Authors: Tim Winton
He heaved himself over the wall and walked up into the field below the castle whose foundation seemed to be a great granite tor buried in the brow of the hill. The closer he came and the deeper into its shadow he walked, the clearer its size became. He saw it plainly now. Scully had long thought that architecture was what you had instead of landscape, a signal of loss, of imitation. Europe had it in spades because the land was long gone, the wildness was no longer even a memory. But this . . . this was where architecture
became
landscape. It took scale and time, something strangely beyond the human. This wasn't in the textbooks.
It was not beautiful. The blunt Norman keep rose scarfaced between later gothic wings whose crenellations seemed afterthoughts and whose many tree-spouting windows ran on and on like a child's drawing. Scully stood beneath the oak tree which grew at the foot of the entry stairs and spread its bare fingers into the air beneath the first windows. The stones of the steps were in-worn and puddled with rain, bristling with moss. Grass and ivy and bramble sucked against the walls to smother the single gothic door. Scully whistled through his teeth and heard the cattle complaining from Brereton's sheds fifty yards away.
Scully pressed in through the vegetation and the half-open door into the rubble-strewn pit of the great hall whose floorboards lay in a charred and mossy pile in the cellar below. Everything had fallen through onto everything else. Great oak beams
lay like fallen masts and rigging across cattle bones and tons of cellar bricks. Above it all, beyond the smoke-blackened gallery into whose powdery walls generations of local kids seemed to have cut their initials, loomed the vaulted ceiling, dark as a storm sky. He picked his way round a flagstone edge and heard the sickening burr of unseen wings high above. He came to the staircase built into the cavity of the keep wall. Walls twenty feet thick. A gust of wind angled through the place and stirred the scorched air. Scully got seven or eight steps up the spiral when he began to think of his warm kitchen and the iron kettle that would by now be hissing at its edge. Once around the first turn, the only light entering the staircase came from somewhere above. Grottos and torch niches became pits of shadow and his boots rang louder than he preferred. The light grew and a small chamber opened off to the side. Scully stepped up into its slot-like dimension and saw the huge bed of sticks and reeds left by the birds. The weapon slits let in planks of light and he looked down into the ash wood below his place. Birds wheeled down there, their cries rose plan-gently. He went on up the stairs, emboldened, and felt his way through the long damp curve until there was light again and a similar side chamber that he pushed on past to a long pillar of a door which yielded only slowly to his weight. Before him was a vaulted hall with long wide windows that let in blue light and illuminated the sea of twigs and marbled guano which stretched wall to wall. Rooks buffeted about, escaping as he came on, beating him to the glassless window where he stood looking out across the valley into the pass between castle and mountains where every puddle and window and flapping sheet of tin caught the light and rendered itself defenceless to the eye. The peaks of the Slieve Blooms ran with streaks of cloud and the ploughed fields fell
away herringboned and naked. Scully crossed to the uphill window to look upon his little scab-roofed cottage beyond the wood. Its chimney ripped with smoke. Lanes and hedges and stands of timber and boggy boreens went out at all angles under his gaze as the wind tore his hair. From here it all seemed orderly enough, leading, as it did, to and from this very spot in every direction. It was a small, tooled, and crosshatched country, simple, so amazingly simple from above. Every field had a name, every path a stile. Everything imaginable had been done or tried out there. It wasn't the feeling you had looking out on his own land. In Australia you looked out and saw the possible, the spaces, the maybes. Here the wildness was pressed into something else, into what had already been. And out there beneath the birds, in the gibberish of strokes and lines and connections of the valley was his new life.
A
T DAWN NEXT DAY
, when the ground was frozen thick and mist hung on him like a bedwetter's blanket, Scully knew that his days of coming out behind the barn with a spade and a roll of floral paper were at an end. Like reinforced concrete, the earth yielded only after the most concerted flogging with the sharp end of the mattock, and the hole he made was no bigger than a jam tin. It smoked evilly and caused him to moan aloud. It took the hope from his morning, that nasty little bore hole, and he felt utterly ridiculous crouched over it like some ice fisherman dangling his lure. His backside froze, his hands screamed pain. And only yesterday he'd hunkered down in the mist to have Jimmy Brereton come by in his tractor, waving gamely across the hawthorn hedge and doffing his cap ironically. Top of the mornin, indeed.
