Authors: Carolyn Haines
My hand shook as I held the page and let the words wash through me. Lenore had been pregnant just before she took her own life. She'd given birth to a child that someone subsequently took from her. Odd that neither Bev nor Rosalyn nor Harold had mentioned such a thing. Odd and disturbing. Lenore had been in her early forties when she'd given birth. A grown woman who was bullied into giving away her child--an act that resulted in a suicide. What was it Bev had said? Something about how Lenore was the quiet one, the instigator, yet too shy to enjoy performing herself. She'd returned to her family home in
And Madame. "A cruel tragedy into a means of support." What could it mean? I examined
I considered returning the page to the briefcase when I noticed something else, a dusting of fine, white powder. Cocaine was the first thing that came to my mind. The second possible explanation was worse. Poison.
Still holding the damning page, I backed out of the room and stood in the hallway, the sound of my breathing harsh in the silent house.
My formal training as a private investigator is rather sketchy, but I'd always been a good observer of the people around me and a student of human nature. Harold had been in my gunsights for a long time. I found myself thinking of his image and wondering if somehow I'd failed to learn him at all.
Good people can become diseased. The Christian religion has a single name for evil--Satan. In psychology, cruelty is called by a number of names, most describing aberrant mental conditions.
There is a process in both psychology and religion where good becomes corrupted, where the strong are brought to weakness. Whether one believes it's the work of Satan or a process of mental deterioration, the end result is the same--suffering.
For the first time I accepted that Harold Erkwell, the man I'd known as a good businessman, an educated man with a sensitive side that I'd never anticipated but definitely appreciated, the man I'd considered--on more than one occasion--crawling into bed with, was someone I didn't know at all.
The sound of something sliding came from downstairs. It was a soft, subtle noise. Very much like the shush the window had made when I opened it to slip inside the house. I'd taken care to park my car in the barn so that no one who happened up would know I was here. Now my only choice was to pick a hiding spot and employ it.
I snatched the page and out of some misguided loyalty I grabbed Harold's Obsession, his sock, and the briefcase, and dove under the guest bed. It wasn't a position of strength if someone wanted to harm me. The ugly truth was that there wasn't a hiding place in the house that would protect me if someone meant to get me. Sucking in my gut I crept to the center and listened.
There were two of them--both creeping up the stairs in slow, stealthy movements.
"What makes you so certain the manuscript is here?" one asked.
I gripped the carpet. I recognized that voice. It was Cece Dee Falcon!
"Because Willem said it was here."
And that was Tilda Grace. I started to wriggle out from under the bed, then thought better of it. They'd broken and entered into Brianna's home. They'd come to look for the manuscript, and they had to have good reason for such a search. The two of them together. It was a twist in the case I hadn't expected. If I stayed under the bed and remained perfectly quiet, maybe I'd learn something useful.
The two women stopped in the doorway of Brianna's bedroom. "My God, what a mess," Cece said.
"Come on," Tilda ordered, her voice stronger than I'd ever heard it.
They continued closer.
"Why did you ever send that information to
"I never blamed you." Tilda spoke with amazing calm. "You're as much a victim of a monster as I have been."
"But if this gets out, if this scandal is started, I'll lose my job. No one will ever hire me again. You don't know--" She broke off.
Tilda's sigh was deep. "I'm sorry. If I had it to do again, I wouldn't. But I was so angry, so hurt. He was so cruel to me, furious that I'd dared to enter his private world. He'd made me believe that I was less than a woman, someone he married out of pity but could never love. His cruelties were immense. Then I walked into the room and saw you both. He'd destroyed me so that he could have his life exactly as he wanted it."
"Why didn't you leave him?" Cece asked.
"I was afraid. I had no place else to go, no family, no money, no job. On the very day that I found you, a young man, with my husband, I should have left. But I didn't. When he said that we would never consummate our marriage and never have a baby--I didn't leave him, as I should have done. Instead, I wrote it all down and sent it to
I had to work hard to regulate my breathing. It felt like the box springs of the bed were pressing down on me, and the revelations that I was hearing made me want to inhale sharply.
