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Giggling, she said, “Okay.” She took a deep breath and rolled her shoulders in an effort to calm herself down.

“I also want you to be comfortable with my body too. So it is okay to talk, and to ask questions. All of that is good. You will know when the moment happens, and it will be in a while. Neither of us is ready right now. You understand?”

“Yes. I’m fine. I really am. I’m just nervous.” She fanned her face with her hand, took a deep breath, and let the air out slowly.

“I know. But everything will be okay.” He wasn’t sure if he was more nervous himself or not. “Can I remove your pants?”

“Yes. Remove yours too. If I’m going to be naked, you are too.”

She sounded brave, but her skin gave away her nervousness. He unzipped her jean shorts and slid both them and her underwear down past her ankles and off her body. He looked at her legs and the bruises he noticed days ago were gone. Getting off the bed, he stood in front of her and started to remove his pants. He touched the buckle of his belt and slowly unhooked it. He watched her as she locked her eyes on him and what he was doing. He unzipped the pants and pulled them down, leaving his underwear in place. He pushed the clothes aside with his foot and stood in front of her in only his tented–up boxers. “You’ve never seen a man before, have you?”

She blushed. “Nope.”

Sterling could not fathom being this innocent, although if a woman couldn’t sense her body, and had little desire or sexual feelings, why would she have an opportunity to see a man naked? He could totally understand, but felt more on display than ever before in his life. “My shorts stay on until
you
take them off.”

Right now all he wanted was to rip them off and plunge himself deep into her, but he wasn’t going to do that. He had no idea where this amount of restraint came from. He once had sex with a woman in a city cab because he couldn’t wait to get to his apartment. Hell, the last woman was in a public restroom. But he didn’t care about those women, and the urgency was more of a need to be healed than anything else. This was the first time he would make love to someone because he wanted to do so, not because he had to.

He climbed into bed and kissed her legs as he traveled up her body. She spread her legs apart as he kissed her, but he stopped shy of kissing her most delicate flesh. He jumped ahead to her belly button and kept going until his lips met hers and he lay completely on top of her. He watched her expression as he stroked his full–length down her core and then rested the tip of himself right atop her portal. He breathed heavily as she cradled his manhood. He could feel her wetness as it creamed the outer fabric of his shorts. Her eyes widened in surprise; a soft gasp escaped her throat. “Kate, just being near you makes me hard. I’ve been hard since the day I first laid eyes on you. It’s a lot easier to notice my arousal when I’m not wearing jeans.” He gently rotated his thickened member so it teased hers. “You’re already so wet for me. I love that.”

“You’re harder and longer than I expected.” She tilted up her hips as her breath quickened.

“I am sorry it will hurt, but I am happy to be your first.” Mentally he added,
“And only.”
He allowed her core to feel his erection as he pressed himself harder against her, his sex straining through the fabric. He then slid his hand around to her bare backside. He growled before he bit her shoulder.

Sterling enjoyed the pleasure of their lovemaking, not only from his personal sensations, but also from the enjoyment he sensed from her skin. Pleasure flooded him. He wasn’t sure when she would remove his pants, but he did know one thing. She was going to enjoy herself as much as possible before they came off.

All day he thought of the taste of sweet peaches. Laying on her firm body, and being embraced within her arms all bread and buttered, her scent engulfed him. His hands moved on her body, exploring her form eagerly. He worked his way down and tasted her sweet nectar. She responded so eagerly to his touch and growled in pleasure repeatedly from his efforts.

He loved listening to her enjoyment, he loved watching her reactions, and he loved feeling her sensations with her. Her moans were loud; he liked those most of all.

Her hand slid down his back, fingers searching for the waistband of his boxers. Tugging slightly at the clothing she announced, “I’m ready.” He heard her heart rate increase and her body stiffen as she began trembling beneath him.

His hands cupped around her face. Her eyes gazed back at him. Nodding, she repeated, “I’m ready.”

