Armadale (19 page)

At those last words he became suddenly silent, as if, for once, his well-guarded tongue had betrayed him. Mr Brock seized the opportunity, and bluntly asked him what the nature of the anxiety might be. Did it relate to money? No – it related to a Letter which had been waiting for him for many years. Had he received the letter? Not yet; it had been left under charge of one of the partners in the firm which had managed the business of his inheritance for him; the partner had been absent from England; and the letter, locked up among his own private papers, could not be got at till he returned. He was expected back towards the latter part of that present May, and if Midwinter could be sure where the cruise would take them to at the close of the month, he thought he
would write and have the letter forwarded. Had he any family reasons to be anxious about it? None that he knew of; he was curious to see what had been waiting for him for many years, and that was all. So he answered the rector's questions, with his tawny face turned away over the low bulwark of the yacht, and his fishing-line dragging in his supple brown hands.

Favoured by wind and weather, the little vessel had done wonders on her trial-trip. Before the period fixed for the duration of the cruise had half expired, the yacht was as high up on the Welsh coast as Holyhead; and Allan, eager for adventure in unknown regions, had declared boldly for an extension of the voyage northwards to the Isle of Man. Having ascertained from reliable authority, that the weather really promised well for a cruise in that quarter, and that, in the event of any unforeseen necessity for return, the railway was accessible by the steamer from Douglas to Liverpool, Mr Brock agreed to his pupil's proposal. By that night's post he wrote to Allan's lawyers and to his own rectory, indicating Douglas in the Isle of Man as the next address to which letters might be forwarded. At the post-office, he met Midwinter, who had just dropped a letter into the box. Remembering what he had said on board the yacht, Mr Brock concluded that they had both taken the same precaution, and had ordered their correspondence to be forwarded to the same place.

Late the next day, they set sail for the Isle of Man. For a few hours all went well; but sunset brought with it the signs of a coming change. With the darkness, the wind rose to a gale; and the question whether Allan and his journeymen had, or had not, built a stout sea-boat was seriously tested for the first time. All that night, after trying vainly to bear up for Holyhead, the little vessel kept the sea, and stood her trial bravely. The next morning, the Isle of Man
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was in view, and the yacht was safe at Castletown. A survey by daylight of hull and rigging showed that all the damage done might be set right again in a week's time. The cruising party had accordingly remained at Castletown; Allan being occupied in superintending the repairs, Mr Brock in exploring the neighbourhood, and Midwinter in making daily pilgrimages on foot, to Douglas and back, to inquire for letters.
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The first of the cruising party who received a letter was Allan. ‘More worries from those everlasting lawyers,' was all he said, when he had read the letter, and had crumpled it up in his pocket. The rector's turn came next, before the week's sojourn at Castletown had expired. On the fifth day, he found a letter from Somersetshire waiting for him at the hotel. It had been brought there by Midwinter, and it contained news
which entirely overthrew all Mr Brock's holiday plans. The clergyman who had undertaken to do duty for him in his absence had been unexpectedly summoned home again; and Mr Brock had no choice (the day of the week being Friday) but to cross the next morning from Douglas to Liverpool, and get back by railway on Saturday night, in time for Sunday's service.

Having read his letter, and resigned himself to his altered circumstances as patiently as he might, the rector passed next to a question that pressed for serious consideration in its turn. Burdened with his heavy responsibility towards Allan, and conscious of his own undiminished distrust of Allan's new friend, how was he to act in the emergency that now beset him, towards the two young men who had been his companions on the cruise?

Mr Brock had first asked himself that awkward question on the Friday afternoon; and he was still trying, vainly, to answer it, alone in his own room, at one o'clock on the Saturday morning. It was then only the end of May, and the residence of the ladies at Thorpe-Ambrose (unless they chose to shorten it of their own accord) would not expire till the middle of June. Even if the repairs of the yacht had been completed (which was not the case), there was no possible pretence for hurrying Allan back to Somersetshire. But one other alternative remained – to leave him where he was. In other words, to leave him, at the turning point of his life, under the sole influence of a man whom he had first met with as a castaway at a village inn, and who was still, to all practical purposes, a total stranger to him.