"Why?"
"
Now Tilda sounded as if she were crying. I closed my eyes, regretting that I had overheard such intimate details. Sorry that now I had reason to suspect both Tilda and my friend Cece in
"We have to find that book," Cece said. "What did Willem tell you?"
"He said Brianna had called him. He said she'd found the book and taken it, and that she was going to publish it and that it was filled with things that would ruin us all."
"If Brianna's gone, then the book is probably gone, too. That bitch'll find someone to publish it and everything I've worked so hard to leave behind will be headlines again."
"We can't give up. We have to look," Tilda insisted. "We're here, so let's look. The bastard probably has the book and Brianna. They were so cozy-cozy lately."
They opened the door of the guest room, looked in, and moved on. I slowly exhaled after I heard their footsteps moving down the hallway. My inclination was to crawl out from under the bed and talk to them, but I held back. Based on what I'd read of
But there was the off chance that he'd left out that chapter. And if he did, I never wanted Cece to know that I knew. She'd kept her secret for so long, there was no need for her to ever worry that I might reveal it. No matter how much Joseph Grace deserved punishment for what he'd done.
I followed their search by the flow of their sporadic conversation. When they were in the study, soon to become as absorbed by the details of Brianna's life as I had been, I slipped from beneath the bed. The study was on the far side of the house. With a little luck and good timing, I could make an escape.
I folded the page of the book and slipped down the stairs. They'd left the window open, so my departure went without a sound. The barn was far enough from the house that when I started the car, I knew they wouldn't hear. There was an old farm road that led to the now empty pastures and I took it, trusting that since all of the horses had been sold the gates wouldn't be locked.
I glanced back at the house once in the rearview mirror. A curtain in a third-floor room dropped quickly back in place. They'd seen me after all.
25
The Christmas decorations glittered in the noonday sun as I drove through the empty streets of downtown Zinnia. Without all the cars and people, it was easier to see the decorations. Lillian Sparks was right. The old tinsel and lights that were strung along the telephone lines looked tacky in the daytime. But I loved them still, and in the flutter of the silver tinsel, I hung on to Christmases past and a sense of something bigger than myself.
The conversation I'd overheard had greatly upset me. If Joseph Grace had stepped off the curb in front of my car, I wouldn't have even tried to brake. And what I had to confront was going to be even harder.
I took a right and headed for the
I took a couple of left turns and pulled into Madame's driveway. A leafless crape myrtle framed the porch where she sat in the swing, a plumed hat on her head, her gloves and handbag in her lap.
My emotions had been slammed, jammed, and brutalized, and I wanted some straight answers. But just when I needed it most, my anger abandoned me. Madame looked old and tired and worried. I found myself walking up to her porch with a lump in my throat.
It wasn't necessary to say anything. I pulled the folded page from my jeans pocket and handed it to her. She was a tough old lady. Her expression never changed as she read the page and handed it back to me.
"I never dreamed
If I'd had her check in my pocket, I would have torn it up in front of her. I wasn't angry anymore, but she had betrayed me by not telling me the truth. She was upset because
"What does this mean?" I asked, lightly shaking the page. "What is
The edge in my voice made her stare at me. It was a long stare, one that probed for the old weaknesses she'd tried to dance out of me.
"Your mother would be proud of you, Sarah Booth. I thought when your parents died that you might not make it. I was afraid you'd fold. But you didn't. You've grown to be your own person, a rare luxury."
There had been a time when I would have groveled at her feet for such words of praise. Even now they affected me, but I refused to show it. "What is
Very slowly she took her hat off. As she did so, she regained some of her posture. She sat up in the swing a little straighter, with a little more pride. "Hosea Archer raped me that summer at
"I was right all along. That summer at
"For the most part," she agreed.
"Why did Jebediah kill his son?"
"It's complicated, but time has a way of simplifying things. It all started with the rape.
"What?"
"That night Hosea was paddling instead of using the little outboard motor. That in itself was strange,