Consumed (8 page)

“You did not get a very good review from Dr. Trinh,” he wrote. “She was very quick to contact me and to let me know that I should stay away from you because you obviously wanted to do damage to the memory of our dearest Célestine. She also said that she did not feel that you were very intelligent, or maybe you were just American, she's not sure, and that you used shock tactics that reminded her of American military policies in Vietnam. I asked her if she would pose nude for me, for my book that you liked the idea of. She said that her culture forbids it. We had a nice discussion about cultural assimilation and the sensuality of the East. I do not think she will do it.”

Naomi's thumbs began to fly. “I'm very disappointed to hear about the doctor's reaction to me. Did she really talk about the Vietnam War?”

“Ha ha, got you there. No, I made that up. She did say that she didn't trust you, though, and that you deliberately left some pin or something in
her office as a kind of symbolic marker or presence. Do you know what she's talking about?”

“Did you really ask her to pose nude for your book?”

“Yes. All that is true.”

“Does that mean that she was Célestine's lover?”

“Yes. I was once in bed with both of them. One day I'll tell you about that. It was very interesting. It made me think of Karl Marx.”

“Was there anyone in the Arosteguys' life together that they didn't …”

The corridor, which was lined with glass, had become unbearably hot as the sun edged over it, and the constant irritated nudging through the waiting crowd by passengers trying to get to their baggage or some other flight was ramping up the general hostility. Someone stubbed his foot on Naomi's roll-on and rammed her with his shoulder so hard she could feel the density of his bone and muscle—it felt intentional, a punishment, and Naomi gasped—causing her to inadvertently hit the Send button on her phone. Now other people started to wedge their way through the gap that Naomi had left as she stepped forward under the blow, and she was separated from her camera bag. She rotated herself on the spot so she was confronting the surge and worked her way back to her roller. Facing that direction, she saw the marquee of an airport electronics chain, and with her bag safely back in hand, she plunged towards the oasis of the kiosk.

IN THE CORNER
of the room between the minibar and the TV dresser unit crouched two sets of unopened bags: two camera rollers, two backpacks, two small black Samsonite four-wheel Cruisair Spinner suitcases with faux carbon-fiber-weave finish (Naomi and Nathan aspired to Rimowa Topas, the sexy German dentable aluminum stuff, but that was, for the moment, out of their range). It was not so much that they had the same taste in
gear, but rather that they collaborated on their consumerism; it was a consumerist dialectic that led to the same commodity. That's what Naomi was thinking in the floating part of her mind as she sucked Nathan's cock—so delightfully, boringly, not curved much at all, not a mutant organ in any way, but a classic, modern circumcised penis—in room 511 of the Hilton Amsterdam Airport Schiphol Hotel. And she was surprised to find herself thinking in Marxist terms, because up until that moment at the electronics kiosk, in which she discovered three books by the Arosteguys—cheap-looking rushed editions in American English pumped out to take advantage of the philosophy-cannibalism scandal—she had barely heard of Karl Marx or
Das Kapital
. And yet those books, small, with large, inviting typefaces, and so easy to read, like owner's manuals for hitherto undiscovered parts of the brain, made her feel as though she had been born a Marxist economist. Not that Marxism was the subject of the books, but that the lexicon of Marx somehow underpinned the Arosteguys' evidently profound understanding of contemporary consumerism—and of Naomi herself, as it turned out.

The lack of an available direct flight, which would have been a short hour-plus hop from Paris to Amsterdam, meant a seven-hour ordeal involving a layover in Frankfurt. But the time dissolved in an odd way, because instead of wandering among the randomly strewn high-tech shops of that stainless-steel commercial kitchen of an airport, punctuated by intense bouts of Wi-Fi hotspotting, Naomi found herself settled into a lounge chair near her gate, submerged in the deep inner sea of the Arosteguys—a warm sea nurturing a coral reef inhabited by the most bizarre and engaging creatures—continuing a dive she had begun on the flight from Paris. By the time she came up for air, she had been transformed into a quiveringly, giddily passionate Arosteguyan.

And now those three books—
Science-Fiction Money
,
Apocalyptic Consumerism: A User's Manual
, and
Labor Gore: Marx and Horror
—lay innocently on the
glossy desk by the window as Nathan unexpectedly, and somewhat unsportingly, came in Naomi's mouth, phlegmy and bitter. It was her breasts that did it, or rather, it was all four breasts—two of Naomi's, two of Dunja's, superimposed on each other, the image fermented in Nathan's brain and downloaded through his penis into Naomi's hot, distracted mouth. Or so it felt to Nathan, absorbing Naomi's jet lag and distraction as his own, and confusing her breasts, beautifully wobbling as she sucked, with Dunja's larger, mutilated ones, and somehow even adding Dunja's swollen armpit glands—six breasts?—to the mix. He had his arms behind his head and wasn't even touching Naomi's breasts. It was the distance that made the hallucinatory laminating of breasts possible, and his usual come-control ineffective. Or had he even tried to exercise that control? Was he like a small dog who punishes his mistress for staying out too late and leaving him locked in the kitchen? Naomi never swallowed unless she was very drunk. Naturally, she had a rationale. It was more porn-like to just let it dribble out of her mouth, to let it form a stringy bridge to his penis and his pubic hair. She did it now, not startled, exactly, but maybe puzzled by his betrayal of their routine, which was that they would decide in advance of her mouth enclosing him whether this was foreplay or this was it for now. Naomi didn't like sexual surprises. She was always willing to play, but she wanted structure.

