Way Down Dark (23 page)

“I said to line up,” the man says.

“Do as he says,” I say, hoping that the others hear me. They don't know who we are, I'm sure. We have to explain.

“You should listen to that one,” the man says, pointing at me. He motions to the others to move forward. I try to count us all: fifty, maybe sixty. I look for Jonah again as we're out here in the light. I still can't see him, but there are so many of us, and I'm short. The crowd makes this hard, and I'm lost in it slightly.

These new people take the children, shoving them into different lines. The kids cry when they're taken from their parents or from whoever held them as we traveled down here. “Scan them,” the man says. The others walk up to the adults standing in the front row, and they pull their arms roughly forward and hold machines over their wrists.

“No ID,” another of the masked men says. “But . . .” He whispers something to his colleague, their backs turned. We can't hear them. They both nod, and then the first man turns back to face us. He paces, waiting for us all to come out.

“Stop it!” one of the women at the front screams as her child is pulled away from her, fighting back, beating at the man who's taking her. I remember saving them both. I brought them both down below the Pit. This new guard—because that's surely what these people are—raises his hand, his black weapon primed for her. Other parents hold their children back. We've come too far to let them go now. The guard shrugs. He must be their leader. They listen to him, as do we. He addresses us all. “All of you, eyes to me,” he says. And then he brings his stick out, twists it in his hand. He holds it upright. “Look at me.”

So we do. The stick flashes, a bright orange light, and it takes a second, but then I have never felt pain like it. We all collapse, falling to the floor. I can still see, even through the pain. I grit my teeth and try to call for Mae, but my mouth doesn't work. I can't turn my head. We're all paralyzed.

I watch them walk through us, picking up the rest of the children. One by one they take them in their arms like useless limp dolls, and they carry them away. When they reach Mae, I can only watch as they haul her into the air, away from me. She drops her doll, and they leave it lying on the ground. She can't react to its loss. She can't cry, but she stares at me as she goes, and I stare back at her. She has to know that I will save her. Whatever they're going to do to her, I won't allow it.

When the children are gone, I watch as the guards climb into the ship and begin to pull the bodies out. Those who drowned, who died fighting, who didn't survive the fall. Everything starts to fade. The pain becomes too much. My eyes sting, and they water, and my vision blurs. I try to focus. Jonah, Mae: I need them. This isn't what was meant to happen. Jonah, please be alive, I think.

Please.

“One of them's breathing!” one of the guards shouts, and they drag the body out just as my eyes close. I look for the hair, for the skin, for the eyes, because I know that it must be Jonah; it can't not be him. He and I: maybe there's something. He's a person I can rely on, someone who knows me. I've always needed that. But now my mother's gone, Agatha's gone, even Mae's gone. I've always had somebody who knows me, supporting me, I think. I can't not have that—can't not have
him
—now. They put the body down in front of the lead guard, and he peers down at it. I can't stay conscious any longer. I'm fading.

“Welcome home,” the guard says, inspecting the body, laughing. It's not Jonah. It's not dressed the same. I see muscles, and I see scars, and I see the body twitch; the stump of where a hand should be, ragged and bloody from where I pulled my mother's blade loose.

Then everything goes black.

I try to move, but I'm strapped to something: a table, maybe. I open my eyes, and I see that I'm upright. It's not just me: It's everybody from the ship who survived, and others I don't recognize. I feel groggy, like I've been asleep for too long. I can move my hands and legs, but only a little. My muscles feel as if they are tired, as if they never want to move again. I am not strong enough to sit up, because I try and my back and stomach rally against me. I'm suddenly aware of how much every part of my body hurts: the dull aches, the sharp stings. No adrenaline to stop me from being in pain anymore. Still, I can open and close my hands, and I can move my feet. I feel myself slowly coming back into my body.

I manage to turn my head enough to look around. We're not where we landed anymore. We're inside a building, all
of us, heads and bodies and feet bound, attached to a wall. People—guards, whatever they are—patrol the room, coming up to us, pulling on the straps to check that they're secure. I play dead. No sense letting them know I've come around.

