opinion most of it should go straight to the Winterhilfswerk.”

Magda was right. The display was exactly like something one might find at a wedding, only far larger and more vulgar. Instead of wineglasses, fish knives, and toasters, the Führer's beloved nation had produced an extravagant and frankly kitsch selection of gifts. A bust of Goethe rubbed shoulders with an ivory hunting horn. Dull landscapes were propped against oils of ancient military figures. A garish gold model of the Führer's art gallery in Munich, the Haus der Deutschen Kunst, jostled for the bad taste prize with a handcrafted castle studded with precious stones. One citizen with a vivid imagination had supplied a pair of baby bootees and a knitted bonnet, which had been deftly concealed behind a vase of striking ugliness filled with dried flowers.

Clara stared at the gifts without seeing them, focusing on what the next hour would bring. She wanted to choreograph her movements precisely, minute by minute. She saw herself as if from above, unstoppable, like a character in a film, except that no rehearsal could prepare her for an attempt like this. No prompt could help her. There was no possibility of a retake. This task had to be carried out perfectly, and she had only one chance.

“Aren't they wonderful? The people love their Führer very much.”

The speaker was a young woman in her twenties with frizzy, dark hair and a deferential expression. Compared to those of the Nazi wives, her clothes were dowdy and her manner restrained. She extended a polite hand.

“I'm Christa Schroeder, the Führer's secretary.”

“Clara Vine.”

“Yes. I mean, I recognize you, Fräulein Vine. I know who you are. I was admiring your dress. Is it French?”

It was a mistake to wear Parisian fashion in Hitler's presence. Not only did he hate the French, but he believed the slender Gallic silhouette was the last thing likely to encourage the fecundity he wanted for his Reich.

“It was a gift,” Clara replied noncommittally.

“Such a lovely one. And look at all the Führer's gifts! We've been working round the clock to catalog them. People have been so generous. He's had a Titian portrait, and the most marvelous Meissen porcelain, and a sailing ship made entirely from flowers. Captain Bauer, his pilot, gave him a model Condor airplane. Just over there. And Herr Porsche gave him a model car as well as a real one.” A little confidential smile. “To tell the truth, it's the models the Führer loves best. He's like a kid with them.”

The secretary sighed fondly. “But the birthday was so tiring for our poor boss. All those receptions went on for days…I'm sorry, Fräulein, are you cold in here?”

“No.” Clara rubbed the goosebumps on her arms. “I'm fine.”

“It's nerves, isn't it?”

“Nerves?” Clara said evenly.

“Please forgive me saying, but it's quite normal. That's how everyone is when they meet the Führer. If only they knew how important the film evenings are to him. He loves being with people, and being entertained. He used to adore going to operettas and variety shows at the Wintergarten or the Admiralspalast, but he can't go anymore because his presence disrupts the performance. So he sends his steward instead, and the man brings a program back for the chief to look at. But that's no substitute. It's sad really. This is the nearest he gets to an evening of pleasure.”

Suddenly, from the room behind them, the click of heels rang out like pistol shots, followed by a volley of Heil Hitlers and a large dog, fur plush and shiny and claws skittering on the marble floor, padded into the Music Room. As it stood with its long, pink tongue hanging out, absorbing the gazes of the guests, it was as if, for a freakish moment, the dog itself was the object of their adulation. Then, a heartbeat later, its master arrived.

When Hitler entered, it was as though all the air had been emptied out of the room and replaced with something sharper and more electric. Every eye was drawn to him as if on a wire, every expression one of bright, jewellike intensity. Here was the face that had launched a thousand placards and posters, that hung in every shop window and featured on almost every stamp. The face that appeared to some women in their dreams and others in their nightmares.

Hitler's eyes were very dark blue. His hair had a stark side parting, and one lock, like a scribble of charcoal, sliced diagonally across his brow. He was wearing a plain gray suit, and under it a white shirt and spotted tie. His expression, which generally looked long-suffering and aggrieved, as though it was enduring some intolerable injustice, was now relaxed, and he was smiling broadly. After all, aside from military maneuvers, movies were his favorite thing.

Several rows of red plush seats had been arranged in front of the screen, much like the gilt chairs Clara had shunned in the VIP enclosure at the birthday parade, and as soon as Hitler arrived, there was an undignified jostling for position, as if the whole company were engaged in a party game of musical chairs, and if they didn't hurry they might find themselves with nowhere to sit. Clara looked around in confusion. She had not anticipated this. For a second, as the seats filled up, she hoped she might be reprieved—perhaps she would find nowhere to sit, and like a child at a party be forced to leave the game—until Christa Schroeder came to her aid. She had taken two seats in the row directly behind the Führer.

“Won't you sit by me, Fräulein?”

The chairs were arranged so that viewers could see between the heads of the people in front. Clara's chair was behind and to the right of Hitler, out of his peripheral vision and close enough to see the bull neck with the beginnings of a roll of fat above the collar and the comb marks in his oiled hair, tightly shaven at the back and sides. Everything appeared in extraordinary clarity, as through binoculars. Clara saw the patch of stubble on the pallid skin that the razor had missed, and the place where a boil was forming on one side of his neck. She heard the snuffle and grunt of the dog lying, head on paws, at its master's feet.