And so it was a surprise to Nathan, then, that Naomi, abstractedly wiping her lips with the back of her hand, said, “What do you think about Marx and crime, Than?” No sexual reprimands, and a reversion to her infantile name for him, Than, suggesting a thumb-sucking, asexual state of mind.

“Well, I'm not sure, Omi. It's a huge subject, I guess. You've been deep into it? Marx? That's a first for you, isn't it?”

Naomi rolled onto her back, flattened by the enormity. The ceiling was a stained plaster swirling. It matched her mental state. “I've been deep into the Arosteguys.”

“They're Marxists?”

“I've been reading them. I realize I have no education. It's intimidating and depressing. It hurts my head. I need the internet to read them. And exhilarating. I'm not sure what they are. Were. She's very dead. And dismembered.” Naomi folded both arms over her eyes, shutting out the oppressive ceiling. “Omi, Than.” Nathan began the cursory wiping of his penis with an obscure corner of the bedsheets, a habit Naomi had forced herself to decide was endearing. Was it a passive-aggressive statement? Did he hold off doing that when she swallowed? She couldn't remember.

“That's us,” he said. “Omi Than. We sound like a Vietnamese gynecologist.”

Naomi shook her head under her arms. “So weird that you say that. So weird.”

“Because?”

“Because there
is
a Vietnamese gynecologist in my life. Or almost.” Naomi unfolded and rolled back over to face Nathan, lips still sticky. “Célestine's GP. Dr. Phan Trinh. She definitely had an intimate knowledge of her patient's vagina.”

“And a Marxist? A criminal?”

“Dr. Trinh? No, I was thinking about Aristide when I said that.”

“A Marxist and a criminal?”

Naomi rolled off her side of the bed and squatted beside her camera roller. She dripped a few drops of lazy viscous fluid into the carpeting as she unzipped the bag and groped its innards. “I was thinking more like a Marxist and
therefore
a criminal. I mean, the way he—they—wrote made me dizzy-crazy, made me feel intelligent and deep, and you know how seductive that is for me, you used it yourself to get me into bed that first time.” And now she flopped back onto the bed, a white-and-silver iPhone 5s in her hand. “Lemme take a shot of you cleaning your cock.”

Nathan stared at her in disbelief. “You have a bag full of the highest
of high-tech photographic shit that you've lugged all over the globe, and you're shooting my manhood with a cell phone? And since when do you have an iPhone?”

“Since Charles de Gaulle. It's a natural segue from my well-documented-by-you desire for disembodiment. I want to junk the camera roller bag and travel with only this, this implement. It shoots HD video too. And you can edit it on the phone, while flying. Touch focus. Dual LED flash. Fingerprint security. Great macro. Look.” And she swooped down to within centimeters of his cock-head and started snapping, the phone making an absolutely delectable shutter sound, reminding Nathan of the Australian lyrebird that would replicate the shutter sounds of forest paparazzi to seduce a mate. Or was it a more sinister thing? Was the iPhone a malevolent protean organism, the stem-cell phone, mocking him who had cameras with real physical shutters whose sound you couldn't turn off ? Promising to replace every other device on earth with its shape-shifting self—garage door openers, solar timers, television remotes, car keys, guitar tuners, GPS modules, light meters, spirit levels, you name it? “And now
mit Blitzlicht
.” The LEDs embedded in the glass back of the phone blasted the tip of his cock with 5,400 Kelvin degrees of cool-blue daylight. He thought he could feel it. She held the phone up to his face. “You see how the flash throttles down for the macro shot. Perfectly exposed, matches ambient color temperature, doesn't blow out your cock, as it were.” She pulled the phone back to look at her photo, then, drawn by its ruthless intensity, kissed the image. Her lips left semen smears on the screen. Commodity fetishism at its finest.

Nathan rolled over on top of her and looked over her shoulder at the photo. He thought fleetingly of that shot of Galapagos lizards mating on a sun-drenched rock. Naomi flicked Camera Roll back and forth with her index finger, nail strangely not clacking, sorting through the varieties of flash and flashless, macro and micro, a shockingly quick dozen of them, some
mit
scrotal views as well.

“This is making me very nervous, Omi. Kind of existentially unstable.”

She began to edit the photos in a cute retro app, making his cock look like it was shot with an Instamatic in the sixties, and then a Polaroid in the eighties. “You talk pretty, Nathan. But what do you mean? It's all good. I'm going to give you back your big mother macro lens. I won't need it anymore.”

