A Great Unrecorded History: A New Life of E. M. Forster (65 page)

235
“little private talk”: The Diaries of Virginia Woolf
, IV:357, Dec. 14, 1935.

235
“You must try”:
EMF to ACF, Nov. 30, 1932, KCC.

235
“I felt it was”:
EMF to ACF, Dec. 6, 1932, KCC.

235
“Will now have some”:
Ibid.

235
“I have an open”:
EMF to BB, Dec. 16, 1935, KCC.

235
“I don’t expect mother”:
EMF to JRA, March 17, 1936, HRC.

236
“I was thinking yesterday”:
EMF to JRA, Feb. 19, 1936, HRC.

237
“terribly authoritarian”:
EMF to Forrest Reid, Sept. 4, 1942, quoted in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, II:252.

237
“last parlourmaid in England”:
Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, II:235.

238
“big house”:
Forster, “West Hackhurst: A Surrey Ramble,” KCC.

238
“You and R.”:
EMF to May Buckingham, June 16, 1935, KCC.

238
“very decent sort”:
EMF to CI, Sept. 9, 1935, Huntington.

239
“I felt a bit”:
EMF to BB, Sat. [Feb. 20, 1943], Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:201.

240
“Meum”:
TEL to Francis Rodd, Nov. 23, 1934, in Malcolm Brown, ed.,
T. E. Lawrence: The Selected Letters
, 500.

240
“telegrams and anger”:
Forster,
Howards End
, 25.

241
“dégringolade”:
Forster, “The Lost Guide,” in
Alexandria
, 355.

241
“I don’t suppose”:
EMF to VW, June 6, 1935, in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, II:193.

241
“condition of society”:
Gide, quoted in Shattuck,
The Innocent Eye
, 23.

241
“does evil that evil”:
Forster, “Liberty in England,”
Abinger Harvest
, 61.

241
“does many things”:
Ibid.

241
“not take up arms”:
Shattuck,
The Innocent Eye
, 9.

241
“I don’t think anyone”:
EMF to CI, Feb. 17, 1934, in Parker,
Christopher Isherwood
, 281, and Huntington.

242
“every one may know”:
EMF to JL, July 12, 1935, quoted in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, II:196.

242
“It means freedom”:
Forster, “Liberty in England,”
Abinger Harvest
, 60.

242
“The hungry and the homeless”:
Ibid., 61.

242
Sedition Act:
Officially called the Incitement to Disaffection Act (1934).

242
“encourages the informer”:
Ibid., 62.

243
“My colleagues . . . may feel”:
Ibid., 65.

243
“[Forster] paid no attention”:
Katherine Anne Porter, “Paris, 1935” in J. H. Stape, ed.,
E. M. Forster: Interviews and Recollections
, 15–16.

243
“pantomime of malignant ridicule”:
Ibid.

244
“But Gide hasn’t got”:
Parker,
Ackerley
, 338.

244
“In England, more than anywhere”:
Forster, “Liberty in England,”
Abinger Harvest
, 64.

244
“distinguished backs”:
Forster, “Gide’s Death,” in
Two Cheers
, 232.

244
“many eulogies of Soviet culture”:
Forster, quoted in Saunders, “What Have Intellectuals Ever Done for the World,” 3.

244
“[s]ad as ever”:
DHL to EMF, Feb. 19, 1924; Roberts et al., eds.,
The Letters of D. H. Lawrence
, IV:584.

245
“exploited for their . . . factitious”:
Forster, “Mrs. Miniver,” in
Two Cheers
, 300.

245
“the brassy rattle”:
EMF to FB, Aug. 25, 1917, KCC.

245
“Some people call its absences”:
Forster, “What I Believe,” in
Two Cheers
, 71.

245
“going mad”:
Isherwood,
Down There on a Visit
, 162.

245
“[Morgan] is as anxious”:
Isherwood,
Down There on a Visit
, 162, 175.

246
“Though Italy and King’s”:
Auden, “To E. M. Forster,” preface to
Journey to a War
.

246
“I’ve been studying”:
Forster, “Seven Days Hard,” March 10, 1934, Lago et al.,
The BBC Talks
, 124.

247
“All I can do”:
Mitchison,
You May Well Ask
, 106.

247
“We are willing enough”:
Forster, “The Tercentenary of the ‘Areopagitica,’” in
Two Cheers
, 54.

247
“Long, long ago”:
Forster, “Jew-Consciousness,” in
Two Cheers
, 12–13.

248
“liberalism crumbling beneath him”:
EMF to WP, Feb. 9, 1938, Durham;
Two Cheers
, 76.

248
“I do not believe”:
Forster, “What I Believe,” in
Two Cheers,
67.

248
“I hate the idea”:
Ibid., 68.

248
“to keep away”:
EMF to CI, July 10, 1939, Huntington.