“What did they do?” asks one as they tighten straps.

“They're from the
Australia
.”

“Can't be.”

“Like cockroaches.”

“They should all be dead by now.”

“Like I say, they're roaches. Somebody must have been watching them, just not telling the rest of us.”

“Jesus. So they've been up there this whole time?”

“Yeah. No wonder they're monsters.” Their voices are stilted, not quite pronouncing the words in ways that I understand easily. They come to me and check my straps, tightening them, step close enough that I can feel their breath on my skin, and then walk on. I flex my hands once they're gone. They don't see.

I look for Mae, but she's not here. There are no children here. I flex my hands again. My strength is returning, and it feels good. I flex because I can. Why do we do anything? I know now:
because we can
.

A guard stands at the front and shouts to the others. “Ready for transport?” They shout their replies, and he looks down the rows of us all. “You lucky lot,” he says. He laughs. “You're headed for the Firmament.” And then he turns and leaves. I watch him heading down a ramp, through a door, back into the city. I can see that it's raining out there, real rain.

I flex my hands, opening and closing them. I am trying to move my arm at the wrist, the elbow. I can feel it coming. I just need to work it more. I thought that I was saving everyone, but I didn't. So now I have a second chance. I tell myself that, and I feel the blood running through my body—strong, healthy blood—and I feel my ankles start to twinge. It's like pins and needles: when you have been sitting on your leg and then you stand and it falls apart, and you can't walk for a few minutes, and then it comes back. That is how this feels.

I can move my neck, so I do. I move my hips. I crick my back. I don't know how many of my muscles work, and I don't have time to find out. I know that I have only one chance to escape.

I cough. I cough, and I make out that I'm choking, that the bracer on my neck is too tight. I'm dying, I pretend. I've heard dying sounds enough to do a pretty good impression of them, and the guards who checked me have run over, and they're loosening the straps to make sure that I'm all right. They're not inhuman.

While one unties the bindings around my wrists, the other removes the collar on my neck. This is my chance. I open my mouth, snap my head down, and bite down as hard as I can on the guard's hand. He takes a second to work out what's going on and then screams, falls backward. I can taste his blood.

My hands are free. I lash out with them, getting the other guard in the face, and then they're both on the floor, panicking. I reach down and yank the bindings on my ankles free.

“Lock her down!” the guard I punched shouts, so I kick him in the face as I climb off the table. That shuts him up. I
step over to the other guard, who's cradling his hand, sobbing beneath his helmet.

“Where are the children?” I ask. My mouth hurts to speak, my throat burning. “Where did they go?” He doesn't answer and looks away from me. I slam my forearm into his throat, and he gurgles. I haven't done any real damage; I've hurt him just enough. “Where?” I ask again.

“The Services!” he says. “The bloody Services took them!”

He's panicking. I don't know if this is true or what the Services are, but I'll find out. I stand up, and he tries to scream, so I drive my knee down and into the side of his head, knocking him out.

An alarm sounds. The exit starts to close, the ramp pulling upward. The lights dim. There are more guards coming; I can see them in the distance, rushing toward the transport. I don't have any weapons—they've taken everything—but my body is feeling better. Every moment I'm moving, it feels better.

I run to the ramp, reaching the door the first guard passed through just before it closes, and I drop and roll through the space, tumbling out onto the ground below. Behind me, the door slams shut. No changing my mind now.

I face the guards who have come toward me, weapons out. They slow down, taking stances that I recognize, that show they're gearing up for a fight. One of them fires something into the sky, a glowing red light that arcs up into the clouds. In the distance, an alarm sounds, a shrill scream of a noise. These guards walk toward me, all barking orders, telling me to come quietly, to lie down, to put my hands on my head, to give up.

But Mae is still alive. I promised her that I would keep her safe, and I haven't broken a promise yet.

“Surrender!” I hear one of the guards say as he steps forward, his striker extending into that whip, ready to attack me. Ready to take me down.

“No,” I say.

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