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I try to do my history homework and swap between checking for Lana to start a conversation and keeping Chay informed. As I'm confirming for the bajillionth time that
nothing is happening
I catch myself reflected in the mirror behind my door.

I'm cross-legged in an old pair of track pants. It's after dinner and there's a smear of tomato sauce on my cheek but my attention is drawn to Sebastian's hoodie. I don't even remember putting it on. My reflection offers a sheepish smile, but instead of taking it off and putting it by the door to return I hug it tighter.

Is that pine I can smell on it?

My smile in the mirror turns goofy and I refocus on my laptop. But the gooey warmth inside me doesn't go away.

I'm staring blankly at the screen and thinking about the way his arm rested in a solid weight across my shoulders and the zing of my skin where we touched when the flash of a message startles me. It's Chay.

I'm nearly finished my homework and I can hear the tap-tap of Mum on her computer in the kitchen when Lana finally comes online.

I don't want Aaron to appear too eager. So despite the fact that I have been waiting to talk to her, I say nothing. Even when she sends Aaron a private message complaining that her brother is driving her crazy I manage to keep my silence.

Anything I write in response to that could give away my identity. My fingers hover over the keys but I somehow resist. I'm desperate to know if it's something to do with me.

A minute later Chay sends me a link. It's to a track by a band I've never heard of and it's called ‘Online Girl'. She wants me to post it on Aaron's page.

I can picture her Cheshire grin as she types.

Not even Lana could be self-absorbed enough to think a guy she'd chatted to online a few times has written a song about her. Could she?

I saw her talking to Sebastian after we parted at lunch today and her pretty face was all twisted into a scowl. Maybe it wasn't about me, but what she said to him at Sweety's makes me wonder. And a thought snakes into my brain … Was it coincidence she set her sights on my date for the end-of-term party?

Before I can begin the decision process I post the link.

Chay messages a second later:

History forgotten, I wait to see what Lana will do. In the meantime I give in to curiosity and listen to the track. It is terrible.

I message Chay.

Aaron's page flashes as someone likes his link. I'm shaking my head as I read the name but it's not Lana.

I message Chay but she doesn't reply.

This is a bit too twisted. I knew Aaron's list of friends was growing like a virus but I didn't think Joel would be one of them. I read back through the recent additions and my belly churns even harder.
Joel
made the friend request to the fake guy set up to seduce his new girlfriend.

I lean back on my pile of pillows.

Every single person in our year twelve class is now friends with Aaron. Except Sebastian, and only because he doesn't have an account. Would he be drawn into the lie we've created too? Or would he be smarter than every single other person I know?

When I check the screen again the track has another twenty likes. I don't need to ask Chay to know she'll be ecstatic with the response. Still none of those likes are from Lana.

When her response finally comes, the private message is worse than I feared.

I hesitate to pass on the news to Chay. I hate the fact that she was right, and that the girl who stole my date is so easily charmed. But I send a short confirmation and log off everything.

Chay will soon see I'm gone. Before my computer is finished shutting down she'll be online as Aaron causing havoc. But I don't care.

Lana is welcome to Aaron.

Maybe she and Joel can fight over who likes him more.

* * *

On Tuesday Chay plans to leave me so I can meet Sebastian under what used to be our tree.

‘Are you sure you don't mind?' I ask.

Chay laughs. ‘I'll hang out at the soccer pitch with the others.'

I look at her properly. ‘You're with that crowd now?'

We've only been apart one lunchtime and she's not meeting my gaze. ‘There are no phones inside, remember. And I couldn't sit on my own like a no-friends.' She shrugs. ‘What else could I do?'

‘Of course. Sorry.'

Her smile is instant. She's always been quick to forgive. ‘Have fun.'

Anticipation simmers inside me. ‘Hope so.'

Crossing the grass, I try not to break into a run. I haven't seen Sebastian yet, but I don't want to look overeager. I move slowly and sit as normal, leaning back against the trunk.

I pull out my phone but don't really see the screen. I'm trying not to look like I'm waiting. Although I might as well have a neon sign above my head because I can't help scanning for him.

Five minutes later I'm still looking.

The wind has picked up and I hug my arms around my legs, feeling the chill seep right through my skin. I shiver and imagine him appearing now with some witty line about keeping me warm.

He doesn't.

At ten minutes I debate texting Chay to see if she's seen him. But I've never been one to share rejection.

By fifteen minutes I've stopped waiting for him to appear. The anticipation has become a thick sludge in my veins making me feel heavy and slow. I'm not expecting every tall shape to be his familiar loping frame. I check again to see if he's messaged. But my phone is silent and still.

I didn't imagine him seeking me out yesterday. He told me he'd looked for me. He put his arm around my shoulders. Sure it was casual, but it was special, too.

From my perspective.

But then I can count the boys I've kissed on one hand. Or more accurately, two fingers.

My head drops to my knees and I start plucking blades of grass from between my feet. My eyes sting. It's not as though he promised to meet me or anything.

The grass blades have blurred into a green blob when I notice the black wedge heels stopped next to my knee. Hot pink, perfectly shaped toenails peek out the front. An overpowering sweet scent wraps around me like a noose. It's Lana.

Maybe if I don't look up she'll go away.

‘All alone, huh?'

