Berlin Wolf (8 page)

‘Careful! Talk of that sort is treason, and you don't know who is listening.' In the dark Peter could just make out the face of a pretty young woman, looking in his direction.

The newsreel switched to show Propaganda and Enlightenment Minister, Goebbels, delivering an impassioned speech to row upon row of uniformed men and women. The camera panned across their faces as they responded feverishly to his rousing words. To one side of Goebbels sat Adolf Hitler, head bobbing in approval. In another scene, Grand Admiral Dönitz was addressing a large gathering of newly qualified U-boat mariners. Reich's Marshall Göring, head of the Luftwaffe, dressed in his famous white uniform with long white coat, white baton and iron cross at his neck, visited a town in the East which remained ‘untouched by the war'. A peasant man and woman smiling to the camera, greeted him warmly and a young peasant girl presented him with a bouquet.

As Peter had anticipated, nothing in the newsreels had provided him with any useful information. It was he suspected, the usual Nazi propaganda, carefully orchestrated, with Goebbels as conductor. Just as he was beginning to regret the great risk he had taken another headline appeared. He had not paid much attention until the words ‘evil intention of Western democracy' were accompanied by footage of a grey-haired man in a large office, posing in front of an American flag. This was followed by scenes of planes crashing into warships and then a tribute ‘to our allies in Japan'.

‘America is in the war!' Peter wanted to scream it out. In the months since he had gone into hiding, both America and Japan had joined the war. ‘Surely with America involved the fighting would soon be over?' he thought.

Almost unable to conceal his joy, he settled back to watch the main feature. He was to be sorely disappointed. It was a propaganda film called ‘
Jud Süss
' or
‘Sweet Jew'.
He had heard of the film but never been allowed to see it. The prologue declared that it was ‘based on actual historical events'. At this point Peter, who knew the truth about the film, was tempted to leave in protest. He dare not attract attention. Set in 1733, the film depicted how the Duke of Württemberg was deceived by a conniving Jew, who cleverly lent him money, making more and more outrageous demands. The Jew compounded his crime in that he forced his attentions on an Aryan woman. The brave German citizens had just begun a revolt against the evil Jew, when to Peter's surprise and some relief, the film stopped abruptly and the lights came on.

An SS officer, about forty years old, stood in front of the screen on the raised stage. He was accompanied by Gestapo officers, two of them. Peter sank back into his seat contemplating his escape. Looking around, he could not see any other Gestapo officers. His fear that this was a random search for undesirables, was momentarily dispelled.

One of the Gestapo men held out a piece of paper and began to read solemnly:

‘It is with great regret that Reichs Minister Goebbels informs the people of the Greater German Reich, that today the 27
^th
May 1942 the Reich has suffered an attack on one of its founders and greatest heroes. Reinhard Heydrich, Head of SS Intelligence was severely wounded in a cowardly act in Czechoslovakia. It is feared he will not survive. The perpetrator has already been dealt with and his collaborators are being met with swift and bloody retribution. The Reich's Minister will address the German people this evening at eight o'clock. As a mark of respect the cinema will now close. Heil Hitler!'

In unison, all except Peter responded with ‘Heil Hitler'. Remembering himself he feigned a Hitler salute. Some in the audience were openly weeping, others were debating with each other as to what the ‘bloody retribution' might be. Unsure as to whether this news was a good or bad thing, Peter stood up and greeting the usherette as he went, speedily made his way from the cinema.

Spring ran into summer and life for Wolfi and Peter mirrored in many ways the old life they had once known. Only, at the end of a long day fishing or swimming or walking in the woods, they did not return to their comfortable home with the certainty of something hot and delicious and the warmth of family life. Apart from that, compared to the winter, their day to day existence was filled with more little moments of joy and triumph. It had been some months since Peter had felt the need to don his uniform and mix with the rest of civilisation.

As the different varieties of wild fruits appeared he would gather them and either eat some there and then, or dry them, or mash them into a type of jam. He wished so much that he had some real syrup or even alcohol to help preserve the fruit. The best he could manage was boiled rosehip which produced an acceptable syrup, although not as effective as the real thing. From his experience of the previous winter he knew how much a taste of the summer months would help to lift his spirits. He was always careful not to pick anything growing near to the large networks of paths as often there were other starving Berliners who were supplementing their diet in the same fashion.

He was now so familiar with a large area of the woods that he knew most of the secluded copses and clearings where few others went. Though he was scarcely recognisable as the young boy who had narrowly avoided drowning almost a year ago, he did not wish to gamble upon being spotted by a former neighbour or school friend who might denounce him. He was still only a short distance from his old home and, as he constantly had to remind himself, this was the main area of recreation for the whole of Berlin. In spite of the longing to visit his home, he managed to resist. One of the most productive areas for wild fruit was the villa at Wannsee where he had spied into the garden. Blackberries and loganberries as well as wild cherries all grew near the walls that surrounded the huge mansion. He guessed that the inhabitants were so immune from the ravages of the war that they did not need to seek the riches on their doorstep. The building was so imposing, with a regular stream of military and official vehicles, no-one else dared to venture near its perimeter.

