The White-Luck Warrior (8 page)

The Aspect-Emperor grinned and frowned at once. "
That
remains to be seen, my friend."

Proyas often was astonished by the way Kellhus could, utterly and entirely, just
be
what he needed to be given the demands of circumstance. At this moment, he was simply an old and beloved friend, nothing more or less. Usually Proyas found it difficult—given all the miracles of might and intellect he had witnessed—to think of Kellhus as a creature of flesh and blood, as a man. Not so now.

"So all is
not
well?"

"Well enough," Kellhus said, scratching his brow. "The God has allowed me glimpses of the future, the
true
future, and thus far everything unfolds in accordance with those glimpses. But there are many dark decisions I must make, Proyas. Decisions I would rather not make alone."

"I'm not sure I understand."

A twinge of shame accompanied this admission, not for the fact of his ignorance, but for the way he had hedged in confessing. Proyas
most certainly
did not understand. Even after twenty years of devotion, he still succumbed to the stubborn instinct to raise his pride upon little falsehoods and so manage the impressions of others.

How hard it was to be an absolutely faithful soul.

Kellhus had ceased correcting these petty lapses; he no longer needed to. To stand before him was to stand before
yourself
, to know the warp and woof of your own soul, and to see all the snags and tears that beggared you.

"You are a king and a general," Kellhus said. "I would think you know well the peril of guesses."

Proyas nodded and smiled. "No one likes playing number-sticks alone."

His Lord-and-God raised his eyebrows. "Not with stakes so mad as these."

By some trick of timing, the golden flames before them twirled, and again Proyas thought he glimpsed fiery doom flutter across the leather-panelled walls.

"I am yours, as always my Lor... Kellhus. What do you need of me?"

The leonine face nodded toward the fire. "Kneel before my hearth," the Aspect-Emperor said, the flint of command hardening his voice. "Bow your face into the flame."

Proyas surprised himself with his lack of hesitation. He came to his knees before the edge of the small iron hearth. The heat of the fire pricked him. He knew the famed story from the Tusk, where the God Husyelt asked Angeshraël to bow his face into his cooking fire. He knew,
verbatim
, the Sermon of the Ziggurat, where Kellhus had used this story to reveal his divinity to the First Holy War twenty years previous. He knew that "Bowing into the Fire" had since become a metaphor for Zaudunyani revelation.

And he knew that innumerable madmen wandered the Three Seas, blinded and scarred for taking the metaphor literally.

Even still, he was on his knees, and
he was bowing
, doing exactly as his Prophet and Emperor commanded. He even managed to keep his eyes
open
. And a part of him watched and wondered that a devotion, any devotion, could run so deep as to throw a face into the furnace...

Across the crazed bourne of opposites. Into the lapping glitter. Into the needling agony.

Into the light.

His beard and hair whooshed into tinder. He expected agony. He expected to scream. But something was tugged from him, sloughed like flesh from overboiled bone... something...
essential
.

And he was
looking out
from the fire, into a thousand faces—and a thousand more. Enough to wrench the eyes, dazzle and bewilder the soul. And yet somehow he focused, turned from the battering complexity and took refuge in a single clutch of men, four long-bearded Men of the Ordeal, one gazing directly at him with a child's thoughtless fixity, the others bickering in Thunyeri... Something about rations. Hunger.

Then he was out, on his rump in Kellhus's gloomy chamber, blinking and sputtering.

And his Lord-and-God held him, soothed his face with a damp cloth. "The absence of space," he said with a rueful smile. "Most souls find it difficult."

Proyas padded his cheeks and forehead with fumbling fingertips, expecting to feel blasted skin, but found himself intact. Embarrassed, he bolted upright, squinting away the last of the fiery brightness. He glanced about and for some unaccountable reason felt surprised that the iron hearth burned exactly as before.

"Does it trouble you that I can watch men from their fires?" Kellhus asked.

"If anything, it
heartens
me..." he replied. "I marched with you in the First Holy War, remember? I know full well the capricious humour of armies stranded far from home."

