Bitten by Cupid (13 page)

“Julianne?” Cambria’s voice called through the door. “The guys just pulled up. Zeeland’s here!”

Melisande flicked her hand. Pain pierced Julianne’s flesh as if she’d been hit with a dozen darts, sharp needles of misery that stole her breath and made her eyes water.

Was this it then? Her death?

But before the thought could turn to terror, the pain began to fade. Her hands returned to flesh and blood.

Melisande’s face turned hard. “Control your emotions, little sister. This is not over.”

A cool, pine-scented breeze blew through the room, and Melisande was gone.

Julianne sank onto the stool behind her, at once furious and terrified. As the last of the pain disappeared from her body, she wrapped shaking arms around her middle and stared at the place where Melisande had stood.

What am I going to do?

The knock sounded again. “Julianne?”

“I’ll be right there,” she managed, barely controlling the quaver in her voice. She clutched the dressing table, afraid she was going to be sick.

Zeeland
. Why now? Why had he decided to return
now
? As much as it would hurt, she could only hope he still harbored the disgust he’d felt for her that last night, that he’d continue to ignore her as he’d done for ten years. Because if he didn’t, how was she ever going to keep him from seeing the turmoil inside her and demanding its source?

Outside, she heard the slam of car doors and the glad shouts of welcome.

Zee.

Her stomach a mass of nerves, Julianne pushed to her feet and moved stiffly to the closet to find a pair of heels to go with her dress. For ten years, she’d dreamed of this day. For ten years, she’d dreaded it.

But all her reasons for both—embarrassment, hurt, love—no longer weighed against the fear that now consumed her life.

It no longer mattered how Zeeland felt about her—whether he was glad to see her or tried to keep his distance. It was of little consequence now whether he still saw her as the child he’d possessed only brotherly feelings for, or as a woman he might someday desire.

Only one thing mattered.

Getting him out of here. Sending him back to Britain.

Keeping him, and all those she loved, alive.

Chapter Three

Zeeland had not changed at all.

Julianne stilled halfway down the stairs, her hand gripping the wooden railing until her knuckles turned white. He was even more handsome than she remembered, his short dark hair framing a classic face that could be as still as an evening lake or, as now, charmingly expressive as he returned the greetings of the Therians gathered around him.

His shoulders were broad beneath the navy blazer and striped dress shirt, his waist trim, his legs long as he stood among the tallest of the men in the room.

As she watched, he looked up. As if feeling her gaze on him, he turned unerringly toward her.

His dark brown eyes zeroed in on her. His gaze locked onto hers, grabbing hold and burrowing deep. Warmth and affection softened the lines of his face as he stared at her, dashing any hope that he might ignore her, or that he’d maybe even forgotten her.

Love for him rushed up inside her, tearing down her carefully built defenses, nearly overwhelming her with a need to race down the stairs and into his arms as she used to do as a child. But she couldn’t give in to the need. Not this time.

If his anger with her was gone, as it seemed to be, she was the one who would have to force the distance between them. The last thing she could afford was for him to get too close. To see too much.

She was going to have to pretend he no longer meant anything to her. Even if it was the greatest lie ever told.

Julianne tore her gaze from Zeeland’s, focusing on herself, on the pounding of her heart, and on the need to get her feet moving down the stairs even though part of her longed to turn and flee back to her room.

Panic rose, constricting her throat. How could she face him? How could she hide how she felt about him? How could she keep him from knowing anything was wrong when
everything
was wrong?

Out of the corner of her eye, she saw him start forward. Toward her.

Her pulse careened, her breathing turned shallow and erratic.

Clearly there would be no delaying this reunion.

She pulled her mask of friendly indifference tight around her and held on fast.

Julianne.

Zeeland started toward her. As she’d stood on the stair, as still as a statue, her brilliant turquoise gaze had met his, not with pleasure and welcome but with a wary guardedness. Something clenched deep inside him, twisting until it hurt.

Where was his Julianne, his Sunshine? Where was the bright-eyed sprite who’d always flown into his arms with a glad cry whenever he returned?

