God knows you have done all you might, and more. But they
seem to think at the Admiralty that it is like putting the
wheel back on a cart, and they want us flying all the old
routes again at once. Halifax and back, by way of Greenland
and a transport, anchored in the middle of the north
fifties, with ice-water coming over the bow with every
wave; of course she is coughing again." He stroked the
little dragon's muzzle; she sneezed plaintively.
The floor was very comfortably warm, at least, and if the
wood-fire was a little smoky, worming up through the square
stone slabs of the floor, the open plan blew the fumes
away. It was a simple, practical building, not at all
elegant or ornate, and Temeraire might have slept in it,
but it could not have been called spacious, on his scale.
He regarded it with brooding disappointment, and was not
disposed to linger; the crew did not even have the
opportunity to dismount before he wished to be off again,
putting the pavilion at his back, and flying with rather a
drooping ruff.
Laurence tried to console him by remarking on the sick
dragons yet sheltering there, even in the summer's heat.
"Jane tells me that they would pile them in ten at a time,"
he said, "during the winter, so wet and cold; and the
surgeons are quite certain it saved a dozen lives."
Temeraire only muttered, "Well, I am glad it has been
useful," ungraciously; such distant triumphs, achieved out
of his sight and several months before, were not quite
satisfactory. "That is an ugly hill," he added, "and that
one, also; I do not like them," inclined to be displeased
even with the landscape, when ordinarily he was mad for
anything out of the common way, and would point out
anything of the most meager interest to Laurence's
attention, with delight.
The hills were odd; irregular and richly covered with
grass, they drew the eye queerly as they went overhead.
"Oh," said Emily suddenly, on the forward lookout, craning
her head over Temeraire's shoulder to look down at them,
and shut her mouth hurriedly in embarrassment at the
solecism of having spoken without a warning to give.
Temeraire's wingbeats slowed. "Oh," he said.
The valley was full of them: not hills but barrow-mounds,
raised over the dragon-corpses where they had breathed
their last. Here and there an outthrust horn or spike came
jutting from the sod; or a little fall of dirt had bared
the white curve of a jaw-bone. No one spoke; Laurence saw
Allen reach down and close his hands around the jingle of
his carabiners, where they hooked on to the harness. They
flew on silently, above the verdant deserted green,
Temeraire's shadow flowing and rippling over the spines and
hollows of the dead.
They were still quiet when Temeraire came in to the London
covert, and the little unpacking necessary carried on
subdued: the men carried the bundles to be stacked at the
side of the clearing, and went back for others; the
harness-men had none of their usual cheerful squabbling
over who was to manage the belly-netting, but in silence
Winston and Porter went to it together. "Mr. Ferris,"
Laurence said, voice deliberately raised, "when we are in
reasonable order, you may give a general leave, through
tomorrow dinner; barring any pressing duties."
"Yes, sir; thank you," Ferris said, trying to match his
tone; it did not quite take, but the work went a little
more briskly, and Laurence was confident a night's revelry
would soon finish the work of rousing the men out of the
sense of oppression.
He went and stood at Temeraire's head, putting his hand
comfortingly on his muzzle. "I am glad it was useful,"
Temeraire said, low, and slumped more deeply to the ground.
"Come; I would have you eat something," Laurence said. "A
little dinner; and then I will read to you, if you like."
Temeraire did not find much consolation in philosophy, or
even mathematics; and he picked at his food until, pricking
up his ruff, he raised his head and put a protective
forehand over his cow, and Volly came tumbling into the
clearing, kicking up a furious hovering cloud of dust
behind him.
"Temrer," Volly said happily, and butted him in the
shoulder, then immediately cast a wistful eye on the cow.
"Don't be taken in," James said, sliding down from his
back. "Fed not a quarter-of-an-hour ago, while I was
waiting for the mails in Hyde Park, and a perfectly
handsome sheep, too. How are you, Laurence? Tolerably
brown, I find. Here's for you, if you please."
Laurence gladly accepted the parcel of letters for his
crew, with one on top, to his personal direction. "Mr.
Ferris," he said, handing the packet over, to be
distributed. "Thank you, James; I hope we find you well?"
Volly did not look so bad as Meeks's report might have made
Laurence fear, if with a degree of rough scarring around
the nostrils, and a slightly raspy voice. It did not
inhibit him from rambling happily on to Temeraire, with an
enumeration of the sheep and goats which he had lately
eaten, and a recounting of his triumph at having sired,
early in the recent disaster, an egg, himself. "Why, that
is very good," Temeraire said. "When will it hatch?"
"Novembrer," Volly said delightedly.
"He will say so," James said, "although the surgeons have
no notion; it hasn't hardened a tick yet, and it would be
early. But the blessed creatures do seem to know,
sometimes, so they are looking out a likely boy for the
thing."
They were bound for India, "Tomorrow, or the day after,
maybe; if the weather keeps fair," James said airily.
Temeraire cocked his head. "Captain James, do you suppose
that you might carry a letter for me? To China," he added.
James scratched his head to receive such a request;
Temeraire was unique among British dragons, so far as
Laurence knew, in writing letters; indeed, not many
aviators managed the habit themselves. "I can take it to
Bombay," he said, "and I suppose some merchantman is bound
to be going on; but they'll only go to Canton."
"I am sure if they give it to the Chinese governor there,
he will see it delivered," Temeraire said with justifiable
confidence; the governor was likely to consider it an
Imperial charge.
