Warming Trend (33 page)

“The nerve,” Lisa muttered.

Tan undid the fasteners and tilted the notebook toward Eve’s camera. “Well, the pages aren’t blank.” She fanned through it, reaching almost three-quarters before she encountered the first empty page.

Ani shook her head slightly, trying to clear her swimming eyes. “I didn’t think I’d feel so sad.”

“Feet of clay where we saw only the heroine of our cause.”

Tan was right. She didn’t want to believe it because of what Professor Monica Tyndell was trying to do for the world. Tonk leaned hard against her legs and she leaned back, glad for the warmth and the support. She was sad, very sad, to discover her idol was a human being, and not a very good one at that. She seemed to care more for people collectively than as individuals. “Is there any way this is innocent?”

“No,” Lisa said emphatically. “If there was an innocent explanation she would have given it to all of you the moment she told you about the accident. If the guy gave it to her for safety before he died, or she took it for that reason, she would have said. But her guilty act caused her to act guilty, and then she covered her tracks with your body, Ani.”

Eve, her camera at rest, said, “I think she’s right, Ani. I’m really very sorry. I see no reason to go on giving her any benefit of any doubt.”

Ani realized she was angry, too. Her dad had had a saying,
Don’t get mad, get even
. But she didn’t want to get even. She wanted back what had been taken. There was nothing Monica could give up that would replace it, so what did she really want that she could have that fixed the past? Wasn’t fixing the future far more important? “I don’t quite know what to do with it next.”

Tan, rising to her feet, said, “That’s not your decision. I’m going to return the notebook to the rightful owner—that would be Kenbrink’s research partner. But not before we let Monica know that we know.”

Ani turned away from the scene—she never wanted to see it again. Someone dead, and more than just her dreams stolen.

They were mostly quiet as they went back to the camp. The tents were turned inside out to dry in the sun, their backpacks were mostly refilled, and the last pot of hot water had been wrapped in a sleeping bag in the hope that it might still be warm.

Tan judged it not quite warm enough, quickly lit the burner and in a few minutes they were enjoying another round of instant coffee. Eve, smiling, produced one last bag of treats—five large snickerdoodles.

Ani hoped she sounded more civilized than Tonk as she devoured hers.

“I ought to be putting on the pounds eating this way,” Lisa said, “but this has been hard work. Fun—but hard.”

Tan gave her a sidelong look and they both bloomed into vivid red.

Eve laughed. “You two look so guilty.”

“All I’m saying…” Lisa paused to lick her fingers free of sugar and cinnamon. “All I’m saying is that you were wrong about getting stuck together.”

Tan, blushing but looking very smug, added, “And all I’m saying is that I think we were quieter than you two were.”

Ani was blushing and she didn’t care. “Hey—we weren’t listening. We were focused.”

Eve held up her hands. “This topic ends now.”

Ani agreed. Even among friends there were things that were still private. “I think I should radio Meg and let her know we’ll be ready for pick up earlier than we planned.” Ani rinsed out her mug with some slush off the top of the ice, added it to the collection nesting in the cook pot, and they set about getting the gear fully stowed. One by one they got into their packs, cinched, tightened and fell into step.

Ani shook off her sadness—and some of the anger. She still didn’t know what she wanted from Monica, but she had what she truly valued, and that took the edge off her desire for retribution.

“Hey you,” Eve called. “Do we have to walk single file?”

Ani glanced over her shoulder as she held out her hand. “No. Side-by-side will be just fine.”

* * *

“Tan, what can I do for you?”

Tan moved into Monica’s office, and Ani followed her.

Monica’s eyebrows skyrocketed. “Ani? What brings you here, of all places?”

Tan shut the door and Ani watched all the color drain out of Monica’s face. She knows, Ani thought. She couldn’t get out of her symposium to keep track of Ani’s contact with others, had tried to get Ani to leave with that offer of a job, even tried to hustle Eve out of town. Lisa had wanted to organize tar and feathers, but Eve had agreed whatever Ani and Tan decided she would certainly accept.

Looking brisk and efficient in one of her no-nonsense suits, Tan unwrapped Monica’s kit from a shopping bag and set it on her desk. “This is yours.”

Ani watched Monica’s gaze dart from Tan, to her, to the kit, as if she hoped they really hadn’t opened it.

