A Knight of Honor (15 page)

She tore her gaze from the ale to face him.
 
“Doesn’t your code say anything about talking with your mouth full?” she quipped.

Slane felt a flush of embarrassment rise to his cheeks and didn’t like it one bit.
 
He had never felt embarrassed in his life.
 
He covered his mouth with his hand and looked away from her, finishing his bite of food.
 
Damn her for making me feel like a fool.
 
And damn me for caring what she thinks.

“I’m thinking about my options,” she finally offered after a long moment of silence.

Slane glanced up at her, lowering the leg of lamb to his plate in surprise.
 
“I thought that was settled.
 
I thought you were coming with me to Castle Donovan.”

“I said I’d see.”

Slane thought of letting her go and traveling back to Castle Donovan alone.
 
Her mere presence was becoming unsettling.
 
But he thought of another vow he had made.
 
One to his brother.
 
A vow that his honor would not let him break.
 
“There are other people looking for you.
 
Even if you left me, you might still end up at the castle.”

“And I might not.”

“Are you prepared to live your life like that?
 
Constantly looking over your shoulder?”

“I have for eight years.”

“It should be time you didn’t have to,” Slane said.
 
“Face your past and put an end to it.”

“That’s easy for you to say, Slane,” she retorted.
 
“You don’t have to do it.”

Slane snorted.
 
“I did,” he murmured.
 
“Once.”
 
He felt her eyes on him, felt a curiosity in her gaze.

“When you defied your father?
 
When you became a knight?”

She was looking down into her mug of ale and it gave Slane an unwanted, but irresistible, chance to study her features.
 
Her long, long lashes brushed her soft cheek as she glanced at her drink.
 
Her full, captivating lips were wet with the shining residue of ale.
 
God’s blood!
 
There was no denying the beauty in her features.
 
Had she been dressed in a gown of rich velvet and cradled roses in her arms instead of donning leather armor and strapping a sword to her waist, every man in England would be vying for her attention, for her hand in marriage.
 
His gaze roamed to her lovely hair, hair as dark as a midnight sky, to the soft, smooth sleekness of her neck, her sun-kissed skin so creamy, so flawless.
 
He looked away suddenly, realizing with an uncomfortable start that he could watch her do nothing all day and still be mesmerized.
 
What had they been talking about?
 
Oh, yes.
 
His father.
 
“Yes, it was quite a scandal then,” Slane said.
 
“Father wanted me to be a priest, a servant of the church.
 
He already had a knight in my brother Richard.”
 
He laughed somewhat bitterly, shifting his legs.
 
“Can you see me as a priest?”

“No,” Taylor answered honestly.

Slane was struck by what might very well be the first honest answer she had given him.
 
“Neither could I,” he admitted.
 
“So I snuck off to my uncle’s castle.
 
He secretly trained me and sponsored me.”

“Your father must have been furious.”

“Oh, he was more than furious.
 
Not only did he refuse to speak to my uncle again, but he banned me from my home and threatened to disown me.”

“You would have been scorned by every knight in the realm, just a wandering warrior without a home,” Taylor said tonelessly.

“With no honor.”
 
Slane’s eyes narrowed slightly.
 
“But Richard convinced Father to change his mind.
 
He told Father he would leave the castle if I wasn’t allowed to return home with my honor intact.
 
Father needed an heir, someone responsible, like Richard.
 
So he agreed.” He chuckled darkly as bitterness crept into his voice.
 
“But I didn’t return then.
 
I stayed away from Castle Donovan for years, attending tournaments, fighting wars.”

“Why didn’t you go home?” Taylor wondered.

It was Slane’s turn to look into his mug of ale.
 
“I did,” he replied.
 
He swirled the liquid around and finally took a long drink.
 
“Just over a year ago.
 
I was ready to make amends, to face my future with a clean start.
 
But Father died shortly before I returned.”

“I’m sorry,” Taylor whispered.

Slane shrugged, but he could feel the tension lining his shoulders.
 
“Richard was lord of Castle Donovan.”
 
Slane’s eyes narrowed.
 
It was true Richard had saved his honor, and now held it over his head ever since.

Taylor smiled, shaking her head.
 
“That’s not the story I heard.”

Slane’s wide-eyed gaze swung to her.
 
“It’s not?”
 
He saw a strange satisfaction in her eyes, a glow of mischief that gleamed from them tauntingly.

“I heard you left the castle to seek your own destiny.
 
You traveled through many towns looking for a way to prove your valor.
 
Finally, you came upon a town besieged by a dragon.
 
You slew him quite completely and became a hero to that town.
 
And in subsequent towns you wrestled a giant, slew an evil wizard, rescued a maiden, perhaps a princess, from being kidnapped.
 
One story even had you finding the Holy Grail.”

