Dead Scared (18 page)

She stood up and went into the kitchen. If someone was watching her from outside, the back garden was where he’d be. She crossed to the door, double-checking that it was locked. She really needed to get blinds put on these windows.

‘I’ve seen you wear purple more than once, Dr Oliver,’ the sergeant had said to her. ‘Bit of a favourite of yours, isn’t it? Could be just a lucky guess. Send me the emails and we’ll have a look at them. I wouldn’t hold out much hope, though. If they were sent from a public building using an anonymous Gmail account, there won’t be a lot we can do.’

Evi sat down in her stairlift and pressed the button. The police weren’t coming and someone had to check her top floor. She’d never sleep otherwise.

Ten minutes later the phone was ringing again. She almost didn’t answer.

‘John Castell here, Evi,’ the deep voice with its faint Norfolk accent said. ‘The duty sergeant just called me at home to tell me about your emails. Are you planning to send them through tonight?’

‘I sent them fifteen minutes ago,’ said Evi.

‘Really? I checked with him not two minutes ago. Hang on, let me check again. The line will go dead for a few seconds.’

A short pause while Evi walked back to her desk.

‘Nope, nothing,’ said Castell. ‘Can you try sending them direct to me?’

‘Let me try.’ Evi opened her inbox and ran the cursor to the top of the list. The two emails weren’t there. She flicked open Junk Mail, Personal Messages and Deleted Items, in case she’d accidentally binned them or filed them away. Nothing. Finally, she clicked on Sent Mail. Nothing at all.

The two emails had disappeared from her system.

Two bottles of Prosecco later, we’d moved from the kitchen into Flick’s room. It was a study bedroom, with a large desk and a narrow bed. A crimson creeper was poking its way in through the open window. Flick had offered me the one chair; two more were brought from rooms nearby. Flick and a girl called Sarah lay on the bed.

‘I know it’s normal to wish there was more you could have done,’ I was saying as sympathetic faces nodded around me. ‘The last time I saw Nicole I knew something wasn’t right but I was in a hurry. I figured we could talk it through properly when I saw her again.’

‘We always think we have more time,’ said Flick.

‘I just knew, though,’ I went on. ‘I knew something wasn’t right. Did she say anything to any of you?’

‘What sort of not right?’ asked Sarah.

‘I didn’t give her chance,’ I admitted. ‘But a couple of times she mentioned to me that she thought someone was coming into her room at night when it was locked.’

One big thing bothering me, apart from the second set of tyre tracks on the B road, was Bryony’s reported insistence that she was
being
abused by mysterious night-time assailants. I was just a little less willing to write her off as delusional than everyone else seemed to be.

Around the room the four girls looked interested but puzzled.

‘Coming into her room?’ asked a dark-skinned girl called Jasmine.

I nodded. ‘To be honest, I wasn’t sure what to make of it,’ I said. ‘She seemed pretty worried about it, though.’

Still puzzled. Shrugs. Hair tossing.

‘She did have quite noisy bad dreams but she never mentioned that,’ said Flick.

‘Coming in and doing what?’ asked a thin, pale girl called Lynsey.

I squirmed a bit on my chair, tried to look as though what I was about to say was making me feel uncomfortable. ‘Well, touching her,’ I said. ‘While she was asleep. To be honest, she made it sound pretty creepy.’

Three of them were very interested now. A few bottles of wine and some spooky stories. Not a bad way to spend an evening. The fourth girl, Lynsey, looked worried. ‘She never said anything to me,’ she said. ‘But she got very odd towards the end.’ She looked at the others. ‘Do you remember?’

A couple of heads were nodding. ‘It started in October, didn’t it?’ said Flick. ‘When she disappeared.’

Someone was banging on her door. Evi still hadn’t got used to how loud the round brass doorknocker was. The disabled physics professor had probably been half deaf as well.

‘Hi,’ said the tall man on her doorstep. The last person she’d have guessed.

‘Nick?’

Nick Bell gave an apologetic smile. ‘Sorry to pounce on you like this, Evi. I can come back another time.’

‘It’s fine, really,’ said Evi, stepping back to release the chain and open the door. Nick stepped inside, bringing a scent of cold January air with him. He was in his usual jeans and oiled-wool blue sweater, the only clothes she’d ever seen him wear when he wasn’t at work. She was pretty certain she remembered the sweater from their
student
days. Men who looked like Nick didn’t need to make an effort and, as far as she could remember, he never had. ‘I won’t keep you,’ he said. ‘I just didn’t want to do this over the phone.’

‘Now I’m intrigued,’ said Evi. ‘Coffee? Glass of wine?’

‘Thank you.’

Evi made her way to the kitchen, hearing his footsteps following behind. He took the glass of red wine she held out and she leaned back against the counter, wondering if he was going to tell her off for drinking alcohol. It really wasn’t a good idea with the combination of painkillers she took.

‘I ran your request past the other partners,’ Nick said. ‘Megan was pretty relaxed but I didn’t get a particularly encouraging response from the others, I’m afraid.’

Evi shrugged. ‘Don’t worry,’ she said. ‘I didn’t really expect you to.’

‘They want you to put it in writing, at the very least,’ Nick went on. ‘They also want to know if you have Ethics Board approval. If you get anything out of us, officially, it’ll be months down the line.’

Evi nodded. Exactly what she’d expected. ‘Thanks for trying,’ she said.

