Touched (32 page)
Authors: Lilly Wilde
The announcement to board was being repeated so we didn’t have a chance to sit. Instead we hopped in line and headed down the air bridge. Funny how I had finally decided to stop running, yet here I was again … running away. At least this time I was running toward something instead of away from it. We were seated on the plane awaiting the quick ascend into the friendly skies. I looked at the picture in my hand as I placed my hand over my stomach.
I looked over at Kellan who quickly donned a reassuring smile. Despite the enormity of sadness, I was grateful to share this journey with him. He reached for my hand, soothing my nerves with a gentle squeeze. He leaned in to kiss me softly on the cheek. A single tear escaped as I gazed into his eyes. He reached up to wipe it away as I leaned back and closed my eyes, ready to embrace this new chapter of my life.
My only concerns were three loose ends: April, Bianca and Lia. If Aiden spoke to either of them, I knew he would be able to get all of the information he wanted. I’d asked Aiden to let me go and to not look for me and although he’d agreed, it was not without very persuasive tactics on my part. I knew I had hurt him and it killed me to look into his eyes and lie to him but I could no longer afford to be in his complicated world.
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I’d settled quite comfortably in Belize. I’d become accustomed to having someone there, even if only via FaceTime or Skype. But that wasn’t enough; I was lonely. I’d met a few of the locals and Kellan came to visit as much as he could. He was making arrangements to move here permanently and I couldn’t wait to have him with us every day. I had come to rely on him and although our relationship wasn’t ideal, he was fine with that. I wondered how long he would be though. He had arrived last night and was at a meeting with one of the local firms.
April would be coming over with Blaine next week. I was so happy that they’d worked things out. She and I had also worked out the kinks in our friendship. It would never be the friendship it once was; I never wanted that dysfunction again. We no longer shared a friendship based on need. It was a friendship based on the desire to remain best friends … to remain family.
I missed Boston. I missed RPH and most of all, I missed Aiden. I’d considered the possibility of moving back to Boston after a few years. I actually didn’t know where I would end up because I hadn’t planned that far ahead.
I opened my laptop and accessed my email account to start a new message. Once I finished, I read it and desperately wanted to hit
send
but something inside me just wouldn’t allow me to do that. Instead, I read it over and over.
My Dearest Aiden,
I don’t regret you. I thought that I would; I knew that I would … but I don’t. Loving you made me realize that I can have a life outside of my fears
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that I don’t have to omit part of life. For that, I thank you. And even now, after having said good-bye, my heart is overflowing with love for you. I’m pretty sure that I’ll always love you but I felt that I had to let you go. I couldn’t stand in the way of you and your family. I couldn’t force you to choose and I didn’t want to be the person who destroyed your family.
Family once meant so much to me and I had forgotten that. I pushed it aside because of the hurt of my childhood that I now know was not torn apart because of a lack of love but because there was so much of it. You have a responsibility to your family and thousands of others. Yes, I know that you have just as much of a responsibility to yourself and when you come to terms with that, I know you will find me.
All my love…
Now and forever,
Aria
I read it again. And again. And again. I couldn’t send it but I couldn’t delete it. I printed the email and saved it in my drafts and turned off my computer. I read the printed copy once more and folded it. I went to the box that held my memories and placed it on the top of the others. My eyes fell upon the crumbled note that Aiden had given me. That seemed like a life time ago. I’d never read it. I placed the box on the floor and grabbed the note.
Aria,
Please accept these flowers as an apology for my behavior. You make me crazy and I don’t seem to know the right thing to do when it comes to you. I simply react. Let’s talk. I miss you.
-A.
I placed the letter over my heart and held it there. I closed my eyes; recalling the day in my office when Aiden had forced his mouth on mine.
I didn’t want to cry. Don’t cry. Don’t cry. Don’t cry. I repeated it over and over until I’d placed the note in the box and moved it out of sight.
I walked around the house looking for something to do but there was nothing. I was restless and decided to go for a walk along the beach. I tapped a short text asking Kellan to meet us there at the conclusion of his business meeting.
It was a beautiful day, perfect for a relaxing barefoot walk along the beach. The bright sun was warmer than it had been as of late; feeling like an invisible blanket of warmth. The feel of the warm sand between my toes was comforting. I pulled the blanket from my bag and spread it out near the edge of the water. I took a seat and removed the KTan from my shoulders, freeing Lyric from its constraints. He’d gotten so big. I gave him a kiss on his adorably chubby cheeks. He looked so much like his father, with the exception of the chubby part.
I was bouncing him on my knees, speaking to him as if he could actually understand me. He was giggling and staring at just the right parts. A shadow gradually blocked the beaming sun and I looked up from the baby prepared to ask Kellan how things went with his meeting but gasped when I saw that the person casting the shadow wasn’t Kellan. I was staring into the eyes of a man I didn’t recognize, a man whose eyes once intoxicated me, a man whose eyes were now touched with the same iciness of his mother.
THE END
Shining bright as an emerald you came forth
Awakening and renewing like the month of your birth.
Redefining everything, you staked a claim on me,
And the same, my life will never be.
Mesmerized by simply the thought of your voice or your touch,
Fills my heart to overflowing because I love you so much.
The moon holds a light with its spinning glow,
As you hold my heart forcing it to grow.
Though you came into my life out of the blue,
My days and nights are now consumed with you.
For you’ve awakened what’s been long asleep
And made me want to forever keep,
You as my friend, my love, my man
Walking this life together hand in hand.
Sharing my life, my love and yes, some tears
Falling deeper in love, despite our fears.
Crazy, strange and intense is our love … it’s true
However you’ve captured a piece of my heart that belongs only to you.
Discussion Questions
- Do you understand more about Aria and her struggle with relationships?
- How did it affect you or alter the story when Aria’s mom died?
- Do you think Kellan is a better fit for Aria? Why or why not?
- If there really were a contest called The Writer, would you enter?
- Do you think Aiden will ever step away from Raine Industries?
- Would you take a back seat to someone in the capacity as Connor and Sienna would have wanted in order to be with a man like Aiden?
- Were you surprised when Aria resigned from RPH and broke things off with Aiden?
- Do you agree with or understand the responsibility that was placed on Aiden in regards to his family and Raine Industries?
- Why do you think Melena failed to inform Aria that she had met and approved of Aiden?
- Do you think Aria would have agreed to a relationship with Aiden if she hadn’t received the letter from her mother?
- Did Aria finally forgive her mother? Or did she have residual resentment?
- Did Melena’s death play a part in Aria’s allowing Aiden back into her life?
- Which character, other than Aria or Aiden, would you most like to learn more about?
- Do you think Aiden or Aria have any more secrets that could come back to haunt them?
- Aria was finally able to forgive Aiden for his deceit regarding his identity? Do you think you would have done the same?
- Did the manner in which Aiden handle Dane and Tiffany surprise you?
- Did you email Aiden? If so, did he respond?
- What is your favorite Aidenism?
- Would you have rekindled a relationship with Blaine like April did?
- Do you think Nadia will finally back off? Do you understand why Aiden refuses to forcefully tell her to back off?
ARIA AND AIDEN’S STORY CONTINUES
IN THE UPCOMING SEQUEL TO THE UNTOUCHED TRILOGY
TOUCHED BY HIM
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