Read Birrung the Secret Friend Online
Authors: Jackie French
Things were different after that, not just in our house either. For two and a half years it had been just us, the colonists who'd been on the first ships. We'd landed on a strange land where there were no other white people at all. We'd cut down the trees and built the huts and planted the gardens. We had survived together, even if
we didn't like each other much. You knew everyone back then â not their names, but the faces were a bit familiar. Every hut and garden was made by us, and even if the place wasn't as good as it could have been, well, it was all ours.
Now there were strangers everywhere â skinny, sort of twisted strangers, looking as though the light still hurt them after so many months of dark. Right scary, the lot of them. But still no one stole anything from Mr Johnson's gardens. The new convicts, and the ones who'd been here first too, thought Mr Johnson was the best man in the world, the only man who chose to go down into those stinking holds below deck, among the hopeless and the dead.
âBless you,' one old woman said, grabbing Mr Johnson's hand after Sunday service. âBless you for what you did for us.' But she wasn't old, not really, though her hair was white and her back bent. It was just what those wicked, greedy captains had done to her.
There were new soldiers too. They'd made money from those death ships. They'd seen what those captains did and didn't care.
âHow can you smile at them?' I asked Mr Johnson one day.
He looked at me with that new darkness in his eyes. âThey are God's children too,' he said.
So is a rat, I thought, as two of the new âNew South Wales Corps' strutted past us, the convicts making way for them like they were Lord Muck and his brother. They didn't even bow their heads politely to Mr Johnson. One of them said something when they were past. The other laughed.
I clenched my fists. I knew they'd said something about Mr Johnson. How could men like that understand a man who cared for the poorest in the world, instead of taking the food from their stomachs to grow rich?
More convicts were assigned to Mr Johnson's gardens now, and to the house too. Some didn't stay long. Mrs Johnson wouldn't have any swearing and it seemed like those were the only words some convicts knew. But the Johnsons gave them chance after chance, teaching them how to speak and even their letters, just like they had for me and Elsie. They were sad every time they had to send any of them away.
But the newcomers didn't understand about Birrung, no matter how much Mrs Johnson and I tried to explain. Us old-timers knew about the Indians, knew they were people like us. We'd met them, talked to them, like kind
Arabanoo or Bennelong, the governor's friends, and Nanberry, who was like Surgeon White's son now, and Birrung too.
âBlack savage,' one old lag called her.
âI ain't sitting at no table with a darkie,' said another woman, brought to help Sally with the housework, like she was a queen instead of a pickpocket and Birrung was a rat in the sewers.
âThen you'll do without dinner,' said Sally shortly, just as Elsie gave the new convict a sharp elbow in the ribs. Even Sally loved Birrung just a bit by now.
I wanted to say that Birrung knew everything that mattered, when the stars would say the emus had laid their eggs, how the wattle flowers could tell you if it would be a dry summer. But this woman couldn't even see that those things were important. âOld sheep face,' I said to her instead, which was the worst insult I could think of that wasn't swearing. âBaa!'
âStop it! All of you! Abaroo is part of our family, and God's,' said Mr Johnson sternly.
âTaperabarrbowaryaou,' said Birrung softly. âBut I shall not become white.'
The new convict woman said something I promised Mrs Johnson I'd never say, much less write down. She
stomped out and went to work for one of the officers. There were so few women in the colony back then that any who could use a broom and a cooking spoon was sure of a place to live.
Even though they loved Mr Johnson, the new convicts didn't stop swearing, and they couldn't see past Birrung's skin.
That was when Birrung stopped laughing at all, I think, though it was weeks before I realised. She still didn't go down to the harbour. Some lout would yell at her, about her being black and wearing clothes just like she thought she was a white person.
Then one day she was gone.
I'd been working down in one of Mr Johnson's other gardens with Scruggins. I came in for dinner and Birrung wasn't there, and no place was set for her at the table.
For a moment I went cold, thinking she might have got the typhus. But Mrs Johnson just said quietly, âAbaroo has gone back to her native family.'
âWhy?' I asked.
But I knew why. It wasn't just the insults and the yells. There were more white faces than ever now.
Birrung knows, I thought. She knows we will keep coming and keep coming. When we were a few strangers in their land, then the natives could welcome us, stare at us, stay with us like Birrung and learn our ways, think maybe one day we'd learn their people's ways and words too, like I had begun to do.
It wasn't going to happen. I knew it. Now Birrung did too.
Mrs Johnson must have seen my face. She said kindly, âI think she has gone to get married.'
That hurt me even more. Why didn't she wait for me to grow up, I thought, and marry me? But of course she'd be getting old by the time I could marry anyone.
âI forgot to wash,' I said. I went out to the water trough behind the shed so no one could see me cry.
Birrung visited a few times after that. The first time I'd never have known she'd been there, except for the honeycomb in the bowl on the table, and a great spray of the yellow and purple flowers that clung to the rocks around the harbour, like they lived on air and stone, not soil, and the big fish for dinner.
âA present from Abaroo,' said Mrs Johnson. âShe is looking well.'