Peter was as wary as the next Berliner. He simply could not ignore what nature had to offer. He had devised a route to approach the villa which avoided the front gates completely. As far as he could tell there was no patrol around the outside. When he did cross the path of anyone else he simply kept walking as if there was nothing more natural in the world than a fifteen-year-old boy walking his dog. Sometimes it seemed that those he encountered were as keen to avoid eye contact as he was and he wondered whether they too were illegal. Often he sensed repulsion at the sight of his uniform, repulsion that might one day spell their downfall. The most important lesson he had learnt in his months alone was that an arrogant demeanour and an air of confidence would often deflect suspicion.

Thus it was that the summer passed by. He avoided travelling far on the weekends and public holidays. Most movements were restricted to early morning or late evening when the woods were largely deserted. By these means they avoided unwanted attention. By the time autumn approached and the trees began to shed their leaves and colour, Peter and his canine companion had built up a healthy stock of provisions, well hidden in the depths of the forest.

* * *

One October night a strong wind began to howl eventually turning to a gale, with rain lashing his camp. Wolfi was unsettled as thunder claps bellowed from above and lightning streaked across the sky. Wolfi had grown more accustomed to the noise and flashes of the air raids, yet they still frightened him. He sensed a fear in Peter that Peter did not wish to confront: one day a plane might crash into their hiding place or a bomb land in their precious woods. These fears were not unfounded. When the aerial battles took place over the city many stricken pilots would try and avoid crashing in to the heavily populated urban areas. Their clearest option was to crash land on Wannsee or Muggelsee or another of the large lakes. This applied to German and enemy pilots alike, for regardless that one had come to bomb the population and the other to defend, neither desired to be personally responsible for civilian casualties by crashing into a house. The result of these noble sentiments was that many planes were seen to plummet into the waters of Wannsee and disappear.

On this particular night the weather was so poor that Peter knew that no planes would be in the air, but he could not convey this to Wolfi.

‘It's all right boy,' he whispered over and over, stroking Wolfi's head. The wind shook the trees above and around them and the rain fell in sheets to the floor of the forest, thankfully not into their den. With each clap of thunder and each bolt of lightning, Wolfi crept closer and closer to Peter, seeking reassurance from his friend.

At long last, after many hours of constant rain, the storm broke and they drifted into sleep. When they awoke it was a beautiful sunny day. They left the den and walked through the trees to the quietest spot on the side of the lake where they could bathe without fear of interference. As Peter approached the water's edge, Wolfi was already in the water, drinking and bathing at the same time. Peter bent over and, scooping some water in his hands, splashed his face, then rubbed the back of his neck and behind his ears. It had been many months since his meagre bar of soap had dwindled to nothing. He looked cautiously around and was about to undress further when, in the corner of his eye, he caught sight of a wooden object. It was to his left, protruding from some willow trees, on the bank of the lake. It was a varnished piece of wood. He waded through the shallow water, accompanied by Wolfi.

‘A boat! It's a boat!'Peter was ecstatic.

It was one of the small sailing dinghies about five metres in length and two metres wide with a single mast and sail near the centre and tiller at the back. Towards the middle was a small cabin, no more than a metre tall and a metre and a half deep, for sheltering from the elements. It had clearly broken free of its mooring in the middle of the night. There was no clue as to how far it had travelled. The mast was broken about a third of the way up from the deck of the boat. Peter jumped on board. Wolfi hesitated briefly, then sprang in the air, landing cat-like on the deck. Unfortunately Wolfi was not a cat and as a result his claws slipped on the wet deck and he lay spread-eagled on his belly. He let out a groan, more of embarrassment than pain. Peter laughed.

Having checked Wolfi was not injured, he began to examine his find. Apart from the broken mast the rest of the boat was undamaged.

He slid into the water from the bow and pulled the front of the boat. It did not budge.

‘Wolfi. Here boy!' he called out. Wolfi jumped into the water next to him, this time landing noisily without any mishap. He took the bowline in his hand and tied it to form a harness around Wolfi's back.

‘Mush! Mush!' Peter said. Wolfi looked back lovingly, remaining stationary. `Here Wolfi! Here!' he beckoned with his hand and whistled. This time Wolfi understood and began swimming towards him.

With the dog's added power they had soon heaved the boat into the water. Once in the water fully the boat was easy to manoeuvre. Peter unhitched Wolfi and, taking the bowline in both hands, dragged the boat along the shore for about 100 metres.

‘Look Wolfi, it floats!' The keel of the boat was undamaged and floated perfectly. As he held the front line in his hand he noted the name
Kaiser Wilhelm
written neatly on its side. This was a boat that had been loved and no doubt its owners would come looking for it.