The woman who descended the stairs was a stranger, her back ramrod straight, her steps measured and controlled.

Too controlled. He hadn’t seen her in ten years, not since before she’d come of age. Yet even from here he could see the stiffness in her step.

He pushed past his friends without a word of apology, drawn to her by the same invisible force that had drawn him to her from the day she’d arrived at the house twenty-one years ago. As if he’d always known her. As if she’d always been a part of him.

Why had he stayed away so long?

He’d forgotten how bright her eyes were. He’d forgotten how strongly his body reacted to the mere sight of her. Goddess, but he’d forgotten how much he missed her.

For ten years, she’d haunted him, her soft beauty stealing into his thoughts at the most inopportune times. For a decade, the memories of her smile and her laughter had remained tucked like precious gems deep inside his heart.

Where was that smile now? That laughter?

He’d run into Ryland in London yesterday and asked about her, as he always did. He’d asked if her music still rang through the house at all hours. Ryland’s offhand comment that she’d developed a sudden fondness for Beethoven had sent his heart plummeting and a hundred warning bells ringing in his head.

Ryland hadn’t seemed to understand the significance of Beethoven. Zeeland doubted anyone but he ever had. If Julianne was playing Beethoven, something was wrong. Seriously wrong.

He’d wrapped up his business in London and gotten on the next flight to D.C.

Zeeland reached the stairs, meeting Julianne as she reached the bottom step.

She smiled at him, but the smile was a pale imitation of a Julianne smile and didn’t reach her eyes. Her gaze almost connected with his, but not quite. As if she focused not on his eyes but his cheek.

Goddess, but she was beautiful. Her skin creamy perfection, her nose small and straight, her eyes a brilliant turquoise framed by long, dark lashes.

Her scent wrapped around him, a sweet scent that had always reminded him of honeysuckle in the rain. A scent that had haunted his dreams and now wove itself into the very fabric of his flesh, into every drop of his blood, heating him. Hardening him.

Coming back was a mistake.

“Hello, Zeeland. Welcome back.” She said the right words, even injecting an appropriate level of warmth into them, but the words fell flat on his ears. They were lies. An act. She wasn’t glad he was here at all.

He felt as if she’d plunged a knife through his chest. But what had he expected? That he could return whenever he wanted, and she’d be happy to see him?

Yes, dammit.

Instead, she was treating him like a stranger. Was she punishing him for staying away so long? For never once calling her? Never writing?

Ah, shit.
He’d hurt her. Of course he had. Why hadn’t he ever considered what it would do to her when he’d left so abruptly? Right after she’d offered him her virginity.

“Julianne.” He clenched his hands into fists to keep from reaching for her, because that part of him that had always been tuned to her sensed she was on the verge of bolting. “I’m sorry.”

Her smile faltered. “For what?” Genuine confusion lit her eyes. She didn’t seem to know.

He studied her, looking past the beauty his eyes had craved, seeing the smudges of dark circles under her eyes and the paleness beneath the flush staining her cheeks. Beneath the pretense of calm, he sensed tightly controlled emotion, though what that emotion was, he couldn’t tell. It was more than simple anger. Much more. His instincts sensed…fear.

Dammit.
How long had she been like this? Why had no one told him? Could no one else see it?

Why had he stayed away so long?

“I hear you’ve been playing Beethoven again,” he said softly.

Her gaze jerked fully to his, her eyes flaring open, her ripe mouth widening with dismay. Need slammed into him hard, tightening his body and squeezing his heart. A need to sweep her into his arms and hold her close. To protect her as he’d done since she was nine. A need to taste that sweet mouth and make love to her as she’d begged him to that fateful night ten years ago.

She wrenched back control, her gaze falling to his cheek. “It’s just music,” she said defensively.

But he knew better. They both knew better.

“You know you can tell me anything, Sunshine,” he said quietly. The desire to touch her was almost a physical ache centered right in the middle of his chest. A desire that was so much more than physical.

She smiled that painfully false smile. “Thanks, Zeeland. I appreciate that, but I’m fine. Really. It’s nice to have you back.” She sidestepped him, dismissing him.

