To the Grave (21 page)

“You're damned right you will! And if they don't show you the proper respect…”

“By God, we'll blow them off the face of the map!”

Lawrence looked startled at his son's ferocious face and then laughed when he saw Ian beginning to grin. “That's not a bad idea considering the way I'm feeling this morning. I've been on the phone all morning about the two new hangars we're building. You can get one hell of a headache from talking about hydraulic doors and lift straps and auto latches and riding arenas and—”

“Stop! You're giving
me
a headache.”

Lawrence quieted abruptly and studied Ian. “You do look a little pale today.” As usual, his gaze went directly to the thin scar on his son's forehead that disappeared into his dark hair. “You're not getting those headaches again, are you?”

“They started going away when I was seventeen and I haven't had a hint of one for over two years,” Ian said seriously, referring to the headaches he'd suffered after the car wreck that nearly killed him when he was ten.

“That's the best news I've heard in…” Lawrence lifted his arms. “God, I don't know how long. You know, Sunday morning when you seemed a little off…”

“You thought I was losing ground. Dad, I'd just had too much to drink the night before. You know I rarely drink—I'm not used to it. Anyway, I'm sorry for being such a buzzkill at brunch.”

“Well, I don't know what a
buzzkill
is, but apparently it's bad if you have to apologize for being one. I need to apologize, too. It's this damned merger that's got me going. I work at it seven days a week; I get irritable.”

“I know,” Ian said softly. “I understand.”

“Good. Well, what I want from you now is honesty. Brutal honesty.” Lawrence watched his son sit absolutely motionless, his face almost frozen. “Are you
really
okay with my marriage to Patrice?”

Ian continued to stare at his father for a moment and then smiled broadly. “Yes, Dad. I'm glad for both of you. This is way overdue.”

“That's not how everyone feels.”

“You mean Grandmother.”

“Well, I was thinking of her in particular. I mean, she's dead, but you know how she'd react to this marriage, and the two of you were so close, you must be bothered by how she would have felt.”

“I did love Grandmother, but I didn't think she was right about everything. Besides, as she would say, the dead are beyond earthly cares.”

“I suppose she would.” Lawrence smiled. “She and I didn't have many religious discussions.”

“She didn't have many religious discussions with anyone until she passed her seventieth birthday. Then she wanted me to start going to church with her.”

“And like a good grandson, you did to please Abigail. You idolized your mother. You would have gone with her anywhere, anytime. That's what almost caused your death.”

Silence spun out for a minute before Ian said quietly, “I didn't idolize Mom. Actually, I felt as if I barely knew her.”

Lawrence sat bolt upright. “Son, you
did
idolize her. You spent most of your time with her. You read stories to each other, you played games together—”

“No, we didn't. And it's not just that I forgot about those things after the accident. They never happened.”

“But your grandmother said—”

“Grandmother said that's what life was like for Mom and me. Did Patrice ever say so?”

“No, but then I never questioned her about what went on in our house. She had her own life. She wasn't around constantly.”

“Well, sometimes Mom went flying around the house, cleaning although we had people to do that. Or she'd get all wound up about how the grounds looked and plant more flowers—
lots
of flowers, When I got older, she spent most of her time in her room, lying down, or listening to music, or staring in the mirror or out of the window. In the summer, she sat at her fishpond in the hedges, reading or smoking cigarettes. When I tried to talk to her, she hardly answered.. She didn't ask what I'd been up to or if I was behaving myself or even get mad at me for doing something I knew I shouldn't have done. You see, sometimes I'd test her, just to see if I could make her angry. But I couldn't. I didn't have many friends, but she didn't act at all like their mothers did.” Ian's blue-gray gaze grew troubled. “Was it me? Was I a disappointment to her?”

Lawrence slowly shook his head, picked up a gold pen, and began turning it nervously between his strong fingers. “I've never told you this, but your mother had a form of what they call bipolar disorder now. Back then, medications weren't as effective at treating it.”