She let her hand drop to her thigh and felt again the apprehension she remembered as a child during a sermon at church, worrying that she might lose all power of inhibition and shout Major Grand's words out loud.

I hope if you were ever in the same room as him, you would have no qualms.

Now she
was
in the same room as him. She was sitting no more than two feet behind him. She could even detect the edge of his famous halitosis, mingled with Kölnissch Wasser, his favorite scent, and see him chewing a fingernail. She removed her jacket and laid it over her lap, then she let her hand cover the shape of the derringer beneath her dress. Its warm steel burned against her thigh. She practiced the movement in her imagination. Her previous nerves vanished, and she felt strangely calm.

As the lights dimmed, Hitler fished out the pair of gold spectacles that he hated people to see him wearing, and Christa Schroeder leaned back with a sigh. This must surely be the most pleasurable part of her job.

It would be best to wait until after the newsreel.

It's always the same routine. Cartoon first, then a newsreel, then the movie.

It made sense to act when all attention was immersed in the action onscreen. How long would the cartoon last? Ten minutes perhaps? Ufa Tonwoche newsreels were longer—typically up to twenty minutes. That meant half an hour, at the outside, before the main feature, and then another ten minutes until the opening credits had rolled and the story properly begun. Forty minutes then. She couldn't stop herself glancing at the Leibstandarte, the ones who would shortly arrest her, standing impassively at the door. Then at the shadowy form of Conrad Adler, to her left on the end of the first row, sandwiched between Goebbels and the pretty Frau von Schirach. Adler did not glance back, but the fixity of his posture told her he was well aware of her. She felt intensely alert, her head throbbing with tension. Everyone flinched as the projector issued a high-pitched squeal and then, with a splash of frenzied Technicolor,
Mickey Mouse and the Society Dog Show
burst onto the screen.

The softness and warmth of the cartoon shapes could not have been more out of place in the Reich Chancellery's marble tomb. As Mickey's falsetto, dubbed into German, chattered brightly through the action, Clara tried to keep her eyes rigidly ahead. It seemed that Pluto had been entered into a ritzy dog show, but despite being buffed and perfumed, pulled like an elastic band and squashed like a doughnut, he and Mickey were hopelessly outclassed. Everything about the cartoon's vibrant jollity and rubbery invincibility was dramatically at odds with the chill formality of the assembled audience. The dog-loving Hitler gave himself up to loud, delighted laughter, but the reactions of the others were less fulsome. Robert Ley yawned. Goebbels wore a little sneering grin and his wife a stony glare. Rudolf Hess's face was a study in blank incomprehension.

The cartoon lasted nine minutes. Slightly shorter than her estimate. It was followed seamlessly by the trumpet fanfare and black and white spinning globe of the newsreel. The Ufa Tonwoche would contain, by Clara's reckoning, at least five items. It was narrated in the usual tone of high-pitched, hectoring excitability—both pessimism and reflection were frowned on in news reports—and began with footage of military exercises taking place near the Polish border. Row on row of marching men and tanks were followed by a camera panning towards a stack of newspapers pegged to a kiosk.
WARSAW
THREATENS
BOMBARDMENT
OF
DANZIG
.
THREE
GERMAN
PASSENGER
PLANES
SHOT
AT
BY
POLES
.
GERMAN
FAMILIES
FLEE
POLISH
MONSTERS
.
WHY
IS
GERMANY
WAITING?
The customary mob appeared, cheering and saluting. A country coaxing itself into a frenzy of adrenaline.

The next item was about the Ahnenerbe. Men in civilian dress were seen loading equipment into large trunks, and the screen filled with a map of the world, marked by arrows stabbing towards South America. Following the Ahnenerbe's success in Tibet, another, even more expensive, jaunt was under way to Bolivia, on the assumption that Nordic colonists sailed there a million years earlier. The face of Doktor Kraus loomed onscreen, explaining that through a series of expeditions, explorers would probe every corner of the earth to uncover music, folktales, even paintings, that testified to the ancient preeminence of the German race. Hitler removed his glasses and took out a handkerchief to clean them. Others shifted in their seats. The adventures of the Ahnenerbe might have captured Himmler's imagination, but nobody else was quite so enthralled.

Eight minutes into the newsreel. Clara's hand beneath her jacket edged up the side of her dress. Her fingers eased the derringer from its holster and slipped it into her palm. It was small enough to remain entirely hidden beneath her hand.
When you want to use it, you move the hammer back to full-cock position and pull the trigger. If you misfire, you can pull the hammer back and try again. But there's only the chance for two shots. You can only make one mistake.

Another twelve minutes to go.

The compilers of the newsreel always liked to mix in trivial items with the heavy news. It was a journalistic technique, Clara knew, called light and shade. The next item concerned a Hitler Youth marching band in Bremen that had won a national competition. The players were toting their instruments like rifles, notes clashing like swords in the air. The youngest were still in the Pimpf and could not have been more than ten years old. At the sight of the smooth, clean faces, shining with ardent pride, Hitler replaced his glasses and peered closely. Clara thought of Erich. What would he say to see her here, so close to his beloved Führer? And what would he think of her tomorrow? Would he ever forgive her?