The Second Saladin (44 page)

Or again: Bigfoot? Fascinating creature, the missing link; they even had it on film. It looked strangely like a man in a monkey suit—but no matter! It was a system of
belief, a way of organizing data coherently. Which Danzig at this point in time lacked, and he was not willing to sit in judgment on any other man’s techniques for doing so. There were others too: saucers, phrenology, Rosicrucianism, Mormonism, Scientology, nudism. All systems of belief, perfectly logical, askew in only one tiny detail which, like one degree’s misaim in a compass reading, took them further and further into the ether the farther out they got, yanking them off into the realms of the purely crazy. Yet comforting! Full of abiding love! Offering safety!

I have no safety, Danzig thought.

What I mean is … What do I mean?

He looked about. Files spilled into files everywhere.

He needed a way to organize it. No matter how insane, how Rosicrucian, how bizarre, he needed a single theory by which the thing could be looked at, tested, then, if false, disregarded.

He needed science.

What he had was madness.

The room terrified him. It was the entropy principle, once again: randomness, disorder, the release of pure energy to no meaningful purpose other than disaster.

There lay the file on B
ANGLADESH
, in one terrible isolated corner, starvation and treachery reeking from the jumble of typed pages (he remembered the photos of the Paki intellectuals bayoneted to death by teenagers for the benefit of the Western cameramen). And over there, huge one, most of it blurred papers, that thin stuff from State with a mad mix of CIA documents thrown in for good measure, C
HINA
, carbons, wads of it (he remembered Chou in the great hall: curious, a pinnacle moment in Western and Eastern civilization, the two cultures meeting as equals for the first time in two million years of humanhood, and all he could remember about it now, having
talked and written about it extensively for almost a decade, were the terrible Chinese toilets, pissholes, sinks, shitdrains of primordial infection); and over there, tidier, a much smaller pile, indicative of how history had really passed her brave, pretty buildings and picturesque mountains by, W. E
UROPE
; then A
FRICA
, undeveloped, a few niggardly papers; and a huge and messy pile for SE A
SIA
, where history had paused for seven long and bitter years; and finally—he hadn’t the nerve to face it—M
IDEAST
, all the little countries, the passionate, violent, rich, desperate little lands, a horror of exile and betrayal and steel will, profligacy. Who could make sense of it? No man. Not even a man of outstanding intellect and ambition, a Danzig.

He spun (barefoot in tattered terry-cloth robe, his flat veined feet and yellowed toes before him) to face it: M
IDEAST
. It covered half a room. He’d begun, one time or other in his hibernation here, to divide the huge archive into smaller piles, I
RAN
and I
RAQ
and S
AUDI
A
RABIA
and the terrible, terrible little P
ALESTINE
and a huge I
SRAEL
. It looked like a fleet, a formation, stacks and stacks of paper: working papers, reports, indexes, trade tables, economic profiles, intelligence reports, satellite photos, computer printouts, abstracts, memo drafts, think-tank bulletins—the gunk, the stuff, the actual plasm of history. And all this was A-level documents, the cream of the cream. In the basement there lurked still another ton and a half of ungraded documents; and in a warehouse in Kensington still more, press clippings, embassy invitations, routing slips. No man could master it all, the complexities, the strange subtleties. And in it somewhere, in one file or in a hundred, lay the A
NSWER
: who was trying to kill him. And why. No wonder he was going insane. Who wouldn’t? It’s a miracle I haven’t gone crazy before. No wonder I seek solace in crazy ideas, fascinated at the bizarre
halls through which human minds can drag the hulking bodies that surround them.

He stared at the piles, aware finally of his own sour odor. He felt like a character in a Borges story lost in a paper labyrinth, time having been decreed to stand still. Truly: he was in a situation that could only have been designed by a blind Argentinian librarian-genius. Yet there was no other place to be. He could not leave. They would kill him if he left the labyrinth.

He pinched the bridge of his nose. Now, suddenly, the bridge of his nose hurt. It had supported glasses for all his adult life; yet now, in an hour of maximum stress, it too revolted. His body ached; he was disgustingly flatulent; his head ached, always, always,
always
. All systems were breaking down; he could not concentrate for more than a few minutes (he kept whirligigging off on wild tangents). Each time he set out to do something, he thought instantly of something else equally urgent, and veered to it immediately. Consequently, nothing even
neared
completion. He was becoming Howard Hughes, walled genius, brilliant lunatic, out of touch with any reality except the lurid one between his ears.