He felt the laughter churning in his throat.

“Very impressive work for someone who just attended tournaments and fought in some little wars, don’t you think?” she commented.

“And what about you?” Slane taunted.
 
“Slain any dragons yourself?”

She shook her head, her lips curling up in amusement.
 
“Only the human kind,” she answered.
 
“You know very well that I don’t do heroic things.”

“Then tell me what you did after you left the castle.
 
Where did you go?
 
What did you do?”

Slane watched her look change from one of mild mirth to painful reminiscing.
 
“Jared...” she said, then immediately stopped.
 
The mere mention of his name seemed to bring a tightness to her throat.
 
She closed her eyes for a moment and Slane could see her fighting back the sadness threatening to reach all the way to those eyes.
 
She looked at Slane and continued.
 
“Jared didn’t know what to do with me.
 
I’m not really sure why he stayed with me at all, but I’m glad he did.
 
I was horrible at first.
 
Headstrong, willful, defiant.
 
I had no respect for authority.”

Slane chuckled.
 
“And what’s changed?”

Taylor cast him a startled look, then grinned.
 
She continued as if he hadn’t interrupted.
 
“Finally, we ran into an old friend of Jared’s.
 
He lived out of an old gypsy wagon in Grey’s Woods.
 
That was home for a while.
 
Jared taught me there.
 
And Alexander...
 
Well, let’s just say that I was young then.
 
And very impressionable.
 
I became totally enamored of Alexander.”

Slane felt a stiffness creeping across his shoulders.
 
His hand tightened convulsively around his mug.
 
“And this Alexander… did he return your affection?”

The moment of silence stretched and Slane finally lifted his gaze to Taylor’s.
 
She was staring at him with a strange look on her face.
 
“I don’t see where that’s any of your concern.”

Slane relented with a nod.
 
He didn’t like the feeling of anxiety racing through his body.
 
He chose to end the conversation about her past then.
 
There were things he shouldn’t know about.
 
There were things he shouldn’t even want to know about.

“If you’ll excuse me,” Taylor said as she rose to her feet.
 
“I’m tired.
 
I’m very tired.”

Slane stood and nodded to her, bidding her good night.
 
He watched her move up the stairs toward her room; then he lifted his mug to his lips, drinking deeply.
 
It seemed she was affecting him far more than he cared to think about.
 
That would have to change.

***

Taylor lay awake on her bed of straw, thinking about what Slane had said to her earlier that evening.
 
“Face your past and put an end to it,”
he had said.
 
“Are you prepared to live your life like that?
 
Constantly looking over your shoulder?”
 
Yes, she had done it for eight years, but Jared had been with her those eight years.
 
Watching out for her, caring for her.
 
Could she do it alone?

Maybe it was the fatigue of eight years of traveling finally catching up to her, the scrounging for work, the struggle for every meal.
 
Maybe it was the fact that she was finally accepting the reality of Jared’s death -- the horrible reality that Jared would never fight at her side again, would never share another secret smile or tender embrace.
 
She missed him terribly.
 
Maybe she was simply tired and not thinking straight.
 
All she knew for certain was that she felt a new resolve burning in her blood on this night.
 
And she knew the burning could only be extinguished by one thing.

Taylor descended the stairs of the inn late that night.
 
She moved quietly to the innkeeper and held out a small, rolled piece of parchment.
 
He grasped it and looked at it for a long moment before shifting his gaze back to Taylor.

“Give it to Corydon,” she instructed.
 
“Tell him it’s from Taylor Sullivan.”

A
fter a fitful night filled with dark dreams of Jared and black-robed men glaring at her from the shadows of her mind, Taylor woke to a pleasantly sunny day.
 
Though they did not wipe her dreams away entirely, the warm rays of the sun did help to diminish the unpleasant lingerings of her night’s unrest.

After quickly dressing, Taylor descended the stairs with Slane to break their fast.
 
As she stepped into the large main room of the inn, she instinctively scanned the area.
 
About half of the tables were occupied by farmers or warriors.
 
None of the warriors bore crests.
 
Taylor saw Slane’s shoulders relax as he turned to a man carrying a tray filled with mugs of ale.

Taylor stepped deeper into the room, taking a table near the rear of the inn.
 
As she slid into the seat, her gaze again swept the room, taking further stock of the occupants.
 
A tired, overworked farmer lifted a mug of ale to his lips, the dark circles under his eyes clearly telling the tale of a man who hadn’t seen much sleep lately.
 
Taylor wondered if her eyes looked as dark and weary.
 
Her stare moved past the farmer to a table where several warriors sat, all of them engaged in earnest conversation.
 
One of the men glanced up at Taylor, but his gaze lingered no more than a second before he turned his attention back to his fellows.