248
“I have myself to face a world”:
EMF to WP, March 21, 1943, Durham.

248
“Whatever one does”:
EMF to CI, Sept. 1, 1939, Huntington.

249
“London, the Olde World”:
Parker,
Christopher Isherwood
, 578; EMF to CI, April 21, 1940, Huntington.

249
“demi-vierges”:
Alexander,
William Plomer
, 233.

249
“What a wildness”: Gardner, ed.,
Commonplace Book
, 150.

249
would “look after Robin and May”:
EMF to BB, April 21, 1939, KCC; Lago and Fur-bank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:164.

249
“Truly we live in strange times”:
EMF to BB, July 19, 1939, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, II:167–68.

250
“What does concern me”:
EMF to JRA, Saturday n.d. [late July 1938], HRC.

250
“Joe—, you must give up looking”:
EMF to JRA, Aug. 18, 1939, HRC.

250
But Joe had “altered”:
EMF to WP, June 12 and Sept. 25, 1943, Durham.

250
“I love and have loved you”:
EMF to JRA, Sept. 25, 1943, HRC.

250
“I must seem selfish”:
EMF to JRA, n.d. [c. Sept. 27, 1943], HRC.

251
The shock of her death:
EMF to JRA, June 8, 1941, HRC; EMF to BB, April 4, 1941, KCC.

251
“Like all her friends”:
Forster, “Virginia Woolf,” in
Two Cheers
, 258.

251
she “always seems in the next room”:
EMF to CI, July 25, 1942, Huntington.

251
“be wary of melancholy”:
Ibid.

252
The notebook’s cover:
KCC, catalogue number xvi/5–C. The catalogue dates the contents page c. 1942, but a slightly later date is more likely, because Forster changed his habits to be less guarded after Lily’s death. He unlocked his Locked Diary, for example. The date of the most recent published writing copied into the book is 1958. The artist who painted the “Lest We Forget Him!” poster was Cyrus Cuneo, 1879–1916. Cuneo was born in the United States, but emigrated to Britain in 1903. He made a good living as a commercial artist, publishing drawings in the
Illustrated London News
. His patriotic war paintings were very popular; several were auctioned to raise money for the war effort. A civilian, he died of septicemia after being accidentally jabbed by a hatpin.

252
“the last of my race”:
EMF to CI, March 17, 1938, Huntington.

252
“Johnny, Reg, Charles Lovett”:
EMF to JRA, Sept. 8, 1939, HRC.

252
“I have violent longings”:
EMF to CI, June 8, 1942, Huntington.

252
“already almost blind”:
Ibid.

252
“not an aristocracy of power”:
Forster, “What I Believe,” in
Two Cheers
, 73.

253
“queer race”:
Cadmus was unapologetic about his sexuality, and always preferred to be known as a queer. Interview with Jon Anderson, Oct. 10, 2007, Westport, Conn.

253
“the admiration and devotion”:
PC to EMF, Dec. 12, 1943, Jon Anderson. Copy in KCC.

254
“Dearest Morgan, If this ever reaches you”:
CI to EMF, July 27, 1943, KCC. Isherwood spells Bill’s surname as “Roehrick.” He adopted Roerick as a stage name.

254
“quickly became attached”:
EMF to CI, Feb. 10, 1944, Huntington.

254
“I quite like being pelted”:
EMF to WP, “Weds” [1943], Durham.

254
“Bob twice k’d me”:
EMF, Diary, Sept. 1939, KCC.

254
“Although my mother has been”:
EMF to JRA, n.d. [1938], HRC.

255
“Now I am older”:
EMF, Locked Diary, Jan. 22, 1953, KCC.

255
“No,” he replied tenderly:
Interview with P. N. Furbank, June 6, 2008, London.

255
“I partly died”:
EMF to CI, Aug. 26, 1945, Huntington; quoted in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, II:259.

255
“masses of rubbish”:
EMF to CI, May 9, 1945, Huntington.

255
“destroying things”:
Ibid.; EMF to WP, April 15, 1945, Durham.

255
“What I shall do”:
EMF to CI, May 9, 1945, Huntington.

255
Each time he “broke down”:
Ibid.

256
“ungovernable temper”:
Quoted in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, II:220.

256
“I feel like a sponge”:
EMF to BB, Oct. 8, 1945, KCC; quoted ibid., II:260.

256
“I look back on myself”:
EMF, Indian Diary, KCC.

256
“I returned to more worry and sadness”:
EMF to CI, April 1, 1946, Huntington.

257
“the year I was driven out”:
Gardner, ed.,
Commonplace Book
, 169.

257
“I see myself as a historic figure”:
EMF to WP, July 3, 1946, Durham.

257
“My mother’s death”:
EMF to CI, April 1, 1946, Huntington.