“She had bipolar disorder?” Lawrence nodded. “But I don't remember her ever being in a hospital or going away to rehab.”

“As I said, Abigail's case wasn't serious.” Lawrence halted. “Well, I'll just be honest. Your grandmother wouldn't hear of her being sent away, even to a rehab facility for a few weeks.”

“She was ashamed of Mom?” Ian asked in angry dismay.

“No! Not at all. She just thought of Abigail's problem as being an illness, not a condition that could easily be treated by drugs. Your grandmother adored Abigail. I think she was terrified of hearing that there was something seriously wrong with her mind, something that doctors couldn't cure, something that would only get worse with age.” Lawrence looked down at his desk. “I should have told you long ago.
I
should have done something, in spite of what Abigail's mother thought.” Lawrence dropped his pen, reached for it but couldn't seem to close his hand around its narrow length. He ignored it and looked at Ian. “I'm sorry, Son. I didn't know how much Abigail shut you out of her life.”

“You were never home to see it,” Ian said without reproach. “You left early in the mornings and didn't come home when most of the other dads did. You were always working.”

Lawrence held his son's gaze. “I started this place from nothing. I devoted myself to Blakethorne Charter.”

“Grandmother always told me your parents were poor.” Ian hesitated. “She told me you married Mom for her money.”

“Goddammit!” Lawrence shouted. “I knew she told other people that, but to fill my own son's head with that crap was unforgivable! That woman—” Lawrence broke off, his tanned face suffused with fury.

“She said your only attraction to my mother was the money Grandfather had left her when he died.”

“Well, I hope I don't have to tell you that's not true. Your mother was gentle, kind, warmhearted, and beautiful in that pale, delicate way of hers.” He finally managed a grin. “She even passed on her most beautiful feature to her son, Dreamy Eyes.”

Ian rolled his long-lashed blue-gray eyes. “Please don't tell me you started that nickname.”

“Me? You think I'd call my
son
Dreamy Eyes?” Lawrence scoffed. “Blame that one on the little girl in rehab that had a crush on you. The nurses picked it up and it went around town.”

Ian laughed. “I remember that girl. Mostly I remember Catherine Gray, though. I had a crush on her.”

“I remember.”

“She was working in the rehabilitation unit that summer—volunteering,” Ian said almost idly. “She spent so much time with me.
She's
the one who read with me and played games with me.” He laughed. “We even watched soap operas together. And she didn't forget me after I went home. She visited me every two or three weeks for the next year. After she went to school in California, she always stopped by when she was home on holidays.”

“Good lord, Son, you sound like you're in love with her.”

Ian's gaze grew more alert. “Do I?” He smiled. “Catherine's just a great person. I wish she hadn't gotten involved with James Eastman.”

“A lot of people think
he's
a great person. At least they did until he got involved with that trash.”

“Renée?”

“Who else? You met her.”

“She was nice to me.”

“Oh God, Ian, you look at the world through rose-colored glasses. Of course she was nice to you—you're handsome and young. You didn't have much contact with her, though, and you're not a gossip. Take my word for it—she was beautiful and charming and a whore. I don't know why James didn't divorce her within the first year of their marriage. What a fool he was when it came to Renée! Even your grandmother, who thought the Eastmans walked on water, lost respect for him.”

“Well, that must have been a blow to him,” Ian said sarcastically. “Dad, did Patrice resent that Grandmother left all of her money to me and none to her? You can be honest. Don't try to shield my feelings.”

Lawrence stared at Ian, his dark gaze candid. “No, Son, I can honestly say that your inheritance didn't bother Patrice. I would know if it had.” He tapped his fingers on the table. His parents had been excellent business partners. They had made a great deal of money together and his father decided, maybe urged by his mother, that he wanted to leave most of his fortune to Abigail. “Your mother was gentle and frail. I also think your grandfather knew she wasn't emotionally stable. He didn't want her to have the pressures of a career, but he did want her to be very comfortable. He'd already died and when I met her she was a wealthy woman, but she had no goals in life except being a wife and mother.

