Waiting on Forever (4 page)

Leah Bennett!

“Yum, thank you,” I respond, ignoring the dirty thoughts in my head and taking a sip.

“It’s actually a peace offering,” he adds.

“For what?” I ask, confused.

“I totally slept through my alarm clock and didn’t have time to meet you at your dorm this morning, but Dunkin Donuts is on my way so I figured I’d make it up to you with that,” he rattles off.

He felt bad he couldn’t walk me to class?

“You do realize I’m perfectly capable of walking by myself?” I ask him with a sly smile as I take another sip of my hot chocolate. It is indeed warming me up.

“Yeah, I know, but isn’t it much more fun walking with someone?”

If that someone is you, yes!

“I guess so,” I answer, shrugging my shoulders.

Breaking up our conversation, Professor Adams walks in greeting us with “Bonjour” and places the sign in sheet on the front desk to be passed around.

Matt walks with me to my next class, but instead of saying goodbye outside of the main entrance he walks me all the way to my classroom. Although it’s maybe an extra twenty steps out of his way, my heart swells at the simple gesture. What really throws me for a loop, and leaves me a pile of mush, is when he places his hand on my lower back once we reach the door, and leans over to peck my forehead before he tells me he’ll see me later. I stand there for a moment, watching him leave, wondering what the hell that kiss meant.

Was it just a friendly kiss? Does he actually see me as more than a friend? Although I don’t have answers to these questions, I do know that the spot where his lips touched is still tingling and all the hair on my body is standing from the chills that ran down my spine.

“Will you be joining us today, Ms. Bennett?” Professor Buzz asks me as he’s about to shut the classroom door.

“Uh yeah, sorry,” I respond, not realizing how long I’ve been standing here frozen in space.

Three classes later, a nap, and now standing at work, my mind is still with Matt and our kiss from earlier. Okay, maybe not
our
kiss. More like
his
kiss, but whatever. It was amazing, yet confusing, and I can’t get it out of my damn head.

On one hand I’m completely infatuated with the idea of Matt possibly having feelings for me, but on the other hand I kind of wish the kiss hadn’t happened. I know in reality it was probably just a kind gesture and strictly a friendly kiss. I need to keep reminding myself that even though Matt doesn’t like girls as dumb as Brynn, he will never date someone as nerdy and plain as me.

“Oh, look who it is! Nerdy, homely, Leah,” bleached out Brynn says in a friendly, but fake, tone as she picks up an order of cheese sticks from under the warmer.

“You may want to reconsider. Cheese sticks will take residency on your ass,” I respond with a sarcastic smile, tilting my head to the side.

“You would know,” she snorts.

“Actually, I wouldn’t. I don’t eat this shit since I see the tons of grease that it fries in every day. But be my guest. I’m sure you wouldn’t mind adding to the cottage cheese factory on your thighs.”

Ha! Take that bitch!

Although that statement is me being a total hypocrite–my legs are anything but toned. Seeing the look on Brynn’s face as she throws them back on the counter then storm away is enough to make me smile ear to ear with nothing but pride spread across my face. I’ll be damned if I’m going to let her come into my work place and try to make me feel like shit just because Matt sees through her plastic, perfect body to the dumb fake bitch that she really is.

Sorry, Sweetheart. I may be nerdy and quiet, but I don’t let stupid people walk all over me.

Chapter 6

I’m completely exhausted as I head home from work. I cringe when I turn the corner of my hallway, hoping there isn’t another “do not disturb” sign hanging from my door. Thankfully not only is there no sign on the door knob but it’s also locked, indicating that Kayla isn’t even home. Although Kayla is completely harmless and would never hurt a fly, she is dumber than a box of rocks and I would rather listen to nails dragging on a chalkboard then have her chatting my ear off about absolutely nothing at all; at least nothing of importance anyway.

After grabbing my things I take a warm peaceful shower, then I’m back sitting in front of my computer. My stomach is a fluttering mess when I see my Facebook notifications blinking-there is a message from Matt waiting for me. However, when I open it up and see what is says, my stomach drops to the ground and the butterflies that were just going crazy have now been replaced with a big old knot.

From Matt:

I need to ask you a question–call me when you get this 315-555-5436

The wheels in my head have just started moving into overdrive, and the grease that I just washed off my body has been replaced with a nervous sweat. I have no clue what’s so important that he needs to talk to me over the phone, and the idea of it having something to do with the kiss from earlier makes my heart thump at a ridiculous rate. The nerves that are pumping through my body are so intense that I contemplate not calling him at all and acting like I never saw the message. But really, who am I trying to fool? There is no way I’ll ever be able to fall asleep without knowing what he wants. So, with shaky hands, I pull my cellphone out of my backpack and dial the number he gave me.

“Hello?” he answers on the second ring.

Taking a deep breath, I respond, “Is this Matt?”

“Sure is. Is this Leah?” Matt says in a perky tone.