He shoved his hands in his pockets to keep from grabbing her arm to keep her from escaping. This wasn’t the time or the place. They had an audience, he realized belatedly. The whole damned enclave was watching them with sharp interest. Julianne was hardly going to confide anything to him here.

But sooner or later, she was going to tell him everything. That was a promise he made them both.

The moment Julianne left his side, the others surged forward to surround him again.

Grayson slapped him on the back with a laugh. “Come on, Zee.” Gray’s hair was as short as Zeeland’s own, the spider tattoo at the corner of his eye wiggling between the sudden smile lines. “You should see the spread we’ve got laid out. A true welcome feast. I don’t know about you, but I’m starving.”

“Your timing is perfect, Zeeland.” Serenity hooked her arm through his, her eyes warm. “Tomorrow night is the big Valentine’s Day party for the enclaves, and it’s our turn to host.”

Grayson laughed. “Another captive streamer-hanger. Tell you what, Serenity. Zee and I will be responsible for fetching the beer. How’s that?”

Serenity rolled her eyes. “And it’ll take you all day to do it, I’m sure.”

Gray shrugged. “Hey, these things can’t be rushed.”

Zeeland caught a flash of turquoise rounding the corner and knew Julianne had made her getaway. For now. The Valentine’s party would be a nuisance. The more people in the house, the harder he’d find it to get her alone.

But get her alone he would.

His eyes narrowed with determination. Like the hunter he was, he’d back off for now and let her believe she was safe. He’d enjoy being home again, among his friends.

But the moment he found the right opportunity, he’d spring. Soon enough, he’d get to the bottom of the mystery that had become Julianne.

Nothing was going to stop him.

Especially not Julianne.

Chapter Four

Leaning back in his chair at one of the dining tables several hours later, Zeeland regaled the others with tales of his life with the British Guard. While his tablemates leaned forward, listening intently to his stories, his own attention remained elsewhere. On the music wafting in from the grand piano in the living room.

Julianne’s music.

Not Beethoven tonight, but Vivaldi. She wouldn’t play Beethoven in front of him. But not even Vivaldi was safe from the emotions that must be wreaking havoc inside her.

Her musical gift was as rare and fine as any he’d ever heard, weaving her heart and emotions into a brilliant, visceral tapestry. A tapestry he sometimes thought only he could see. Tonight was a prime example. Could no one else hear the anguish in the music flowing around them? Could no one else sense the fear?

The sound of it seeped into his flesh, tearing at him until he felt as if he’d bleed from the plaintive cry of Julianne’s heart. Not since she was nine had he heard such anguish torn from those keys.

She’d been sent to them from the New York enclave after her parents disappeared in an apparent Mage attack. For two weeks, she’d shed no tears, but she’d played the enclave’s piano incessantly, pouring her grief into her music. Beethoven. Only Beethoven.

Even then, she’d had an extraordinary ability to weave the music. From the start, he’d heard the depth of her grief in her music.

She’d had no one her own age, for children were rare among the immortal Therians, so he’d befriended her and found a delightful and precious friend in return. He’d watched her grow up, watched her turn from a cute child into a beautiful young woman. A woman he’d eventually come to desire.

She’d been eighteen the first time he’d realized it. Eighteen when his love for the child began to morph into something altogether different. Altogether inappropriate. She was seven years too young.

Therian law forbade the young from entering into the highly physical, carnal world of their elders until they were twenty-five. A not-unreasonable demand as most Therians lived for millennia.

For two years, he’d played the role of best friend as his desire for her had grown. And as her own for him had blossomed. When she was twenty, she’d come to him, raw desire burning in her virgin’s eyes, and told him she wanted him to be her first. That very night. She couldn’t wait another five years.

He’d sent her to her room with barely contained control, then lain awake all night in a fever of need, imagining her beneath him.

The next morning, he’d packed his suitcase and returned to Scotland, where he’d trained with the Therian Guard years before. He’d known he wouldn’t survive another night in that house with Julianne, let alone five years.