Women and Men (10 page)

And he did, sailing like a broad jumper off the porch, not hearing the screen door (is this true?) clap shut until he hit the sidewalk at the end of their walk—but today without that calm shout from his mother from inside to not let the
DOOR
slam.

Meanwhile, decades later in the near future two persons stand upon a metal plate waiting to be elsewhere. And sure enough, behind them more twos wait their turn to step onto the plate and be transferred from sight. What becomes of these people? The plate is a type of transformer plate and the occasion is not a twenty-fifth-century movie in a theater in the 1940s where you know a dozen guys and girls plus your friend Sam, and your younger brother Brad is there in the dark somewhere with a real girlfriend. No, the people on the plate are bound for a frontier colony out in Earth-Moon space; and while it feels like home it is uniquely economy-oriented in that, unknown as yet to these pioneers, they wind up on arrival one person, not the original two. But what does that feel like? Is this Experience again? What happens to their clothes?

This is a future where you have been, and not by dream, Jim Mayn, because you don’t do dreams; and not by vehicle or through the aether to the best of your knowledge. Which you heard of long after it had been found to be not there. (Is that a trend?) And how did
you
get to the colony? In your same body? Maybe you didn’t stand on the plate. Were you simultaneously reincarnate?

But not dreaming, not dreaming.

A curve felt through your nature cuts distance brain-like and seeks in you to have been there first and retroactive to have guarded you through absence or secreted your viral memory from itself for a generation during which the future went ahead, homogened, homosomed, heading these willing pioneers for the hills of, after all, near-space, but getting there each pair as one person.

Which would make for richly human letters frequency’d back home, you can imagine, reluctant journeyman. But it didn’t make hard news you might readily share, cast as you could feel from that future like a shadow, whatever half-known way you got there to begin with; and while you’re not listening for more, maybe it is listening for you, for it seems to be there, and who was There First is like what Came First (the Indians or their Great Spirit that sets in motion our own stake in it).

But if two pioneers into one comprises one beginning ongoing, here is already another: a room, a city room, a mid-room of a railroad flat: and on the chipped walls big blood-red, blood-black working drawings on brown supermarket bags opened out, cut up, masking-taped together. And you are listening to an elder meteorologist with a broken yet rebroken and lengthened face expound too fast (then too slow, ignoring you, Mayn) that these represent another weather that may arise from convergence of atmosphere with some coastlines that of late actually have seemed disturbed, have varied suddenly like subtle fronts.

And while the world doesn’t interfere now with this elder maverick’s work, he does have a few correspondents left. One is a native American adolescent, New Mexico Pueblo Indian, y’know, who calls the Hermit-Meteorologist "great-uncle" and mails him bright chalk pictures (they’re in the other room) of sunsets and faces and mesa-based Apollo rockets like individual ears of corn; the second correspondent is an established inmate of a penitentiary, and he sends—God!—tips of some telepathic iceberg, y’know, reflecting what he found in
his
mail:
write
a lot of letters, you
get
a lot, the Hermit observes: oh this fellow’s much exercised about the high cost of opera tickets (that popular art!) and the current claims of women yet their "will"(!) to give themselves up for their men; but more to the point, letters re: precipitation of New Weather in new self-supporting communities. In return for all these letters, the Hermit’s afraid he’s sent back only a postcard now and then (like the one you got, you bet, brief-scrawled so it looked like a sketch:
COME AHEAD
—naming this afternoon).

The Hermit like a discoverer in this bare room chock-a-block with his concepts and his weather: it was there to be found. (That epithet "Hermit-Inventor" adhering like a given name he has lived up to—did you actually hear it given this man? There’s some hum he makes you resist around him of catastrophe. With it comes calm as sharp as a second voice, female far away in some next room of this dilapidated "railroad," babbling soft and old and dearly.) He has pivoted one coastline so it runs cross-country, you’d swear. He has replicated another so it comes on like crabbed waves across the continent. Mountain range, you suggested (to say something). What about a mountain? the man demands.