Afterward, he would realize that his Aspect-Emperor had already known this, that Anasûrimbor Kellhus knew his heart better than he himself could ever hope to. Afterward, he would question the whole intent of this intimate meeting.

"Indeed you do."

"But why show me this? Do they speak of mutiny already?"

"No," Kellhus replied. "They speak of the thing that preoccupies all stranded men..."

The Aspect-Emperor resumed his position before the hearth, gestured for Proyas to do the same. A moment of silence passed as Kellhus poured him a bowl of wine from the wooden gourd at his side. Gratitude welled through the Exalt-General's breast. He drank from the bowl, watching Kellhus with questioning eyes.

"You mean home."

"Home," the Aspect-Emperor repeated in assent.

"And this is a problem?"

"Indeed. Even now our old enemies muster across the Three Seas. As the days pass they will grow ever more bold. I have always been the rod that held the New Empire together. I fear it will not survive my absence."

Proyas frowned. "And you think this will lead to desertion and mutiny?"

"I know it will.

"But these men are
Zaudunyani
... They would
die
for you! For the truth!"

The Aspect-Emperor lowered his face in the
yes-but
manner Proyas had seen countless times, though not for several years. They had been far closer, he realized, during the Unification Wars...

When they were killing people.

"The hold of abstractions over Men is slight at best," Kellhus said, turning to encompass him in his otherworldly scrutiny. "Only the rare, ardent soul—such as yours, Proyas—can throw itself upon the altar of thought. These men march not so much because they believe in me as they believe what I have told them."

"But they
do
believe!
Mog-Pharau returns to murder the world.
They believe
this
! Enough to follow you to the ends of the World!"

"Even so, would they choose me over their
sons
? How about you, Proyas? As profoundly as you believe, would you be willing to stake the lives of your son and daughter for
my throw
of the number-sticks?"

A kind of strange, tingling horror accompanied these words. According to scripture, only Ciphrang, demons, demanded such sacrifices. Proyas could only stare, blinking.

The Aspect-Emperor frowned. "Stow your fears, old friend. I don't ask this question out of vanity. I do not
expect
any man to choose me or my windy declarations over their own blood and bones."

"Then I don't understand the question."

"The Men of the Ordeal do not march to save the World, Proyas—at least not first and foremost. They march to save their wives and their children. Their tribes and their nations. If they learn that the world,
their
world, slips into ruin behind them, that their wives and daughters may perish for want of
their
shields,
their
swords, the Host of Hosts would melt about the edges, then collapse."

And in his soul's eye Proyas could see them, the Men of the Ordeal, sitting about their innumerable fires, trading rumours of disaster back home. He could see them prod and stoke one another's fears, for property, for loved ones, for title and prestige. He could hear the arguments, the long grinding to and fro of faith and incessant worry. And as much as it dismayed him, he knew that his Lord-and-God spoke true, that Men truly were so weak.

Even those who had conquered the known world. Even the Zaudunyani.

"So what are you proposing?" he asked, nodding in sour agreement.

"An embargo," the Aspect-Emperor replied on a pent breath. "I will forbid, on pain of death, all Cants of Far-calling. Henceforth, the Men of the Ordeal shall march with only memories to warm them."

Home. This, if anything, was the abstraction for the Exalt-General. There was a place, of course. Even for beggars, there was a place. But Proyas had spent so many years campaigning that home for him possessed a wane and fleeting character, the sense of things attested to by others. For him, home was his wife, Miramis, who still wept whenever he left her bed for the wide world, and his children, Xinemus and Thaila, who had to be reminded he was their father upon his rare returns.

And even they seemed strangers whenever melancholy steered his thoughts toward them.

No.
This
was his home. Dwelling in the light of Anasûrimbor Kellhus.

Waging his endless war.

The Aspect-Emperor reached out, grasped his shoulder in unspoken acknowledgment. Never, in all their years together, had he promised any reprieve, any respite, from the toil that had so burdened his life. Never had he said, "After this, Proyas... After this..."