“This is not yours.” Tan took out a large Ziploc, with the bright blue cover facing Monica. She handed the plastic bag to Ani to hold. She withdrew the last item from the bag, a file folder. Opening it, she set it in front of Monica. “These are the three letters you’re going to sign.”

Monica licked her lips and two bright spots of furious color dotted her still pale cheeks. “Are you blackmailing me?”

“Blackmail is immoral.” Tan took a pen from the breast pocket of her jacket. She set it alongside the folder and added, “I don’t want to debate morals with you right now.”

Monica didn’t want to look down at the letters, it was plain. Ani could see the wheels within wheels turning as she tried to find a way out of the situation.

Slowly, she said, “Ani, you were always special to me, and I’m sorry you took matters into your own hands.”

“I was just being a good student,” Ani said. “Read the letters.”

Monica rose from behind her desk, her royal blue polo showing off the white slacks. She was unflappably elegant and Ani understood some of Lisa’s bitter desire to see her, just once, out of her league. Ani took a reflexive step backward.

Monica didn’t get too close, but she was closer than she needed to be. All at once Ani could smell her perfume, and she flinched when Monica reached over to brush hair away from Ani’s eyes. “I had such plans for you.”

There it was. How could she have not seen it before? Monica wanted to confuse her. Lisa was right. With a clear voice, she said, “That doesn’t work on me. Read the letters.”

When a sad shake of the head, Monica turned to Tan. “I’m not sure what the administrative department head thinks her jurisdiction is here, but you are out of bounds.”

“I don’t think so.” Tan waved a hand at the letters. “The first letter is to the provost at Toronto University, returning this notebook and explaining that during a thorough inventory, it had turned up in an abandoned kit. You offer the sincere apologies of the university for jumping to the conclusion that the notebook found earlier was the missing one, and stopping the search.”

Monica’s jaw hardened. Ani knew this version of the woman, too. This woman was the one who fought for grant money, for schedules and space in journals for global warming topics. The world was finally listening, and partly because Monica could be so soft and hide so much steel. Destroying her didn’t get Ani back what she had lost.

“That’s all very convenient. It doesn’t change the fact that Anidyr Bycall destroyed a notebook she knew didn’t belong to her.”

“Very true. Ani has paid for her transgression with three years of academic suspension.” Tan gestured at the folder. “Read the other two letters. Or I will take them to the dean, and he’ll read them. And hear the whole story, see photographs of where we found the notebook, and have access to two more witnesses about when and where we found it. And since these letters solve everyone’s problems, he’ll order you to sign them, or be publicly censured and humiliated. Much the same way Ani was.”

There was a knock on the door, startling Ani and sending her heart rate even higher.

Tan responded, said, “Not now” to whoever it was and closed the door again. “I have an appointment with the dean in fifteen minutes. I’ll deliver those letters signed or unsigned. It’s up to you.”

Another woman might have flounced into the chair, but Monica coolly returned to her seat and pulled the letters toward her. “Dean Malmoat, School of blah blah blah, dear Dean, blah blah blah,” she read. “In the matter of the missing Kenbrink notebook, I acted with poor judgment regarding the facts of the matter, and allowed one of my graduate students to take unnecessary blame in that affair. I accept responsibility for my actions, and ask you to place this letter in my permanent file, for the eyes of disciplinary and advancement review committees only.” She looked up at Tan. “How very big of me, to make sure the powers that be are watching me more closely in the future.”

“I doubt that will limit you in any substantial way. Now the other one.”

Ani couldn’t believe how calm Tan was. Her heart was pounding so loudly she had to strain to hear. It was like watching a standoff at the UN.

“Dean Malmoat, blah blah blah all over again, members of the admissions committee, and so forth.” Monica sighed. “In the matter of graduate student Anidyr Bycall, new evidence clears her of involvement in the destruction or loss of the Kenbrink notes. As such, I ask you to reinstate the record of her first year of work. Should she wish to apply to finish her doctoral program, I further request her scholarship be reinstated and she be assigned to a different advisor.”

The room was now so still that Ani could hear the footsteps of people in the hallway beyond the closed door.

Without looking at either of them, Monica picked up her own pen and signed all three documents. Tan scooped up the folder and tucked it under her arm. Ani gave her back the notebook.

“Thank you,” Tan said.

“That’s it?” Monica’s gaze was on the pen she’d set down on her desk blotter.

“Should there be more?”