He didn’t need her to repeat herself. He had eagerly awaited those words, and he knew she repeated them to convince herself. He reached down and pulled her hand up to his lips, kissing her skin softly. “No. You’re not,” he said calmly. He cradled her more in his arms as he stroked her long dark hair which was splayed on the pillow. “Your body is ready for me, but emotionally you’re still not there.”

She swallowed hard and a tear escaped. “I’m fine.” A deep breath caused her to tremble even more. “I’m just nervous, that’s all,” she said, her jaw shaking with each word.

“I understand, Kate. Try to relax. I’ll be gentle,” he promised, a grin forming on his lips.

“What’s that look for?”

The grin grew into a full–out smile. “I’ve never made a woman tremble before.”

Kate chuckled, “Oh, great. I’m defective.”

With the laughter, her body eased and the trembling disappeared.

“You’re not defective, Kate,” he said looking deep into her eyes. “Actually, I find your reaction to my touch endearing.” He gently kissed her on the nose and then the cheek, which caused the trembling to begin once more. Sterling paused and took a deep breath. “We don’t have to make love tonight, Kate.”

“But I want to,” she protested with a shaky voice.

“We barely know each other, plus this is your first time … we can go slower.” It would probably kill him to go slower than this, but she was worth the wait.

“Sterling, I’m twenty–two. Believe me, I’m ready. My body is acting stupid and I’m so sorry.” She caressed his back in what he figured was an effort to have him continue.

“There is nothing to be sorry about.” He closed his eyes and focused on her fingertips as they danced across his back. After a moment of silence, he asked, “Why me?”

“We’re good together, Sterling.”

“But do you want me, or just my ability to allow you to sense your body? You rejected me a few times before we discovered the magic of our touch, so you could be nervous because deep down you know I’m not the one.”

A hurt expression crossed her face, “I want you, not your ability. I mean, yes, it is fantastic to feel, but I’m not with you because you can remove my curse.”

“I want to believe that, Kate. But I think your body is telling me something different.”

She quickly interrupted. “Yesterday morning, when you knocked on the door of my hotel room, I was hoping it was you.”

Sterling’s eyebrow disappeared under his bangs. “Why?”

Her fingers played with the hair on the nape of his neck. “I only wanted you to pin me. Just you,” she confided.

His eyes widened in surprise. “I thought you couldn’t feel any sexual desires.”

“Only schoolgirl crushes with my shield up. But, trust me. I crushed on you big time,” she said with a smile.

He gazed deep into her eyes and let his heart speak for him. “I’m in love with you, Kate. To the very core of my being, I love you. I can’t image a life without you.” He closed his eyes and lowered his head, claiming her lips with a passionate kiss. The kiss deepened as he responded to her passion. He tilted his hips, straining to be inside her. His manhood leaked in anticipation, and joined her moisture on his shorts, the shorts he desperately wanted removed. Her trembling subsided.

He was going to scream if she did not remove his pants, but all in good time.

She whispered into his ear, “I really am ready.”

“Then touch me, Kate. I want you to touch me,” he strained to say, testing her readiness.

She slid her hands down his back, under his shorts and directly on his backside. He hissed out a breath and did his best to hold onto his control. Her soft hands caressed him. He didn’t want to make demands on her, but she was so inexperienced and had not touched him below the waist the entire time they had been on the bed. Most likely, she didn’t know how to touch a man.

Her body no longer trembled and he wanted her hands all over him. He wanted to merge with her and become one. He nearly came when she maneuvered one hand from his backside and touched his erection full on. He groaned and pushed himself into her hand, which stroked him up and down. If his shorts weren’t removed soon, he was going to get a hand job, which at this point in time he was more than willing to take.

“Take them off. Your shorts, take them off.” Kate demanded, her body calm and flushed with need. She grabbed the shorts and tugged them down. She struggled to remove them, so he helped her, but only got them down just enough to give him freedom to enter her.

