Battleship Destroyer (60 page)

"Ya. I should have realized how narrow the sensor beam
was focused and suggested tipping the formation to look around before making such a stupid attack suggestion." He looked down at the Ensign and realized that she was not just steadying herself as they walked and not hanging on either, but simply had her hand around his lower arm as her shoulder lightly brushed his. He decided he liked it but it was very confusing.

"Well you did not have much time to think. The enemy had just appeared on the screen." She smiled over at him. "Next time take a few seconds and think. You are good at that when you want to be. Just don’t get into a hurry."

"Huuuaa?"

"That is good but without a questioning tone. Look up or away like you are thinking and make some
non-committal sound like that. If they think you are in deep thought, people will usually wait for you to speak. Give you plenty of time to think, just remember the Captain was just asking for your opinion. Trying to get all the facts and possibilities. It is her responsibility to make the decisions and give the final orders."

"Ok, that makes sense." They walked on to the mess without saying another word as Jack just enjoyed having her next to him. She
finally took her hand off his arm as they entered the mess. Everyone was talking about the enemy ships and Jacks promotion and exchanging The Game names. What became depressing to Jack real quickly was that everyone was talking about how great he was but no one noticed him even when he stood next to them in the line and then sat next to others. No one cared about who he was. Like he was invisible.  "Ok? Are people so wrapped up in their own lives that they don’t even notice most other people or care?"

"Yes Jack. That is how normal people behave. They don't give a shit about most anyone else but themselves. Your family was strange but typical with big families in position of power. They expect everyone
especially family to be perfect and see and notice all their faults. That was never the real world Jack. Even if you walked through this mess naked most would not even look at you and the ones that did would just go back to eating and not care. That is unless you have something everyone wants or thinks they want. Like me, I would get half the men following me around drooling over themselves with half of them trying to stop me so they could talk me into going to bed with them." The Ensign took a couple of bites and then looked up into Jacks eyes and with tight lips she started to speak so low Jack had to bend over to hear her as tears formed in her eyes.  "No, I got rapped when I was 10 because of these and I hate them and anyone who looks at them. Something you never have to worry about."

"Ok. So that is why you always wrapped them down flat. God that must have hurt all the time." Jack found himself looking at her breasts jutting out across the table and jerked his eyes up to hers. "Ah. So why aren't you wrapping them anymore?"

"Well Doctors orders and I feel safe around you and.  And I like it when you look at my breasts." She picked up a big fork full of food, raising it toward her mouth but hit the tip of her breast knocking the food off her fork and down the front of her blouse. "Ahh, still getting used to them hanging out there." She said embarrassed then grabbed another fork full and carefully raised it out and around her breasts with each bight most of the time after that. "This is good stuff." She said between hurried bites. Finally she slowed down as Jack stared open mouthed at her. "You were the only one when I was growing up that always talked to me and not my rapidly developing boobs in class and when we studied with your grandfather and even together. You never made a pass at me once or came up with some stupid excuse to fondle or squeeze my breasts or paw at me or, or. No. you were always the perfect fracking gentleman and you haven't fracking changed." She threw her napkin down onto her half-finished plate and stomped strait arms locked down to her sides off the mess deck. Jack still starring open mouthed at her receding back without noticing half the men in the mess starring at her or her boobs bouncing up and down with every stomp.

"Ten
? That was when she stopped coming to class and the tutoring sessions with Pop and talking to me and she turned so nasty to everyone and my brother told me that it was my fault that she hated me and everyone else." Jack got up and slowly followed her, forgetting all about his half full plate on the table. Finding a trail of stunned guys down the passageway as he walked.

One of them was just standing back up as Jack approached. Turned to Jack and said. "All I did was say hi to her I swear it. Even if her boob was hanging half out of her blouse." Jack recognized him as one of the ass holes that liked to
make dirty comments about her behind her back only to fain innocence if she turned around.

Jack hit him up alongside the head knocking him to the deck
again. "No more shit boob comments ass hole or you won't have to worry about a fracking stun gun." 

Stopping outside his cabin's hatch
, he started to knock and stopped with his hand inches away from the hatch. Finally he unlocked it and went in. The Ensign was laying on her bunk faced away from him as he closed the hatch. Her blouse, pants and bra were on the deck. Her thin panties did little to hide her butt.

Licking his lips. "I am sorry for whatever I did to you to make you hate me
and everyone else so much 8 no 9 years ago."

She turned her head to look over her shoulder at him
disgustedly. "You didn't do shit to make me hate anyone except telling your brother I wanted him to screw me and you wanted to watch on video, which I will always hate you for." Then turned back over away from him. "No. That is the problem, YOU don't do shit. Ever."

"
Hell I do plenty of shit! I have had girlfriends." His eyes suddenly opened wide. "What! I never told my brother to screw you or do anything to you period. Why would I? Hell I can't tell my brother to do shit. That is so stupid it does not make any sense. Besides why would I want to watch him screw you when I had my own girlfriends?"

"
Ya you had girlfriends when they dragged you around by your dick because you were the Captains son. Until they thought they could get your brother who was always ready. Especially if they were paying attention to you. You could not even talk to me years later no matter how many times I tried aboard the Turner Joy."

"Why should I talk to
you? You hated me remember… You slapped, or screamed or snarled at me every time I got near you, let alone tried to talk to you for over a good year back then" A sick baffled look came over Jack. "Did my brother really, really? Do. Do that to you?"