"But surely we ought not delay you, for personal
correspondence," Laurence said a little guiltily; if James
did seem a little careless of his schedule.
"Oh, don't trouble yourself," James said. "I don't quite
like the sound of his chest yet, and the surgeons don't,
either; as their Lordships ain't disposed to worry about
it, so neither am I, about being quite on time. I'm happy
enough to linger in port a few days, and let him fatten
himself up and sleep a while." He slapped Volly on his
flank, and led him away to another clearing, the small
Greyling following on his heels almost like an eager hound,
if a hound were imagined the size of a moderate elephant.
The letter was from his mother, but it had been franked: a
small but valuable sign of his father's approval, of its
having been sent, with replies to his last letter:
We are very shocked by the News you send us from Africa,
which in many respects exceeds that appearing in the
Papers, and pray for the Solace of those Christian souls
caught in the Wrack, but we do not repudiate some
Sentiment, which the Abhorrence of such dreadful Violence
cannot wholly silence, that the Wages of Sin are not always
held in Arrears to be paid off on the Day of Reckoning, but
Malefactors by God's Will may be held to account even in
this earthly life; Lord Allendale considers it a Judgment
upon the failure of the Vote. He is much satisfied by your
Account, that the Tswana (if I have it correctly) might
perhaps have been appeased, by the Ban; and we have hopes
that this necessary Period, to that evil trade, may soon
lead to a better and more humane Condition for those poor
Wretches who yet suffer under the Yoke.
She concluded more unfortunately by saying,
...and I have taken the Liberty of enclosing a small
Trinket, which amused me to buy, but for which I have no
Use, as your Father has mentioned to me that you have taken
an Interest in the Education of a Young Lady, who I hope
may find it suitable.
It was a fine string of garnets, set in gold; his mother
had only one granddaughter, a child of five, out of three
sons and now five grandsons, and there was a wistful note
to be read between the closely written lines. "That is very
nice," Temeraire said, peering over at it with an
appraising and covetous eye, although it would not have
gone once around one of his talons.
"Yes," Laurence said sadly, and called Emily over to
deliver the necklace to her. "My mother sends it you."
"That is very kind of her," Emily said, pleased, and if a
little perplexed, quite happy to forgo that sentiment in
favor of enjoyment of her present. She admired it, over her
hands, and then thought a moment, and a little tentatively
inquired, "Ought I write to her?"
"Perhaps I will just express your thanks, in my reply,"
Laurence said; his mother might not dislike receiving the
letter, but it would only have encouraged the
misunderstanding, and his father would certainly look with
disfavor on any such gesture as suggesting expectations of
a formal acknowledgment, no part of his sense of the
responsibilities towards an illegitimate child; and there
was no easy way to explain to him the perfect lack of
foundation for such a concern.
Laurence was sadly puzzled how to write, even in his own
letter, to avoid adding to the confusion, as he could not
in civility omit the barest facts: that he had delivered
the gift, seen it received, and heard thanks; all of which
alone revealed that he had seen Emily very lately and, by
the speed of his reply, it would seem regularly. He
wondered how he might explain the situation to Jane: he had
the vague and slightly lowering thought that she would find
it highly amusing, nothing to be taken seriously; that she
would not at all mind being taken for-and here his pen
stuttered and halted, with his thoughts, because of course,
she was the mother of a child, out of wedlock; she was not
a respectable woman, and it was not only the secret of the
Corps which would have prevented him ever making her known
to his mother.
Chapter 15
"JANE," LAURENCE SAID, "will you marry me?"
"Why, no, dear fellow," she said, looking up in surprise
from the chair where she was drawing on her boots. "It
would be a puzzle to give you orders, you know, if I had
vowed to obey; it could hardly be comfortable. But it is
very handsome of you to have offered," she added, and
standing up kissed him heartily, before she put on her
coat.
A timid knock at the door prevented anything more he might
have said: one of Jane's runners, come to tell her the
carriage was ready at the gates of the covert, and they had
perforce to go. "I will be glad when we are back in Dover;
what a miserable swamp," Jane said, already blotting her
forehead on her sleeve as she left the small barrackshouse: the London setting added, to the attractions of
stifling heat and the heavy moisture-laden air, all the
city's unrivaled stench, and the mingling of barnyard
scents with the acrid stink of the small covert's presently
overburdened dragon-middens.
Laurence said something or other about the heat, and
offered her his handkerchief mechanically. He did not know
how to feel. The offer had come from some deeper impulse
than conscious decision; he had not meant to speak, and
certainly not yet, not in such a manner. An absurd moment
to raise the question, almost as if he wished to be
refused; but he was not relieved, he was by no means
relieved.
"I suppose they will keep us past dinner-time," Jane said,
meaning their Lordships, an opinion which seemed to
Laurence rather optimistic; he thought it very likely they
should be kept for days, if Bonaparte were not so obliging
as to invade, with no warning. "So I must look in on
Excidium before we go: he ate nothing at all, last night;
nothing, and I must try and rouse him up to do better
today."
"I do not need to be scolded," Excidium murmured, without
opening his eyes, "I am very hungry," but he was scarcely
able to rouse himself from his somnolence even to nudge
briefly at her hand. Though naturally one of those earliest
dosed with the supply of mushroom sent on by frigate from
Capetown, he was by no means yet fully recovered from his
ordeal; the disease had been well advanced in his case by
the time the cure had arrived, and only in the last few
weeks had it been judged safe for him to leave the
uncomfortable sand-pits which had made his home for more