She waited. Nick hadn’t touched his wine yet. He looked as though he had more to tell her. ‘Let’s go and sit down,’ she said.

‘Beautiful house,’ Nick said, as he followed her into the room. ‘You were lucky to get it.’

‘I never thought of it that way,’ she said, crossing to the chair at her desk. ‘I assumed I got it because I’m disabled.’

Nick stopped in mid-stride. ‘Open mouth, insert foot,’ he said, shaking his head. ‘You should see my bedside manner.’

Evi couldn’t help a tiny smile. He saw it the same second he realized what he’d said. ‘You see, I just can’t help myself,’ he went on. ‘I knew I should have gone into research.’

Evi indicated an easy chair close by. He sat, cradling his wine glass in both hands.

‘You could have told me on the phone about the partners,’ she said.

He raised the glass to his lips then put it softly down on a side
table.
‘True,’ he said. ‘But I was curious enough to have a look at the records myself. And something occurred to me.’

Evi pursed her lips and raised her eyebrows.

‘A patient of ours who self-harmed would invariably be recommended a period of counselling,’ Nick told her. ‘They don’t all take up the offer, of course, and there’s a pretty high drop-out rate, but it’s rare for them to refuse the initial referral.’

‘That makes sense,’ said Evi. ‘Self-harm is often a cry for attention. Counselling provides that.’

Nick nodded his head at her. ‘If a student patient of ours self-harmed, we’d invariably refer them to you and your team,’ he said. ‘I rang round a few other GPs in the area, just to find out what their policy is. It’s the same. So, I think it fairly safe to assume that a student in the city who attempted suicide would be referred to you.’

‘We’ll have them on record,’ said Evi. ‘We’ll have the information I was looking for ourselves. Why didn’t I think of that?’

‘If your database will allow you to search according to reasons for initial referral, you can probably find them very quickly.’

He was right. When she had time, she’d be bloody annoyed with herself for not thinking of it first.

‘Give me a sec,’ she said, turning to face her screen and typing in the login name and password that would access the Counselling Services database. A few more seconds and she’d typed
Episodes of Self-Harm
into the search facility.

‘Here they are,’ she said, scanning through the entries. ‘Nine in the last five years. Seven of them women.’

From: DC Lacey Flint

Subject: Field Report 2

Date: Wednesday 16 January, 21.17 GMT

To: DI Mark Joesbury, Scotland Yard

Greetings from Starbucks, DI Joe. (Oops. Sorry, Sir, spent the last hour breathing in Prosecco bubbles and they’ve quite gone to my head.)

Anyway, here’s the big news. Nicole Holt disappeared late last October for four days. According to the girls on her corridor, she went off to lectures on Friday and didn’t come back all weekend. They’re pretty certain about the time because they remember she missed the Halloween party. Her friends weren’t too worried at first, they just assumed she’d gone to stay with her boyfriend in Peterhouse, but then on Sunday evening he turned up and he hadn’t seen her all weekend either.

You’re going to ask if they reported it, aren’t you? They didn’t. Bloody numpties! It was difficult, apparently. They didn’t want to make a big fuss and risk embarrassing her if she’d just gone off with someone. They phoned round a few of her friends but no one had heard anything. Then, at two o’clock in the morning, when they were starting to think that
perhaps
they should report it –
what do you reckon, gals, do we involve those nice chaps in uniform yet
? – two girls from the ground floor found her in the stairwell.

‘In the stairwell?’ says me, in astonishment.

‘Yes, indeed, the stairwell,’ they reply. ‘Obviously she couldn’t have been there all evening or someone would have seen her. She was half asleep. Really dopey.’ (Not the only one, I’d suggest!)

So, my new best mates, Winkin, Blinkin and Nod, found a drugged-up, semi-conscious girl on the stairwell, couldn’t get any sense out of her, and were just about to call an ambulance when she came round. She was still a bit woozy, apparently, but basically seemed OK.

So, where had our friend Nicole been, you’ll be asking. So was I. So were they, surprisingly enough. Trouble was, Nicole had no idea. She didn’t know what day it was. Couldn’t tell them where she’d been, what she’d been doing or with whom. And she was exhausted. She just wanted to go to bed. The next day they tried to talk her into going to the police but she refused. They all assumed she’d been with another bloke and didn’t want to tell them about him. Her boyfriend jumped to the same conclusion and dumped her.

Don’t you just love men?

After that, not surprisingly, she got a bit depressed or, to use their words, ‘well weird’. What they seem to mean by that is she became jumpy and nervous, keeping to her room most of the time, not really talking to anyone, stopped going to lectures, complained about not being able to sleep and bad dreams.

And she developed a pretty bad rat fixation. Yes, you read it right, rats. Seemed convinced the building was overrun with rodents. Nobody else noticed but she heard them all the time, day and night. She even found a dead one under her bed one time. She went absolutely mental and, yes, I am quoting my new best friends again, because once they got started on rats there was no stopping them. Seems
Nicole
was the butt of a few practical jokes on the subject of rats. Someone set off a mechanical one in Hall one day and she nearly lost it, someone else broke into her room and covered the walls with photographs of them.

So, to summarize (and I heard you mutter ‘about time too’, by the way), Nicole sounds like a classic suicide case to me: depressed, not sleeping, bad dreams when she did sleep, not keeping up with coursework, dropping out of social life. On the other hand, she was picked on by some fellow students with a rather warped sense of humour and, most alarmingly, disappeared for several days shortly before she died.