In despair of obtaining any better means of enlightenment to guide his decision, Mr Brock reverted to the impression which Midwinter had produced on his own mind in the familiarity of the cruise.

Young as he was, the ex-usher had evidently lived a wild and varied life. He had seen and observed more than most men of twice his age; his talk showed a strange mixture of sense and absurdity – of vehement earnestness at one time, and fantastic humour at another. He could speak of books like a man who had really enjoyed them; he could take his turn at the helm like a sailor who knew his duty; he could sing, and tell stories, and cook, and climb the rigging, and lay the cloth for dinner, with an odd satirical delight in the exhibition of his own dexterity. The display of these, and other qualities like them, as his spirits rose with the cruise, had revealed the secret of his attraction for Allan plainly enough. But had all disclosures rested there? Had the man let no chance light on his character in the rector's presence? Very little; and that little did not set him forth in a morally alluring aspect. His
way in the world had lain evidently in doubtful places; familiarity with the small villainies of vagabonds peeped out of him now and then; words occasionally slipped off his tongue with an unpleasantly strong flavour about them; and, more significant still, he habitually slept the light suspicious sleep of a man who has been accustomed to close his eyes in doubt of the company under the same roof with him. Down to the very latest moment of the rector's experience of him – down to that present Friday night – his conduct had been persistently secret and unaccountable to the very last. After bringing Mr Brock's letter to the hotel, he had mysteriously disappeared from the house without leaving any message for his companions, and without letting anybody see whether he had, or had not, received a letter himself. At nightfall, he had come back stealthily in the darkness – had been caught on the stairs by Allan, eager to tell him of the change in the rector's plans – had listened to the news without a word of remark – and had ended by sulkily locking himself into his own room. What was there in his favour to set against such revelations of his character as these – against his wandering eyes, his obstinate reserve with the rector, his ominous silence on the subject of family and friends? Little or nothing: the sum of all his merits began and ended with his gratitude to Allan.

Mr Brock left his seat on the side of the bed, trimmed his candle, and, still lost in his own thoughts, looked out absently at the night. The change of place brought no new ideas with it. His retrospect over his own past life had amply satisfied him that his present sense of responsibility rested on no merely fanciful grounds; and having brought him to that point, had left him there, standing at the window, and seeing nothing but the total darkness in his own mind faithfully reflected by the total darkness of the night.

‘If I only had a friend to apply to!' thought the rector. ‘If I could only find some one to help me in this miserable place!'

At the moment when the aspiration crossed his mind, it was suddenly answered by a low knock at the door; and a voice said softly in the passage outside, ‘Let me come in.'

After an instant's pause to steady his nerves, Mr Brock opened the door, and found himself, at one o'clock in the morning, standing face to face on the threshold of his own bedroom with Ozias Midwinter.

‘Are you ill?' asked the rector, as soon as his astonishment would allow him to speak.

‘I have come here to make a clean breast of it!' was the strange answer. ‘Will you let me in?'

With those words he walked into the room – his eyes on the ground, his lips ashy pale, and his hand holding something hidden behind him.

‘I saw the light under your door,' he went on, without looking up, and without moving his hand; ‘and I know the trouble on your mind which is keeping you from your rest. You are going away to-morrow morning, and you don't like leaving Mr Armadale alone with a stranger like me.'

Startled as he was, Mr Brock saw the serious necessity of being plain with a man, who had come at that time, and had said those words to him.

‘You have guessed right,' he answered. ‘I stand in the place of a father to Allan Armadale, and I am naturally unwilling to leave him, at his age, with a man whom I don't know.'

Ozias Midwinter took a step forward to the table. His wandering eyes rested on the rector's New Testament, which was one of the objects lying on it.