It wasn't even winter yet, and it could only get worse. Taking a dump was getting to be the most strenuous and cheerless occasion of the day, and for a languid outhouse merchant like Scully, who liked to plot and read and reminisce with his trousers down and the door ajar, the sacrifice had become too great.
As soon as his hands thawed and the pan was on the fire, he found pencil and paper and began to plan the septic system. What had Binchy and his family done all those years? Generations of them squatting out in the rain, the mud, the snow, in the barn itself, judging by the uneven sod floor. The trials of defecation alone might have driven the poor buggers to drink.
He was digging in the partly thawed field late in the morning when a black car drew by, hissing slow and quiet down the long hill with a train of other cars in its wake. He leaned on his shovel to watch the procession snake through the hedges, fifty cars and more making the turn to Birr with the sky the colour of dishwater above. Scully stood there, the minutes it took to pass, while the fields faded from their lustrous green, and when the last car was gone, the air was heavy, and the world suddenly becalmed.
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P
ETE-THE
-P
OST FOUND HIM
waist-deep in the earth a little after midday. The ground was littered with the stones, bones and pieces of metal he'd heaved up past the mound of chocolate soil at the hole's rim. It was unpleasant in the ground which smelled too rich for a man grown up in sand. It was too soft, too spongy underfoot and he was relieved to see the postie come smirking across the field, mail flapping.
âDidn't you hear, they've dug all the gold out of Ireland, Scully.'
âI'm not withdrawing,' said Scully, heaving up a spadeful. âI'm depositing. This is the septic. There will always be a corner of some foreign field that will be forever Scully.'
âAw, you witty bastard. Depositin, now, is it.'
âHow you been? Haven't seen you for days.'
âBit of family business.'
Scully leaned against the wall of dirt and wiped his brow. The earth smelled burnt and rotten like the inside of that castle.
âEverythin alright?' he said.
âGrand, grand. Some mail for you.'
âCan you leave it inside? I'm filthy, Pete.'
Pete looked down into the hole and then along the pegs marking the trench uphill to the barn. The fall was good, the distance was good. âPuttin the lavvy in the barn, are we?'
âNo room in the house. Back home I'd stick it outside, but here no way. I don't wanna leave the skin of me bum on the toilet seat of a morning.'
Pete laughed and his ears glowed. âI'll have you a pipe and a liner by four. You don't mind them pre-loved, as the Americans would say? I've even got a pan, pink and all.'
âMate, pink is my colour and pre-loved is my destiny.'
âRightso. Um, what about water, Scully?'
Scully looked up and gripped his shovel. âGawd! I forgot that.'
âEven if the pan is Teflon-coated I think you might have some problems without water.'
âSmartarse. Can we run it off the pump, you reckon? Hand pump the cistern full?'
âJaysus, you're goin basic here, Scully. I presume you had it better at home.'
âA damn sight better,' Scully muttered.
âYou need an electric pump off your well and full plumbin.'
âWell.'
âI know, I know. I'll see you at four. Sign this. Ah, you dirty booger. Wash your hands.'
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CULLY READ HIS MAIL BY
the fire with a mug of tea steaming beside him. There was a card from his mother with a hurt, distant tone to it. The picture showed the Swan River at dusk with the lights of Perth budding against a purple sky. A query from the Australian Taxation Office about why he had not filed for the past two years. This had been forwarded by Jennifer, it seemed, along with a card from the wife of a mate from his fishing days. Judging from the incoherent message she was drunk. The card showed a koala bear surfing,
GREETINGS FROM GERALDTON.
In a fat envelope was a news-stand poster from the
Daily News
, sent by a mate from the tackle shop,
JOH GOES!
