Uninvolved (10 page)

Your smiley
face
will not distract me.

This went on the rest of the week
.
Becka
found herself grinning like a crazy person every time she saw the little email notification
.
She was also equally crazed when he didn’t reply for long periods of time
.
When
Nate
took a long time to reply
,
she wou
ld
try and
passive aggressively
take
just as
long
to
reply
to him
.
Becka
didn’t want to let on exactly how eager she was.

They talked about everything except his girlfriend
.
Becka
had to hope it wasn’t serious and that she wasn’t coming between a solid couple
.
She hoped that because h
is roommate was a guy
tha
t he had gone to college with.
Nate and his girlfriend
must not be
that serious because
clearly they weren’t living together
.
Maybe, she hoped
,
they would break up and then
he would ask her out for real.
Nate
was the first guy in a long time that made her feel that way.

For the holidays
Dave would be driving home to Texas to be with his family
.
Since
Becka
's family lived out
E
ast
,
she would be all alone
this year
.
Dave had invited her to come with him
,
but she didn’t have enough free vacation time to
go home
,
let alone go to Texas
.
Lucy's family lived in town
,
so Becka
had Christmas dinner with them
.
Lucy's
mom was so welcoming
but very bohemian
.
It was Becka's
first experience with a tofurkey
.
She did her best
to choke
it down with her wheatgrass smoothie
.

Becka
excused herself early and went home
.
She
watched
It's a Wonderful Life
while eating a pint of Cherry Garcia ice cream
.
Her house se
emed so quiet without Dave
.
Becka
texted him to see if he had left any in
-
case
-
of
-
emergency cigarettes behind
.
She was thrilled to learn he had
.
She made herself a rum and
C
oke and smoked a cigarette
.
It had been a long time since she had sm
oked a whole one
.
Feeling gross halfway through
,
she
put it out.

Lilly and Becka Skyped
so Becka
could talk
to
and see the whole family
for
Christmas
.
Their mom and dad were there
a
s well.
It
was fun to see them
,
even if it was over the
I
nternet
.
Mason loved the talking teddy bear his favorite Aunt Becka sent him, once he got over his initial
“
did that toy just talk?
”
reaction
.
It was bitter sweet to say goodbye knowing that they were all together
,
and she was all by herself.

At least Becka
had New Year's Eve to look forward to
.
Her neigh
bors were hav
ing a big party
.
When it came
,
Becka
rocked a short sparkly dress and
spent the first part of the night sizing
up all of the single guys
.
Becka
really wanted to have someone to kiss at midnight
,
but none of these guys were doing it for her
.
She was currently in line for the bathroom, a very long line
.
Finally realizing how long and how bad she had
t
o pee
,
Becka
just gave up and went
home
to use her own
bathroom
.
Afterward
,
she checked her cell phone
.
Her battery had
been
misbehaving
,
so Becka
had left it
at
home to charge.

Oh my God
,
she thought
.
Becka
had
seven
missed calls from
Nate
.

"
Nate
, it's
Becka
.
Everything
ok
ay
?"

"Can I come see you?"

"Sure
…
"

"I'm on my way."

Becka
was shaking when she hung up the phone
.
Nate
was on the way to her house on New Year's Eve to see her
.
He clearly wasn’t going to be kissing his girlfriend at midnight because he would be with
her
.
Feeling the need for a little liquid courage
,
she poured herself a shot of rum
.
She raced to her bathroom to
check her hair and makeup
,
changed into the sexiest underwear she owned,
and
then
put her dress back on
.
Becka took a moment to catch her breath
.
This
was happening. She was shaking
.
It
was almost as though Becka could not wrap her brain around
Nate
's call. Becka was a bundle of excited nerves as she attempted to function. It felt like it took forever to find a lighter for the candles
.
She
almost gave up
,
but then she saw it. It was on her dresser right in front of her face the whole time she had been looking for it.

Calm down
,
she told herself.
Having
just lit
a couple of candles and turn
ed on the TV to Time Square
,
Becka
heard him
knock on her door
.
Taking a deep breath
,
she went to open
it
.
Nate
looked at her for one beat before he was on her
.
He pressed her up against the wall
,
kissing
her soundly
.
Using the hand that
w
asn’t pulling her against him
,
Nate
shut the door
behind him
.
Now free
,
that
hand
moved to pull
one of her legs up around him.

He pulled back a couple of inches and met her
startled
gaze
.
She was actually panting
.
His hazel eyes were smoldering
.
He started kissing her neck
,
moving his w
ay down her throat to her chest,
his
hands
roaming freely from her breasts to her ass and back.

"Can we
go to your room?" he pleaded in her ear.

"What about my girlfriend? Shit
.
I don’t have a girlfriend
.
I mean your girlfriend
,
"
Becka
asked.

"I don’t have a girlfriend anymore."

"
Thank
G
od
,
" she moaned into his mouth.

Becka felt a weird sense of control
.
N
ow that she knew he was interested in her it
,
took away that feeling of confusion.
Hitching h
er other leg a
round his waist
,
Nate
carried Becka
to her room
,
his lips teasing
her
own
the whole way
.
Becka's
dress was so short that it had
exposed her ass
when he had wrapped
her legs around him
.
The heat from his palms felt so intense through her thin panties
.
He gently laid her down across her bed
,
stretching out against her
.
Pulli
ng her towards him
,
Nate
slowly un
zipped her dress and slid it from her shoulders
.
Becka
sat up and shimmied until he pulled it from her.

Nate
stood as he dropped her dress to
the floor and took a moment to just look at her.

"You are so beautiful
,
Becka
.
"

He lifted her foot and undid the
ankle
strap of her
stiletto
, laying her leg
back down
.
H
e
repeated the process with her other
foot
.
Kicking off his own shoes
,
Nate
then knelt to the floor and
,
starting with her ankles
,
began kissing his way up her legs
.
Becka
was twisting her comforter in her hands
,
trying to
control herself
.
She
was
about lose
it when he started kissing her thighs
.
As
he moved further up her legs
,
she was gasping
.
He nuzzled her right
there
,
promising to return before continuing his path upward.

He lowered th
e lac
y material of her bra and
teased
her
with his mouth
.
Turning her
,
he undid the clasp
of her bra and slid it from her, returning
his attention to her breasts
.
Even though laying there felt so good, Becka was ready to reach for Nate.
She
pulled
Nate
up towards her and kissed him while unbuttoning his shirt
,
attempting to pull
it off of him
.
Grinning
,
Nate
s
at up and
,
after unbuttoning
his shirt at the wrists
,
he pulled it off and then
pulled off
his under shirt
.
Becka
gaped at him
.
Nate
's
chest was insane
,
and his arms
were
bulging.

Nate
could have easily been a body double for any action movie film star
.
At first
,
his body just overwhelmed her
.
Becka
wanted to not only touch every inch of him but see it too
.
When he sank down on top of h
er
,
she thought she was dreaming
.
The weight of his body as it covered her own was heavenly.
The fee
l of his bare chest against hers
was intense
,
but the body heat coming off of both of them was almost unbearable
.
She pushed him off and
,
getting up to stand
over him
,
Becka
pulled the chain to turn
on her ceiling fan.