‘You have read that Book, in the years of a long life, to many congregations,' he said. ‘Has it taught you mercy to your miserable fellow-creatures?'

Without waiting to be answered, he looked Mr Brock in the face for the first time, and brought his hidden hand slowly into view.

‘Read that,' he said; ‘and, for Christ's sake, pity me when you know who I am.'

He laid a letter of many pages on the table. It was the letter that Mr Neal had posted at Wildbad nineteen years since.

The first cool breathings of the coming dawn fluttered through the open window as Mr Brock read the closing lines of the Confession. He put it from him in silence, without looking up. The first shock of discovery had struck his mind, and had passed away again. At his age, and with his habits of thought, his grasp was not strong enough to hold the whole revelation that had fallen on him. All his heart, when he closed the manuscript, was with the memory of the woman who had been the beloved friend of his later and happier life; all his thoughts were busy
with the miserable secret of her treason to her own father which the letter had disclosed.

He was startled out of the narrow limits of his own little grief by the vibration of the table at which he sat, under a hand that was laid on it heavily. The instinct of reluctance was strong in him; but he conquered it, and looked up. There, silently confronting him in the mixed light of the yellow candle-flame and the faint grey dawn, stood the castaway of the village inn – the inheritor of the fatal Armadale name.

Mr Brock shuddered as the terror of the present time, and the darker terror yet of the future that might be coming, rushed back on him at the sight of the man's face. The man saw it, and spoke first.

‘Is my father's crime looking at you out of
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eyes?' he asked. ‘Has the ghost of the drowned man followed me into the room?'

The suffering and the passion that he was forcing back, shook the hand that he still kept on the table, and stifled the voice in which he spoke until it sank to a whisper.

‘I have no wish to treat you otherwise than justly and kindly,' answered Mr Brock. ‘Do me justice on my side, and believe that I am incapable of cruelly holding you responsible for your father's crime.'

The reply seemed to compose him. He bowed his head in silence, and took up the confession from the table.

‘Have you read this through?' he asked quietly.

‘Every word of it, from first to last.'

‘Have I dealt openly with you so far? Has Ozias Midwinter—'

‘Do you still call yourself by that name' interrupted Mr Brock, ‘now your true name is known to me?'

‘Since I have read my father's confession' was the answer, ‘I like my ugly alias better than ever. Allow me to repeat the question which I was about to put to you a minute since – Has Ozias Midwinter done his best, thus far, to enlighten Mr Brock?'

The rector evaded a direct reply. ‘Few men in your position' he said, ‘would have had the courage to show me that letter.'

‘Don't be too sure, sir, of the vagabond you picked up at the inn till you know a little more of him than you know now. You have got the secret of my birth, but you are not in possession yet of the story of my life. You ought to know it, and you shall know it, before you leave me alone with Mr Armadale. Will you wait, and rest a little while? or shall I tell it you now?'

‘Now' said Mr Brock, still as far away as ever from knowing the real character of the man before him.

Everything Ozias Midwinter said, everything Ozias Midwinter did,
was against him. He had spoken with a sardonic indifference, almost with an insolence of tone, which would have repelled the sympathies of any man who heard him. And now, instead of placing himself at the table, and addressing his story directly to the rector, he withdrew silently and ungraciously to the window-seat. There he sat – his face averted; his hands mechanically turning the leaves of his father's letter till he came to the last. With his eyes fixed on the closing lines of the manuscript, and with a strange mixture of recklessness and sadness in his voice, he began his promised narrative in these words:

‘The first thing you know of me' he said, ‘is what my father's confession has told you already. He mentions here that I was a child, asleep on his breast, when he spoke his last words in this world, and when a stranger's hand wrote them down for him at his death-bed. That stranger's name, as you may have noticed, is signed on the cover – “Alexander Neal, Writer to the Signet, Edinburgh.” The first recollection I have is of Alexander Neal beating me with a horsewhip (I daresay I deserved it), in the character of my stepfather.'