Bjelke-Petersen, the doddery despot had finally quit politics. Thank God. In the registered envelope were all the documents relating to the sale of the Fremantle house ready for signing, and under separate cover, a cheque from Jennifer for two thousand dollars. The cheque was in her name from an account he didn't recognize, a bank neither of them had accounts with. There was no note. The writing and the signature were hers, the envelope postmarked Fremantle a few days ago. Why didn't she just transfer money into the account here with Allied Irish? It must be something specific. Maybe just enough to tide him over, clear the debt on the credit card. Money, it always made him nervous. He turned to the final item, a card from Billie. On the face of it was a photograph of the Round House, the old convict prison on the beach at Fremantle. Its octagonal limestone walls softened by sunset, rendered scandalously picturesque. It was somewhere they went often, him and her. Jennifer would be at work and the two of them would wander through town to the beach, talking about buildings, about what had been. He was grateful for those years, to have been the one who had her most days. She listened so carefully, you could see her hungry mind working. It was the
reason he didn't have so many friends anymore, as if the kid was suddenly and unexpectedly enough for him.
Today I went to Bathers Beach with Granma and now I am thinking about the convicts. They must of thought God forgot them. Like they fell off the world. When we went to London I was five. I felt like a convict, like it was too different for me. But I was only a kid. Granma says the tailer are good now. I can tie a blood knot, so there. Don't fall off the world, Scully. Do not forget about me, that is
BILLIE ANN SCULLY
.
(all for one!)
And one for all, thought Scully. The house was quiet but for the mild expirations of the turf fire. Scully looked at the postmark and felt raw and unsettled. What a kid. She put the wind up him, sometimes.
He could see her now, the way she was the day they bought this place. Reading that old comic. She had all his old
Classics Illustrated
in a cracked gladstone bag from the farm. She had them all.
Moby Dick, Huckleberry Finn, The Count of Monte Cristo.
Yes, he saw her lolling back in that shitheap rented VW with her absolute favourite,
The Hunchback of Notre Dame
, with its gaudy pictures and forests of exclamation marks. Her lips moving as she snuffled at a bag of Tato chips, humming some Paul Simon song. Her hair bouncing, wide mouth rimmed with salt. The laces of her shoes undone.
On that strange day, when Jennifer got out and looked at the bothy, they exchanged looks, him and Billie, and he couldn't tell what it meant. Mutual doubt, perhaps. And even when he'd been won over by Jennifer's pleading, her infectious excitement and happiness, Billie remained doubtful. He remembered that now.
That and how resistant she was at the airport. Crying at the departure gate, tugged down the hall by her mother who looked simply serene. That was the only word for it â serene. Being pregnant maybe, or being decided. The afterglow. Black hair glossing out behind her. Arms swinging like a woman content and on course at last, relaxed the way she had never been before. Yes, her features serene but indistinct even now. And Billie like a sea anchor, dragging all the way to the plane.
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B
Y THE END OF THE
next day, Scully had himself a connected, waterless toilet. On the barn wall beside it he had taped his poster:
JOH GOES
! He filled the cistern with a bucket and flushed it, hearing the water run away downhill. He laid planks on blocks between house and barn for a bridge across the mud. Pete stood by with a wry grin.
âPumpin out the bilges, it'll be.'
âCome in and have a drink, you cheeky bastard.'
The north wind rattled the panes of the Donegal windows at their backs and the chimney snored beside them as they drank their pints of Harp. The room was warm and humid with simmering stew.
âYou think your gals'll take to this place, Scully?'
âWell, I don't think Jennifer'll need convincing.'
âHow old is that little one?'
âBillie? Seven, seven and a half.'
âA grand life for her here. You can bring her into Birr to play with Con's.'
The very mention of Conor Keneally caused Scully to go stiff with irritation.
âAnd there's a school bus by here to Coolderry. Nice little school.'
âShe's not a Catholic you know.'
âAw, they don't give a toss. And anyway, she might just become one. A little bit of civilization never hurt.'
Scully laughed. The thought of them trying to âcivilize' Billie! But they'd learn, and they'd like her. The Irish and her, they'd get on. They liked a bit of spirit, didn't they?