Is some time-defying coincidence afoot here? Hermit-weathermen-inventors-of-New-York talked their way into and out of histories your spirited grandmother told you portions of; your mother did not tell stories. Were those hermit-inventors all one hermit, as you were one boy? "Great-uncle" to an Indian? It hardly rings a bell; coincidence anyway is against your religion. Jim Mayn will settle for just
this
oldtimer, tall and irritable, who can’t afford an unlisted number to cope with these screwballs and probably foreign powers who call up (he guesses you’re O.K.), and so is phoneless, hence more concentrated on what’s here: snowflake-fringe coasts and diagraphs of pressureless voids that look like meteorite showers of infinitesimal equation on the wall of this Greenwich Village railroad flat—these could make their clouds of fingerprints considerably more than New Weather (as you clock these curious clouds—their curves of whorls blowing down to smaller and smaller whorls)—no, not just coasts of a weather but, up there on the walls across vertical piece after piece of brown paper,
mountains
seemingly as well (for
your
money) or just any old graph contour of some expert’s risk-benefit analysis yet coming right at you or your brain anyhow (friendly dried-out polyp of a still two-gun arsenal, leftrightleftright) receiving obstacles of turbulence that your guy’s differential equations for the evolution of the atmosphere and doubtless half a dozen other things at same time and/or unseen aren’t going to help you with (and if you’re this recycled man some woman called you warmly you have to admit the other day look around at the accelerated evolution of practically everything including these . . . what? you feel the word move your throat and mouth, the word "angels," where’d it come from?) and hell anyway this elder maverick New York Hermit-Meteorologist says forget it if you’re not up to them, the equations, he as for him never
got family
relation straight, left it to the women—second something twice removed—"Great-uncle to an Indian?" you ask—"Oh my gosh who knows what the boy meant by that? Second cousin I would have guessed, if my uncle or was it great-uncle
was
his grandfather. Leave that to all our kinship hunters in the field," your host mutters . . . "—where’d you say you’re from? Jersey?" People underrate the grandeur of New Jersey, he laughs the very laugh you heard in his postcard replying to your humble inquiry. Pretty much over your head, you had inquired if radioactive mists might breed atmospheric "sports"— freak fronts, stacked weather—say, like a tree with no trunk, you half-see, half-hear (but did not say in your letter), or a mountain you can’t see.

Word of this man’s bulletins launched from a local radio station near Cape May had come to you—the Coast Guard had complained—then elsewhere he was fired by an offshore pirate television station because, according to (he laughs) his prison correspondent, the hermit has powers of warning communicable in a beeline to others—so no need for wire service, radio, or TV. (Wait—the
powers
communicable? or the
warning?)
But "the grandeur of New Jersey"? For a second the old tales wander back—all of them and for just one second.

The old geezer’s not after publicity. Unless it could get him the funds to hire the plane and the infra-scan gear and a human or two on the ground to prove his guess. Oh you’re willing to believe weather and coastline connect: this is no hare-lipped hype for the news-margin traders—you could name one who will send and, yes, buy photo-illustrated rumor linking a mountain of mineral matter with an intelligence strategy undermining what might have been one of the more interesting socialisms in South America: whereas the hermit’s meteorology finds only a relation between unprecedented atmospherics and the behavior of little stretches of coast that may alter infinitesimally overnight: work he’s done that’s solid and odd: but hardly your staple all-points conspiracy theory like what the South American (Connecticut-resident) owner of newspaper chain you James Mayn currently work for asked you to look into: that has a Chicago industrialist’s estranged son thousands of miles south arranging President Kennedy’s Texassassination to impress a Chilean woman he is pursuing while he’s studying magic music-stories with which Araucanian Indian
brujas
in the South demoralized their Spanish conquerors, but at same time north of there near the port of Valdivia helping rebuild after an earthquake: and the woman? she’s a member of far left MIR
(M
for Movement) but soon to flip her coign to equally anti-liberal rightist revolutionary hive;
nor
is this New York maverick weather-discoverer’s coastline-atmospheric-pressure correlation any suspense-loaded Doom ding-a-ling in all probability, certainly not mystery’d like family closet within closet complete with (remember the Edison light bulb that goes on and off with the) door, so let’s make it last and leave the madness, folly, deaths, and their relevant skeletons back in there—for this isobar-tailed atmosphere freak in a railroad flat in New York’s legendary Greenwich Village is coming up with science that resonates. And while you don’t grasp all he’s saying, if he has found a New Weather of enclosed voids that like "strangers" do not draw outside pressures inward, the old guy’s right to call it "weather-possibly-without-a-cause" and at the same time relate it to "outlandish parallel phenomena" he describes as infinitesimal breaks in fanatic coastline indentations directly beneath the weather in question—breaks that are not supposed to be there—"where" both weather and coastline turn out to be expressible in these (he calls ‘em) "erratic shape equashuns"—"regular monsters, ‘fya look close, like each surprised by the other, sky, land, sky."