“It is. I just saw your message. What’s up?” I respond as casually as possible.

“I wanted to ask if you’re planning on going to the game this weekend?”

That’s why he needed me to call him; to ask me about the game?

“Um, I don’t know. Probably. Why?” I ask, confused.

“Well, my best friend Collin and his girl Summer are coming down to visit this weekend to watch the game and they’re all about meeting you. I figured they could just tag along with you?”

He’s told them about me?

“Yeah, sure. Sounds good.”

“Awesome! I feel bad that I’m not going to be able spend much time with them while they’re here, but I’m excited to have them finally meet you.”

“Yeah, it’ll be fun.”

Even though I’m scared shitless about meeting his friends from home and have no clue what he has told them, or how he refers to me. Worst of all, it’s going to be me...by myself...with them...for the
entire
football game. There will be no one to help with the awkward silence or to keep the conversation flowing. I’ve never met these people–have no clue about them–and, let’s face it, I’m not a very big people person. I stick to myself and I actually enjoy school, proud of my academic excellence.

All I can picture is having to sit there, for god knows how long, with another jock-like guy and his Barbie girlfriend. However, hearing the excitement and warmth in Matt’s voice when he mentions them, I know that they’re important to him, so I will suck it up and do him this favor, trying to make the best of it.

“Great! Well, I’ll let them know and I’ll keep you posted on the plans as we get closer to the weekend. Is this your cell number?” Matt asks, full of enthusiasm.

“Yup.”

“Perfect, I’ll program it in my phone,” he adds before we each say goodbye and end the call.

Lying in bed, I can’t get comfortable.

Every time I close my eyes, instead of turning off my brain to fall asleep the wheels are turning uncontrollably, picturing and wondering what is going to happen this weekend. I’m so overwhelmed with the series of events that have occurred in the last three days that I can’t wrap my head around what the hell is going on.

It’s been two months since Matt and I met at orientation and up until this week our relationship has been strictly online friends. Then out of nowhere, we’re seeing and talking to each other every day and, as if that’s not enough to make my insides weak, he drops the bomb that his best friend from home is coming to town. His best friend–who he has apparently talked to about me–and I’m supposed to be the welcoming committee for them while they’re here. This may be all fine and dandy if it was just some Joe Shmo, but this is Matt we’re talking about. Tall, brown hair, hazel eyes, muscular, hot, sexy, make my skin tingle, heart throb, Matt. I’m a nobody compared to him, so how am I supposed to be feeling?

Am I looking into this too much? Am I just going to get my heart stomped on and destroyed if I go on believing that I may have a chance, when there’s really no chance in hell that Matt’s heart would ever beat for me? All these questions are flooding my head, and I have no way to get any answers unless I want to confront Matt about it, but that’s another thing that there’s no chance in hell of ever happening. It’s just setting myself up for disaster. At the end of the day, my only option is to let things play out and hope for the best.

Yay.

Chapter 7

Thursday comes and goes with nothing from Matt.

I contemplate doing another running session down at the track during his practice, but the double package of ramen noodles that I ate just before getting that idea is weighing heavy in my gut, so I decide against it. Now, at 8:40 a.m., I’m walking down the stairs of my dorm wondering if I’m going to be greeted by the face that makes my body do weird things or if I’m going to have to make the lonely walk to French class by myself. Up until now walking to class alone has always been the norm for me, but Matt is right, it’s much more fun having someone to walk with.

Especially if that person is jaw-dropping hot.

Knowing that I’m going to be hit with a cold front as soon as I step foot outside, I stop after the last step to zip up my jacket and put my knitted hat on. When I look up and start in the direction of the door, my heart skips a beat. Matt is standing on the other side waiting for me. Instantly my straight face brightens as our eyes connect.

“Mornin’,” Matt greets me as I step outside, wearing his heart-wrenching smile.

“Good morning,” I say, smiling back at him.

“Like the hat. You look cute in it,” he adds, making my cheeks warm by his compliment.

“Thanks. I made it myself.”

“You made that?” he asks, seeming impressed as we start to walk to class together.

“Sure did. My babysitter growing up taught me how to knit. It’s kind of like riding a bike. You never forget how to do it.”

“I want one!” he says excitedly. “Can you make me one?”

I smile. “I suppose I could.”

I start to notice the simple gestures Matt does as we walk to class; placing his hand on my lower back when we walk up the stairs, holding open doors for me to enter first, winking at me periodically-usually after I thank him for something like holding open the door. I wonder if it’s just him being a nice guy or if there is something building between us?

I must admit, this is all foreign to me. I’ve never had a boyfriend and although this is depressing to admit, I’ve never had a boy show interest in me before, at least not that I noticed. I’m kind of going into this whole situation blind, and I’m having a hard time distinguishing the difference between friendly or something more. Of course I’m hoping it’s the latter, but at the same time I still don’t see that it’s possible.