Warmth sparked through the Exalt-General, the tingle of grace.

"What will you tell them?" he asked roughly.

"That Golgotterath has the ability to scry our scrying."

"Do they?"

Kellhus arched his eyebrows. "Perhaps.
Twenty centuries
have they prepared—who could say? It would terrify you, Proyas, to know how
little
I know of our enemy."

A resigned smile. "I have not known terror since I have known you."

And yet he had known so many things just as difficult.

"Fear not," Kellhus said sadly. "You will be reacquainted before all this is through."

The Seeing-Flame fluttered and twirled before them, caught in some inexplicable draft. Even its warmth seemed to spin.

"So," Proyas said, speaking to ward against the chill falling through him, "the Great Ordeal at last sails beyond sight of shore. I see the wisdom—the
necessity
. But surely
you
will maintain contact with the Empire."

"No..." Kellhus replied with an uncharacteristic glance at his haloed hands. "I will not."

"But... but
why
?"

The Warrior-Prophet looked to the dark leather panels rising about them, gazed as if seeing shapes and portents in the wavering twine of light and shadow. "Because time is short and all I have are fragmentary visions..."

He turned to his Exalt-General. "I can no longer afford backward glances."

And Proyas understood that at long last the Great Ordeal had begun in earnest. The time had come to set aside burdens, to shed all complicating baggage.

Including home.

Only death, war, and triumph remained. Only the future.

—|—

Anasûrimbor Kellhus, the Holy Aspect-Emperor of the Three Seas, declared the Breaking of the Great Ordeal at the Eleventh Council of Potentates. The same concerns echoed through the ensuing debates, for such is the temper of many men that they must be convinced several times before they can be convinced at all. The Believer-Kings understood the need to disperse: without forage there was no way the Great Ordeal could reach its destination. But even so early in the year, the rivers were languishing, and the new growth of spring still slept beneath the detritus of the old. As the plainsmen among them knew, game followed the rain in times of drought. What use was dividing the host when all the game had fled in search of greener pasture?

But as the Aspect-Emperor and his planners explained, they had no choice but to pursue the route they had embarked upon. Any deviation from their course would force them to winter in the wilds, rather than Golgotterath, and so doom them. Tusullian, the senior Imperial Mathematician, explained how everything was knitted to everything, how forced marches meant more food, which in turn meant diminishing supplies, which in turn meant more foraging, which in turn meant slower progress.

"In all things," the Aspect-Emperor said, "I urge you to walk the Shortest Path. The road before us is no different, save that it is also the
only
path. We will be tried, my friends, and many of us will be found wanting. But we
will
prove worthy of salvation! We shall deliver the World from destruction!"

And so the lists were drawn, and the nations of the Believer-Kings were allotted to what would be called the Four Armies.

Prince Anasûrimbor Kayûtas, General of the Kidruhil, was given command of the Men of the Middle North, the Norsirai sons of the kings who had ruled these lands in Far Antiquity, ere all was lost in the First Apocalypse. They consisted of the fractious Galeoth under King Coithus Narnol, the elder brother of King Coithus Saubon; the black-armoured Thunyeri under King Hringa Vûkyelt, the impetuous son of Hringa Skaiyelt, who had fallen in glory in the First Holy War; the long-bearded Tydonni under King Hoga Hogrim, the quick-tempered nephew of the sainted Earl Hoga Gothyelk and awarded the throne of Ce Tydonn for service in the Unification Wars; and the far-riding Cepalorans under Sibawul te Nurwul, a man noted only for his silence during councils.

With them would march the Swayal Sisterhood and their Grandmistress, Anasûrimbor Serwa, the younger sister of General Kayûtas, and widely thought to be the most powerful witch in the world.

Of the Four Armies, the Men of the Middle-North marched what was perhaps the most perilous path, since it skirted the westward marches of the plain, a route that would take his host near the vast forests that had overgrown ancient Kûniüri. "This is the land of your ancient forefathers," the Aspect-Emperor explained. "Hazard is your inheritance. Vengeance is your birthright!"