Oh, some middle room of a Greenwich Village "railroad" and someplace along the hall you passed the room with that babbling lady voice—a mother as old as she sounds far from children, who her hermit-companion says tells him to "go tell it—tell your message." The weather diagrams polygonally strengthened here and there by the appearance of the supermarket bag’s bottom look like coastlines, but also vertical layeroids rising one upon another: the rock of history, not the history you don’t believe in but some history of rocks you do.

O.K., this meteorological speculation plus this broken and rebroken face hosting you is another beginning less necessary than equal, more equal than prior—work of an out-of-work savant, unfrocked more than unemployed, who beams his suspicion through you as if you, James Mayn, have sensationalized him, made him a household word. He didn’t know your name when you announced it, did he? He of course knows all these other things you don’t, the fact and math—even the grandeur of New Jersey—O.K., but not who you are, except your job.

His face is changing on you again, fabulous geezer—O.K. Cut . . .cut, please.

For in still another beginning, a man and a woman—had once been married—but they didn’t know each other necessarily—because it had not been to each other they’d been married. Which is an O.K. opening for a friendship. Or Open Marriage (OM), as we once said in sanction of some liberty to fuck our freedom. But they’ve not really met yet, and on this new beginning we now leave them, you see, it takes so long for people to meet. Others have to meet first.

No order, that; but you’re in Florida, not all these other places: like Choor, the homeland of Margaret’s Princess; a railroad flat in New York; a metal plate to turn pioneers to a transmissible frequency; marriage OMing into friendship; these other other situations. (There are no situations, there’s only people. You missed your chance to tell the Hermit-Meteorologist about the visits you would swear you paid to a future where pairs of people get transmitted from Earth elsewhere only to arrive as
one
person. A technological economy, literally breathtaking.) You have just come in out of Florida where the night will smell of unused daylight and, come to think of it, of used daylight, too. Which might just be the Fountain of Youth Vaca de Leon. You have happened into a roadhouse in Cocoa near the Space Center, and here is where you are. Give the order. Is
that
an order? It’s only for drinks. They’re waiting. That’s all you do, you’re the one that says the words, let others carry them out.

A home passes overhead in orbit, ‘least you saw it launched this
A.M.,
an empty household fully equipped, built-in cabinets, now it’s over the Andes, downtown Won Ton, Tunis, you wouldn’t know, and sure to come by again in ninety minutes, no need to duck.

You know what you have to do. Think of those waiting. Nothing to it: it isn’t as if this is even a
mock
killing-at-a-distance—nor that you have to be one whole person to give this order at a protracted time when you are letting a divorced whim bring you down here to Florida looking for a once-encountered Chilean only to find one of the best women you can remember.

"Shoot, kid," came the father-type voice (meaning, "Speak") far away in time but close inside the void.

But you, you don’t have to do the shooting. You just give the order.

Just? (For somebody hammering away at somebody else in a self-help workshop has just shown us that the word "just" often is minimizing our own self’s felt needs, as in "I just called up to tell you.")

Yes, that’s what you do. You do just. They take it from there. Standing up. Against a wall. In a revolutionary courtyard or an appropriated playground. But you don’t know
what
shooting: because maybe we have here a trial run, with blanks. Trial run to gain experience. Or give the squad waiting to take their best shot the real thing of hearing the blankety-blank gust of the weapons’ waiting life. And as for the terminal others waiting opposite, assembled in one timeless scheme all together or coming up in another time one by one to face the squad, the trial run gives them the complementary experience of, say, passing out at the explosion the shock of which we’ll hazard they’d have been condemned to run the risk of not quite hearing (whether they went-to-the-bathroom then and there or not) if the blasts had not been blanks—which "Victim then fills in" as blanks are to be filled in, with indifference, hope, rage, self, the blindfold smell of self’s waste, or say some tortured failure of heart (for who would go through that fake execution again? don’t ask), or (to reverse the words and economize)
heart failure
(for risk’s a factor and there’s such a thing as torture that goes too far) while on the other hand (human nature being what it is) failure of heart threatens to widdle and resolve itself into mere you know temporarily decreased cardiac silhouette or arhythm; or, after all, temporarily decreased cardiac silhouette may be but
terminal
arhythm.