After a search Peter located a spot where the shoreline was quite steep and sheltered from view by thick trees. The path around the lake veered back from the water's edge and was some 150 metres away. Below the trees the lake flowed into a culvert forming an inlet. By now he was waist deep in water with Wolfi swimming by his side. He guided the boat into the gap in the bank and moored it securely to a thick tree trunk, looping the rope around both the bow and the stern. From the boat's deck he checked that it was not visible from the lake and likewise not visible from the riverbank. Only someone swimming in this precise location or on a small rowing boat would discover his secret.

Peter waded back to the shore to the point where he had first entered the water. Various ideas as to how he might use the boat came into his head. First he would have to wait. He determined that he would allow a period of one week exactly to see if the boat had been discovered.

‘Breakfast time Wolfi.' Wolfi did not need a second invitation and trotted back to camp with Peter, who was more excited than he had been for a long time.

* * *

The week passed very slowly for Peter. He was tempted many times to go back and admire the
Kaiser Wilhelm
, but wisely resisted. He even avoided washing at his usual place for fear the temptation would prove too great.

Finally the day came that he had been waiting for. First thing in the morning they walked back to their usual bathing spot. Stripping to his underwear and hiding his clothes in some bushes, Peter and Wolfi entered the water. As they rounded the bend in the lake's edge, he spotted the varnished wooden sides. It was still there! He pulled himself out of the water onto the deck, then reached back into the water and hauled Wolfi up until he was safely on board. All the while Wolfi had a look of horrified indignity on his face.

Other than repairing the mast and removing the name from the side, there was little to do to make the boat seaworthy. Ideally he would have liked to change the boat's entire appearance, but it was impractical.

* * *

The following morning Peter and Wolfi arrived with a rucksack full of all the tools they might need. After a long day's work the boat was seaworthy again. The mast was splinted with the straightest branch Peter could find. The wood was stripped and smoothed. The old sail was replaced by the canvas tent which he did not use any more. He had even created proper eyelets to thread the rope through. Best of all he had scraped off the original name from the side of the boat and carved a new one:
Seawolf
. The
Kaiser Wilhelm
had a new name and a different colour sail.

‘Even the owner will not recognise it,' he said hopefully.

Content with the day's work they returned to their camp.

In calculating the many advantages that
Seawolf
would bring, Peter had overlooked one of the most important. They now had a hobby. Although safest to remain hidden in the trees, the middle of Wannsee was almost as good a hiding place as any. Most visitors to the lake would either bathe from the beach or wander around the edge. Some would take pleasure trips on the lake itself, though for the most part their activities were confined to the shore or close to it and Peter knew the routes the commercial pleasure boats used. It was not as a hiding place that Peter and Wolfi relished the
Seawolf
. For the first time in a year they were simply having fun. They spent many hours on the water, tacking this way then that, always steering away from other boats. He even taught Wolfi to move from one side to the other when he tacked to change direction. Wolfi never quite understood why he had to move so frequently, he was just pleased with the praise each time he did. The tension and fear that had been so prevalent in many waking moments seemed to leave Peter just as soon as he launched the boat.

From time to time there would be a period of brief panic as the infrequent patrol boat came alongside. On these occasions Peter would simply salute and continue sailing. Fortunately, so far, no-one had bothered to question him. He was to their eyes simply a blonde-haired Aryan boy enjoying the water with his faithful dog.

Whilst sailing he would sometimes trail a fishing line behind the boat. He had already proved a successful angler from the shores of the lake. The moving vessel enabled him to catch a broader variety of fish. By fishing in this way, he no longer needed to restrict his hours as casual encounters with others were less likely.

His favourite trips were those that had no purpose to them. He was simply a youth living his childhood as best he could. The claustrophobia of the camp was for them both, a thing of the past. It was even better when there was a bit of bad weather so that often he felt as if they had the whole lake to themselves. On these bad weather trips Wolfi would lie in the shelter of the small cabin, while Peter manned the tiller.

In the early days of his sailing he stayed closer to the shoreline. He had previously sailed just once with his father and uncle when he was quite young. Luckily the design of this boat was so simple that he soon mastered the basics. With the knowledge that he was not heading out to sea, he rapidly became a competent mariner.

* * *

One day in early November, when winter had not properly arrived, Peter and Wolfi set off on another trip. Beforehand Peter had completed his ‘housework' as he called it. He had cleaned off his cutlery and his pans and dishes. His many traps were set and his lines baited. Anything in his camp that would give away its location or purpose was hidden away. Now he was preparing for what he supposed may be one of his last sails that year, with bad weather approaching.

The winter of 1941 had been harsh yet bearable, unlike 1940. If those conditions arrived, life would be very tough. Winter 1940 had been the worst in Berlin for one hundred years. Lakes and canals had frozen, buses, trams and motorcars were stopped in their tracks. The city had come to a complete standstill, with coal and staples, such as potatoes in very short supply as transport routes had closed. In spite of the danger of frostbite, the authorities had decreed that domestic boilers were only to be lit at weekends, leading to a number of deaths. Some public buildings such as schools and hospitals had even been required to hand back some of their fuel.

‘Let's hope we don't have another winter like that,' Peter hoped.