“Wait, I want to see you first.” Her hand resumed its grasp on his swollen member. She lifted her head and looked between their bodies.

“Kate, as long as you hold me like that … there isn’t anything I won’t let you do.” He took a deep breath as he lifted himself off of her so she could have a better view.

She studied him, for what Sterling thought was a lifetime. She stroked his manhood while examining the hardened length. “You’re so red and swollen.” Her eyes grew wide as she added, “And very, very big.”

“Ah, thank you …” He did his best to form a sentence and keep himself from ejaculating all over her. She continued to rub him up and down and his power of control was nearly at its limit. “Kate, … you have no idea what your touch is doing to me!”

“You’re leaking.” She touched the tip of his manhood and wiped the fluid on her fingertip. “Is this normal?”

He reached down and removed her hand from his erection. He closed his eyes and concentrated on breathing.

“You okay?” she asked. Her hands now touched his back and shoulder.

“Uh, huh … just need a second.” He took some deep breaths. “I will come if you touch me like that again.”

A blush crossed her cheeks. “I had a good view, thanks.”

Madness nearly consumed him. Thank God she was ready for him, because he was going insane by not being in her. He slid his throbbing sex through her wet, slick folds. Her tight body gripped him and he sensed that, other than a unique feeling she was experiencing, there was no pain yet. He pushed in towards her hymen. Slowly he pushed against it and felt slight pressure on his own sex, but her feelings became stronger. She took a short breath when he first touched it. As he slowly pushed up against the barrier and immediately her hands began to push him away. She grunted out in pain as he pushed farther in. Her hands reached up and smacked him across the face.

“Kate,” Sterling said, getting her attention.

“I’m so sorry. I’m not used to pain.” She gazed deep into his eyes. “That’s all it is.”

He could sense not only the pain from her skin, but also that she told the truth. She wanted him, plain and simple. “Everything is heightened,” he said. “The pleasure you felt last night, and the pain right now. The pain won’t last long. I promise.”

“I didn’t mean to hurt you.”

“I’m fine.” Overall she wasn’t an excessively muscular woman, but being a purebred she tested his half–breed might. The way she gazed into his eyes told him she was not willing to stop their evening just yet.

“Try to remember I’m only human, at least partly. I don’t want you to break my nose again,” he smiled at her.

She smiled back, “I’ll try my best not to fling you into a wall, or even worse.”

“Deal.” He took a deep breath, “Do me a favor. You keep putting your legs down, keep your knees bent, and up. It’ll help.” He felt the difference the moment she did so. He held his breath and thrust into her hard, bursting the barrier. He experienced the barrier tear as she screamed out in pain.

She didn’t growl, she screamed.

Her loud scream bellowed right into his ear. His own pain of feeling her tearing flesh nearly caused him to cry out himself. Through the scream and the pain, he felt his body release into her once he was fully inside.

He didn’t want to hurt her any more than he had. As he started to pull out she cried, “Don’t move.” Wet tears poured out of her eyes as she lay under him, softly crying.

“You can put up your skin barrier. You don’t have to be in pain. You can protect yourself if I’m gone.”

“No. The pain is inside, the barrier won’t help. Please don’t move. Please, I want you to hold me.”

Sterling kissed away her tears that had fallen onto her neck and hair. He kissed them away and wished the pain could be kissed away as easily. “I’m sorry. You won’t hurt after this.” The initial pain hit him like lightning, and ended just as quickly. By his touch on her skin, he could tell she was sore because his body had an unusual achiness as well.

“Kate …”

“I’m okay,” she replied, not making eye contact with him.

“No, you’re not. I can sense the soreness you feel. Please talk to me.”

She focused her eyes on his beautiful brown ones, the black hue now gone. Through her tears, she softly said, “It’s better.” She took in a deep breath. “It doesn’t hurt so much now.”