I don't move. Confrontation isn't my thing. The last time she sucked me in I became the laughing stock of the school. I'm in no hurry to make the same mistake again. Besides, I know too much about her now. What if I say something that reveals Aaron is nothing more than me and Chay and a few hunky photos?

She's not done. ‘Must be embarrassing to be stood up. Again.'

I shrug.

It's the slightest movement but I know she won't miss it. ‘Poor dumped Kathleen.'

This time I manage not to react at all.

‘Nothing clever to say?'

My head comes up. I don't want her to think she scares me. I meet her gaze and wonder how she can be related to someone I like so much. But the vulnerability I sense when I speak to her online is nowhere to be seen. ‘Have we ever even spoken before?'

A faint line cracks the smoothness of her forehead and her lips part.

But I get in before her. ‘If you don't count random abuse you've spat my way.' I stand because she's looking down on me enough as it is. ‘What did I ever do to you?'

‘Whatever.' Her hand bats away my question. ‘Sebastian's not coming. Run away and have a cry, why don't you?'

I stare at her with my head held high although I'm crumpling inside.

He hasn't stood me up. I cling onto the fact that we never actually arranged to meet. Even though I wish this wasn't happening, the logical part of me thinks Lana's enjoying this way more than it's worth. Like she's grasping.

‘You know we didn't actually arrange to meet?'

Her superior smile slips. ‘You can't deny you were waiting for him.'

I shrug again.

She shakes her head. ‘You don't even know him.'

I offer the sweetest of smiles. ‘But you're afraid I will soon.'

‘I'm not afraid of anything.'

She spins on her wedges and stalks in the direction of the stands and her crowd of admirers.

I should be shattered, but the fact that she sought me out has done the opposite to what she intended. She was too desperate to make me suffer.

I'll wait until I speak to Sebastian before I wallow.

Or at least I'll try.

* * *

Chay and I step out of the way of the oncoming pack of boys in identical Titans training gear. The school soccer uniform is impressive with its orange lightning bolt across the black background. I exhale in relief at not seeing Joel among them. And then my breath catches at the tallest, lankiest boy trailing behind.

Sebastian. Wearing goalkeeper's gloves.

‘Since when is he on the team?' The question leaves my mouth softly but my gaze meets his as I speak.

His arched brow says he's heard me. ‘I didn't know you were interested.'

‘I'm not.' Not after he didn't turn up at lunch without explanation. But he's already past me and moving down the hall toward the exit and the soccer pitch.

Chay doesn't miss the exchange. ‘Apparently Lana told Joel that Sebastian used to play at their old school. He went out to training the other night and blew everyone away.'

That's no surprise. Sebastian blows me away every time I'm with him.

She pokes me in the ribs. ‘You two are so cute with the meaningful looks and all.'

Joel rounds the corner at a jog, obviously running late for practice. I look away. Seeing him doesn't make my heart race or breath catch. Or anything really.

‘Wait.'

Joel stops just inside the door at the commanding voice. Lana strides down the hallway in heels that would completely do my ankles. She's tall and stunning in simple black jeans and a red knitted jumper that highlights every curve. Her long hair swishes with every smooth step like something out of a shampoo commercial.

Joel can't look away. ‘What's up, babe?'

She comes to a halt too close to him for public decency. Her red fingernails curl around his collar. ‘Hang out with me instead,' she purrs.

‘What?'

‘You know.' Her voice is heavy with suggestion.

Joel's expression is pained. ‘Babe, you know I can't miss training.'

There's suddenly a gulf between them and her arms are folded. ‘They're more important than me?'

‘Of course not.'

‘What will one time hurt?'

He shakes his head. ‘I'll come by after, I promise.'

As Joel gives her a final kiss on the forehead, apparently oblivious to the steam coming out of her twice-pierced ears, she notices me a few feet down the hallway. She takes a menacing step in my direction as Joel disappears out toward the training fields.

‘What are you looking at?'

I fight the urge to step back. I have as much right to be here as she does and I refuse to be her victim. I meet her hazel eyes, the shape a little like Sebastian's, see the impotent rage in them and almost feel pity. Almost. ‘Nothing.'

She shakes her head. ‘He never liked you. We laugh about it together.'

I blink. Wow. Where did that come from?

A glance around the hall shows a few people have stopped and are looking on with interest, hoping for a bitch fight.

They're going to be disappointed. Her words hurt but not as much as they would have a few days ago. Before I spent time with Sebastian. And I've done my big confrontation scene quota for this lifetime.

‘Okay,' I say, adding a shrug for good measure.

Her mouth opens and then closes just as fast. She stalks away, already calling someone on her phone and complaining loudly about stupid girls.

Me, I presume.

Her call is cut off by the appearance of a teacher and the ‘no phones in the halls' rule. I fight a smirk as she cops a lecture for her troubles.

Chay wraps an arm around my shoulders and gives me a squeeze. ‘Great stuff.'

‘But I didn't really do anything.'

‘I know, and it was awesome. I bet it's killing her that Sebastian has the hots for you.'

I'm glad she's confident about the situation. I haven't told her that Sebastian never showed at lunch. She thinks we're the next great high school love story, star-crossed lovers fighting against a sister's disapproval.

And I'm afraid Lana has already won.

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