"
I do hate you more every time I even think of you telling him to screw me. Yes he raped me. Godstar you are stupid. Why years later would I talk to you in the passageways and at mess and at games if I truly hated you? Not to mention when I managed to get us trapped in the fracking water tank with me wearing a wet tee-shirt and shorts half way up my ass and almost down to my pussy. And you managed to fracking figure how to get us out without you saying more than two words to me."

"Oh I thought it was an accident and
... Hell we were 15 by then. You practically took my head off every time you saw me for 3 years before that. And.  How come when I did get us out of that tank, all you did was stomp away when I did start talking to you. Talking about a fracking ingrate for rescuing you. I thought I would at least get a thanks from you. And. And talk to me and explain.  I just thought you were being polite in public all the other times after that. Hell. You still always looked like you hated me and wanted me dead after only a few seconds or minutes."

"You can't be that stupid Jack.
Well I was a little conflicted. I did hate you and wanted you dead but I wanted to tell you that so you could tell me your brother lied to me so I did not have to hate you any longer." Turning back over to look at him tears dripping down her cheeks. "Then in time all I had left was the hate. More hate for you than for your brother because I could not believe you told him to rape me so you could watch."

Jack stood there starring at the back of her head. "I… I was
...  I was...  I was afraid of saying the wrong thing and making you hate me even more. I... I never told him to rape you for Fracking sake." 

The Ensign
sat up looking at Jack. "Now that was the first thing you have said that makes sense. Finally. Why the hell did it take 9 fricking years to say it?" She scooted to the edge of the bed. Her bare boobs hanging out in front of her. Her nipples turning bright red throbbing, straining, growing hard.

Jack continued looking at the deck. "I could not stand the thought of you hatting me anymore than you already did
, if I said anything wrong."

The Ensign smiled. "Jack. I have never
really hated you, though I blamed you for not rescuing me even after I found out that your brother had locked you down in engine room to work on the engines during it. Fact is I have been in love with you since I was 3 I think. I don't know for sure when." She looked into Jacks eyes as he looked up at hers. "All I know for sure is that when I was rapped I hated every male on that ship but my family and you. I just could not be around any of your family members is all. They reminded me of what happened. I am sorry if you thought that meant you even though I acted like it and I guess a part of me did."

"How could I think
otherwise? You told my brother that you hated me for something I did. I have been killing myself since trying to figure out what I did to make you hate me." He started to step closer to her but stopped and stepped back staring at the deck.

The Ensign pushed herself off the edge of the bunk and stepped to Jack taking ahold of his arms
brushing her tits into his chest ever so slightly. "No! You did not rape me. I did not tell your brother I hated you. I told your brother that I hated him and that you were the only guy for me and if I ever had the chance, I would kill him. No. You did not rape me Jack. You have never hurt me. Pissed me off a hell of a lot but never hurt me physically. And for that along with everything else, I will always love you. Though it took getting rapped and a few years of therapy and a Doctorate in Psychology to figure that out"

She
stared at Jack as he started to lean into her with desire but suddenly he backed off with uncertain apprehension flashing into fear in his eyes. "Oh hell." She plastered her lips onto Jacks. Pushing her breasts into him as hard as she could trying to force the stupidity from him as she wrapped her arms around him and realized that was impossible after so many years, but enjoying the attempt anyway.

It took Jack a full minute for his body to
finally win over his fear before he let himself melt into her letting his hands slide under her stretch sports panties lifting her up onto him and her hands clumsily started undressing him.

She spent
several hours trying to squeeze all the stupid fears out of him as he filled her hungry empty sole and again she knew it would take years and hard constant work she was looking forward to.

The next morning
reveille sounded waking the Ensign with Jack's head using one of her breasts for a pillow with his arms around her holding on for dear life. She had one leg hanging over his hip with something hard sticking into the leg.

Jack started stretching as he yawned turning his head he got a mouth full and started sucking making her moan as she closed her eyes. Not believing how sensitive
it was to his tongue. His hand started wondering over her butt making her forget reveille and then his hand dropped around and between her legs and flame started raging out across her body. Her mind flashed to the fact that he had tried to get out of her bed during the night to return to his bunk and finally got out of him the fact that his brother had said slut's never want you in their bed in the morning no matter what you make them say. Making her latch onto him to prove she wanted him there. Ignoring the name he had accidentally called her quoting a stupid comment of his brother. Knowing that he had not meant it as it sounded. She decided that she definitely was never going to wake up in bed ever again without him. Then she promptly forgot everything for another half hour as he went out of his way to make sure she was pleasured several times.

Jack came back from
his shower and started dressing without saying anything. Steeling glances at her every few seconds or starring when he thought she was not looking. His stomach growled and he looked down embarrassed. "I am starving, sorry."

"You should be. You didn't finish dinner last night." She looked at him as he sat on his bunk fully dressed trying his best not to look at her. Taking a deep breath she knelt down in front of him taking his hands in her. "Look at me Jack." He looked up at her as she smiled. "I
meant what I said last night. I love you and I like it when you look at me. Hell I love it when you stare at me. Every inch of me."

His stomach rumbled
, seeming to echo off the bulkhead. Pulling back Jack smiled. "Ok I am starving to death I guess I missed dinner last night too. Can we go to breakfast please? I know this is going to sound stupid but I still can't believe it. It is still too much like a dream."

"No
, it is not a dream. It all is yours and will be there anytime you want it and sometimes when you don't." She kissed him on the lips for several seconds as he grabbed a hand full of boob and reached down between her legs and his eyes became big as he pulled his mouth away.