I am out of control. I am an exile in my own house, my own brain.

He stood suddenly, but in the effort lost contact with the reason for standing. By the time he was fully up he could claim no reason for the move. He sat down again, just as suddenly, and began to weep.

How long did he weep? It must have been hours. His self-pity took on Homeric weight and gravity. He wept forever. Night was falling. He was growing weary. Twice men had crept down the hall to listen. He was trying to control himself, but he could hear them listening.

Oh, help me, please. Somebody. Please.

Who would help him? His wife? She was worthless.
They had not fucked in years. When he spoke he saw her eyes wander to the ceiling; she had the attention span of a grasshopper. Sam Melman? Help me, Sam, please help me. But Sam was too greedy, too smooth, too ambitious. Help me, oh, please help me.

Lanahan? The little priest, whose adolescent acne still erupted on his bitter young face, so bent, so determined to succeed. Yet Lanahan was more insane than he was, even.

Help me, help me, oh, help me.

Help me, Chardy, help me.

He wished Chardy were here. Yet he hated Chardy also. Not Chardy; Chardy was another disappointment. Chardy had disappointed him too. Chardy had looked at him dumbly. He’d sat there stolidly, eyes dull, radiating aimless violence. Chardy was another fool.

Danzig stared into dim space, working himself into rage over Chardy’s stupidity. Chardy didn’t know a thing. Chardy was entirely a figment of Danzig’s imagination; he was an invention, a contrivance, an assemblage. He was a simple soldier, man of violence, narrow of mind and imagination. Danzig had foolishly built him into something he was not. It was where his illness had begun, this business of Chardy. It was the first sign of his weakness. Hadn’t Chardy almost gotten him killed in his carelessness with the Harvard woman? Hadn’t Chardy allowed the Kurd to get within killing distance? Chardy was no good. He was ordinary in the worst sense.

He hated Chardy. It occurred to him to call Sam Melman this second and demand that Chardy be fired, be let go. No, more: that he be punished, disgraced, imprisoned. Chardy was no good. You could not depend on Chardy. Once Chardy had come aboard, the whole thing had begun to fall apart.

His rage mounted. He saw Chardy arrested, interrogated,
humiliated. He saw Chardy in prison among lunatics and blacks and hillbillies. Chardy violated, Chardy abused. Chardy ruined. Danzig absorbed a great satisfaction from the scenario. He drew warmth and pleasure from it and at one point actually had the phone in his hand (miracle that he could even find it in the rubble) and had dialed the first two numbers.

But then he froze.

Perhaps they
wanted
him to hate Chardy. Perhaps they had driven a wedge between him and Chardy, knowing them to be natural allies, fearing the potency of any allegiance between them. Maybe, therefore, it would be better to …

Once again, he sat back.

My mind is going nowhere. I’m agitated at nothing. They are taking my mind away from me—this Kurd, whomever he works for.

His bowels began to tense. The scalding need to defecate came over him. He thought he would mess himself, foul his own nest, the ultimate degradation.

My own systems betray me also. They are in revolt.

He passed a terrible burst of gas. Its odor nauseated him. He ran into the adjacent bathroom and sat on the toilet. He sat there for a long time, even after he had ceased to defecate, making certain the attack was over.

I can still do one thing, he thought.

I can still shit.

He reached for the toilet paper and unreeled a long train of sheets, gathering them in his hand. Yet as he pulled loose the last of them, separating it at its perforations with a smart tug, something fell away to the floor. In the dark he could not see. He leaned over, his fingers on the tile. He felt a piece of paper. He brought it quickly to his eyes.

Metternich
, it said.

Danzig cleaned himself, rose, and went swiftly back to his office and to the shelves.

He picked up
Metternich, Architect of Order
, by Joseph Danzig, Harvard University Press, 1964, and began to page through it.

A piece of paper fell out.

You must flee
, it said.

They will kill you
, it said.