“Those are the most terrifying words you've ever uttered.” He buried his head in her neck under her hair, nuzzling in a pathetic and desperate way. He spoke to the pungent nape of her neck. “You're giving me back my big mother cock. You won't need it anymore.”

Naomi tossed her phone onto a pillow and twisted around under him until they were belly to belly. He thought fleetingly of that fifties French movie featuring Saint-Tropéziens mating on the beach. “You're very anxious. You don't have to be anxious.”

“You just spoke German. Since when?”

“The Arosteguys. Reading them.”

“Why not French?”

“Marx was German.
Das Kapital
. They quote him. They translate.”

“Marx talked about
Blitzlicht
? He was into flash photography?”

“He was an all-rounder. A lateral thinker.”

“So Marx. The guy who forced your French guy to murder and eat his wife.”

“Maybe not forced. Induced. Inspired. That's the way I read it.”

“That's the other thing. You're the one who doesn't read. Not books.” Naomi tried to shrug him off, but he let his muscles go limp, made himself as heavy as that iguana. She had to breathe when he breathed. “Where's your BlackBerry?”

“I'm suffocating.”

“Me too. Where?” Naomi grabbed his hair and pulled his head back and he spun off her. “Because—and I'll tell you before you ask me—because
you've abandoned your faithful BlackBerry, your old friend and lover, the one that was cool with long fingernails, left him, now that you've got a new exotic toy to play with.” Nathan pounced on Naomi's left hand and splayed her fingers, stroking their tips along the edges of her fingernails. “Yeah, right, and you've cut your fingernails for the first time since we've been together, and it's not for
Last Tango in Schiphol
reasons either. It's for iPhone touchscreen sex.” He dropped her hand and she protectively hid it under her hip. “And I know you're serious about the Nikon withdrawal too. Nikon, that was our defiant consumerist thing, no Sony, no Canon, our badge of professionalism, our shared sex-tech. So now you'll go with cool eight-megapixel Jello-cam rolling shutter no-bounce-flash iPhone hipness. And you'll leave me, you'll fly to Tokyo to have an affair with the French-Greek philosopher guy, who will then kill you and eat your breasts. And photograph your corpse with your iPhone.”

“That's really fucking horrible, to say all that. Wow.” Naomi kicked at him with both feet in unison, like a cat on its back. “That's probably the meanest you've ever been to me.” She jumped off the bed, grabbed the iPhone from the pillow, and began to delete the Nathan's cock portrait photos, one by one, with violent, short-nailed jabs at the trash-can icon while singsonging, “Nathan's penis: delete, delete, delete …”

BUT OF COURSE
a penis is not so easy to delete, and before long, Nathan's was happily ensconced inside Naomi. It had amused Nathan the first time he noticed it—what he later thought of as “theme sex.” It was dizzy and dreamlike, like a Las Vegas sex room (or at least his imagining of that chimeric thing), and it had come after watching
Mutiny on the Bounty
, the Brando version, and his sex partner was Sheila Dahms, who was just dark enough of eye and hair to support the Tahitian-themed rec room sex, the
drums, the waves, the grass-covered thighs and musky breasts. He felt he was underwater with her, it was so hot and humid, and there was a breeze, the drums, the first sigh of the East on his naked buttocks … And afterwards, after she had jumped up and gone to the bathroom to pee and maybe douche out, as they then did, she came back luminous and said, for a second there I thought you were Brando, and you were still wearing those white breeches and those shoes with the buckles, and we were underwater. It was never like that with Naomi. She didn't seem to have theme sex, ever. She admitted to distracted sex, thinking about arguments she'd had with her mother or her sister, even ratcheting up the anger and intensity to the point of orgasm. Nathan could not imagine that such a thing could be true, but she swore it was. Was she covering up her own version of theme sex? Maybe it was fantasy/celebrity sex and she was fucking some prepubescent rock star, male or female, and wouldn't cop to it. Once in a while she'd play and try to guess his theme of the moment, but mostly he stopped mentioning it, holding it back, keeping it private the way she felt that some of her sex things were too private, though he hated that, he wanted to violate every part of her, dirty it up and make it part of him too. And this time, of course, since the theme was Dunja, Dunja and surgery and sexual mutilation, he was not going to play thematic, especially since the doubling up had actually disturbed him, so specific had it been. He became the Hungarian surgeon, inserting the radioactive pellets into Naomi's breasts with his mouth, holding them between his teeth and pushing them, nuzzling them, into her flesh. And then they became Dunja's breasts, and Naomi became an amalgam of Naomi and Dunja and someone else—was it Sheila, was she making her comeback bid from the distant past?—and he became Arosteguy, terrifying himself, his conception of the man filtered through Naomi and the internet and those photos he had found with the safe filter off, photos you didn't want to see because they adhered to the inside of your skull and lacerated your brain. And that website called
poundofflesh.com
devoted to the eating of breasts. Nathan/Arosteguy ate her breasts right off her chest, ripped them off with his teeth, and then he came again so voluptuously that it terrified him.