Monica lifted her gaze then, going directly to Ani. Bizarrely, there was a hint of betrayal in her look, as if Ani had played traitor to something she didn’t understand. “Don’t you even want to know what happened?”

Tan lifted her chin slightly. “It doesn’t change anything. It wasn’t yours. You had it. You didn’t say you had it, and you let someone else take the blame for the theft and destruction.”

“I thought more ice would come down on him. The notebook was open, under layers of slush and ice. I thought the notes would be ruined. I took them, made sure they were safe, and then the wall came down on me. I was lucky to get myself out alive. I knew no one would believe me—and you just proved my theory.”

“I’d have believed you,” Ani said. “Your students would have believed you.”

“I would have believed you, too.” Tan turned to the door.

“I tried to make it up to Ani. I got her a great job, if she’d only been bright enough to get in touch again.”

Wow, Ani thought. Everything is someone else’s shortcomings.

“I helped out Eve, too.”

Ani didn’t say anything about Eve’s friend Bennie, who was going to be buying Monica out of the Dragonfly. There was no point.

“Do you believe me now?” There was nothing plaintive in Monica’s expression, nothing of regret or remorse.

“I believe there’s a truth you still haven’t told, and you never will tell it because it’s not in your nature.” Ani looked back from the now open door. She’d never felt tall in Monica’s office, but today she did. “We all had faith in you. But your lack of faith in us was a real problem.”

As she and Tan walked toward the dean’s office, she asked, “Did my father really dig your car out of a snowbank?”

“Sure. But that’s not why I’m doing this.”

“You’re just doing your job.”

“Yes, and Lisa wouldn’t give me peace any other way.”

“I have to say I’m glad to hear that keeping peace with Lisa matters to you. It’s the only way to survive her.”

“I’m not a fool.”

Ani smiled and felt far less nervous than she had a few minutes ago. After facing down Professor Tyndell’s calculated deceits, a mere dean was nothing. She wasn’t sure if she’d reenroll. However, if the scholarship were put back on the table—and Tan wasn’t sure that was possible after three years—she would seriously consider it.

Lisa had asked her, on that long flight, what she wanted to be when she grew up. She’d said a glacial geologist—she wasn’t so sure now. She didn’t want to turn into Monica Tyndell. But she didn’t want her father’s lack of choices. So she was going to consider her options, talk it over with the most important person in her life, and then decide.

The Bycalls weren’t fools. They knew to come in out of sub-freezing temperatures. She’d learned her lesson. Talking through her future with Eve was the most important part of making sure they had a future together.

* * *

“Tan must be short for something.” Lisa was trying to make small talk as they stood next to the rental car parked in front of the Dragonfly. Her coat was on the car seat and she had returned to her clinging tank top and sweater-around-the-shoulders attire. It seemed to Ani that Tan wasn’t trying to hide that she really enjoyed the way Lisa was shaped, and that was as it should be.

Eve had made them a last meal together, just after closing, of shepherd’s pie and strawberry-apple-rhubarb cobbler. Ani and Lisa had to leave now to be comfortably sure of making their first flight to Seattle. Ani wasn’t looking forward to the red-eye into Atlanta. She wasn’t looking forward to any of it.

“It is.” Tan looked funereal, though she tried to smile. “Attankat.”

“Oh. I think I prefer Kat.”

Tan gave her a sideways look. “Only in private.”

“Okay, but you can’t ever call me Myra.”

“Why would I call you Myra?”

“It’s my name, silly. You promise you’ll come visit?”

“Yes, silly.”

Ani squeezed Eve’s hands. “I promise, I’ll be back. I’ll be back as soon as I pack up my stuff, close my accounts and can book another flight.”

“I’ll miss you every minute.” Eve had taken off her chef’s smock and Ani didn’t think she’d ever tire of seeing her in that shade of aqua with her bright yellow hair. It was her favorite, next to
au naturel
.

The last four days had been exhilarating. Any administrative decision from GlacierPort would be slow in coming, and it had been healing to Ani to relax and play. They’d quit the motel, Lisa staying with Tan, and Ani feeling as if she’d moved in, finally, with Eve. Her boxes were back in Eve’s garage, and her photos back on the dresser. Tonk was there to slurp her toes in the shower, and she had made Eve dessert in bed, every night. Sometimes, as it had in the past, dessert had even included food.