It hurt a bit that Birrung came to see Mrs Johnson
and Milbah, and not me. We were living in the Johnsons' new house by then, a good brick one, with proper doors and shutters at every window and even proper beds for every one of us. A proper bed to myself! All Mr Johnson's books came out of the sea chests, smelling of mould. They looked fine on the new bookshelves.
I was away when Birrung and Mr Johnson went as hostages to stay with Bennelong's wife, Barangaroo, while Bennelong went to see Governor Phillip, who had been badly wounded by an Indian, to try to make peace between the colonists and the Indians. If I hadn't been working at the Kissing Point gardens, I could have been a hero like Mr Johnson, risking my life to try to make the colony safe. I could have spent the whole day with Birrung.
I was away working the next time she visited too. Sally said another Indian girl had come with Birrung, and Mrs Johnson said that Elsie had gone for a walk with them. I didn't know whether to be jealous that she was with them, not me, or worried that it was late afternoon, and she wasn't back.
The back door opened. Elsie came in, carrying a big basket woven of grass. Her cheeks were flushed red from the sun, like ripe apples, and her face was full of laughter.
I was jealous of that too.
âWhere have you been?' demanded Mrs Johnson, cross because she had been worried too. âI said a short walk, not the whole day! Is Abaroo with you?'
Elsie shook her head. She put the basket on the kitchen table. She took out hunks of meat, wrapped in grass to keep off the flies.
Sally peered at the meat. âWhat is it?'
âGan,' said Elsie.
I stared, and Sally stared, and so did Mrs Johnson. Had Elsie really said a word? Maybe it had been a baby âgoo' from Milbah, or a sound outside.
âWhat's gan?' I asked at last. There was something familiar about the word.
But Elsie shrugged. If she'd said a word, she wasn't going to say another one.
Sally fried the steaks. It had been a week since we'd had fresh meat, when Mr White's shooter had shot more wild ducks than they needed at the hospital and he had sent us some. The meat was good, a bit like duck, all fried up with pumpkin and onions and served with boiled cabbage and boiled potatoes, as much as we wanted to eat, and then sliced melon.
I looked at the bones on my plate after we'd finished
eating. Like a sheep's backbone, but smaller. And all backbone, no legs.
I remembered Birrung pointing to a curving track in the dirt, then making one finger wiggle like a snake. âGan,' she'd said. âGan.'
My stomach wiggled too.
I thought: If it came from Birrung, it would be good.
The next time I saw a snake, pretending to be a stick by the track, I thought: Dinner.
It was the summer of 1793 the last time I saw Birrung. It was hot, but the ants were building their castles, the ones Birrung had told me meant that it would rain, so I was up on the hillside above the harbour, cutting bark to roof the new church instead of lugging buckets of water to the vegetables: the rain would do the watering for me soon enough.
It wasn't much of a church, not like the stone ones back in England. But no one was going to order convicts to build one in Australia, even though Mr Johnson said the governor's instructions from England had been clear that one was to be built. Mr Johnson was still preaching in the fields or the old storeroom with the rotting roof when it rained.
I wasn't no builder, just like I hadn't been no farmer, but every man in the colony learned how to put up wattle and daub, unless their brains were too rotted with rum to care if they had a roof at all.
The seagulls yelled and the waves danced. I piled up sheet after sheet of bark.
Someone pointed down the road. They yelled, âSails ahoy!'
And there was Birrung.
She wore her white petticoat, her feet bare and dusty, her hair frizzy like all the Indians', not plaited straight like it had mostly been when she lived with us. She walked like she didn't hear the shouts of the men, the whistles.
I grabbed my axe â you couldn't put a tool down in the colony without some lag pinching it â and ran up to her.
I was as tall as she was now.
There was so much to tell her; about the new church and the schools Mrs Johnson had organised, with convict girls she'd taught their letters teaching the little ones in turn, and Mrs Johnson teaching the older ones, and at Sunday school Mr Johnson himself teaching the ones who could read and write and do their sums â like me â about the nations of the world like France and how
they'd killed their king, and how to read big words like âsojourner'.
I stayed close to her till we reached the house, ignoring the shouts from the convicts amazed to see a black girl wearing clothes, and all the rude suggestions. I thought: Maybe Birrung has come back to stay now. Maybe now I'm taller she might even think of marrying me in a few years' time. I had some money saved up by then, and dreams too.
Mrs Johnson came out when she heard the noise. She hugged Birrung and little Milbah hugged her too, and showed her the dolly made of a corncob that Mrs Johnson had dressed in tiny clothes. Mr Johnson was over at Rose Hill, staying overnight after the service, for it was a long weary voyage down the river there and back.
We went inside. Elsie and Sally made maize-flour griddlecakes, sweet with dried currants from our last crop, and a pot of sarsaparilla tea, the flowers dried from the spring before.
When Mrs Johnson gave thanks, so did I, deep in my heart, remembering how hungry I had been and seeing the plenty in front of me, and Birrung sitting at the table again, laughing and eating griddlecakes, just like we'd been before. We all sat and laughed and were happy.
I never saw her again.
Mr and Mrs Johnson taught me to praise God and to read words. Birrung taught me to see this country as beautiful. She taught me to see the land.