“Patrice was different,” Lawrence went on. “Even when I met her when she was thirteen, she was driven. Her father left her a very generous trust, which she used wisely for law school and investments of her own. After your grandfather's death, your grandmother continued successfully with her own business ventures.

“She told Patrice she intended to leave her fortune to you—not to both of you. Patrice always suspected this was because of the accident that almost killed you. No one could convince your grandmother that you'd completely recovered. She wanted you to have a substantial nest egg in case your health failed because of your injuries. Patrice learned to accept her mother's peculiarities a long time ago. She didn't resent the inheritance being left solely to you. She was doing fine on her own. Besides, now she's marrying me. She'll never have to worry about money.”

“I'm glad. It's bothered me, but I was afraid if I asked her, she'd … well…”

“Lie to you to make you feel better?” Ian nodded. “She would have told you being left out of the will didn't bother her, but she wouldn't have been lying.”

“I feel so much better.”

“I wish I'd known you were worried. I could have put your mind at ease.” Lawrence smiled easily. “Anyway, since your grandmother's will was probated a couple of months ago, you'll have your own money to invest in
our
business. You'll be my partner, legally and financially, so unless you have doubts or unhappiness about my marrying Patrice, I'd say this situation is just about perfect.”

“I guess it is,” Ian agreed.

“You
guess
? Is something troubling you, Son?”

“Only that I promised Grandmother I wouldn't invest my inheritance in Blakethorne Charter.” Ian waited a moment and then shook his head. “But Grandmother didn't always know what was best. And as
she
herself said, the dead are beyond earthly cares.”

3

“Good afternoon. Nordine Gallery. May I help you?”

“Bridget, it's Mrs. Nordine. I need to speak to Mr. Nordine.”

“Oh,
Dana
!” The twenty-six-year-old manager could not see Dana Nordine's grimace at Bridget's use of her first name. “You sound so tense that I hardly recognized your voice.”

“I really need to speak with my husband.”

“Oh well, we had to open early and we're packed with people wanting to see Nicolai Arcos's work. You know how the value of an artist's work soars after his death.”

“Yes, I know that, Bridget.”

“And Arcos was
murdered
!” Bridget Fenmore's excitement resonated loudly before she seemed to come to herself. “I mean, it's awful. I didn't know him very well, but he was young and talented and … well, what happened to him is just terrible!”

“Yes, it was. Everyone is shocked.” And some people are elated, Dana thought. “Bridget, I need to speak to Mr. Nordine.”

“Well, Ken's talking with some customers right now. I don't think he wants to be interrupted. Could I have him call you back?”

Dana tried to make herself sound halfway pleasant. “I'm at the hospital with our daughter. She's very sick. She needs to be admitted and I want to speak to my husband.”

“Mary's sick? What's wrong?”

Dana fought to hold on to her patience. “I don't have a definitive diagnosis yet, but I will in a few minutes. Please get Ken.”

“He's talking with Mr. and Mrs. Addison and I think he's just about to make a sale.”

“Ken can explain to the mayor and his wife that his daughter is very ill—which she is—he needs to speak to his wife, and he'll get back to them as soon as possible. In the meantime, you take over. After all, technically you
are
the business manager of the gallery, not just a glorified receptionist.”

“Of course I'm not a glorified receptionist!” Bridget returned hotly, just as Dana had known she would. Bridget Fenmore made certain everyone knew the importance of her position at the Nordine Gallery. “It's just that Ken told me not to disturb him for
anything,
especially when he looks like he's getting close to making a sizable sale.”

Dana's small bit of remaining patience snapped. “Bridget, I have the Addison's cell-phone number in my directory. I will call them, explain that our daughter is sick, tell them that Ken knew she was ill when I took her to the doctor's earlier, and that we are now at the hospital waiting for him. I'll also include the information that Ken has asked not to be bothered for
anything
if he thinks he has a couple of fish on the line.”