It told him where to go, and when.

It was signed
Chardy
.

“A
ll right, Miles. Now we’re going to talk computers.”

“So talk,” said Miles. He would just sit back and be pleasant. He would not get anybody mad. It would all work out and then he’d go to Sam so fast—

“No, Miles. You’re the one who has to talk.”

Miles said, “I can’t tell you anything about computers. All that stuff is highly classified.”

Leo said, “I can still shoot him up.”

“No,” Chardy said, “we need him sober.”

He turned back to Miles.

“Miles, we’re very close to something very big. And it’s come to pass that you’ve got the key.”

Miles just looked at him blankly.

“The files. All on computer discs, right?” Chardy asked.

Miles answered with silence. But his eyes must have signaled yes, for the conversation continued. But he wasn’t sure where this computer angle had come from all of a sudden. It seemed to come from nowhere. Or maybe it had been there all along, and he just didn’t know.

“Harris got the contract, didn’t they?” asked a new
voice. “The fifteen-hundred line of terminals in the pit. They bump ’em up to seventeen-fifties yet?”

An expert. They had an expert.

He said nothing.

“Mr. Lanahan, if you want I can show you photocopies of the contract. We’re on pretty solid ground.”

“Paul, why are you doing this to me?”

For the first time Chardy showed his temper.

“Look, nobody’s done a thing to you. People are dead on account of this business, have died horribly, pointlessly. People were ruined, people were destroyed—”

“Paul—” Leo was trying to hold him back.

“That’s the way it’s played, that’s how rough a game it can be. And you still don’t have a clue. Nobody’s ever even breathed hard on you. So don’t tell me you’re having troubles, Miles, because I just don’t have time to listen.”

He’ll make you choose, Sam had said. Sam had known. Sam must have had his suspicions all along, had it doped out, tried to warn him, give him some strength. Sam had known it would fall this way: Sam and Paul locked in it for Miles’s young soul.

“It doesn’t really matter,” said the expert. “If you can fly the fifteen-hundred you can fly the seventeen-fifty. It’s keyboarded up the same, has the same command vocabulary. It’s just bigger, more flexible, and has a much faster response time, which can be important if you’re in a rush.”

“I’m not sure the seventeen-fifties have gone on-line,” Miles finally said. “They were slated to go in earlier this year, but that stuff is always behind. I’ve never worked at a seventeen-fifty. In my time in the pit, we were fifteen-hundred all the way. If you know so much, then how come—”

“Okay, Miles, fair question. Here’s the answer. We
think there’s a piece of information buried in the Langley computer memory. And we—”

But Lanahan, computer genius himself, instantly saw the flaw in the supposition and could not hold himself back.

“That’s crazy,” he said in utter indignation. “That’s the largest, the most carefully tended, the
best
system in the world. It’s limited access all the way; it goes off of generators on-site. There’re no lines into it, no lines out of it. You couldn’t possibly tap into it, or tuck something into it.”

“The guy who buried this item buried it a long time ago, back in the first days, when the system was being set up. He worked there for a little while. And he buried it very carefully.”

“Tell him,” Lanahan petitioned the expert, “tell him that the capacity of the Langley computer is two billion bits. You can’t imagine a number that big. That’s all the libraries in the world; that’s a trillion words. And it’s all broken down into individual units or entries called slugs and the slugs are in directories. And there are directories inside of directories. You fetch a directory by its code. It’s got ten thousand coded entries. One, just one of those, gets you another directory. Same thing again. You’ve got codes inside of codes, combinations. It’s the biggest combination safe in the universe. First”—he looked around desperately—“first you’ve got to have access to a terminal in the pit. I mean, physically you have to get into the goddamned building, past all the checkpoints, ride the elevator down, and get a terminal, and the terminals are always busy, every morning, every night, every afternoon, every second of the day.”

He took a deep breath and saw that he was not impressing them.

“Then,” he went on,
“then
you’ve got to have the
right code, or code sequence. I mean there’s no dial-information to help you. You’ve got to know it, know it cold. And it can be anything—the different directorates have their different styles. It can be letters; it can be numbers; it can be a sequence of both, a combination; it can be—” He paused again. Damn them, when would they be impressed?